prod. by @wraithontheporch

@AVXiD
look where we are
funeral suits in the back of the car
tastes like tar
but i like it
oh i love it
i wander the dark
feeling this hitting my heart
(i love it)
peel off the flesh like its bark
(i love it)
you know that i’ve been marked
(i love it)
i'm stuck looking up at the stars
(i love it)

i smell blood in here
can you tell me why that is
the scent of rotting tissue
blows in thru the window

@enyusroom
the organs, they fill up this ball pit
visions they haunt when i’m shutting my mouth quick
(empathy slipping away)
is that what i’m made of?
am i just really a monster?
i’m fading like smoke in the cold
was i ever solid or constant?
i followed to dig up my tomb
i feel like i’m holding the grudge here

so stop it now
watch me
wipe off the blood from the biting
i'm closer now
to the edge
to bury those screams in the silence

the hunger for blood made me
change how i move on this earth now
rip me apart in two
drain out the source as the lights drown

funeral suit (wraithontheporch)

lyrics below

i said it sofly under my breath before you had to leave
sorry that its so obvious sorry its all it seems
so oblivious to everything you do i have receipts
you wont look at them youd rather act like youre asleep

colder than ive ever been but i sweat in my sheets
but its not what you think
every part of my body push myself to the brink
you only do some things and i do a whole lot
make me feel like nothing
i wish that i could stop

baby baby quit the bluffing i know you dont wanna talk
and it feels like you’re steady runnin from everything i want
you could walk walk walk
ill be there until the end
push me out way farther than you ever thought id get
i cant admit that it was all up n my head
cuz i got eyes and i know what i see is dead

gimme time and gimme effort then youll know know
wasted lies because i saw right thru your skull skull skull
maybe try as if you’re cutting with a knife and it was dull
cuz right now how youre doing it, ur not cutting anything but my soul

i said it sofly under my breath before you had to leave
sorry that its so obvious sorry its all it seems

hate you remind me of my ex
wish that you never told me that
wish that you told me i was better than they was
when i was alone that night

cuz i was on my own had no more strength to fight
no more length in life
tortured tained eyes
and you don’t realize anything that you’ve done

receipts (yunnygoldz)

Produced and featured by @Sinxi 

Lyrics 

You don't know how to care for yourself
I'm right here
Every day if It helps
Tear your mind outside this rain
Help you move set yourself out the pain

And I know your losing faith
The abuse you endure just to break
Don't share your heart with him
When I love how your closer to me

Oh you don't even need to stay away
And cut my limbs and eat my heart out of my face
And set my eyes above your gaze
I know you`re worth the wait

I don't trust on decisions I have to make
Il lose us
What if my healing starts to fade
You never knew, how long it hurt
To be in love with her

Don't love
My feelings never felt so strange
I feel cursed
Why do I always end the same
I never knew, how long it hurt
To be in love with her
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(Sinxi)
I'm only human
But it's that u don't get
Tried my best to be near you
Yet your pushing me back
This silence is haunting
Like a movie and it
Doesn't seem to be moving
Cos your holding the brakes
I thought I could understand
This parallel we're heading in
It's hard to resist all the signals u give
And I'm lost in the sense that I'll find some relief
-------------------------------------

Oh you don't even need to stay away
And cut my limbs and eat my heart out of my face
And set my eyes above your gaze
I know you`re worth the wait

I don't trust on decisions I have to make
Il lose us
What if my healing starts to fade
You never knew, how long it hurt
To be in love with her

Don't love
My feelings never felt so strange
I feel cursed
Why do I always end the same
I never knew, how long it hurt
To be in love with her

CUT MY LIMBS (feat. Sinxi)

Vocals, Mix & Master by @solrisyours
Produced by @idlyblare
Released with safehaven.
Cover by Scarlet & @solrisyours
YouTube Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3LaINUnFnmo

lyrics:
it's nice to know eventually it gets better
and some changes needed made; i threw away that old sweater
the one he said looks best on me
but i feel safe where she stays
in this haven she made
she feels so right close to me

she makes her way in my dreams
my favorite company
i'll sit by those autumn leaves
the ones you piled for me

adorable girl, we'll make our way out of here
i'll show you the world, and that there's nothing to fear
or we can go to that forest no one knows
or a beach in the summer, we'll keep the water on our toes
or a house in the suburbs, watching shitty horror shows

it's nice to know not many know you like i do
even though that's the case, i still feel like i don't know you
what's your favorite food? what's your favorite thing to do?
all those things you say to me, do you promise that they're true?
god, those autumn leaves are pretty
i can't lie they remind me
they remind me of you.

