prod. cxrter

da sad🖤 playlist

dead inside

my first shows setlist ✨️
1. Ascending (UNRELEASED)
2. Wait A Minute w/ Crizzy, teddy & Danny
3. I CANT STOP THINKING OF YOU
4. i guess i understand :/
5. Lovely
6. where u at? (UNRELEASED)
7. WorkingOnDying! w Crizzy
8. Pennsylvania isnt as pretty as u

Midwest Mania - Boone, Iowa - xipz set - 9/16/23

my friends are the best

Lyrics:

I pull back from a bitch if she gone act like she giving a fuck about me because it'll end badly
Could never get too close when my hopes happy
My actions could go sporadic brake glass and put hole in cabinets
The fuck you look like pitying me
I'm writing songs of how I feel and how you pretend to be
Every friend I ever had fucked me over and yeah I mean every friend you drop a name I'll give you the stats bitch
I find myself in this place common I'm kinda amazed jotting about better days I'm never found to engage with
That's why I'm locked in the basement of my mind it got me caged in and locked for the night
I'm sick of telling people how much they forever meaning to me just to let em lead me on and fuck my head up even more than before
That's why I start to ignore whenever my fucking phone buzzing I just throw it to the floor
It keep ringing

Living in the past I forever been
Steady looking back at whatever is and
Whatever was was so simple that I miss it can't relive your touch now
Can somebody sit back and hear what I spit and tell me if they feel exact same as what I been through
Way too much and when the day ends I don't feel like I'ma make it up out

Fall in love
You gambling with your sanity
My ex was whoring out to friends of me can't compare it
See her family is fucked and they clearly just ain't a fan of me
When parenting just sucks and you can't admit it apparently
Was tryna get my mind off the bitch when it finally ended
Got dmed and started talking to someone who I was friends with
Said I mean the world to her but words do just not connect
When you be ghosting seem like I ain't been meaning much to begin with
So fuck it I'm doing me
And soon it was you and me
I told you how I was feeling you had somebody you been with
Who isn't what I expected regardless of his intentions
It's fucking dumb I accept it
You strung me along and left me with this
False hope
A smaller but strong rope and I broke it
Cutting ties ain't nothing knew just go with the motions
So what the fuck is the point
If everyone I ever loved is faking it then enjoy your life without me

Living in the past I forever been
Steady looking back at whatever is and
Whatever was was so simple that I miss it can't relive your touch now
Can somebody sit back and hear what I spit and tell me if they feel exact same as what I been through
Way too much and when the day ends I don't feel like I'ma make it up out
Living in the past I forever been
Steady looking back at whatever is and
Whatever was was so simple that I miss it can't relive your touch now
Can somebody sit back and hear what I spit and tell me if they feel exact same as what I been through
Way too much and when the day ends I don't feel like I'ma make it up out

Credits:
Prod. by Tennis Player
Co-prod. by Andy Sorenson

fleur

(prod. Tyler Creed & Andy Sorenson)  @deathncreed

Lyrics:

I spend nights thinking back to the way shit was
Way before I made a name way before when we would sit in my home
It ain't even my fault
Lil bitch like a knife to the back now I feel so dumb
That you told me that you love me that you told me how you feel but now look
And now she gone I saw it coming but it caught me off

Still I lose touch with myself can somebody bring help and show me outta the pain please
Who the fuck can I tell cuz nobody been listening to what I'm saying
You don't know myself and your posse gone follow yeah you probably hate me
But bitch you all been dead now see
You ain't ever the one I should've kept round me
Whatever you say but I could never trust you
I could feel it way before you ever knew bout him
I know all your friends love to hate me now
But it don't matter cause I couldn't give a fuck about them
I know that you family probably don't know shit of what you did
Cause you won't even say you wrong about shit
I know that he tells you that you did the right thing
How the fuck could you just take his side
Well that's fine
It cuts deeper than a blade to your skin when I was up at the crib said I was saving your life
I'm wishing I could just forgive and forget that night this time I guess that I'll never say goodbye
But what's it like to have somebody you with just fucking lie to your face like everything is alright
I split ties with many friends and forgave them nights I waste time now nobody else wasting mine

