prod. metlast

i try to pretend this shit
is not fucking real
cuz theres no, way in hell
i could ever deal
with all the shit u say to me
and all things that ppl think
and i dont need to let u know
i dont need ur apathy 
i would rather die 
then take that shit anyway 

cuz everydays a living hell
but i still deny every ounce of help
that is offered to me 
cuz i dont...
feel like i dont deserve it
ppls affection....
makes me nervous... 
woah

just toss me out to sea...
it would probably be more efficent
cuz i have dreams of swimming with these fish
and all i do these days is reminisce

nervous [+metlast]

I would give away a life, I would kill for you..
Would you do the same for me? Baby, what'd you do?
Nothing hurts me anymore, but I know it's real. The pain is real.

No one cares whatever I think, when I talk pretend I don't speak. (x2)

There ain't a single fucking thing I wouldn't do for you,
I would throw away my soul for me and you, everything I do, yeah its all for you.

Leave me, I don't wanna go home, I've been really manic tell me that I'm psycho.

Nothing hurts me anymore, but I know it's real. The pain is real.

Kill for You  (prod. caustyk)

Enjoy.

Lyrics:


Pre Chorus

When my friend died, shit that really changed me
They all move on, they all actin shady
So I don't wanna grow up
I don't wanna act tough
Been through hell so many times
But I won't ever give up

Chorus

Yeah, I had enough
I been going so hard since "When I Was Young"
Yeah, I'm goin up
Goin up
Cover skin with tattoos cuz I don't give a fuck
Yeah, you're so in love 
So in love
When they see me gloing up, they're gonna wanna say wassup

Bridge

Ohh, where did I go?
Where did I go? (x2)

Verse

They did you dirty yes I know
I've felt so cold, I've been so broke
I know I don't do what I'm told
That's why I stand here all alone (x2)

Give Up

Give Up (prod. Taurs & IOF)

Nathaniel Christopher unveils a striking new body of work that blends raw emotion with experimental soundscapes and hypnotic rhythms. Across these five tracks, Nathaniel captures the turbulence of love, identity, and self-discovery, crafting an immersive listening experience that is as vulnerable as it is visionary. “Mr. Sonic”, the project establishes its futuristic energy through pulsing grooves and layered textures. “Real Love” with heartfelt sincerity, exploring the search for truth and vulnerability. On “Shower Curtains,” Christopher embraces a darker, atmospheric palette, pulling listeners into an intimate and cinematic soundscape. “Virgin Mindset” pushes forward with bold reflection, embodying themes of growth and new perspectives. “Lost Relationships,” the collection leaves a lasting impression — a bittersweet meditation on heartbreak, healing, and resilience. With its balance of introspection and innovation, the album showcases Nathaniel Christopher & his ability to transform his deeply personal experiences into universally resonant music — a soundtrack for moments of solitude, reflection, and late-night journeys.

mr. sonic

sstep wit me

all night

Featuring: https://soundcloud.com/hazenova
Produced By: https://soundcloud.com/jolst
Mixed And Mastered By Hazenova

something i never had (feat. hazenova) (prod. jolst)

Talk a lot, it never seems to stop,
nothing ever matters when your head is on top,
I cannot see straight, tell myself to calm down,
you don't wanna reason, too much for me right now.

Find peace in thinking of myself in the ground,
scars around me, but they'll never be found,
I scream and scream, my family can't hear a sound,
no one around me now...

I'd give you the world,
if that's all you want,
it's really not much,
my loves not enough.

Im not letting this go,
you have someone, I got no one to hold, so,

Scars (prod. Irby)

Dead Broke:

No one's above me,
eating me up slowly,
it haunts me,
feel nothing, it's empty in-
side. she can't resist, there ain't no-
lie, lie, lie, lie.

Trechor Boy:

i cant describe this feeling
through spoken words only
i try
so ill try
but
man im fuckin lonely

black skies
moonlit
deep like a
ground well
deep end
lost
loss
pit
trapped
inside my shell
open up yr fckn eys 0_0

Dead Broke:

F***k you! Forcing me to live..
You see, nothing it's clearly.
She says, it's in my head.
I don't think, the world's gonna hear me,

Trechor Boy:

i don’t think you’ll ever fully hear me out
but young trech is finally signing out

Lie ft. trechor boy

You’re the one to blame (prod. jolst)

@bitekivibes EXCLUSIVE

https://soundcloud.com/bitekivibes/iluvtora-i-lied

Produced by @deadspyro + @sadboiforever

Lyrics:

i got u falling on ur knees and u told me it was alright

yeah-yeah i get lost in ur eyes
i didn't mean to hurt u
u caught me by surprise
and i've never felt love in my life
thats what i wanna find 
all i do is fucking hide
and i wanna be sober to-n-i-g-ht
ah-ah-ah
its what i say every single time
but instead im getting high
yeah i lied

i got u falling on ur knees and u told me it was alright
but in my mind, all my voices know ur not fine
and all i care about, is if im someone
and if u'll love me again or is it over?

falling on ur knees and u told me it was alr-i-g-ht
but in my mind, all my voices know ur not f-i-ne
and all i care a-b-o-ut, is if im som-e-o-ne
and if u'll love me a-g-a-in or is it o-v-er?

i can't decide what im gonna do
cus in my mind i can see us 2
and i can't write a single song without me crying
but when im done hope ull see me f-l-y-i-ng 
but if lied and if i d-i-e
u'll have me right there by your side

yeah i get lost in ur eyes
i didn't mean to hurt u
u caught me by surprise
and i've never felt love in my life
thats what i wanna find 
all i do is fucking hide
and i wanna be sober to-n-i-g-ht
ah-ah-ah
its what i say every single time
but instead im getting high
yeah i lied

i got u falling on ur knees and u told me it was alright

You’re the one to blame (prod. jolst)

THROB