fuuuuuck hits perfectly! absolutely fab!!!!

shout out to https://soundcloud.com/slothboipapi for jumping on this track <3

Yeah, take a step back see the faces under yeah they scream
get my life back from the ones who say they're real to me
feel the train tracks vibrate under as you intervene
get a flashback, realize now that  suicide is free

memories stack, like a knife it slices and I bleed
(I FEEL FREE)
realize now that, the options there if I just want to leave
(FOLLOW ME)
feel my spine crack from the pressure of the stress it creaks
(I FEEL FREE)
flick a match down watch the embers burning at my feet
(FOLLOW ME)

cut up slice down, I don't want to talk now
(DOWN THE HOLE)
change up lose faith in a god who betrayed
(NO, NO)
everything that we tried to be
(ANIMALS)
we're just human yeah why can't you understand
(WE’RE ANIMALS)

how cruel could you be, to give a body to someone so weak
(DOWN IT ALL)
it's not like you to intervene, then why’d you put a curse on me
(FOLD, FOLD)
deteriorate, fatigue, chemistry wasn't your expertise
(MAN THE ZONE)
you lied, then left, guess this father never cared
(BURN IT ALL)
 
is this it is this all I have to show yeah im done
burnt alive in this hell, guess the anguish yeah it won
watch my soul start to leave yeah guess he had enough
I should have left with him I guess we'll say im just shit out of luck

what's the point when the sky it bleeds and starts to take control
lacerations scar my skinny  guess my heart yeah you just stole
hit me up, hit me up, and say that my love was a joke
the emotions in my throat, they start to swell as I just choke
 


Burn the world ash I’m doing god a fucking favor
Watch me self destruct and I’ma send you to your maker
All together now let's walk to hell it's getting cold
Know the devil waiting, keeping on saying, that we gotta go

I ain’t giving up
God ain’t give a fuck
Seen a light

Spoke a lot of words
Nothing in return
Wouldn’t bite

Why the fuck I try
Urging me to fight
For a light

Broken by design
Not a fix
When you redefine

I ain’t giving up
God ain’t give a fuck
Seen a light

Spoke a lot of words
Nothing in return
Wouldn’t bite

Why the fuck I try
Urging me to fight
For a light

Broken by design
Not a fix
When you redefine

I ain’t giving up
God ain’t give a fuck
Seen a light

Spoke a lot of words
Nothing in return
Wouldn’t bite

Why the fuck I try
Urging me to fight
For a light

Broken by design
Not a fix
When you redefine
 
is this it is this all I have to show yeah im done
burnt alive in this hell, guess the anguish yeah it won
watch my soul start to leave yeah guess he had enough
I should have left with him I guess we'll say im just shit out of luck

what's the point when the sky it bleeds and starts to take control
lacerations scar my skinny  guess my heart yeah you just stole
hit me up, hit me up, and say that my love was a joke
the emotions in my throat, they start to swell as I just choke

Lazarus Ft $lothboi

~lyrics~

Banded up in the bando
Red handed with the white up my nose hoe
Nobody sees where the goods where the light go
Nobody knows, oh my god where'd the nights go

Fucked up bitch, I'm an asshole, mad hoe
Fucked that shit like I meant all the time woah
Rewind quick cos that bitch she was nice tho
Uh


Bad hoe with the wine tho
Back to the back of the club where the lights low
Got good white tell a bitch gotta try hoe
Sippin on reds got me fallin to floor
So I been up for the night where'd night go
Stressed too much that's why I get high slow
Too quick with the fly treads an the nice flow
XO XO kiss her goodnight hoe

Bad hoe with the wine tho
Back to the back of the club where the lights low
Got good white tell a bitch gotta try hoe
Sippin on reds got me fallin to floor
So I been up for the night where'd night go
Stressed too much that's why I get high slow
Too quick with the fly treads an the nice flow
XO XO kiss her goodnight hoe

Bad hoe with the wine tho

Kiss her goodnight hoe

I been up, from the set, where did I go
Emo, english boy it's a hype thing yeah they know
Yeah they know
Text me X an O's
They're for show
Do they really want me?
I don't know
I don't know yeah

Trashed up
Fucked with the angel boy slitting his wrists
In the studio
Back to the back with this shit
An it's I know I don't wanna fuck that bitch
Cos I got my queen so fuck that ish
Hold on
Lemme sip that quick
Gotta move fast with this slow ass shit
Fuck a 9-5 rather die in a ditch
(AY)


