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lyrics:

(Yeah… what?)
(Wait, huh…)
(See what I’m sayin’?)

I been lost in the pills, can’t stand it (Can’t stand it)
Every night feelin’ stuck on a planet (On a planet)
Xans in my drink, and I’m crashin’ (I’m crashin’)
Tryna fill the void with distractions (With distractions)
Broken heart and I still can’t mask it (Still can’t)
Face numb, but the pain keep lastin’ (Keep lastin’)
Call me up when the world feels tragic
Tears on my face but I smile like it’s magic

Cold nights in the back of the whip (Skrrt)
Ash on my jeans and the blood on my lips
Tattoo scars, they remind me of this
Every love that I get just turns into a myth
She said forever but forever was fake
I mix the lean with the dreams that I chase
Wake up slow, can’t escape my fate
I drown in the drugs just to numb my brain

I been lost in the pills, can’t stand it (Can’t stand it)
Every night feelin’ stuck on a planet (On a planet)
Xans in my drink, and I’m crashin’ (I’m crashin’)
Tryna fill the void with distractions (With distractions)
Broken heart and I still can’t mask it (Still can’t)
Face numb, but the pain keep lastin’ (Keep lastin’)
Call me up when the world feels tragic
Tears on my face but I smile like it’s magic

(What is you sayin’… yeah)
(What is you sayin’… yeah)
I’m just stuck in the pain, what is you sayin’?
(Yeah, yeah… what is you sayin’?)

broken heart (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
Yeah, yeah
Double cup, I can’t feel my face
Whole lotta love, but it fade away
Got scars on my wrist, can’t erase my pain
Pour it up slow, watch the world decay

I’m sippin’ on red, mix it with Sprite
Tryna forget, every bad night
Stars in my head, demons in sight 
I don’t wanna die, but it feel right

I’m sippin’ on red, mix it with Sprite 
Codeine dreams, take me through the night 
Lost my soul, but I’ll be alright
Till the day I crash out, I’ll be alright

Heart froze up, can’t thaw that shit
Fake love all around, can’t call that shit
Tattoo tears on my skin, I admit
I’ve been prayin’ to the sky, never got no wish

Balenci shades on, still can’t see
All the pain in the world keep breakin’ me
Got a blade in my hand when I fall asleep
If I don’t wake up, don’t wait for me

I’m sippin’ on red, mix it with Sprite 
Tryna forget, every bad night 
Stars in my head, demons in sight 
I don’t wanna die, but it feel right 

I’m sippin’ on red, mix it with Sprite 
Codeine dreams, take me through the night 
Lost my soul, but I’ll be alright
Till the day I crash out, I’ll be alright

Four Giottos, but I’m still not fine
Diamonds on my wrist can’t freeze my mind
Every flight I take just a way to hide
But the past too close, always by my side

Roll my problems up, light another one 
If you cross me, better run, better run
Gun on my waist, but my heart weigh a ton
I can’t fold, not once, not once

I’m sippin’ on red, mix it with Sprite 
Tryna forget, every bad night 
Stars in my head, demons in sight 
I don’t wanna die, but it feel right 

I’m sippin’ on red, mix it with Sprite 
Codeine dreams, take me through the night 
Lost my soul, but I’ll be alright
Till the day I crash out, I’ll be alright

demons in sight (prod. yxngxs)

Glass with Old Overholt
Drowning undertow
Mumbling my thoughts 
Sores on my skin with dried blood
I feel gross
I am tho
I feel gross
I am dumb

pliers that take out my teeth,
i'm a liar and thief
i cant never tell the truth
though i always get to choose

This pain inside gnaws me up
Throw a bone out for the dogs
frowning at the deafening
Sound of bugs in my ear

Same Old whims
Cut my wings
Kiss my lips
I Never cry

Old Overholt (Demo)

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lyrics:
Yeah… I don’t wanna feel this way
Why you gotta leave me today?
Got my boots black, and my hoodie gray
I don’t wanna go outside, I’on like that

Everybody think I’m fine, I’on like that
Sippin’ on some lean while I write raps
Spend my money fast, I’ma make it back
I don’t wanna lose you, I don’t wanna hate you

I just wanna feel alive, I don’t wanna cry
Why you gotta ghost me, leave me high and dry?
Got my tattoos, yeah, they match my scars
Tryna hide the pain inside my heart

Shawty said she miss me even when I’m gone
Counting all my nights where I just write songs
I’ll have a couple mil’ by the time I’m grown
But I feel so alone, yeah, I feel so alone
Yeah, I don’t wanna lose you
I don’t wanna hate you
I don’t wanna feel like that
Why you gotta leave me like that?

