[chorus]
it’s so sad to see
you’re my ecstasy
won’t be secondary
won’t be secondary
for you i’d give my heart
til i fall apart
i’m crumbling slowly
you’re watching me bleed

[verse]
nose bleeds, harm scars
watch me fall apart
i’m your rock
and your back bone in the dark
baby i need to know if you’re good too
suffering when i think about you two
swear to god i could drop off and die now
where’s the help that i give out, in time we’ll
break apart til the dogs feast on my
flesh and carcass, body for the dinner time

[verse 2]
fuck you, hate me
you’ll already break me
what’s the point in this
when you ain’t bout reciprocating
stuck in limbo
you won’t let me die now
you’ll die too
so my hands are fucking tied now

[chorus]
it’s so sad to see
you’re my ecstasy
won’t be secondary
won’t be secondary
for you i’d give my heart
til i fall apart
i’m crumbling slowly
you’re watching me bleed

2nd-ary intro (prod. caves)

[verse 1]
how can i say what the heart thinks
when i always repress everything
cause you give me strength to fight
but i lose like every night
yet you bring me to my feet
and you say just fight, don’t think
so i go and put my hands up
‘til i close my eyes and stay shut

[verse 2]
yeah it’s easier to be
dead inside, my lungs don’t breathe
but i don’t think i could leave
my love alone this spring
cause she gives me peace and comfort
when the world is getting colder
she’s my sun when season’s changing
rather burns than winter’s freezing

[outro]
but now the sun is setting, my love where’d you go
can’t find my way back home now in this snow
cut my life too short just to gain some peace
i can’t stand this life when you’re not with me

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sunset (prod. idly blare)

[chorus]
i fall to my knees, baby
you say that you’re in love but not with me
you’re wearing all my hoodies and my tees
you drinking at my crib and smoking tree
you smoking tree
so what do you need, baby
i give you things you want but you don’t need
these things that he can’t give i do for free
and all i ask is that you love on me
come fall for me

[verse]
got texts on my phone but i don’t really read ‘em
girl only for you will i ever be reading
i type a reply, hit the send, now i’m waiting
this thump in my chest got me thinking i’m bleeding
now i just wake i’m creased creased
waiting for my baby
she don’t got a new phone
but she not replying
so i slammed the brakes oh my love
to the face where i go
i can’t tell where to go
imma walk to the light

[chorus]
i fall to my knees, baby
you say that you’re in love but not with me
you’re wearing all my hoodies and my tees
you drinking at my crib and smoking tree
you smoking tree
so what do you need, baby
i give you things you want but you don’t need
these things that he can’t give i do for free
and all i ask is that you love on me
come fall for me

fall 4 me (prod. clozz)

[chorus]
can you call my name?
can you make me feel sane?
i been up all night with these thoughts
and i know that you could take them away
can you numb my pain?
cause this shit ain’t a game
girl you take my worries in your hands
and just melt them away

[verse]
talking conversations
when we do it on the phone
girl you helping all my worries
i don’t take ‘em on my own
yeah this devil in the moonlight
wanna show his influence
so you know that i still need ya
even through these differences

call me up we could do it on a face time
baby girl i just know you gonna be mine
show you off, baby, even in the daylight
what you wanna do? tell me everything you like
oh baby you know you’re the everything i like
alright, imma keep here by my side
you’s a star baby, how could you just not shine
all white like you on our fucking wedding night

[chorus]
can you call my name?
can you make me feel sane?
i been up all night with these thoughts
and i know that you could take them away
can you numb my pain?
cause this shit ain’t a game
girl you take my worries in your hands
and just melt them away

[outro]
can you call my name?
can you make me feel sane?
i been up all night with these thoughts
and i know that you could take them away
can you numb my pain?
cause this shit ain’t a game
girl you take my worries in your hands
and just melt them away

talktalktalk (prod. okayjml)

[chorus]
and if you run away
don’t come back again
i don’t wanna see your face
i don’t wanna fall in love again
i don’t wanna have to hold my tongue
just to protect all your feelings
i don’t wanna hide all of my thoughts
i don’t wanna lose another friend

[verse]
you overreact and tell me that you’re fucking done
you always say shit that made me feel fucking dumb
you always made me second guess every action
you drove me to the edge and then roped me back in
and then you swore that this shit just wouldn’t happen
that things wouldn’t repeat and i’m overreacting
i swear to god you were the chains that kept
me trapped in
i guess i’ll close my heart, i’m cold and never lacking

[chorus]
and if you run away
don’t come back again
i don’t wanna see your face
i don’t wanna fall in love again
i don’t wanna have to hold my tongue
just to protect all your feelings
i don’t wanna hide all of my thoughts
i don’t wanna lose another friend

i can't do this anymore (prod. sk8miles)