Bad hoe with the wine tho
Back to the back of the club where the lights low
Got good white tell a bitch gotta try hoe
Sippin on reds got me fallin to floor
So I been up for the night where'd night go
Stressed too much that's why I get high slow
Too quick with the fly treads an the nice flow
XO XO kiss her goodnight hoe

Bad hoe with the wine tho
Back to the back of the club where the lights low
Got good white tell a bitch gotta try hoe
Sippin on reds got me fallin to floor
So I been up for the night where'd night go
Stressed too much that's why I get high slow
Too quick with the fly treads an the nice flow
XO XO kiss her goodnight hoe

Bad hoe with the wine tho
Back to the back of the club where the lights low
Got good white tell a bitch gotta try hoe
Sippin on reds got me fallin to floor
So I been up for the night where'd night go
Stressed too much that's why I get high slow
Too quick with the fly treads an the nice flow
XO XO kiss her goodnight hoe

Sippin' On Reds (prod. Metlast X Luffy)

ART BY VEXXVI
https://www.instagram.com/vexxvi/

OPEN UP, GET LET DOWN
CLOSE OFF ALL THE WINDOWS NOW
NEVER GOING, NEVER LEAVING
TAKE MY CHANCES AND JUST DROWN

ALL THIS HATE, FORMS A CLOUD
BURN MY NERVES OUT HIT THE GROUND
COULDN’T SAY THE WORDS I WANTED
SO WE LEAVE ME, NEVER FOUND

WATCH THE SKIN START TO BLEED
FEEL THE CRACKS AROUND THE SEAMS
A PERFECT FAMILY ON THE TV
GUESS THAT WASN’T JUST FOR ME

FEELING BURNT, FEELING USED
YEAH I ALWAYS HAVE TO CHOOSE
DO I STAY OR DO I GO
YEAH SOMETIMES WE HAVE TO LOSE
 
DIDNT GET IT, REPEATING THE WORDS I SAID IT
OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN UNTIL YOUR BRAINS RESETTED
SCRAPING UP ALL THE PIECES AND PUTTING YOU BACK TOGETHER
STRUGGLING, STRUGGLING, STRUGGLING UNTIL I COULDN’T TAKE THE PRESSURE

THEN PUTTING THE BLAME ON ME, I WAS SUFFERING COULDN’T YOU SEE
I THOUGHT I WAS JUST MEANT TO BE THE ONE YOU LOVE BUT YEAH YOU JUST USED ME
DANCING ABOVE THE OPEN SKY, FEELING MY BEDROOM JUST COLLIDE
LET THE EMPTINESS ENVELOP MY CHEST AS I JUST TRY TO HIDE

NOW IM FLOATING AND FLOATING
I EMBRACE ALL THE BLIGHT
YEAH THE PAIN IN MY MIND
IS CONSUMED BY THE LIGHT

FEARING ILL FALL
IM SCARED ILL LAND ON YOUR KNIFE
WISHED ID MAKE UP MY MIND
SO ID LET GO OF THIS LIFE

THEY WILL ONLY LET YOU DOWN

Tsunami J. & Saphir - Lost And Found (Prod. jUdAh)

ART BY SUICIDALGALLERY
https://www.instagram.com/suicidalgallery/

LYRICS:

jealousy got me messed up
fade out with a cloak made of pain
brittle bones start to snap I watch you come back 
the mental illness covers my eyes black

empathy isn't needed
this world that I create is my own little hell
watch your family just concede when they ask you to leave
yeah the cracks in my skin start to fray

it's like my bodies stuck in static, all my emotions going manic 
as the floor just starts to crumble and im falling, falling down
I harbor guilt from the resentment, maybe love was never mentioned
mind is filled with ignorance as the devil starts to consume

aspirations with the drugs take some more it's not enough
id rather feel something empty than deal with all the pain
a cloud it forms around my head depression says he's now my friend
im always empty all alone, I guess ill face this on my own

it’s what I see in my dreams, is this real watcha mean
contradicting on every word that I try to say
I try to be only me, it's all the hate yeah it seethes
there’s complications yeah every time that I try to stay

im on my knees now crawling pushing down, try to leave
this hallucination is clouding up your mental state
feel the flame at my feet watch the sky swallow me
their’s hesitation on all the words that I try to say


PARADOXX:

