im missing you n i hate it

https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt
https://soundcloud.com/jolst

COMMUNITY, Vol. 1

skele - burden

FROSTY

(chorus)
and i keep running away from my problems
i don’t know how to solve them
you care a little less when you hit rock bottom
cloudy eyes with a tortured mind
i can see the lies as the light grows darker
it fades from white as the blade sinks deeper
i thought blood ran thicker than water
my soul has died fuckin leave me behind

(verse) 
i thought you cared about my feelings
every night i’ve been screaming
questioning what’s life’s meaning 
what i’ve been believing 
holding on to every little thing that ever mattered
you know that my hearts been shattered
sayin that the medicine will always make me better
but every single day i always get sadder
when will i be okay
when every day feels like the fucking same
i’m holding on to all these memories 
but still i question why things won’t change

(bridge)
everyday feels like the same thing 
and i’m fucking don’t with it (i’ve had enough)
when will i 
be set free
from this life

(chorus)
and i keep running away from my problems
i don’t know how to solve them
you care a little less when you hit rock bottom
cloudy eyes with a tortured mind
i can see the lies as the light grows darker
it fades from white as the blade sinks deeper
i thought blood ran thicker than water
my soul has died fuckin leave me behind

(chorus)
and i keep running away from my problems
i don’t know how to solve them
you care a little less when you hit rock bottom
cloudy eyes with a tortured mind
i can see the lies as the light grows darker
it fades from white as the blade sinks deeper
i thought blood ran thicker than water
my soul has died fuckin leave me behind

blood doesn't run thicker than water (discent)

produced by hiraeth


and its too late to give up now
im not trying baby even if i let you down
and its too late to be up now
im not tired tho my eyes are tryna sleep now
im not lying but my thoughts are deep now
and id try it but my wrists are getting weak now
i would have met you bro but i can barely speak now
im sick of trying no im sick of being let down

so what if the world caves in
(the worlds still burning)
would you leave me in the rubble for him
(no im not worth it)
and thats some bullshit you where never just friends
(you dont fuck friends)
and after everything i know we wont end
(and now i wont mend)

so what if the world caves in
(the worlds still burning)
would you leave me in the rubble for him
(no im not worth it)
and thats some bullshit you where never just friends
(you dont fuck friends)
and after everything i know we wont end
(and now i wont mend)

do you feel how i feel now ?
i feel weak and my body is let down
from me
if nobody can save you 
then why leave ?
you want somebody to love you but not me

so what if the world caves in
(the worlds still burning)
would you leave me in the rubble for him
(no im not worth it)
and thats some bullshit you where never just friends
(you dont fuck friends)
and after everything i know we wont end
(and now i wont mend)

abyss

the air (prod. saint mike)

Main Artists: lil XipZ x Teddyboi x Shxdy808
Production: Shxdy808
Mixing: lil XipZ x Teddyboi
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LYRICS:

[Chorus: lil XipZ]
and it hurts seeing you with someone else
i know its not my fault but still it feels like hell
breaking down as i always do 
i know its not my fault but girl im missing you 

[Verse: TeddyBoi]
i miss you but i wont change shit
gotta leave you in the past, this gun on my hip
and this perc on my lip
I know i said that again
but i cant cope without you 

i said i loved you and i meant it, meant it
told me that you loved me
you aint mean it mean it
how you use the fucking word
and see the fucking meaning
yea you dont love me
you dont love me 

[Chorus: lil XipZ]
and it hurts seeing you with someone else
i know its not my fault but still it feels like hell
breaking down as i always do 
i know its not my fault but girl im missing you 

[Bridge: lil XipZ]
girl i love you
i know youre done but i had to tell you 

[Chorus: lil XipZ]
and it hurts seeing you with someone else
i know its not my fault but still it feels like hell
breaking down as i always do 
i know its not my fault but girl im missing you 

[Verse 2: Teddyboi]
yea i feel like its my fault, my fault
baby i just need to call one more time
and no matter what i did, i did it wrong
and no matter what i did, i did it wrong
yea like this song, think i made it about you but i made it about someone else
truth is, i dont moved on, working on myself and my health and im working on my wealth, yea

