https://soundcloud.com/rivilin

Music Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XNQ77eK9Gf8

Lyrics

Yeah, yeah this doesn't make any sense
So why did you tell me you don't want to see me again
How's does it feel to be you, pushing abusing the ones you love you break
So what does it mean to be me you wanna ask me
The questions you don't wanna see
You're rubbing the back of my hair your screaming so loudly
You don't want to show that you care

You're punching your face in the street
You're hitting the pavement your spitting out bloody teeth
Eager to meet me, don't want to see me, so confused i don't want to see
So what does it mean to me, you never ask you never care
So what does it mean for us, yeah you know i shouldn't ask that

Cus im a skinny piece of shit from the west side, lose sight
From where I wanna be cus im back on the drugs again
I wanna blame you but I know it's my fault
Just to date someone so disgusting

So who am I meant to be, yeah I know
He looks a lot like me
So tell me lucifer is that your reflection in the window
Staring back at me, what do you see

Cus too many people here talk about me
So how does it feel to be the one without a dream
Fuck a 9-5 I wanna be free
Cus too many people wanna talk about me

Fuck you watchu thinking, you ain't know fuck all about me
I work harder than some pussy boys that do it for a bounty
They be bragging bout the money that they sucking dick to see
You a sheep boy, living in the simulation, deep

I am free

Boy I threw away a 6 figure job, twice
Knew I'm giving up a life, still I paid the price
I ain't give a fuck about the money, I'm alive
Create to survive, that's my line, till I fucking die

My ex said that I was a lame-o
Said sloth you a pussy just take those
Blank thoughts while blacking in the shadows
Fuck, thank god I left that hell hole

Drove fast, eyes closed
Count downed, I really didn't know
Thought my life would just stay shit
But know there's light in darkness

Cus too many people here talk about me
So how does it feel to be the one without a dream
Fuck a 9-5 I wanna be free
Cus too many people wanna talk about me

Cus too many people here talk about me
So how does it feel to be the one without a dream
Fuck a 9-5 I wanna be free
Cus too many people wanna talk about me

BURNT IGNITION

Construct

$LOTHBOI x Rivilin - Construct [Music Video ↓]

Thank You For Everything

I'm breaking apart as we go
I've never seen down this road
As the cracks are seeping in
Please, help me within
Maybe it's all  over my head
Feeling like this is the darkest of dread
That I cannot escape
Trade my life if I could save you

What have I done, who have I become
Staring right back at the edge of the gun
What if I stay, look the other way
Saving myself at the end of my days
But know, this ain't the end
Fill my heart with love and suspense
Where were you when I tried

cast your stones, they dont hurt
i’m here at the stake where i like to burn

and it seems like a problem
im drinking this solvent
to fight off my demons
though i want to call it
too much of an addict
a sick alcoholic
i live in disease
Because there’s no cure

wounded wasted
hating this basement
the change in your faces
dont tell me i’m pure
i fought angels
through pleasures and mangers
i wanted the dangers
and i was so sure

What have I done, who have I become
Staring right back at the edge of the gun
What if I stay, look the other way
Saving myself at the end of my days
But know, this ain't the end
Fill my heart with love and suspense
Where were you when I tried

Beautiful Disguise ft. s0cliché

LONELY HELL

SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/track/6zYvtBuywNKUztZ7vk5fsN?si=cb8f752baa714baf

Drunk Girl X s0cliché - WAYSIDE

What the fuck
I'm so nervous for
Shaking like I'm withdrawal percocet
Wonder if I just spoke up would it all turn out that I was getting in my head
Been months
Well and a bunch of years attached
I was in fourth grade just to be exact
In fact by the time we graduated
I figured that I wouldn't ever say shit
Fuck no
What a cruel world its been to me
With no friends to keep
And loose ends that keep on slipping
But back then I didn't worry bout shit other than this
As a young kid
I just went to school
And had and innocent crush I guess I just refused
To go up to her and say how I felt
Because in my mind shes too perfect
Hell I doubt she even notice me
When we spoke I just fumbled
Sounded so dumb so I tried to let it go
By the end of high-school I pretend I didn't know you
Felt embarrassing
Couldn't get a grip
I ran into you in the public
So many times
And whenever I would try to talk
My brain shut down and and my eyes were caught on you

If you hate me
Can you let me know
I can't tell at all I guess I gotta crush
Think it may seem
I'ma mess I know
Should I just move on girl am I outta luck
You look at me
I'm folding
It breaks me down I think I've had enough
If you hate me
Can you let me know
If I fell in love or if I gotta crush