I spend nights thinking back to the way shit was
Way before I made a name way before when we would sit in my home
It ain't even my fault
Lil bitch like a knife to the back now I feel so dumb
That you told me that you love me that you told me how you feel but now look
And now she gone I saw it coming but it caught me off
I spend nights thinking back to the way shit was
Way before I made a name way before when we would sit in my home
It ain't even my fault
Lil bitch like a knife to the back now I feel so dumb
That you told me that you love me that you told me how you feel but now look
And now she gone I saw it coming but it caught me off

Like Knives

Lyrics: 
I got nobody 
so Imma get real high
when the drugs are free
so is suicide
and if I killed myself
would you even cry 
tonight hold me close
and dont let me die 
I got nodody 
I dont care if I die 
if this life is free
then so is suicide
and if tonights lonely 
I might just try 
to leave this world 
and you can't cry right

 can you hear my cry for help yeah 
can you hear that I'm not well

I got these drugs on me 
I might do another fucking line
I'm just wasting all my time 
before I die(before I die)
I got these thoughts on me 
They keep getting worse late in the night
I escape them with a high 
for free
sometimes im in my head 
so I do all these drugs again 
can't you just be a friend 
for (for me)
I think Im gonna die alone 
nobody picking up the phone 
I know you'll love me when I go (I go) 

I got nobody 
so Imma get real high
when the drugs are free
so is suicide
and if I killed myself
would you even cry 
tonight hold me close
and dont let me die

I Got Nobody (Prod. VE Beats)

surprise surprise;)
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don't usually do a surprise release, so take this as a gift lmao
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lyrics:
damn im talking to the moon again,
he's been there all my life but now he's become like a guardian,
my knight in shining armor, shielding me from pain,
but he's not overprotective, i'm still cruisin in my lane,
and maybe i got training wheels,
and maybe i'm up in my feels,
but never will i let that come between my love that's real,
and the person i embody, someone that has always smiled,
but now its painted on my face, i should've made it stretch for miles,

cause maybe then people will not take it for granted,
all the roots that i've planted
have drowned from all the rain that never seems to stop,
and my music seems to flop whenever i put in some thought,
but when i write them in 2 minutes, seems like gold that i have brought,

i promise you i'm not a king with a cave worth of his riches,
just a boy who likes his kisses, and the girl that he misses,
all my tears have collected in the ridges, and my attitude i switch it,
cause i'm bound to find an outfit that won't leave me in the ditches,

yea i hate that place, the anger plastered on my face,
i guess it's time that i replace, my face that's breaking at a pace,
it's got cracks like its a drought, and they are laced with doubt,
held together by the hope that i will make it out


(chorus)


the demons, they're all midgets,
the minutes, i've spent reflecting,
the hardships of comprehending,
the help they've been recommending,
reality i've been bending,
has stopped me from just pretending,
that i'm really fine, when my funeral ive been attending,

in a black suit, black coffin, black world, hope they care,
hope they show some color that they never seem to share,
in a world full of rainbows, im looking pretty gray,
that's probably why she left, i just had boring displays,


(chorus)

talking to the moon again (prod. cxrter)

Huge shout out to carter metro for the fire beats as always

Lyrics

If we weren't so far apart
id let you bloom into my heart baby
but you never give me the time of day
yeah you never look my way
im just another background character in your day to day
i dont think you want me

so help me breathe
yeah help me see
whats wrong with me
please baby

i hate it when you're mad at me 
for things that i cant even see
i swear you're lying right through your teeth
everytime you talk to me

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

these games aren't fun anymore baby
and im getting fed up of the way you treat me
so brutally so brutally

so

why dont you come back down to me
you knew we were fine before you kicked off at me 
for some bullshit last week

now im just asking her..

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

give it 2 me str8 (cxrter)

shout out to Carter Metro for the beat,  Julia Alexa for the beat vocals

Lyrics

ponder on my pains and which to consider worse
the pain you gave to me or the pain i inflicted first
feelings like a burden to those that i love the most
these demons got an airtight grip round my throat

i cant seem to ease my pain
every fucking day plays out the exact same 
i wake up, breathe air and leave my place
i get home, i starve myself and i fade away

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

I think im outta luck, when it comes to life
i make the same mistakes almost every night
i dont wanna fight this feeling no more
suicidal tendancies knock at my door
and i swear im this close, to just letting them in
i find solace in death, its so calm in the end
finally find some peace from within
some peace from within

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and...

burden (cxrter)

High With Me (prod. WXRST)

Xans By The Ocean (prod. young enzo)

