Lost in Your Light

Soda (beeing honest)

Endlessly Loud

They leaned on you in silence.
You fought battles that weren’t yours.
You carried their storms—
but when yours came, they disappeared.

"Back Turned, Still Standing" is an unapologetic soundtrack of liberation.
Each track is a declaration carved from scars, forged in betrayal, and delivered in a cold noir haze of truth.

This is not revenge.
This is clarity.
A story of a man walking out of the battlefield he never asked to fight, while the ones he once carried fade into shadow.

Set in a red-and-black world of fractured loyalty and digital masks, this album blends cinematic trap, ambient decay, and soul-cutting spoken word into one warning:

Don’t ask for my fire if you vanish in my storm.

This is for those who gave too much.
Who helped everyone.
And finally chose…
themselves.

The Ones I Walked Away From

"Shatterproof" is available on all major music platforms.

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Shatterproof

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City of Demons is a raw, emotional journey through the streets of Montreal, told through the eyes of a sixteen-year-old caught between survival and self-discovery. With lyrics that bleed truth and a voice that echoes the struggle of youth in a chaotic world, Joshua Aidan Caminsky lays it all bare—pain, loyalty, heartbreak, and hope. From the glow of city lights to the darkness of addiction, betrayal, and broken dreams, this album doesn't just tell a story—it lives it. This is the sound of a generation fighting for light in a world that often forgets them.

Faded Friends

This one's for anyone who's ever been someone's second thought until the drinks kicked in. Late-night vibes, vulnerable lyrics, and a touch of heartbreak — press play and feel it.

You Love Me More When You're Drunk


They said I should've known better
But something felt so right
In all the wrong places
Like a picture hung at night
When no one's watching
And the rules don't apply

The way you looked at me
Like I was your last chance
that's exactly why I didn't
have a chance to fight back

Was this always meant to be?
Even when they warned me
Was this always meant to be?
Or did we choose to believe?

Broken expectations
Like footprints in the rain
But there's beauty in the way
We pieced ourselves again
Not perfect, not proper
But perfectly plain

The way you held my hand
Like you'd found your home
Like you'd found your home
In all the places they forbade for us

Was this always meant to be?
Even when they warned me
Was this always meant to be?
Or did we choose to believe?

Sometimes the wrong turns
Lead you right
Sometimes the rough roads
Feel just right
And maybe, just maybe
Love can have a chance!

Was this always meant to be?
(This is where we're meant to be)
Was this always meant to be?
(We chose to believe) We chose to believe
That love can have a chance!

Last Chance

One night I just turned on an old movie without expectations, just as a background. But something in that atmosphere caught me: the light, the style, the music, the parties that seemed to go on forever. I was hooked.
And I wanted to convey this vibe - but in my own way.

This track is about a night when everything is a bit overplayed, but it's fun. The bass is deep, the rhythm is rocking, and the voice is like someone whispering something dangerous right into your ear.
Minimum of excess, maximum of vibe. Click on ▶️ and catch this feeling.

The Last Dance in Gold

Verse 1
I like it better when you’re not around, babe.
You’re clearer to me when you’re out of bounds, babe.
I only reach for you when I’m feeling low,
But deep down, I know I should let you go.
It’s easier when you’re not around, babe.

Pre-Chorus
They say distance makes the heart crave deeper,
But I’m sorry, I can’t be your keeper.
You’re perfect in the story I’ve designed (my mind).
And I know you’re just a stand-in lover,
Holding space ‘til I recover.
I’m sorry if I’m wasting your time.

[chorus]
I can't get satisfaction
a bad chemical reaction
Just a bad transaction
sad and so out of fashion

Gotta think
Out of sync heartbeat,
so sweet
and incomplete.

Verse 2
I know guys like you are one of a kind (Mmm-hmm)
But something’s off, and I can’t tell why.
My friends all say I’m out of my mind,
‘Cause you’re so good, but I just can’t lie.

Pre-Chorus
I guess distance makes my heart beat stronger,
But sorry, I can’t pull you closer.
You’re better in the world I built inside (my mind).
And I know you’re just a temporary stand-in,
Filling space for him I still can’t abandon.
I’m sorry if I’m wasting your time.

No Satisfaction

A vibrant dance pop summer anthem celebrating the freedom and joy of youth, This Time captures sun-soaked memories, laughter with friends, and the feeling of living fully in the moment. With bright synths, breezy vocals, and nostalgic warmth, it’s a soundtrack for carefree days and golden hours.

This Time [ShadeFade]

I make whatever I want — whatever feels real at the moment.
Sometimes it’s loud, sometimes it hurts.
I’m not here to fit in. I’m here to say something.

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The Last Dance in Gold

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