XipZ x teddyboi x Shxdy808 - Someone Else

@prodjpjp @prod-oc <3


its like you never even cared
 stripping me bare
 now i got holes in what i wear 
getting prepared
 so u can throw me down the stairs 
how is it my fault i was never even there 
blame it on me so u can sleep in someones bed
how is it my fault i was never even there
 pull me away i get so awkward and i stare 
stop waiting for me im busy pulling out my hair 
how does it feel ? 
im sick of hearing that u care :p

throw me in the sea and let me drown in the ocean 
body going numb and my heart got frozen 
i dont wanna die but my lungs cut open 
pressure in my eyes built up both swollen

crawling to demise my time im chosen
 tell another lie, ill cry, wont show it
 bleeding thru the cracks in my hands cant close them 
wish u never hit me got ur wrists both broken

did i let you down
 dont look around
 i need you now 
wont save me now

did i let you down 
dont look around
 i need you now 
wont save me now

Tear me up and peel the flesh off my body
“It wasnt like that” you know I wasn’t ready
And I know that, there’s nothing you could tell me
I wanted love back, the feelings getting blurry

Spending too much time on my own
Rejecting everybody that I know
 hiding every message on your phone
Start to realise that I got nothing to show

spotify!

care [JPJP x OC]

The Story So Far "Navy Blue"

frame by frame

'Bread & Butterflies' Continues...

Written By teddybear & HUSH.
Performed By teddybear & HUSH. 
Produced By Joshua Heflinger 
Mixed & Mastered By Hudson Alexander 
Recorded By River16 Recording Studio & Hudson Alexander
Art By teddybear

@tddybrr
@joshuaheflinger
@bequietplease
@hudsonalexander

Memories Change

Lyrics

Memories Change ft. HUSH. (Prod. Joshua Heflinger)

[hook]
I sit here counting up
hopin to forget you
but i just wont hit you up
cuz that's a bad move
cuz i can't stand all these cuts
don't leave me down in the dust
you'll break me down just because

[verse]
and I know, it's too late to talk
walk slow hope the rain never stops
got your hands on my chest
go and break my damn neck
hmu for a feature gonna cost you a check

forget u

lullabyboy - forget u (prod. irby & loopy)

another throwaway track, might put on spotify soon tho x

lyrics ~

do you love someone else?
i don't really get it but i'll take it well
and will you stay the night? Don't kiss and tell
cos you know that i love like nobody else

and baby do you bleed like the others do?
and tell me does your heart scream like others too?
i don't really like the honest truth
so i'll just let you lie and just pull me through

do i really know you?
do i really know you?

do you love someone else?
i don't really get it but i'll take it well
and will you stay the night? Don't kiss and tell
cos you know that i love like nobody else

but you won't let me go yeah
i don't really mind that
i'll just say a couple words and pray you bring me back yeah
i don't really see what the point is in all of this
but i don't really see what i'm missing here

do i really know you?
do i really know you?

do you love someone else?
i don't really get it but i'll take it well
and will you stay the night? Don't kiss and tell
cos you know that i love like nobody else

LYRIC VIDEO

~ nobody else (do you bleed like the others do?)

Featuring @rxseboy
Produced by @pauli-niemi

Hope u enjoy!!
Music video for it up on my Youtube channel <3

YouTube

Laying on my porch while we watch the world end.

Original song "GETAWAY" written and produced by daystowaste.

Lyrics:
(getaway, a getaway a getaway)
I stare out the window
The grey clouds meet my face
As it starts to rain
Stuck in the shallow
(Yeah, yeah)
As I'm slowly sinking
I think I'm dreaming

So please don't ever wake me up
Wake me up cuz
I don't think I've had enough
Had enough
I'm staring at the surface of, surface of
Cuz all I know (is drowning)

I'm getting out, I'm falling down
Again I'm not getting past her
A metaphor, I'm insecure
Don't go, I still hear your laughter
And maybe I could change your mind but
I don't think we'll be alright in brittle bones
I'll let you go
I just let you getaway

And I've been afraid
Staring at the sunset
Laying in a feild of flowers
Take my hand
It's getting kinda late
can I stay here for a couple hours?
No I can't breathe
It's filling up the room
Now all I see is you inside 
No I can't move
Thrashing at the surface
Tell me was it worth it? 

(I'm getting out, I'm falling down
Again I'm not getting past her
A metaphor, I'm insecure
Don't go I)
still hear your laughter

I'm getting out, I'm falling down
Again I'm not getting past her
A metaphor, I'm insecure
Don't go, I still hear your laughter
And maybe I could change your mind but
I don't think we'll be alright in brittle bones
I'll let you go
I just let you getaway
(Getaway, getaway, getaway)

GETAWAY

youdonthavetotellme

I wrote this song quite a few months ago, been sitting on it for a while and I feel like if I don't release it now, I might never end up doing it, so here it is!

fingernails (prod. dead spyro)

This is the first single from my upcoming "Mystery Girl" EP, enjoy!
 