All my nights I’m faded, staring at the sky
Broken dreams surround me, baby, don’t ask why
All these pills and drugs just to feel alive
Shawty love me still, even when I dive

I ain’t smokin’ on a dub, got my own stash
All these people fall in love, but it never lasts
Riding in my car, windows foggy glass
Tryna chase the pain, tryna dodge the past

Shawty said she miss me even when I’m gone
Counting all my nights where I just write songs
I’ll have a couple mil’ by the time I’m grown
But I feel so alone, yeah, I feel so alone
Yeah, I don’t wanna lose you
I don’t wanna hate you
I don’t wanna feel like that
Why you gotta leave me like that?

i feel so alone (prod. yxngxs)

Vocals, Mix & Master by @xsrvnge
Produced by yxngxs
Released with safehaven.
Cover by Amy Rose / safehaven.
YouTube Video:

lyrics:
Yeah, I thought you really loved me before
Now you’re slammin’ the door
Guess you don’t want me comin’ back
Yeah, I swear I seen your face in the crowd
Friday night gettin’ loud
With some other boy holdin’ your hand

Okay, now I get it, ho
You just wanna flex a show
I can’t even trip no more, no
She said "Why you so detached?"
Baby, I been losin’ sleep
Demons tryna cut me deep, oh
Blood on my ripped jeans, bitch
Cause I had to swing on shit
Heart steady bleedin’, ho, oh
Shawty lookin’ evil though
Free my brothers, keep ‘em close
I just wanna see ‘em home, oh
I’m a fallen angel, though
I can see the halo glow
I just can’t believe you, no, no
She said I’m in danger, woah
I don’t see no danger, ho
I’m the one that’s broken, ho, oh

Yeah, I thought you really loved me before
Now you’re slammin the door
Guess you don’t want me comin’ back
Yeah, I swear I seen your face in the crowd
Friday night gettin loud
With some other boy holdin’ your hand

Maybe I’ll see you when the lights fade
Maybe I’ll forget you on the highway
Maybe I’ll regret what I don’t say
Why you always playin’ games with my mind?
Why you always wastin all of my time?
I been pourin liquor, mixin’ with lines
Yeah, I’m doin’ fine

Yeah, I thought you really loved me before
Now you’re slammin’ the door
Guess you don’t want me comin’ back
Yeah, I swear I seen your face in the crowd
Friday night gettin’ loud
With some other boy holdin your hand

xsrvnge - coming back (yxngxs)

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lyrics:
Yeah, I thought you really loved me before
Now you’re slammin’ the door
Guess you don’t want me comin’ back
Yeah, I swear I seen your face in the crowd
Friday night gettin’ loud
With some other boy holdin’ your hand

Okay, now I get it, ho
You just wanna flex a show
I can’t even trip no more, no
She said "Why you so detached?"
Baby, I been losin’ sleep
Demons tryna cut me deep, oh
Blood on my ripped jeans, bitch
Cause I had to swing on shit
Heart steady bleedin’, ho, oh
Shawty lookin’ evil though
Free my brothers, keep ‘em close
I just wanna see ‘em home, oh
I’m a fallen angel, though
I can see the halo glow
I just can’t believe you, no, no
She said I’m in danger, woah
I don’t see no danger, ho
I’m the one that’s broken, ho, oh

Yeah, I thought you really loved me before
Now you’re slammin’ the door
Guess you don’t want me comin’ back
Yeah, I swear I seen your face in the crowd
Friday night gettin’ loud
With some other boy holdin’ your hand

Maybe I’ll see you when the lights fade
Maybe I’ll forget you on the highway
Maybe I’ll regret what I don’t say
Why you always playin’ games with my mind?
Why you always wastin all of my time?
I been pourin liquor, mixin’ with lines
Yeah, I’m doin’ fine

Yeah, I thought you really loved me before
Now you’re slammin’ the door
Guess you don’t want me comin’ back
Yeah, I swear I seen your face in the crowd
Friday night gettin’ loud
With some other boy holdin your hand

coming back w/ safehaven (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:

All my friends turned ghosts in my head
I don’t dream, I just sleep with regret
Smoke fills up my lungs, turns red
I don’t feel alive, I just feel the end
Can’t call home, no signal left
I’ve been numb so long I forget my chest
If I die young, then I meant what I said
Love me when I’m gone, hate me when I’m dead

Face in the mirror, can’t recognize
Eyes too dark, got a heart that lies
You said forever, but forever died
Now I write songs just to stay alive
Cold veins, warm hands, no faith
Still pray I don’t fade away
If the pain gon’ come, let it stay
It’s the only thing that feels the same

All my friends turned ghosts in my head
I don’t dream, I just sleep with regret
Smoke fills up my lungs, turns red
I don’t feel alive, I just feel the end
Can’t call home, no signal left
I’ve been numb so long I forget my chest
If I die young, then I meant what I said
Love me when I’m gone, hate me when I’m dead