What the fuck
I've had many dates
Never shy when I'm met with a pretty face
But every time that you pass me by I wanna run thru the dry wall cuz I can't get it straight
She a gorgeous girl
I don't know her well
Yeah I'm sure that she got her heart broke before
And I hate that
I wish I could fix it
Going down that roads like driving stick shift
Whoa
High-school sucked
By then it was safe to say that I'd never get a chance
On top of that I was a loser making music while she going out making friends
Grew my hair out long got dreads and became a mess people always give me stares
I had a bad break up with a ex got my shit together and I started taking care
4 years had past it all crossed my mind again
I decided it was time to try again
I hit the dms like hello how you been
I had a couple things I wanna talk about
Then to my surprise I got no reply
And said fuck it its fine put it all behind me
Moving on in life
Didn't think about it
Then she joined the gym that I had been working out at
If god is real then has aligning this
Divine timing
Better call a shaman in
Some how I better get the guts to walk up and say what I wanted
For the longest time
So I breathe take second to collect myself
Light headed and I'm shaking
Just like back in the day when we met but now
I looked at her and I'm saying

Crush

Prod by Kami: @yaboikami

Lyrics:

(Verse 1)
Will you come around
Can you find the one who can't be found
Will you come around
You ain't gotta fight on these battlegrounds

You tell them that I scare you often
But you're the one with the gun and, I'm the one being hunted
So all my friends are disgusted, tell me that you can't be trusted

That you can't be trusted

(Chorus)
I fucking hate you, don't relate to fucks who praise you
You betray you, you forgave you
When I saved you 'cause you think that I don't blame you

But today you crossed that line, one last time
Now I'm out my mind, now I'm seeking to find
The fault in my design
In my design

I fucking hate you, don't relate to fucks who praise you
You betray you, you forgave you
When I saved you 'cause you think that I don't blame you

But today you crossed that line, one last time
Now I'm out my mind, now I'm seeking to find
The fault in my design
In my design

(Bridge)

(Chorus)
I fucking hate you, don't relate to fucks who praise you
You betray you, you forgave you
When I saved you 'cause you think that I don't blame you

But today you crossed that line, one last time
Now I'm out my mind, now I'm seeking to find
The fault in my design
In my design

The Fault In My Design

ART BY VEXXVI
https://www.instagram.com/vexxvi/

OPEN UP, GET LET DOWN
CLOSE OFF ALL THE WINDOWS NOW
NEVER GOING, NEVER LEAVING
TAKE MY CHANCES AND JUST DROWN

ALL THIS HATE, FORMS A CLOUD
BURN MY NERVES OUT HIT THE GROUND
COULDN’T SAY THE WORDS I WANTED
SO WE LEAVE ME, NEVER FOUND

WATCH THE SKIN START TO BLEED
FEEL THE CRACKS AROUND THE SEAMS
A PERFECT FAMILY ON THE TV
GUESS THAT WASN’T JUST FOR ME

FEELING BURNT, FEELING USED
YEAH I ALWAYS HAVE TO CHOOSE
DO I STAY OR DO I GO
YEAH SOMETIMES WE HAVE TO LOSE
 
DIDNT GET IT, REPEATING THE WORDS I SAID IT
OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN UNTIL YOUR BRAINS RESETTED
SCRAPING UP ALL THE PIECES AND PUTTING YOU BACK TOGETHER
STRUGGLING, STRUGGLING, STRUGGLING UNTIL I COULDN’T TAKE THE PRESSURE

THEN PUTTING THE BLAME ON ME, I WAS SUFFERING COULDN’T YOU SEE
I THOUGHT I WAS JUST MEANT TO BE THE ONE YOU LOVE BUT YEAH YOU JUST USED ME
DANCING ABOVE THE OPEN SKY, FEELING MY BEDROOM JUST COLLIDE
LET THE EMPTINESS ENVELOP MY CHEST AS I JUST TRY TO HIDE

NOW IM FLOATING AND FLOATING
I EMBRACE ALL THE BLIGHT
YEAH THE PAIN IN MY MIND
IS CONSUMED BY THE LIGHT

FEARING ILL FALL
IM SCARED ILL LAND ON YOUR KNIFE
WISHED ID MAKE UP MY MIND
SO ID LET GO OF THIS LIFE

THEY WILL ONLY LET YOU DOWN

Tsunami J. & Saphir - Lost And Found (Prod. jUdAh)

ART BY SUICIDALGALLERY
https://www.instagram.com/suicidalgallery/

LYRICS:

jealousy got me messed up
fade out with a cloak made of pain
brittle bones start to snap I watch you come back 
the mental illness covers my eyes black

empathy isn't needed
this world that I create is my own little hell
watch your family just concede when they ask you to leave
yeah the cracks in my skin start to fray

it's like my bodies stuck in static, all my emotions going manic 
as the floor just starts to crumble and im falling, falling down
I harbor guilt from the resentment, maybe love was never mentioned
mind is filled with ignorance as the devil starts to consume

aspirations with the drugs take some more it's not enough
id rather feel something empty than deal with all the pain
a cloud it forms around my head depression says he's now my friend
im always empty all alone, I guess ill face this on my own

it’s what I see in my dreams, is this real watcha mean
contradicting on every word that I try to say
I try to be only me, it's all the hate yeah it seethes
there’s complications yeah every time that I try to stay

im on my knees now crawling pushing down, try to leave
this hallucination is clouding up your mental state
feel the flame at my feet watch the sky swallow me
their’s hesitation on all the words that I try to say