On all the words i try to say 
But i can't get them out of me

It's a double edged sword 
every time i speak i get blood on my palms 

I try to stay calm and collected but everything's breaking down on me 
I'm selective of the words that i speak but it's counquering me 
I get trapped in my mind all the time 

I feel my body rotting away from inside out 
But i can't be bothered to scream , I'm too weak to make a sound

And all this angst , all this doubt is eating me up alive
But i let it happen so who can i blame , I'll seek myself out

Hard Ft. Paradoxx

ART BY SUICIDALGALLERY
https://www.instagram.com/suicidalgallery/

I feel your jaws start to wrap around my neck
so disgusted with how I left
I feel the anguish in my bones, watch them snap I turn to stone
try to ignore the pain

I see the flesh around my heart rotted with hate
this wooden home, it screams my name
no grand design above the sky 
skin is burning with the lie watch me embrace the void

im a waste, im a vermin, a piece of shit, hurting
doesn't matter if I stay I’m always just lurking
the ghost between us, the floorboards and concrete
it doesn't matter now when you don't amount to something

To people that you thought just really cared
but they leave you on the ground when you’re choking, not coping
And now you're embraced by the emptiness you never loved
and you’re watching as he consumes everything you came to trust

down the alleys where you grew up and you never understood
what it means to just care, what it means to just stare
with the blank eyes when someone’s just falling
to suicidal tendencies, they always get the best of me

so tell me why you’re never fucking calling
never checking on me until you need something to waste your time
just leave me the fuck alone
cus id rather be dead to you than something

Yeah depression hits me up, says he loves who you are now
I want nothing to do with you
invade my dreams and give me nothing, no I couldn't see you bluffing
find a lover, feel disgusted from you


feel my consciousness hit my stomach, weighs a ton it's dragging me down
I got nothing to give to you
you took the best then left me stranded, filled with hate then reprimanded
come tomorrow empty-handed from you


so bury me out the back where I can't hear a thing
I don’t want to be something more than a dream
but you know that’s not fair how you're always in mine
always plaguing my thoughts waking up and your gone

my friends say that it doesn't get better than this
is being tormented just some form of a bliss
these glass walls that I construct just seem to crack
and like a puppet I just always come back

yeah so it always turns this way when your friends turn fake
and you don’t have a lover to remember your name
so you crumble at the fear when you don't know yourself
pills from a psychiatrist, yeah it sucks they couldn't help  

with the constant torment knowing that you never will belong
with the piercing stares from family where they love to prove you wrong
like what you do for work yeah your looking half alive
yeah I swear I have been on repeat since I nearly died

say you wanna understand but you can't, I never said I wanna be alive long
it feels like im not living in my body
like who am I to you, am I just a joke of someone that I used to be
use me, abuse me until you leave again, im sick of living like I want to kill myself

Visionary

ART BY SUICIDALGALLERY
https://www.instagram.com/suicidalgallery/

LYRICS:

I see you crawling up to me on your knees
I see the rage building up in your eyes as I leave
it's like when I open my mouth reality stops and I can't control what I see
my body isn't mine now another person takes control when my mind breaks down

bursts of anger seem to cloud up my vision then my mind snaps back, hands covered in blisters 
now every day repeats in the same cycle, just stuck in a fog and I can let go of
who I was who I am who I could been, I can't live with the way that you just look at me
self-disgust builds a tiny little home right next to the place that I used to call my soul

what was I meant to say, how was I meant to react that way
a best friend confined, I wished he was dead I wish he never survived
the night I broke his face all the anger consumed and replaced 
I never came back alive the person I was, was the one who lost sight
 
yeah, emotions are boiling under my flesh, 
feel the stress rising up through my gut until nothing’s left
cus it's eating out the best of me, I tried to make you never see what's wrong with me
And even when I needed you, yeah you said that you gotta leave

Yeah so isn't that perfect I get it now, 
I search for something in places that won't be found
and then you find someone who builds a little cage inside your chest
where they change you and tear you down, find you gasping for your breath

and it doesn't help that best friends wanna, fuck with you
thought they had my fucking back guess im just easily used
I wanna fuck em with the gat blood splatters soak into shoes
Damn I guess it's what I lack, the courage to speak my truth

so I say it in these songs, yeah I fucking hate you
if I saw you in public I think id have to break a tooth or two
but self disgusts builds a tiny little home
where I find myself embracing the guilt all alone

