feat. teddyboi

im missing you n i hate it

2/2/22

(chorus)
and i keep running away from my problems
i don’t know how to solve them
you care a little less when you hit rock bottom
cloudy eyes with a tortured mind
i can see the lies as the light grows darker
it fades from white as the blade sinks deeper
i thought blood ran thicker than water
my soul has died fuckin leave me behind

(verse) 
i thought you cared about my feelings
every night i’ve been screaming
questioning what’s life’s meaning 
what i’ve been believing 
holding on to every little thing that ever mattered
you know that my hearts been shattered
sayin that the medicine will always make me better
but every single day i always get sadder
when will i be okay
when every day feels like the fucking same
i’m holding on to all these memories 
but still i question why things won’t change

(bridge)
everyday feels like the same thing 
and i’m fucking don’t with it (i’ve had enough)
when will i 
be set free
from this life

(chorus)
and i keep running away from my problems
i don’t know how to solve them
you care a little less when you hit rock bottom
cloudy eyes with a tortured mind
i can see the lies as the light grows darker
it fades from white as the blade sinks deeper
i thought blood ran thicker than water
my soul has died fuckin leave me behind

(chorus)
and i keep running away from my problems
i don’t know how to solve them
you care a little less when you hit rock bottom
cloudy eyes with a tortured mind
i can see the lies as the light grows darker
it fades from white as the blade sinks deeper
i thought blood ran thicker than water
my soul has died fuckin leave me behind

blood doesn't run thicker than water (discent)

produced by hiraeth


and its too late to give up now
im not trying baby even if i let you down
and its too late to be up now
im not tired tho my eyes are tryna sleep now
im not lying but my thoughts are deep now
and id try it but my wrists are getting weak now
i would have met you bro but i can barely speak now
im sick of trying no im sick of being let down

so what if the world caves in
(the worlds still burning)
would you leave me in the rubble for him
(no im not worth it)
and thats some bullshit you where never just friends
(you dont fuck friends)
and after everything i know we wont end
(and now i wont mend)

so what if the world caves in
(the worlds still burning)
would you leave me in the rubble for him
(no im not worth it)
and thats some bullshit you where never just friends
(you dont fuck friends)
and after everything i know we wont end
(and now i wont mend)

do you feel how i feel now ?
i feel weak and my body is let down
from me
if nobody can save you 
then why leave ?
you want somebody to love you but not me

so what if the world caves in
(the worlds still burning)
would you leave me in the rubble for him
(no im not worth it)
and thats some bullshit you where never just friends
(you dont fuck friends)
and after everything i know we wont end
(and now i wont mend)

abyss

the air (prod. saint mike)

Main Artists: lil XipZ x Teddyboi x Shxdy808
Production: Shxdy808
Mixing: lil XipZ x Teddyboi
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LYRICS:

[Chorus: lil XipZ]
and it hurts seeing you with someone else
i know its not my fault but still it feels like hell
breaking down as i always do 
i know its not my fault but girl im missing you 

[Verse: TeddyBoi]
i miss you but i wont change shit
gotta leave you in the past, this gun on my hip
and this perc on my lip
I know i said that again
but i cant cope without you 

i said i loved you and i meant it, meant it
told me that you loved me
you aint mean it mean it
how you use the fucking word
and see the fucking meaning
yea you dont love me
you dont love me 

[Chorus: lil XipZ]
and it hurts seeing you with someone else
i know its not my fault but still it feels like hell
breaking down as i always do 
i know its not my fault but girl im missing you 

[Bridge: lil XipZ]
girl i love you
i know youre done but i had to tell you 

[Chorus: lil XipZ]
and it hurts seeing you with someone else
i know its not my fault but still it feels like hell
breaking down as i always do 
i know its not my fault but girl im missing you 

[Verse 2: Teddyboi]
yea i feel like its my fault, my fault
baby i just need to call one more time
and no matter what i did, i did it wrong
and no matter what i did, i did it wrong
yea like this song, think i made it about you but i made it about someone else
truth is, i dont moved on, working on myself and my health and im working on my wealth, yea

