November 2020 🔥

I remember those moments dancing on the beach under the summer sun. The warmth of the sand beneath my feet and the sunlight touching my skin fills my heart with a deep warmth. Laughing with friends while playing in the waves feels like time has stopped. Freedom and love spread with the wind, together with the endless blue sky. In this moment, everything is perfect, and the joy inside my heart overflows. I want to keep dancing to the rhythm of summer until the night falls.
#Sunshine #Groove #SummerHeat #BeachVibes #DanceFree #SummerRays #LoveInTheAir #GoldenDays #PureDelight #SummerJoy

Sunshine Symphony

produced by @ihateshinigami
engineered by heartbreak jake and shinigami
written and performed by macho randy and shinigami

I'm so sorry for what I did last night at that party with her :(

SHINIGAMI & MACHO RANDY "IDK why I'm like this"

teach me how to lose [prod martensite & solorun]

u said u wouldn't run from this 


older got taken down 
back up enjoy 
while you can 

<3

u said u wouldn't run from this  Feat. LIL LOTUS

i know its all my fault
i know its all my fault

I can hardly sleep with all this paranoia
Right now I’m not worth it
Let me prove it to ya
Stay around for long enough
I’ll sadly show ya
There’s a traitor in my mirror
And I don’t fucking know him

My brain places demons
In the darkest corners
I’ve been hearing echos
In this burning forest
The fire and the embers
Say they’re coming for us
I’m not ready for the dirt
But I’m still sinking lower

I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault
I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault

swear this shit gotta stop
but i like pain a lot
and you like that im fucked
you just wont admit it
i've been biting my tongue
goosebumps up on my arm
i'll just talk to this cup
and forget the issue

I can hardly sleep with this paranoia
Right now I’m not worth it
Let me prove it to ya
Stay around for long enough
I’ll sadly show ya
There’s a traitor in the mirror
And I don’t fucking know him

My brain places demons
In the darkest corners
I’ve been hearing echos
In this burning forest
The fire and the embers
Say they’re coming for us
I’m not ready for the dirt
But I’m still sinking lower

I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault
I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault

PPL THT I LUV THE MOST

scraped my knee pt 2 w/ 93FEETOFSMOKE

prod. sapphire2001

lyrics:

i can feel in the air tonight
smoke seeping from my lungs tonight
i dont wanna disappoint you
i dont wanna disappoint you

yeah you are so toxic like a poison i just threw up in the bathroom
medicate myself until i feel like i dont have you
stab me in the hall, leave my body by the stairway
bag me up and throw me somewhere nobody will find me
you cut me off so the cuts are on me now
i was by myself, now im choking claustrophobic
medically diagnosed depression from my therapist
you say im faking, check the fucking trash bin

disappoint myself and everyone else thats around me
you wish you were richer oh my god now thats astounding
i wish i could be a different person than myself yeah
ive been making plays might book a show at the foundry

chemically engineered they say that im so toxic
everyone around hates when i sing cause im obnoxious
i dont wanna die but i dont wanna fucking be me
ima shoot myself the day i see my face on tv
ima get a bag like my name was louis v
ive been making music vids im on a shooting spree
i dont wanna live and i dont wanna make you cry now
all the voices in my head are telling me to die now

u cut me off so the cuts r on me now..

day 38 cant make it
counting scars like marks in the pavement
all the love in me turned to hatred
and beautiful things bring pain when
they're gone like we all will be
wish I could kill my fucking feelings
stuck in this hell scratched your name in the ceiling
starting to think that this is really how it ends
been 6 months since I've seen you
hope you're doing good yea me too
things have changed so much and I've seen a new life
it all fell into place without you by my side
then 10 years came and went so quick
your first love's gone and got 3 kids
it took so long but there's so much I've missed
I've learned life hurts but I love this

And all I ever really wanted was you in it
Maybe I'm meant to spend forever as a masochist

all I have left is in my head
a blank space with your name in it
wish you would have stayed but I understand
went too deep and drowned again
I think the pain made me love instead
pulled out the oages inside my head
felt what it means to see everything and
every being for what it is
I still miss you so much
but everythings hopeless and its not so bad
add another slash and run it back screaming