Rain hits the glass, feels like peace
Hate this world but it won’t hate me
Drugs in the dark, no melody
Heart in my hands, no remedy
You said “don’t go,” but I already did
Half of my soul stuck where you live
Heaven don’t call, hell won’t text
So I talk to the moon when I need to confess

All my friends turned ghosts in my head
I don’t dream, I just sleep with regret
Smoke fills up my lungs, turns red
I don’t feel alive, I just feel the end
Can’t call home, no signal left
I’ve been numb so long I forget my chest
If I die young, then I meant what I said
Love me when I’m gone, hate me when I’m dead

ghosts in my head (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:

I’ve been runnin’ from your love, it kills me
Feelin’ numb, can’t feel nothin’ really
Popped a pill, try to drown it slowly
Said you’d save me, but you left me lonel
y
Yeah, I’m breakin’ down, I’m fallin’ apart
Heart too cold, I don’t wanna start
You said you loved me, but you left me scarred
Now I’m in my head, fallin’ back in the dark

I still see your face when I close my eyes
Every night I dream, I’m hearin’ your lies
Demons in my room, yeah they whisperin’ lies
Tried to numb the pain, now I’m hypnotized
Lean in my cup, pills on my shelf
I give you all my love, don’t got none for myself
World feelin’ fake, my heart feelin’ dead
I’m just a ghost walkin’ in my bed
You called me crazy, said I’d never change
But I’m just a kid trapped inside the rain
I light another cigarette, thinkin’ ‘bout us
All these broken promises turned to dust

I’ve been runnin’ from your love, it kills me
Feelin’ numb, can’t feel nothin’ really
Popped a pill, try to drown it slowly
Said you’d save me, but you left me lonely
Yeah, I’m breakin’ down, I’m fallin’ apart
Heart too cold, I don’t wanna start
You said you loved me, but you left me scarred
Now I’m in my head, fallin’ back in the dark

I sip my pain away, but it never leaves
All these sleepless nights, all these silent pleas
I thought you were heaven, but you came with disease
Now I’m trapped in this love like a disease
My heart’s on fire, veins full of ice
Tryna find warmth, payin’ any price
I know I’m broken, I know I’m wrong
But I keep your memory, yeah it keeps me strong
I wear your ghost like a chain on my chest
Tryna breathe in the love, but it leaves me stressed
I don’t want forever, I don’t want your lies
I just want peace before my heart dies

I’ve been runnin’ from your love, it kills me
Feelin’ numb, can’t feel nothin’ really
Popped a pill, try to drown it slowly
Said you’d save me, but you left me lonely
Yeah, I’m breakin’ down, I’m fallin’ apart
Heart too cold, I don’t wanna start
You said you loved me, but you left me scarred
Now I’m in my head, fallin’ back in the dark

falling apart (prod. yxngxs)

F-falling… f-falling… through the night
C-can’t tell if it’s real or just l-light
Shadows hug me close, I c-can’t fight
Breathing you in, then y-you’re out of sight

S-save me, love, I’m lost in y-your glow
I disappear, d-don’t know where to go
I don’t know if y-you feel me, but I feel you s-slow
I’ll trace your scars w-when the lights go low

I’ve been awake thinking ‘bout the things we b-broke
Every text unread c-cuts me like smoke
Pull me close, but I f-feel so alone
I whisper y-your name, you’re just a t-tone
Every night blends, every tear the s-same
I replay our fights, it’s a twisted g-game
I keep my heart locked, but I leave the k-key
Hoping you’ll find me, c-come rescue me

S-save me, love, I’m lost in y-your glow
I disappear, d-don’t know where to go
I don’t know if y-you feel me, but I feel you s-slow
I’ll trace your scars w-when the lights go low

I drift through dreams w-where you hold me tight
But I wake alone in the d-dead of night
Every promise b-broken, every word you s-said
Echoes in my chest, l-like ghosts in my bed
I want to scream, but my voice f-fades thin
Every time you left, I f-felt it sink in
I reach for your warmth, b-but it’s just a t-trace
I’m addicted to your ghost, c-can’t leave this space

I’m drowning in your s-shadow, but I l-love the pain
I want you near, e-even if it drives me insane
Soft whispers c-call me, I f-fall again
Pull me c-closer, love me through the rain

L-lost… l-lost now, lost now, l-lost now
Lost now, l-lost now, lost now, l-lost now
Lost now, l-lost now, lost now, l-lost now
Lost now… in your g-glow, I g-go—

S-save me, love, I’m lost in y-your glow
I disappear, d-don’t know where to go
I don’t know if y-you feel me, but I feel you s-slow
I’ll trace your scars w-when the lights go low

save me (prod. yxngxs)

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