Old Me (prod. Cxrter x Stafford Beats)

share this song, i hope you enjoy :) 
feature: lil softie // beat maker: cxrter // mix: xsus

why did you leave me? (ft. lil softie) prod. cxrter & xsus

fifth song from the album.
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Main Artist: lil XipZ
Featured Artists: Crizzy White x teddyboi x Danny's Adventures
Produced by: lil XipZ
Mixed by: lil XipZ x Crizzy White x teddyboi x Danny's Adventures
Mastered by: teddyboi
Cover Art by: lil XipZ
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LYRICS:

[Verse 1: @xipz_sad]
I need you to wait a minute bitch
tired of these arguments n shit
everything good gotta change for no reason
it happens everytime n everytime i hate it

swear im bipolar with the way my mood changes
get it from my dad n i fucking hate it
theres only one thing id change n its myself
i feel the need to save you from my personal hell

[Verse 2: @crizzywhite]
Find my solace in a bottle, 
At the bar, 
And then I follow, 
i can not call you
Everything I cannot call her back. 
I put the gun in my mouth, 
Saying one word and I'm out, 
Loading the clip and the round, 
I think that I'm putting me down. 
Yeah I rot, 
All I got, 
Are tendencies, 
I never fought. 
I Wander woods, 
And sip on spirits, 
Wait a minute, 
Am I lost?
I been looking for an outing, 
Seeing ghosts inside my thoughts. 
I see my princess and she drowning, 
Hope she know she ain't forgot.

[Verse 3: @yoimn3ver]
baby you dont get me
i still feel so empty
so im downing all these bottles away
Been tryin to understand, you wont understand
these pills, they control me, like a pyramid on top of my head
i feel dead
whys it feel like no ones there for me
when im always there for them
baby know i love you, yeah, yeah i do
and the only thing worth fighting for, is you

[Verse 4: @dannysadventures 
i dont need to know your name
i wish i didnt still love you
in life i got to lose some self restraint
cuz ill be better off without you in my head
but thats what i get
i took my time to go and i couldve just left
now that youre gone i feel emptiness
i wasted all my time but i do not regret
cause god said everything happened for a reason
even when i think things have no meaning
im sure that you can hear that im still bleeding
wait a minute 
wait a minute
wait a minute

Wait A Minute (w/ Crizzy White x teddyboi x Danny's Adventures)

conclusion; the end of an era
produced by @idlyblare
<3

lyrics:
sing me a song and tell me everything is normal
its been months since i had felt at all, im tryna keep it formal with the
things that i say to those who don’t quite get the most of me
its harder to find out when
they’re leaving

find me a stone & write my name in tiny letters
if u throw it far enough then you and i are stuck together for the
rest of our years or just as long as you put up with me
i know that it has to end
you’re leaving

so if i go
no complaints
we’ll take it slow
until we break

i shop the windows of this breezy inner city
hoping for some inspiration, maybe i’ll find something pretty in the
regurgitation of my life in front of you
i put myself for sale, just wondering
if you still want me too

i break the habits of my past, im nothin better than a
old pair of shoes that no one wears until they gotta
but its
nothing personal
something terminal

i saw the rain
reflecting off your windowsill
i took the pain i gathered
turned it into chlorophyll
who knows the way
we’ll fall back into open arms
i tried to find it comforting
here i am with battle scars

learning to lose

chlorophyll [idly blare]

spotify & apple music!

Eighth song on the album
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Main Artist: lil XipZ
Produced by: lil XipZ
Mixed by: lil XipZ
Mastered by: lil XipZ
Cover Art by: lil XipZ
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LYRICS:

[chorus]
we'll be in the benz truck bumpin lil peep
she a sad girl but she still lovely
god i fucking love it when she fucking on me
n when i go ghost she'll be here waiting

she said that she'll never let me go n that was a promise
i told her u can get my love but im not an option
put me before everyone, cuz im always above them
cuz when i blow up then we can forget them

[verse 1]
we can leave them in the past now
cuz when i was nothing i was the background 

they dont care until youre up now
and by then i wont give a fuck no

i be making plays like a coach like its nothing
she said that im super bad, bitch i aint no mclovin
she said she wanna fuck i said lets have some fun then
she said im like no other, cuz i been above them

she see i been making money, n its kinda crazy
multiple bitches on my line all just trynna date me
used to have a foreign bitch but now she kinda hate me
got a roster full of women n they all trynna be my lady