Burn Notice

FACELIFT NOW AVAILABLE ON ALL STREAMING PLATFORMS

Thank you for always listening, i love you

Cuts Too Deep ft. Rivilin (prod. alexanderbierk)

Release Me ft. s0cliché (prod. NERW)

written/performed/produced by sepha.
________
Soundcloud - www.soundcloud.com/sepha-joey​
Spotify - open.spotify.com/artist/094ug46k2…2_fQ&dl_branch=1
AppleMusic/iTunes - music.apple.com/us/artist/sepha/1243252989
_________
lyrics -

i'll take you as you are
i'll never let your bad side
make me judge or push you far
away - we can be toxic together

i'll take you as you are
i'll never let your bad side
make me judge or push you far
away - we can be toxic together 
On

i wanna spend the end of my days in a 
'Leaving Las Vegas' style haze as I
Burn my possessions and i tap that - 
Romance that needed no 'chit-chat'

We can turn under smoke
of the lights as we're broke
and i'll bin all my clothes
and my jewellery - pawn broked

and you'll dance for me
and i'll clown around
i'll clown around this shitty place with you
this shitty place with you

i'll take you as you are
i'll never let your bad side
make me judge or push you far
away - we can be toxic together

i'll take you as you are
i'll never let your bad side
make me judge or push you far
away - we can be toxic together
On

Everything now feels like it's gonna kill us
So fuck it we'll just deal in realness
Like the way your skin feels in this stillness
as we let the sunset breeze distill us

I get a body transfer in dreaming
When i'm only putting myself in feeling
Now the lights are hitting her in all the right places 
But she's unaware of the beauty in her paces

and you'll dance for me
and i'll clown around
i'll clown around this shitty place with you
this shitty place with you

lets - blow out
lets spin
go round
in these dirty streets

lets - blow out
lets spin
go round
in these dirty streets

i'll take you as you are
i'll never let your bad side
make me judge or push you far
away - we can be toxic together

i'll take you as you are
i'll never let your bad side
make me judge or push you far
away - we can be toxic together

together on
together wrong
together on
together wrong 
together on
together wrong
together on
together wrong
together on

TOXIC TOGETHER

Cheers to my homie https://soundcloud.com/sepha-joey for jumping on <3

Lyrics:

Rivilin:

a foggy bed covers home
how did I get here vision is not clear
lost in a maze of streets alone
all i do is fear, withered inside here

yeah there's a vacancy where i mistakenly 
put the trust in the ones i love
laying a wake with a knife pressed to my skull
as the nightmares take control

stuck on a cheap diet of cigarettes 
just so i can keep the hunger at bay
swear to god that someones living inside these walls, 
cus i know that hes calling me name

i don't feel like i'm making sense
when i talk yeah i just regret
every little sentence that leaves my mouth
cus you always seem to twist the words i say

whether it comes from a family, a father or lover 
or something i don't really care
try to explain what the dissociations is like
but they don't really understand

never can be perfect, yeah i know that
but its hard when you look and stare
filled with the judgment of someone else's problems
till it's more than i can bare

it's just a glitch in my personality
feel the anger lurk in me
boiling burning till the circuits 
in my spine start to collapse

pressure is building, the person on my shoulder
tells me that nothing here is real
guess that's fine, i'll just represses everything
until i cannot feel

i never wanted i never wanted all of this
i'm so disgusted, i'm so disgusted i can't quit
the faces changing, i think i'm lost inside my mind
yeah if i don't wake up soon i'm thinking of taking my life

yeah what's the point man, yeah what's the point when you just run
yeah i'm so pathetic, i couldn't understand im done.
yeah my mind is aching, i think depression has just won
yeah if i don't wake up, i think yeah my chances are gone

Sepha:

Look at you taking a part of me away
Every time u make demands and say
Its for my best u know me 
U have my best interests at heart

Our interests are not my interests
I just want to rediscover myself
Again i lost so much but
At least i wrote it all down to remind me in moments like this

Im running away now go
Not cos im a victim no
Just cos i let myself believe that i was your equal but no

U hide under pretenses
False empowerment perspectives
Everything is someone elses fault ur only using ur defences

Im flying away im
Glowing up glowing up glowing up

Look at u take a part of someone else away

Never Trust Anyone Ft. Sepha

Self produced / Sad  

CONTACT: RIVILINAU@GMAIL.COM

Visionary

Rivilin

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