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Castle in the Sky

Sapphire Tears

From the Deluxe edition of "Outsider"
https://www.linktr.ee/chrisrain

BORN ALONE (Prod. TunnABeatz)

~lyrics~

Banded up in the bando
Red handed with the white up my nose hoe
Nobody sees where the goods where the light go
Nobody knows, oh my god where'd the nights go

Fucked up bitch, I'm an asshole, mad hoe
Fucked that shit like I meant all the time woah
Rewind quick cos that bitch she was nice tho
Uh


Bad hoe with the wine tho
Back to the back of the club where the lights low
Got good white tell a bitch gotta try hoe
Sippin on reds got me fallin to floor
So I been up for the night where'd night go
Stressed too much that's why I get high slow
Too quick with the fly treads an the nice flow
XO XO kiss her goodnight hoe

Bad hoe with the wine tho
Back to the back of the club where the lights low
Got good white tell a bitch gotta try hoe
Sippin on reds got me fallin to floor
So I been up for the night where'd night go
Stressed too much that's why I get high slow
Too quick with the fly treads an the nice flow
XO XO kiss her goodnight hoe

Bad hoe with the wine tho

Kiss her goodnight hoe

I been up, from the set, where did I go
Emo, english boy it's a hype thing yeah they know
Yeah they know
Text me X an O's
They're for show
Do they really want me?
I don't know
I don't know yeah

Trashed up
Fucked with the angel boy slitting his wrists
In the studio
Back to the back with this shit
An it's I know I don't wanna fuck that bitch
Cos I got my queen so fuck that ish
Hold on
Lemme sip that quick
Gotta move fast with this slow ass shit
Fuck a 9-5 rather die in a ditch
(AY)


Bad hoe with the wine tho
Back to the back of the club where the lights low
Got good white tell a bitch gotta try hoe
Sippin on reds got me fallin to floor
So I been up for the night where'd night go
Stressed too much that's why I get high slow
Too quick with the fly treads an the nice flow
XO XO kiss her goodnight hoe

Bad hoe with the wine tho
Back to the back of the club where the lights low
Got good white tell a bitch gotta try hoe
Sippin on reds got me fallin to floor
So I been up for the night where'd night go
Stressed too much that's why I get high slow
Too quick with the fly treads an the nice flow
XO XO kiss her goodnight hoe

Bad hoe with the wine tho
Back to the back of the club where the lights low
Got good white tell a bitch gotta try hoe
Sippin on reds got me fallin to floor
So I been up for the night where'd night go
Stressed too much that's why I get high slow
Too quick with the fly treads an the nice flow
XO XO kiss her goodnight hoe

Sippin' On Reds (prod. Metlast X Luffy)

What the fuck
I'm so nervous for
Shaking like I'm withdrawal percocet
Wonder if I just spoke up would it all turn out that I was getting in my head
Been months
Well and a bunch of years attached
I was in fourth grade just to be exact
In fact by the time we graduated
I figured that I wouldn't ever say shit
Fuck no
What a cruel world its been to me
With no friends to keep
And loose ends that keep on slipping
But back then I didn't worry bout shit other than this
As a young kid
I just went to school
And had and innocent crush I guess I just refused
To go up to her and say how I felt
Because in my mind shes too perfect
Hell I doubt she even notice me
When we spoke I just fumbled
Sounded so dumb so I tried to let it go
By the end of high-school I pretend I didn't know you
Felt embarrassing
Couldn't get a grip
I ran into you in the public
So many times
And whenever I would try to talk
My brain shut down and and my eyes were caught on you

If you hate me
Can you let me know
I can't tell at all I guess I gotta crush
Think it may seem
I'ma mess I know
Should I just move on girl am I outta luck
You look at me
I'm folding
It breaks me down I think I've had enough
If you hate me
Can you let me know
If I fell in love or if I gotta crush

What the fuck
I've had many dates
Never shy when I'm met with a pretty face
But every time that you pass me by I wanna run thru the dry wall cuz I can't get it straight
She a gorgeous girl
I don't know her well
Yeah I'm sure that she got her heart broke before
And I hate that
I wish I could fix it
Going down that roads like driving stick shift
Whoa
High-school sucked
By then it was safe to say that I'd never get a chance
On top of that I was a loser making music while she going out making friends
Grew my hair out long got dreads and became a mess people always give me stares
I had a bad break up with a ex got my shit together and I started taking care
4 years had past it all crossed my mind again
I decided it was time to try again
I hit the dms like hello how you been
I had a couple things I wanna talk about
Then to my surprise I got no reply
And said fuck it its fine put it all behind me
Moving on in life
Didn't think about it
Then she joined the gym that I had been working out at
If god is real then has aligning this
Divine timing
Better call a shaman in
Some how I better get the guts to walk up and say what I wanted
For the longest time
So I breathe take second to collect myself
Light headed and I'm shaking
Just like back in the day when we met but now
I looked at her and I'm saying