[chorus]
we'll be in the benz truck bumpin lil peep
she a sad girl but she still lovely
god i fucking love it when she fucking on me
n when i go ghost she'll be here waiting

she said that she'll never let me go n that was a promise
i told her u can get my love but im not an option
put me before everyone, cuz im always above them
cuz when i blow up then we can forget them

Lovely

Playing Dead

safety (secre x heyrick)

ｔｈａｗ　ｔｈｅ　ｇｕａｒｄ　ｔｈａｔ　ｓｈａｄｏｗｓ　ｍｅ

produced by dash vv
https://www.youtube.com/@dash8518

love y'all so much.
thank you for listening.
thank you for being here
more to come, in hopes

realistically wasting my time, and
don't claim you understand
you'll run out of road if you're way too gassed
we'll never last this
i wanna know myself 'fore i should take my life

the other side's so inviting

why you hanging 'round the wrong peers?
2D smiles but they're full of fear
i can see through the white lies
fuck a check, i ain't switch sides
matter of fact, think i'll own mine
call it wraps, called her 5 times
colon cramps, body's prolly fine
i been worse, and burnt more ties than mountains climbed
what the fuck

i hardly get any rest
when i lay me some ground
all my dreams make me sweat
well, honestly what'd i expect, i'm a tremor
who's born to make course with a crest
and since you've got room to assume,
i'll repaint the walls to a shade you once knew
but i'll say it once to conclude
it's only to falter youth

sending it down through my face to my gut
fireworks sound while i've waited enough
i ain't care much, i been down on my love shit
after effect of it damage and lunges
kicking and punching
wonder and covet
smoke in this oven i claim to be nothing
under the covers, i wake into sunder
and panic, then start to malfunction
these eyes are so indecisive
catching the sights that are so uninvited
well, anything but ultraviolet
going outside, my anxiety heightens
so i'll stay inside and be silent
minus the music and all of the crying
don't keep a snooze 'cause i'm up when the sky dim
yet prone to mute and respond autopilot

she told me that i'm smart
"i'm better than that?"
she told me i can start to feel something
she told me i could be something greater
then she left a hole inside my chest, like a crater

no one
to lend a hand
through the sawdust
in this foreign land
is this all that you want?
forever we run, even if we're not
indefinite rot
smoldered lungs while i talk

and no it ain't from the green
from birth i've been clean
but i kinda wanna be, to escape reality
no way this life was meant for me
never will i come to be fine with low expectancies
i'm fucking selfish, can't you see?
a frozen-hearted entity
thaw the guard that shadows me
too intolerant to speak
cut my lips and break my teeth
numb my limbs, but make it brief
i've got nowhere else to be
but miss the way it used to be
did you feel the same for me?

my eyes cry with the help of high life
can't you tell i repel with a fat lie
any sort of love will numb me;
numb enough to pass life
i sense two decisions
one's to splurge my thoughts and cast rhymes

it was 8 in the morning, i'm shipped like i'm cargo
heart in my chest beating out like a bongo
swipin' a scan of myself like a bar code
way past the date by some days, not alarmed though
rotten a bit, feelin' sick, sorta rank
'lil bit of soap, it could wash out the stains
i ain't been fuckin' with none of y'all lames
a couple of plays, now you thinkin' you great
this not a game, fuck a charade
pressin the keys until i feel okay
throughout the day
'till i collapse and wake up on my face
block out the sound with a video game
or something to drink
lemon and sugar remind me of fate
it's sorta sour but sweet by the grain
sweet by the grain, ay

she told me i was smart
"i'm better than that?"
she told me i can feel something
she told me i could be something greater
then she left a hole inside my chest, like a crater

by the grain [prod. dash]

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Main Artist: xipz
Produced by: xipz x cxrter
Mixed by: xipz
Mastered by: xipz
Cover Art by: xipz
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LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
i guess i understand it, you dont wanna feel right now
i dont wanna feel either
im lost when im not with her
im an ass and i tend to act out
baby i think i need a breather
but i dont wanna breathe right now
i dont even wanna be around
no, not right now