PARADOXX:

On all the words i try to say 
But i can't get them out of me

It's a double edged sword 
every time i speak i get blood on my palms 

I try to stay calm and collected but everything's breaking down on me 
I'm selective of the words that i speak but it's counquering me 
I get trapped in my mind all the time 

I feel my body rotting away from inside out 
But i can't be bothered to scream , I'm too weak to make a sound

And all this angst , all this doubt is eating me up alive
But i let it happen so who can i blame , I'll seek myself out

Hard Ft. Paradoxx

ART BY SUICIDALGALLERY
https://www.instagram.com/suicidalgallery/

I feel your jaws start to wrap around my neck
so disgusted with how I left
I feel the anguish in my bones, watch them snap I turn to stone
try to ignore the pain

I see the flesh around my heart rotted with hate
this wooden home, it screams my name
no grand design above the sky 
skin is burning with the lie watch me embrace the void

im a waste, im a vermin, a piece of shit, hurting
doesn't matter if I stay I’m always just lurking
the ghost between us, the floorboards and concrete
it doesn't matter now when you don't amount to something

To people that you thought just really cared
but they leave you on the ground when you’re choking, not coping
And now you're embraced by the emptiness you never loved
and you’re watching as he consumes everything you came to trust

down the alleys where you grew up and you never understood
what it means to just care, what it means to just stare
with the blank eyes when someone’s just falling
to suicidal tendencies, they always get the best of me

so tell me why you’re never fucking calling
never checking on me until you need something to waste your time
just leave me the fuck alone
cus id rather be dead to you than something

Yeah depression hits me up, says he loves who you are now
I want nothing to do with you
invade my dreams and give me nothing, no I couldn't see you bluffing
find a lover, feel disgusted from you


feel my consciousness hit my stomach, weighs a ton it's dragging me down
I got nothing to give to you
you took the best then left me stranded, filled with hate then reprimanded
come tomorrow empty-handed from you


so bury me out the back where I can't hear a thing
I don’t want to be something more than a dream
but you know that’s not fair how you're always in mine
always plaguing my thoughts waking up and your gone

my friends say that it doesn't get better than this
is being tormented just some form of a bliss
these glass walls that I construct just seem to crack
and like a puppet I just always come back

yeah so it always turns this way when your friends turn fake
and you don’t have a lover to remember your name
so you crumble at the fear when you don't know yourself
pills from a psychiatrist, yeah it sucks they couldn't help  

with the constant torment knowing that you never will belong
with the piercing stares from family where they love to prove you wrong
like what you do for work yeah your looking half alive
yeah I swear I have been on repeat since I nearly died

say you wanna understand but you can't, I never said I wanna be alive long
it feels like im not living in my body
like who am I to you, am I just a joke of someone that I used to be
use me, abuse me until you leave again, im sick of living like I want to kill myself

Visionary

ART BY SUICIDALGALLERY
https://www.instagram.com/suicidalgallery/

LYRICS:

I see you crawling up to me on your knees
I see the rage building up in your eyes as I leave
it's like when I open my mouth reality stops and I can't control what I see
my body isn't mine now another person takes control when my mind breaks down

bursts of anger seem to cloud up my vision then my mind snaps back, hands covered in blisters 
now every day repeats in the same cycle, just stuck in a fog and I can let go of
who I was who I am who I could been, I can't live with the way that you just look at me
self-disgust builds a tiny little home right next to the place that I used to call my soul

what was I meant to say, how was I meant to react that way
a best friend confined, I wished he was dead I wish he never survived
the night I broke his face all the anger consumed and replaced 
I never came back alive the person I was, was the one who lost sight
 
yeah, emotions are boiling under my flesh, 
feel the stress rising up through my gut until nothing’s left
cus it's eating out the best of me, I tried to make you never see what's wrong with me
And even when I needed you, yeah you said that you gotta leave

Yeah so isn't that perfect I get it now, 
I search for something in places that won't be found
and then you find someone who builds a little cage inside your chest
where they change you and tear you down, find you gasping for your breath

and it doesn't help that best friends wanna, fuck with you
thought they had my fucking back guess im just easily used
I wanna fuck em with the gat blood splatters soak into shoes
Damn I guess it's what I lack, the courage to speak my truth

so I say it in these songs, yeah I fucking hate you
if I saw you in public I think id have to break a tooth or two
but self disgusts builds a tiny little home
where I find myself embracing the guilt all alone

Burn Notice

Self produced / Sad  

CONTACT: RIVILINAU@GMAIL.COM

Burn Notice

Rivilin

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