vocals by https://soundcloud.com/6kx and i
prod me
cover art by me

kxly:
help im
trapped inside a body
thats so old and so damn frail
cover my face im scared
cover my bones im cold
in your arms you will hold
me close to your beating heart
and ill breathe my last breath
its your name at last

will you ever love me back
im so old and so
fragile in your arms
and the paranoia sinks
its the thoughts that count
my thoughts do not count
cuz im freaking out
and im sunk in the couch

will you ever hold me
i really do doubt
cuz im still freaking out
and i forgot my meds
i forgot my meds
i forgot my meds
i forgot my meds

telescape:
i remember the day
the feelings all washed away
and i was left with a void
somewhere i knew to avoid
now this is where i exist
and i cant find the exit
and so i wait for a sign
and tell the others im fine

but i still see a spark sometimes
when im in the dark, my mind
wanders a lot, and i
see it all alive
visions so soft, so bright
its just myself and i
finally peace of mind

kxly:
will you ever hold me
i really do doubt
cuz im still freaking out
and i forgot my meds
i forgot my meds
i forgot my meds
i forgot my meds

trapped (feat kxly)

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i’ve tested all my luck 
i don't know what i love
don’t set me free

don’t set me free
i’ll tell you where i'm going
i know i know i know i know
just let me be (don’t don’t don't)
come set me free 
i’ll set you free

her patience is fading quick 
are you another delusion
I know i can’t keep you in
why won’t you go 
why won’t you go 

don’t set me free
i’ll tell you where i'm going
i know i know i know i know
just let me be (don’t don’t don't)
come set me free 
i’ll set you free

don’t set me free
why won’t you take it all

just let me be
another delusion 

don’t set me free
i’ll tell you where i'm going
i know i know i know i know
just let me be (don’t don’t don't)
come set me free 
i’ll set you free

chimera

textback

sorry, but i must go now.

my hands are empty and yours are calling me near 
i see a tempting distraction matching all my fears

should i worry, or should i hurry?

does the silence ever tell
how my heart is holding well
these words won't be enough
my hunger doesn't love
not for a touch

zero

I took a photo with you but I learned the camera's off
Still don't know why I hate you, hear your name, I brush it off
So many memories, deleted them, we let them go
And now it's back to what I was doing before
To tell you the truth, I'm quite lost without you now
If I had to die, I'd die for you
It's hardly been two weeks without you, how?
You lied to me then removed the truth

So much for happy ever after, that's a stupid phrase!
I hear the cameras flash again, but I was blurry faced
I asked to take another photo but it's all a waste
Smile, the camera's on
Yeah, the camera's on!

Smile, the camera's on
Yeah, the camera's on!

Smile, the camera's on
Yeah, the camera's on!

You rented rooms inside my mind (inside my mind, mind)
So you could break it from inside (from inside, side)
It took me years to gain the photos back
And even though they hurt I still look back and think "I'm over that!"
(You never got over her)

I'm not in any of the photos sitting in your room
I wonder if you still remember me at 22
Forgot so easily, it's like I was never really there
It honestly seems like you never even really cared

So when you told me that you loved me, was it real?
When you said it, I didn't know how I could feel
Ran right over me like I was built of steel
My last attempts all failed so I resorted to deleting all those memories away!

Smile, the camera's on
Yeah, the camera's on!

Smile, the camera's on
Yeah, the camera's on!

the flash was off

https://open.spotify.com/track/7HttolShbpfDrbJEPFSdAz?si=0f52c823cacb42b0

i’m so attached to it
the way that it makes me feel 
cut caffeine, no nicotine 
your body is quivering 
would you wake up now?

it keeps ringing, ringing 
my diaphragm’s wishing one day i’ll stop suffocating 

would you wake up 
would you wake up 
i’ve had enough of feeling so loved 
why does it ache
when i see your face 
if i upset you will this go away 
i promise my heart and everything else
one day i’ll choose what to do in this hell 
all of my options are broken 
i’m hopeful for shards not yet seen
my hands are scratching what’s beneath
i’m looking far for 
someone please please please 
make these decisions for me

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hearts prod shinju

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moony