[Verse 2]
i guess i understand it, you dont know what you want
and neither do i
but im falling apart as shes with other guys
so i look at the moon, admire the sky
while i got tears falling out my eyes
god why cant i just be him
whats she need that i cant give
god why cant i just be him
whats she need that i cant give

i guess i understand :/

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Main Artist: lil XipZ
Produced by: lil XipZ
Mixed by: lil XipZ
Mastered by: lil XipZ
Cover Art by: lil XipZ
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LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
im feeling like shit i dont want anything to do with myself and thats final
i listen to cig, lay on my floor, feel out of body, im farther than miles

i got a lil bitch, i know she dont love me but i still feel like thats fine tho
i puff on my nic, may take a sip baby i need to decide soon

i know she only spend time with me for the attention
baby girl with daddy issues n she stuck in my bed sheets
she a star girl she came shooting from heaven
im a dead boy ill probably leave her all twisted

[Verse 2]
i dont wanna fuck her life up with mine oh
ill probably end up dead some time soon
stay away from me im not safe for you
get out of my head i cant stop thinking of you

I CANT STOP THINKING OF YOU
I CANT STOP THINKING OF YOU
I CANT STOP THINKING OF YOU
I CANT STOP THINKING OF YOU

I CANT STOP THINKING OF YOU

beat prod by: king theta
written and performed by: popularreject
lyrics:

I hate
When I wake up 
The tear stained pillows from her makeup 
Goodmorning Pennsylvania 

If you like sunshine 
Then don’t go outside 
Cuz it’s still rainin 
It’s rainin 
That ain’t changin 

New day I won’t wake up
Different color makeup 
You say we should breakup 
I’m sick of the fake love
I been takin fake drugs 
You tell me to wake up

I hate 
When I wake up 
The tear stained pillows from her makeup
Goodmorning Pennsylvania 
…

I hate 
The way I stuff 
I’m too far gone and I need to change but
Good morning Pennsylvania 

On the ledge in my head dont tempt me 
All alone there ain’t no one with me 
I’m the villain of this story 
But I’ll be Superman to this city 

I hate 
When I wake up 
The tear stained pillows from her makeup 
Goodmorning Pennsylvania

Nananaa 
Nananaa 
Nananananaa
Nananaa 
Nananaa 
Nananananaa
Nananaa 
Nananaa 
Nananananaa
Nananaa 
Nananaa 
Nananananaa

Goodmorning Pennsylvania (prod. king theta)

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Main Artist: xipz
Produced by: wisssery
Mixed by: xipz
Mastered by: xipz
Cover Art by: xipz
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LYRICS:

[Intro]
and Pennsylvanias pretty, i think youre prettier
and all those orange sunsets yeah, cant compare to your eyes

[Chorus]
Pennsylvanias pretty but girl your prettier
all those orange sunsets arent better than your eyes
girl i love the fall cuz it reminds me of you
reminds me of the way i fell for you just like the leaves

[Verse]
im gonna give you what you really deserve
atleast ill try to bc your unlike any other
i wanna take you out under the stars
we can lay together on the hood of my car

[Chorus]
Pennsylvanias pretty but girl your prettier
all those orange sunsets arent better than your eyes
girl i love the fall cuz it reminds me of you
reminds me of the way i fell for you just like the leaves

i-
i love you

Pennsylvania isnt as pretty as u [Prod. Wisssery]

s/o my brother https://soundcloud.com/breckenford

lyrics

i never been smart
dont worry bout me bae u got a good heart
i kno i will love u till my times gone
n no we dont got time to think about the time lost

buckle up ur my overdrive
i feel myself spiral to a downward dive
n if u leave me in the end i can say that i tried
ill take the long way home
got shit to think ab
i had to teach myself to "not fall when u looking down"
spent a long time looking for myself
something different that i found
n i dont like it

im seeing violence when i close my eyelids
n we may struggle towards the end but death is silent
n she love asking why im drinking like a pirate
but when its all broken down
its just a science

(ford)
give me guidence
everyday im breaking down in the quiet
will it ever go away im steady crying
when u lie u overtaking got me dying
so indecisive
said im priceless then u say im violent
girl im trying
i dont gotta hide it
perfect timing
still wont stop the whining
so im reliant on the pain thru all the shining
but it make sense
all the times u broke me down n made me reset
made me realize all the cries were never silent
everything u ever said was only pretend
for no reason
i did my best to make sure u knew that i felt
every feeling in the world when i fell down
ill move away
go to town
find a new crowd
youd see what love was all about if u stick around
i know the truth now
it was over from the start
u a rebound
u could never reach my heart
such a let down
why is life so gd hard is this even allowed
is this even allowed

buckle up ur my overdrive
i feel myself spiral to a downward dive
n if u leave me in the end i can say that i tried
ill take the long way home
got shit to think ab
i had to teach myself to "not fall when u looking down"
spent a long time looking for myself
something different that i found
n i dont like it

death is silent w/ brecken (jacob vallen)

