novella - real agonizing heartbreak

song from early 2022 recorded together at my house with my dear friend during a time that was simpler and happier 

ya i dont know you 
you dont know me
watchu tryna be
its up to me
im with the team
weve been counting green

i dont wanna talk
faded steady off these pills
dont know how to walk
got my head over my heels
ghosting like im hi five
taking my life i might try
posted in the night time
i see through your white lies

thru&thru +smlx (lovbug)

disgusting shameless rip off of friends are evil by jesu go listen to that song its better than this bullshit lol

prod me as usual lol

the petals fall in perfect motion
this early sunset washes over me
while im here just say the worst you could
your aching skin illuminated in the golden hue
tell me is the blood washed off
tried to talk but words got caught
you can have my heart to tear apart
forever in your hands
forget the script erase the prose
hide your heart where no one knows
breath you in but not too close

novella - petals fall.mp3

https://open.spotify.com/album/0WhaBR6lXs1TpytYe0k4Gl

forgive each sin and let it go
to cut this tie would be too much
stay as you are, forever more
i write for you, mi amor
i write for you…
the curtains close on us, oh well that’s just how it goes
there’s a story written out all upon these scars
life without you, that’s a broken heart
cue the melodrama, ig thats just the way it goes
drown in self pity girl, ik its all for show
burn the love letters, every word i wrote
swallow every word, i cant help but choke
it’s a metaphor, like, girl, i wonder if you know…

stay as you are

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2024

Shut your mouth, stitch it up, keep this secret close.
It’s so hard to convey it with imperfect prose.
I know that i left and i know that it hurt you.
If you were me, i know you’d do what you had to.

Close your heart off and play pretend.
Is it too late to make amends?
Confession is hard when repentance feels so far away.

Between me and you, this tension suffocates.
Oh girl, you’re no poet; so don’t make it out so beautiful.

repentance feels so...

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2025

Now that you’ve peeled back the skin and seen my dirty soul, 
Are you really that surprised?
It’s been writing on the wall.
Cutting every string.
Take a seat and watch me fall.
And i hate the way you live, but i’m not the one to talk.
I admit i felt that way, well, at least a little bit.
But when comforts so appealing, can you blame me for those thoughts?
Well it must look so pathetic when i’m pushing you away.
Well i really can’t live up to the part you want me to play.

Perverted doll, make your mind up.
Ugly little doll, now you’re all wound up.
Decide which way to go.
Which part burns the most?
With second person prose admit what hurts the most.
You’re scared. 
You are not quite ready to admit.

perverted doll

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2023

Guess that’s not how the story goes.
Let me bleed out, all alone in the snow.
I’m so sorry that it came off cold.
I don’t mean to hurt, but the feelings don’t show.
Looking back now, i should have kept you close.
I guess that’s my bad, now can’t forget your face.
Now it’s over, i guess thats the way it goes.
Words get caught, i can’t help but choke.

In due time, girl, i know that i won’t need this as much as i do right now.
You still linger…
In due time, girl, i know that you’ll move past this and all that we had.
You still linger…

you still linger

walk away with your laughter

We Made It

pr0d @gamoboy

its past mdnyht
idt m alryht
all dis #anxiety in ma mind :c
m drown in WhatIfs ..
idk how2xplain
feels like m goinInsane
wht if m sick n i dnNotice?
stuck in ma head
i cnt focus
m nxious ab ma #health :c
cnt cntrl it
m layn in ma bed
iWnaRest o_o

i fl da same again
alone & isolated.
my BlckSkinny jeans saggn
w/ ma layered grommetBelts
m tryn write how i feel
idc what u wna say2me
i make Music as ma therapy
i dn need urOpinion
ima stnUp4Myself
nobdy evr cared how i felt
why dey wna hav me Canceld?

𝒽𝑒𝒶𝓁𝓉𝒽 𝒶𝓃𝓍𝒾𝑒𝓉𝓎

prices! [Prod.Dxcembers]

fall back into what you reject
twitter @ novellaswag

you still linger

novella

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