Day 38 cant make it
counting scars like marks in the pavement
all the love in me turned to hatred
and beautiful things bring pain when
they're gone like we all will be
wish I could kill my fucking feelings
stuck in this hell scratched your name in the ceiling
starting to think that this is really how it ends
been 6 months since I've seen you
hope you're doing good yea me too
things have changed so much and I've seen a new life
It all fell into place without you by my side
then 10 years came and went so quick
your first love's gone and got 3 kids
it took so long but there's so much I've missed
I've learned life hurts but I love this

Day 38

day 38 (prod. shon lindauer)

HO HO HO BICH GET ON THA FLO 
MERRY WHATEVER, LUV U!!  
#FREESTYLEALERT
ft. @ihateshinigami
prod.mix.mast @93feetofsmoke

FUCK JACKFROST

XMAS SUX WITHOUT U ft. Shinigami

oh those eyes remind me that it all ends bad
hold her hand with the IV sticking out I cant
sit and say goodbye please baby don’t leave
it should have been me
it should have been me

I never felt as powerless as i did in the hospital room
every second and hour spent saying how much i love you
and I’m so sorry that I fucking lied
said I’ll protect you but I couldn’t this time
it doesn’t matter how hard I tried
how the hell do I say goodbye
i wanna be the way we were
but it just keeps getting worse
keep screaming at the nurse I’m sorry
watch them take away your body

oh those eyes remind me that it all ends bad
hold her hand with the IV sticking out I cant
sit and say goodbye please baby don’t leave
it should have been me
it should have been me
scream until you comeback
I need you please don’t go yet
give me one more day
why would they take you away from me
I’m staring at the sky 
and wonder if you’re behind with
a thousand eyes on you
sitting inside the blue it still doesn’t feel real yet
kneeling next to your bed and seeing you so damn cold
just tell me its all a fucking lie

oh those eyes remind me that it all ends bad
hold her hand with the IV sticking out I cant
sit and say goodbye please baby don’t leave
it should have been me
it should have been me

keep screaming (prod. neek)

live drums performed and written by @jordancd3

i forgot how the cold really warms my heart
still im drenched in the blood of my former love
spent my last 2 cents tryna make things right
but this bottle cant find me the route to a brighter life

everything is trife
get on ur feet and fight
one day we'll be alright
for now just bite the bullet
and hold on tight
then relax as the shoreline runs thru ur toes
watch it wash me away with our dreams and our hopes
these are caustic conditions
they call for some basic composure
which u lack, in addition u flee and u fold
dont attack, just avoid everything that u know
comatase

now take it all back
yeah take me far away
dont try and paint me black
while blood runs thru my veins
you always seem afraid
of what im gunna say
when all im tryna do
is find my way to you
and even if it hurts
its worth all of the pain
ur cryin in the dirt
im sleepin in the rain
i know i did it first
and nothing feels the same
but we made it through the worst
please dont say this was in vein

before i go
please take this as a reminder
that i love u so much
id do anything to find ya
in a world so cold
that the weather keeps u frozen
thru ur skin to ur bones
and my arms feel like home
but u know that im so broken
in a state of comatose
lay my body in the ocean
let the coast take my soul

Follow me <3

comatose

Heart Right

Slatt Zy - Heart Right

lyrics:

when i hear the wind blowing thru the leaves
celestial
crystalline
the night that i met you i'd call bittersweet
what did you want 
and what did you need?

i'm reaching for the surface
i'm drowning in the starlight
like it's everything i wanted
like it's everything i wanted
i don't care what you did
i want to let you back in
like you're everything i wanted
because you're everything i wanted

and i used to think you'd save my soul
but the older i get the farther it goes
and i used to think you'd know my pain
but by the look on your face
i feel like i'm a mistake

(chorus)

save on spotify

everything i wanted

2-part remix of bladee's "reality surf"
original: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xUAgawZAi5g

<3

reality surf (bladee remix)

@rosesleeves @kwuzi @0noahh
prod @prodyxshi @rosesleeves

Rosesleeves, Kwuzi & Noahh - PACK IN MY ROOM (Yxshi & Rose)

Torn & Forget Forever, the first 2 singles from my upcoming album are out now

comatose

yesterday

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