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Main Artist: xipz
Produced by: xipz
Mixed by: xipz
Mastered by: teddyboi (@yoimn3ver)
Cover Art by: xipz
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MUSIC VIDEO: https://youtu.be/tAGB4vZ5Q0w?si=nvjx6ku6O-NURyef 
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LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
i been ascending n i dont think i feel real
wander the woods think ill find my soul here

if i get lost then dont come to find me
skinwalker boy i dont need you to find me

nicoteen high, sippin red wine
blood on my knife rotting corpse to my right

too busy daydreamin, too busy daytrippin
liminal space roamin backrooms im still movin

[Bridge]
i feel
like im one with
you

[Verse 2]
you dont wanna feel the same way
i can see that in your worried gaze

if you get hurt then im the one to blame
if i hurt you then aim for my brain

cuz i dont wanna mess this up
but i always tend to fuck shit up

i tend to hide away when times get tough
it dont mean i hate you, i just had enough

[Bridge]
i feel
like im one with
you

[Verse 3]
she say she like me cuz i dont talk to no one
thats just anxiety but i dont fuck with no one

keep my mouth shut cuz i dont want attention
yeah i kinda miss u but i dont wanna face that

yeah i dont wanna face that
nah i dont wanna face that

Ascending [+ MUSIC VIDEO]

lyrics
n im not happy at all
but she gonna keep me from falling apart
im talking to myself but i see a face on the wall
does someone else do my job
n i just cry at a photo
n im just feeling it all at once
i just feel it all too much
look what its done to me
look what youve done for me
look what youve done to me
made me feel better now

n i watch the storm pass clouds fly by i can see u
smiling, shining
look how u did so well
n the day that i go
will be the day that u go
n girl im broken i dont have a purpose
i wrote a song for u
u said that u heard it before
but baby this ones new n i just wrote it tonight
i kno they all sound the same to u
id give a piece of my brain for u
u kno i try to hold u tight when the night comes
kno i feel u in my bones n my weak lungs

u can find me ill be in the underground
n i been working one day they gonna sing the sounds i make for u
bury me inside a grave thats made for two

n i watch the storm pass clouds fly by i can see u
smiling, shining
look how u did so well
n the day that i go
will be the day that u go
n girl im broken i dont have a purpose
i wrote a song for u
u said that u heard it before
but baby this ones new n i just wrote it tonight
i kno they all sound the same to u
id give a piece of my brain for u
u kno i try to hold u tight when the night comes
kno i feel u in my bones n my weak lungs

u be crying laying next to me
while im nodding off
ill be getting money soon
but im not enough
u say that i talk too much
yea i kno that
n even tho the suns shining bright
im still in all black
now u crying u just laying in my lap
i tell u its gonna be okay when i get back
im tryna say i love u i could do without the jab
n life makes me feel better but i know that its a trap

as i watch the storm pass (p. jacob vallen)

Talking To The Moon - Bruno Mars

ABSOLUTE IN DOUBT (ONLY PEEP)

prod. by killedmyself

Lyrics:

(Verse)
A harsh winter got me livin life in poverty,
Cuz jobs never pick it up and now the cars empty,
But watch summer come around I hope that all of my problems get solved now it came around and shit is all the same,
My thoughts written could begin to take it all away,
I march deep into the heart of nature callin me,
It's part of me,
And people on this rock we be,
I'm gettin tired of this anxiety thats haunting me

(Chorus)
Its just the way that it goes,
Sometimes I lose my control,
I'm puttin holes in the wall,
Don't wanna get yall involved,
It's best you leave me alone,
Don't like this feelin at all,
Who can I trust I don't know,
That's why I keep on my own,
It's just the way that it goes

(Verse 2)
Some days when I wake up,
I get a sense of bliss that escapes me when the things I run away from reappear,
Which just makes me wanna stay in bed wasting the day,
Its my life homie I could go and waste it away,
I'm afraid to admit that some days I get to thinkin that maybe I wasn't made for this place that I live,
Cuz I can't seem to fit,
And the days seem to end really quick,
I'm fuckin done I can't take this again