Big shout out to Coby <3

Lyrics:

The future that I see for me
Is one filled with insanity
I know my mind will surely screw me over
The one thing that I need to see
Is all the things you've done to me
and sorry doesn't cut it anymore

Wanted you to see, far ahead of me, into the future
I wanted you to know how far I will go to prove I'm not insane
I wanted you to see my eternity of endless suffering 
You will not believe the hell that I have seen, and what I've been through

Time travel is a thing of the past
I hope the haunting memories last
long enough for me to warn my lover 
The air runs out, we cannot breathe
Upon a burning rock we leave
Evaporating to the never more

I feel emotions blur
My thoughts begin to stir
was everything a dream 
but everything is real it seems
I feel emotions blur
But what I feel I am not sure
was everything a dream
cause nothings ever what it seems

Tentaquil(Tennis Shoes)

NEW ALBUM OCTOBER 9TH 2020 🌐🖤
shoutoutz 2 @kaiyko

it feels like i'm stranded on my own
this is not the way it's supposed to go
taking me for granted i'll take you to hell
fuck all the help

even when i'm down
i try to bring you up
even when i'm empty
i try to show you love
even when i'm lost
i try to find a way for you
to smile when i'm not
with everything i've got

i gave it my all
trying my best for you
it wasn't enough
doing the best i can
i'm only a man
why can't you see that?
my world is burning down

why's this happening
i thought that i could change
but now i'm desperately
searching for a sign that leads
nowhere at all for me
and honestly
i wanted you to be the one
to break me free from this scarcity 
of loving myself for the person i am
today and not the way
you look at me so casually
when i'm about to break
when i'm about to go breaking down again
how do i send
all my love but all my love is
still reaching out to you
still reaching out to you

i gave it my all
trying my best for you
it wasn't enough
doing the best i can
i'm only a man
why can't you see that
my world is burning down

it feels like i'm stranded on my own
this is not the way it's supposed to go
taking me for granted i'll take you to hell
fuck all the help

tell you that honestly i wanted you
to be the one to break me free
break me free from this scarcity
i'm living with all your love
but all my love's locked in me
it's still reaching out to you
still reaching out to you

gave it my all w/ kaiyko

thank you for listening 
<3
https://soundcloud.com/jolst
https://soundcloud.com/sadboiforever


it hurts me over n over again 
i think something’s wrong with my head
it’s easy to try and pretend 
but sometimes i’d rather be dead
i’m paranoid 
think you hate me 
shedding tears over our polaroids 
expectations on my chest, defenses i employ 

it’s okay, you can tell me i’m wasting your time
you don’t feel like you did and it’s fine 
you don’t miss me, it’s alright 
i get a bag n i spend it real quick 
i got some diamonds they dance on my wrist 
see me n public now they want a pic 
money can’t come much more easy than this 
every night i spent dreaming of shit 
every night i spent waiting for this 
i could lose it all
i don’t wanna fall 
i could pull the trigger 
paint the fucking wall

paranoid (prod. 2001 & jolst)

some boring love stories pt 5

the fire in your eyes keeps me warm

i already tried my best, so why try again

prod: https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic

wake up
i can see my breath
cold hands
i can't feel my skin
shaking, body aching
pull me closer
breaking
i can't take anymore
this isn't the life that i wanna live
i already tried my best 
so why try again
is it over yet?
can i call it quits?
it's
seasonal depression
sick of everyone telling me it's a lesson
i should make more of my life 
cause "it's a blessing"
"and you'll be fine once you stop with all the stressing"
nobody understands
i can't get out my bed
i hate the helping hands
i've lost my fucking mind so don't you get it man?
they know nothing about me 
"he's just having a bad week"
it's lovely 

hide my problems in the alcohol 
drink myself away till i can't even feel a thing at all
i'm becoming just like you
it scares me to death,
i don't wanna but i have to

seasonal depression (prod. iof)

music artist from Michigan
hmu on ig @fuckyougoyardsadboi or hit up my manager @crizzywhitemanagement
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ghxst collective member till I die

im missing you n i hate it

Goyard Sad Boi