XipZ x teddyboi x Shxdy808 - Someone Else

@prodjpjp @prod-oc <3


its like you never even cared
 stripping me bare
 now i got holes in what i wear 
getting prepared
 so u can throw me down the stairs 
how is it my fault i was never even there 
blame it on me so u can sleep in someones bed
how is it my fault i was never even there
 pull me away i get so awkward and i stare 
stop waiting for me im busy pulling out my hair 
how does it feel ? 
im sick of hearing that u care :p

throw me in the sea and let me drown in the ocean 
body going numb and my heart got frozen 
i dont wanna die but my lungs cut open 
pressure in my eyes built up both swollen

crawling to demise my time im chosen
 tell another lie, ill cry, wont show it
 bleeding thru the cracks in my hands cant close them 
wish u never hit me got ur wrists both broken

did i let you down
 dont look around
 i need you now 
wont save me now

did i let you down 
dont look around
 i need you now 
wont save me now

Tear me up and peel the flesh off my body
“It wasnt like that” you know I wasn’t ready
And I know that, there’s nothing you could tell me
I wanted love back, the feelings getting blurry

Spending too much time on my own
Rejecting everybody that I know
 hiding every message on your phone
Start to realise that I got nothing to show

spotify!

care [JPJP x OC]

its beautiful tonite .. 

lyrics:

Bitch I made it happen while i was stuck up in my head
My own health a bitch but it pay me for what I said
Shit had got too hairy I broke it I used nair
Now I got some money up on me but it’s bare tears
I don’t need a og my life the first one
Latinx model inside of my ferri belt
U could keep on going it’s never gon cum out
Maybe it’s a sign my other half is just myself 

Bitch I made it happen while i was stuck up in my head
My own health a bitch but it pay me for what I said
Shit had got too hairy I broke it I used nair
Now I got some money up on me but it’s bare tears
I don’t need a og my life the first one
Latinx model inside of my ferri belt
U could keep on going it’s never gon cum out
Maybe it’s a sign my other half is just myself 

I feel the crescent moon inside me and I start throwing up
All these symbol on top my body I start floating up
She seen both my shoulders blades break and turn to fluff
Bled my feathers out my back and starting growing up
Guided by the streetlights I could get home
I was 17 when I had tasted that venom
Ever since I’ve been chasing this refined numb
Talk to me when u can feel the same one

Bitch I made it happen while i was stuck up in my head
My own health a bitch but it pay me for what I said
Shit had got too hairy I broke it I used nair
Now I got some money up on me but it’s bare tears x2

the crescent moon ft tommyice (yung castor x max flynn)

lyrics
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fuck my life
fuck my health
you don't care so i'll go fuck myself
fuck this job
fuck this car
every song that i write just coexists with a scar
and i've got paragraphs about the shit that i will never say
cause it'll kill you just to hear me whine and bitch all fucking day
maybe the grass is green in other states where i choose to reside
maybe a glimpse of light will formulate and catch my fucking eye
and maybe you'll hear this when you check my page and ask if i'm alright
cause i've been afraid of all the darkest places lying in my mind

i will convince myself i'm dying but then act like i'm just fine
my mind's a scary fucking place and i can't fix it while i drive
but my car is lucy in the sky with diamonds going sixty five
and you're just a pot hole maybe yoko ono screaming by my side
is this the end of things i'm strumming strings just trying to decide
cause i am afraid of me so save me please i beg you just to try
i'm losing my purpose lifes a circus they said please enjoy the ride
my seatbelt is broken eyes wide open as my body starts to slide

if i escape the wreck i'll disconnect from everyone online
i'll pack my belongings i've been longing for this moment my whole life
i'll disappear for months no mentions of my status or a clue
i'm fine don't you worry there's no hurry to return to what i knew
it's hard to calculate these conversations if i'm being truth
-ful i wanna congregate all that relate to everything i spew
in midst of my disconnect i'll stay in check & keep in touch with few
as long as i'm open im just hoping that it's something i'll get through 

cause i'm a fucking wreck
oh what the heck
why do i even try
i lie in the grass
high off my ass
& watch the clouds just pass on by
if life has a purpose
i am nervous
to unravel what is mine
i'll trip & i'll travel
down the rabbit hole
& ditch my bags inside

ditch

https://open.spotify.com/track/0dwuQifVrjpAm66wB5hRbz?si=34a561bff4b64598

produced by @metlast
featuring @nevermadeithome
+ jess and nick from new girl :)