solr - leaves (idly blare)

Keep giving away what my mind can’t comprehend, stop tryna fix what my heart can’t mend
What broke in my thoughts I know it won’t pass
Might as well leave it in the past
I really hope it doesn’t last 

Can’t fix what’s been broken
So tell me why it’s certain 
That everything will end
Everything will always end
Maybe on the best days i can find a new wave
Only on the worst days growing more n more grey
Only on the worst days I feel like the worst pain
Ever coursing through my veins
I need this shit in my vein
Tell me why there’s no other way
Tell me why there’s no other way 
Tell me why there’s no other way 
Tell me why there’s no other way 
I don’t wanna change but I can’t keep living this way
Gotta change my face before I go out and start a new day
I don’t wanna start a new day 
another day, living this fake
Another day,I’m making mistakes
Another day, I’m pushing these brakes

Keep giving away what my mind can’t comprehend, stop tryna fix what my heart can’t mend

Another day of feeling this way
while I write these words on a page
before I tear it out and throw it away
Fuck I wish I could treat this shit like my life and just throw it all away
But I still got too much shit to say 
too many words on my brain
Cannot change, just throw it away
Think that I might be insane I can’t change, just throw it away
I don’t wanna stay this way I’ve been trying to fix this pain
I can’t get no pay
I need to change my way

What broke in my thoughts I know it won’t pass
Might as well leave it in the past
I really hope it doesn’t last

Just throw it away, I keep on growing more gray
Just throw it away, I’m growing older every day
Just throw it away, and maybe I made mistake mistakes
Just throw it away, turning old and gray
I will throw it away
Just throw it away
get the fuck off my case I won’t throw it away
Stay the fuck out of my way 
got too much time to pay
Just throw it away, just throw it away

throw it away (secre x sorrowbringer)

i love strong and i dont feel bad about it at all 

future note: i do actually feel really bad about it but like i try to tell myself i dont to make myself feel better

exiter

Together (feat. ODARKA)

life is like.. a rollercoaster lol (with harvest)

instagram.com/xsrvnge

lyrics:
i been feelin so sad
feelin so upset
feelin like my life doesn't matter anymore 
nothing really helps
been thinking of suicide
i'm too afraid to die 
i don't really wanna go outside
fuck everybody, ima fuckin hide
i'm all alone
don't have anyone 
i'm so fucking numb
i cry but nobody cares
tried to call but there's nobody there
losing my mind
i'm in despair
don't wanna go
out bad
out sad
hope you remember me
will i even last here?
need another pill
i'm not even 23
i'll die before i can see
hope you remember this
ima be gone like a dream
this is my last note so u can read

hope u remember me [miercoles]

maybe

Days cling to the skylight,
On a station platform with just the two of us.
Where does the heart come from?
I tried asking you.
I thought it could stay this way.
I thought I wanted it to stay this way.
Tonight, beneath the cherry tree,
The dappled moonlight becomes a carpet.
“It’s the season for changing clothes,”
Along with the town that moves beyond the seasons.
You think
You know everything about me.
But even my shadow
Is not something you reflect.
I thought this way was good.
I thought this way wouldn’t do.
Dreaming of the moon above the cherry blossoms,
I want to speak my feelings to you.
The flowers in the asphalt I meet every day
Seem about to be swept away by the spring storm, yet remain unswept.
I thought it ended here.
I thought it began from here.
Tonight, beneath the cherry tree,
The dappled moonlight becomes a carpet.
Dreaming of the moon above the cherry blossoms,
I want to speak my feelings to you.
“It’s the season for changing clothes,”
Along with the town that moves beyond the seasons.
The flowers in the asphalt I meet every day
Seem about to be swept away by the spring storm, yet remain unswept.
Tonight, beneath the cherry tree,
The dappled moonlight becomes a carpet.


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hope u remember me [miercoles]

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