(Chorus)
Its just the way that it goes,
Sometimes I lose my control,
I'm puttin holes in the wall,
Don't wanna get yall involved,
It's best you leave me alone,
Don't like this feelin at all,
Who can I trust I don't know,
That's why I keep on my own,
It's just the way that it goes,
Sometimes I lose my control,
I'm puttin holes in the wall,
Don't wanna get yall involved,
It's best you leave me alone,
Don't like this feelin at all,
Who can I trust I don't know,
That's why I keep on my own,
It's just the way that it goes

the way it goes (prod. killedmyself)

Lyrics:

Chorus:
If I ain't love this I'd say fuck it I would just walk away,
Avoid the public often cuz I just don't fuck with the fake,
It kinda sucks when what you hate is what is up in the game,
Anyways I'ma stay doing my thing

Verse 1:
Tell me is it all worth it or not,
I put everything I got into this I rehearse what I jot,
Going broke just to make it fuckin work to be honest,
I been getting impatient with the whole fucking process,
Music is my outlet to express myself,
So fuck it I ain't holding back I'm who's next to hell with who you bumping cuz a motha fucka rhymes are weak,
I stay humble but I gotta speak what I believe,
It's like I wanna blow up but I don't,
Cuz I'm tired of being alone broke stuck in my home,
I just wanna do shows tour the whole fucking globe,
But these fucking labels call me and they ghosting my phone,
Fuck it I don't need em,
Or your idols feature,
I came up in this shit alone and still nobody speak the real shit that I been speaking,
Make a fuckin image and a fake persona,
So the checks stay coming in until their banks are fuller,
Fuck

Chorus:
If I ain't love this I'd say fuck it I would just walk away,
Avoid the public often cuz I just don't fuck with the fake,
It kinda sucks when what you hate is what is up in the game,
Anyways I'ma stay doing my thing,
But I got love for anyone of you we one and the same,
I find the jealousy you harbor is whats causing you pain,
All of these people they look up to me and others they hate,
Anyways I'ma stay doing my thing

Verse 2:
Back when I was younger I knew I just wanna rap,
Nowadays talent doesn't even matter only stats do,
That's why the best artists always in the back and the other motha fuckas songs simpler to rap to,
I been through too much,
And if I give it up I invested too much,
So it wouldn't be worth it not at all,
Made a promise that it all would come together to my mom and she believed in me when I was writing lyrics in the halls,
Now that falls approaching,
My anxiety been creeping while I'm tryna focus,
People constantly DM me saying I'ma blow up anyday,
So I'm grateful where I came from and that I'm saving lives everyday,
If you cry to this just know I felt the same,
The last few days been so fucking stressful on my brain,
But my message is as plain as thank you all who show support,
And I'm glad I could do the same through the songs that I record

Chorus:
If I ain't love this I'd say fuck it I would just walk away,
Avoid the public often cuz I just don't fuck with the fake,
It kinda sucks when what you hate is what is up in the game,
Anyways I'ma stay doing my thing,
But I got love for anyone of you we one and the same,
I find the jealousy you harbor is whats causing you pain,
All of these people they look up to me and others they hate,
Anyways I'ma stay doing my thing

rabbit hole (prod. KAMAARA)

[+] stop talking words are useless.
* featuring @trechorboy + @sushisai * prod by @boyfifty *

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[verse 1: seejayxo]
you could take my love and you could throw it out
got me looking at the stars when you not around
thats why i be jaded, fuck what u be sayin
i ain't even playin when i say that i'm make it
i don't feel anymore, eyes hella sore
i got the bag and it's Christian Dior
i'm callin for you, i'm callin for you

[verse: 2 trechor boy]
gas inhalation took me on vacation 
 i never get love i hate the sensation 
a life worth lived makes no sense 
cuz  we all die in da fuckin end like

lemme paraphrase Thoreau, he said
“rather love, money, faith, show me da road”
and i uh, i guess i understand that now
dont vibe with the lies they be tellin u now

[verse 3: suisai]
stop talking words are useless
can never hold up
What did you expect it 
to be different 
Shouldlt even have to convince
but they all look from outside
Walls could cave in at
Any givin moment
it looks like its the time to
Stop wishin for it to get better
And wash that pain away
Pitter patter of rain on the rooftop
i could lay in this bed all day
  And think And listen and look 4
For a sign pls remind me again
what really matters at the end of all this

[chorus: seejayxo + trechor boy]
like i want it all too
fuck it i'll fall through
i thought i loved you
i thought i loved you
like i want it all too
fuck it you'll fall through
i thought you loved me
i thought you loved me