[chorus]
where you reside, like where you at
she wanna die, she smoking packs
she taking pills, she takes her time
she drowns herself inside the wine
she hit me up, she wanna ride
i tell my baby hop inside the mx-5
i’ll take you out, you don’t even gotta try
when i’m with you i don’t ever wanna die
wanna die babe

[verse 1]
two calls, their missed calls on my phone
i decline the pop ups, on my own
send them all to the dial tone
oh baby can you just leave me alone
yeah yeah
all these bitches hit me up but they are not my baby
yeah all these bitches swear to god you drive me crazy
i am not your man so why you text me on the daily
yeah they all obsessed but i don’t really like the crazies

[bridge]
we got wounds that stay deep inside
and we got things we only do inside the night
babe we ain’t talk in a minute let’s connect
i ain’t seen ya, let connect i just wanna see ya

[chorus]
where you reside, like where you at
she wanna die, she smoking packs
she taking pills, she takes her time
she drowns herself inside the wine
she hit me up, she wanna ride
i tell my baby hop inside the mx-5
i’ll take you out, you don’t even gotta try
when i’m with you i don’t ever wanna die
wanna die babe

mx-5 intro (prod. flippyyy)

produced by @heyimbdubs
mixed by @kidmangx 

[verse]
how does it feel now
when i ain’t inside your life
how does it feel now
that you ain’t inside of mine
cause these walls are steady closing
and the clock reads wrong time
guess no matter what we set up
we won’t ever hear a chime
and i guess i’m reminiscing
from a world spoken in rhymes
when my music’s but a comfort
will you still listen to mine
and i miss your smell on my sheets
when i comforted your crying
but the way you stole my heart babe
is akin to a crime

[bridge]
but these thoughts don’t leave with you this evening
i seen you in dreams, unspeaking
our worst fears come true in the night time
look at me deep into my eyes

[verse]
though some things had changed
i still pray that you’re doing okay
cause my life ain’t great
but with you on my mind i can stay another day
so for you i’ll live
even though i do it in pain
don’t check on me
cause you left me in the worst state
don’t feel guilty
everything that i’ve done i did it to myself
no telepathy
you can’t read my mind so just think i’m doing great
though im bout to break
i just hide the fact and continue on in peace
but i’m on death’s bed
so i pray to god you forgot all about me

the clock's chime is broken, what a shame (prod. b.wub)

lyrics: 

[verse 1]
useless individual
it’s not enough to die, take my soul
useless individual 
you never cared, don’t act like you do
and maybe if i found my will
i could try and be someone but i feel so ill 
i lay in bed way past noon
don’t hit me up cause i won’t leave my room

[chorus]
tongue feels so dry
crust in my eyes
i can’t even pick me up 
cause i feel so blue
voice feels so hoarse
lock on my door
writing on a note
cause i’ll see death real soon

[verse 2]
i been gone 
for so long
i hope none of my friends
ever feel like they miss me
cause i can’t 
sing any songs
i don’t think that i have any of it
left in me
i might just go missing

stream!

useless (prod. wisssery)

[verse]
i got a lot of shit pent up
and i got too much in my mental
like fucked up thoughts that don’t nobody know about
i should just go get these bands up
and i should just go get a band bruh
and i should just purchase a firearm
and when nobody looking i’ll chamber a bullet
and just blow it all in my mental
like fuck it we buy ornamentals
and shawty we drink oriental
like fuck it i’m too tee’d up off a soju
won’t fuck me like she on her menstrual
she blow me like she giving dental
and i do all this shit like i’m meant to
pop two more shots straight to the dome
500 for the double barrel
that’s that zombie shit

[chorus]
oh my god i lost my shit
i’m too fucked can’t find this shit yeah
she don’t like it when i’m like this
lost control can’t drive the whip yeah
oh my god i lost this bitch
too fucked up she hope i miss yeah
bullets fly round in this bitch
i just hope that i don’t miss yeah

L-057 (prod. lostcage)

thought you’d stay with me forever but you left like everyone else
you just use me and discard me like a trinket on your shelf
thought i’m used to it but you hurt me more than anyone else
so now i’m not looking for love and i’ll just stay here by myself

and i’m cold without you here to keep me warm
and i know that i’m pathetic in this form
and it shows but i don’t really wanna talk about it
i don’t really wanna talk about it

decays inside
i hope you find
your peace of mind
cause i can’t find mine
decays inside
i hope you find
your peace of mind
cause i can’t find mine

i don't really wanna talk about it (prod. michael harrison)

Going for an ambient lofi vibe, inspired by @sadboywithalaptop and @saysooo / @depressionsweater

Ukulele by Shiki and melodica played by me <3. 
The Ukulele part can be found here:

https://www.looperman.com/loops/detail/134328/lofi-ukulele-140bpm-140bpm-hip-hop-ukulele-loop

i stay in my room thinking about you

welcome to the yokai hub, enjoy your stay.

@oni_boy