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lyrics:

[@lottaheart]
read between the lines and you can see the signs
that after all this time, I’m still so in love with you
and when the stars align, i know you’ll be mine
but till then I’m all alone so tell me what to do
[x2]

tell me what to do
I’m so hung up on you
everything we ever wanted has been coming true
I’m falling hard for you
and everything you do
can’t wait to see you in that dress babygirl

yeah it’s all white and it’s alright
as long i have you by my side girl
tell me is it everything you wanted
we can lay all night in the moonlight
in my car right at the edge of the world
nobody else can make me feel this way

[@nevermadeithome]
they won't get it and they never will
your friends they don't like me
i don't know why
its probably cause i didn't treat you right that time
they won't get it and they never will
your friends, they don't like me
close you eyes
oh darling, lets go away tonight

they don't have a clue
oh, the plans i have for you
they don't, they don't (x2)
I'm gonna take the best care of you
and make you feel at home
in my arms

[@lottaheart]
read between the lines and you can see the signs
that after all this time, I’m still so in love with you
and when the stars align, i know you’ll be mine
but till then I’m all alone so tell me what to do
[x2]

signs w/ nevermadeithome [metlast]

@boyfifty
@sorrow_bringer

Thought I wouldn’t live another day
Never good at hiding it away
I knew you read it on my face
And I know we’re in a different place

Thought when I spoke that you were always listening
Never had hope, but you were always good to me
Nothings ever mattered anyway
Glasses are shattered history

We couldn’t wait
Another day
But I know that you wanted me

We couldn’t see
Such misery
Are we really free

Omens in shadows, don’t know where they hide
Creeping around, yeah, he got in my mind
Tick of the clock, but it’s never aligned
Need me a zilean to rewind the time

Falling snow
I’m so cold
And alone

We couldn’t wait
Another day
But I know that you wanted me

We couldn’t see
Such misery
Are we really free

youtube

falling snow (prod. sorrow bringer x boyfifty)

madison & 1st, night lights in a coffin
w/ @betweentheveinsandi
prod. @sadboiforever
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
yeah u can take my life if u want it
file thru the pain, small prize if u block it
and i never been ashamed, cut ties if im wantin’
u came here to play, eat shit where ur talkin
cuz im sayin u can take my life if u want it
madison and 1st, night lights in a coffin
i cant ever fall asleep, twist spine pretty often
bored of counting sheep, yet fine feelin nothin

and im saying with dusk comes dawn
another painful day where the night feels wrong
& i’ll stay inside tonight so i can weather the storm

my mind
a fragile portrait of my architecture
my spine
is broken by the words that i have dragged along
inside
i’ve spent so long for progress to force me backwards
alive
im glad i am, its hard to carry on

veins:
Take my life if u want it 
I don't really give a shit 
2 shots that's a warning 
And I don't make ties they just loosen with time 
Back when throwing up was the best part of our lives 
Oh what u say book a hospital stay 
All the times and the days that u tried to run away 
Despite what u say I think ur mom is pretty sweet 
Cause if u always be the victim then u always live in pain 
She said that break ups suck 
But I don't think she gives a fuck 
And I don't think that meaning from a broken heart just takes a fuck 
Woah 
Laid back 
I'm at terms with the past 
And I'll follow the act 
Just tell me how to act  

yeah u can take my life if u want it
file thru the pain, small prize if u block it
and i never been ashamed, cut ties if im wantin’
u came here to play, eat shit where ur talkin
cuz im sayin u can take my life if u want it
madison and 1st, night lights in a coffin
i cant ever fall asleep, twist spine pretty often
bored of counting sheep, yet fine feelin nothin

and im saying with dusk comes dawn
another painful day where the night feels wrong
& i’ll stay inside tonight so i can weather the storm