Crush

Veru

When I Get Tø Cali... Prod. Shokwave x Jkeibeats

Prod. Discent, reprod. YCK

Hanging round I’m a drifter
Scarred and weathered I have blisters
Where I’ve been and who I’ve met
Well there’s plenty things you don’t know yet

Packed my bags
I’m making up a plan to escape
Won’t be back
Wrote a note tried my best to explain

I won’t call I won’t text
No you said I’m like the rest
I’m a no good motherfucker
Feeling so depressed

Case of the blues
Always aim then I shoot
I don’t wanna miss a chance
That I got to advance

Up the ladder making chatter
Nothing I can say’ll matter
In the grand scheme of things
Any song I made or sing

Hanging round I’m a drifter
Scarred and weathered I have blisters
Where I’ve been and who I’ve met
Well there’s plenty things you don’t know yet

Minutes of recognition
Start up my car and turn the ignition
No I don’t got a place to go
I don’t hear a thing they’re saying so

Leaving breathing give me a reason
To keep on going I keep repeating
Drained of my life I feel defeated
With every changing season

Stoned I’m alone
Thought I’d quit it but I don’t
When the heater went and broke
Man my fingers fucking froze

Now my joints are always swollen
And my gloves I got are stolen
Getting by I’m steady rolling
I ain’t needing your condolence bitch

Hanging round I’m a drifter
Scarred and weathered I have blisters
Where I’ve been and who I’ve met
Well there’s plenty things you don’t know yet

Spirits

Drifter

Check out my homie https://soundcloud.com/slothboipapi



it’s the sedatives just an alternative, 
just a market price inside my soul when did it become so competitive
now I’m hesitant,  
to let the ones I know I should love in but being backstabbed is so repetitive


know I’ve been here all before, drugged up passed out on the floor
I’ve seen those messages from him taunting you that you should leave
you know you should, cus I’m no good, I’m no good
I understand that I’m fucked up

dealing with questions from a psychiatrist doesn’t understand what I’ve been through
dealing with questions from my own family, build me up like a statue
it’s so hard to look at your eyes, filled with judgment
the pills just got too much for me I couldn’t cope

sinking down into the abyss where I never rose again
see my bones splattered on the walls deep down in my own hell
like a bliss-filled with alcohol and suicide
fucked in my own way, fucked together fucked apart

still, don’t remember how it got that bad back then thought I was better by myself
got the slothboi guarding my back climbing up and reaching the end
my mother just wants to see me smile, 
ill stare back with a blank face cus its the

holding no sentiment
I see you crying on the ground yeah mind is filling up with adrenaline
you’re argumentative
blaming me because you stuck down in a hole and you cant dig your way out

$LOTHBOI

Repetitive
These thoughts in my head they’ve been shaking me
Till the end ive been thinking of the negative
The thoughts in my head, yeah, yeah

Adrenaline
The panic from the thoughts and the memories
They’ve been overwhelming me and all my better days 
I’m hesitant to question my own fucking happiness 

The memories be trapping me
I’m stuck and it’s 
Repetitive
I need medicine
Im an alcoholic piece of shit a negative

I got some problems with
My fucking memories
The trauma from my fucking past can get the best of me
I’m staggering

Now Rivilin
Let’s climb up on their corpses
Let’s get rid of them

I be tired of the liars I been sitting with
Shit I’m fucking sick of it
I’m a piece of shit but I bet I’m still the better man
They faking it

Control Ft $LOTHBOI

[prod. Fantom]
[mixed and mastered. doski]
Locked down
Every single feeling that I have for you is locked down
Tryna find myself through the mist but I am lost now
I cant be myself, till the chain is broken
Locked down
Maybe with a little help, I'm able to 

I'm locked down
Every single promise that I break is getting wrote down
Slowly losing feeling from the parabolic thoughts now
I wish that you could understand
I wish that you could understand

Cause I'm out for the last time
Fought up but he's one line, ahead of me now
Nobody helped but, its too late, good luck
It's up to me now

Know many millions
Who've fallen before me,
Takes a strong force to break me down
To break me down

Will you remember
Not just me but all of these soldiers
I hope that you've taken these as lessons, so you can help others
And when I'm gone then I hope that these lyrics, will leave me with honour 
Cause I dont wanna be remembered as the one that surrendered

Cause I feel
I've let you down
But I hope
That you'll forgive me now
I left a note
I know
I'm in a better place

Locked down
Every single feeling that I have for you is locked down
Tryna find myself through the mist but I am lost now
I cant be myself, till the chain is broken
Locked down
Maybe with a little help, I'm able to 

I'm locked down
Every single promise that I break is getting wrote down
Slowly losing feeling from the parabolic thoughts now
I wish that you could understand
I wish that you could understand

Locked down
Every single feeling that was locked down
Tryna find myself but I am lost now
I can't be myself cause I am locked down  
I'm locked down

Locked down
Every single promise that I wrote down
Slowly losing feeling from my thoughts now
I wish that you could understand
I wish that you could understand

Sippin' On Reds (prod. Metlast X Luffy)

Xorochi