Curtain Call ❤️‍🔥

Winter ‘22-‘23

Daily Drops

Daily Drops 3/22/2023

prod me :)

lyrics:

it takes a lot to understand
and a lot just to forgive
i got a song stuck in my head
and the words just make me sick
because it makes me think of you
and that's the last thin i wanna do
we were kissing til we can't 
making angels in the snow
now i've got an empty hand 
and a lump within my throat
and i just can't seem to renew
because there's no one else like you

i
don't wanna cry
so leave me inside
where i'm without harm
lie
i hate when i lie
i'm feeling like ice
i'd like to be warm

so
where u been at, where u been at?
cold
i'm used to that, i'm used to bein
alone
will you be back before i turn to stone?

no
i don't think that you'll make it even close
and god i wish i didn't have to know
i didn't have to know

i don't wanna go
but i don't wanna stay
cuz everywhere i look i see your face
i don't wanna go
i guess i'll stay the same
i've never felt like more of a disgrace


I GUESS I'M TALKING TO MYSELF, LOVE
HAVING CONVERSATIONS WITH A GHOST
I SWEAR THE THOUGHT OF YOU'S A PARASITE
AND I'M A VERY WILLING HOST
I'D GIVE IT ALL TO SEE YOU BACK HERE
BUT I DON'T HAVE A LOT TO LOSE
I GUESS I'M TALKING TO MYSELF, DEAR
BECAUSE IT CLEARLY ISN'T YOU

Echo 419

produced by xona, ruevi, & oc

big thank you to all individuals who helped make this song possible <3

@ruevi @prod-oc
@heylog
@hiraethsry
@sleepywater
@sinxi
@caspywaspy
@vilsynth
@valerii
@deadfishh

the lyrics were over 4000 characters and that's the limit for soundcloud ♥

-lyrics-
https://genius.com/Xona-avoid-ii-lyrics

xona

spotify

avoid II w/ ruevi, heylog, hiraeth, sleepwater, sinxi, casperrr, vil, valerii & deadfish

I miss you so much honestly.

well, im only here cause i love you
and i met you for a reason now i need you
i dont wanna get attached..
get attached..
but its a little hard, cause you make me feel
thats something i aint really done in a year
done in a year, a little more

well, im only here cause i love you :(
cause i love you, cause i love you x2
i think you're too hard on yourself..
too hard on yourself, too hard on yourself
and i dont even know you that well,
but i think youre cool..

you were like.. everything to me. you got me thru the most conflicting time of my life when i was recovering from the past, discovering myself, and accepting fate. i didn't really think youd ever go, and i guess that was dumb on my part. but i'd never blame you..
i hope youre safe hun.

i love you.. (caves x pekarot)

scull a fuckin bottle, but it only makes it worse
i cant even feel it now, i guess its just part of the curse
all the black inside my veins is all i know, it fucking hurts
if you end my suffering ill pay you more than what its worth

flipping through the pages, writing in my book like
gotta stay quick on my feet write a hook like
gotta keep going, get used to my new life
all of this pain, and all of this new strife

everythings dark, but i know its the same
hit me on the phone, but im gonna hit the blade
you could never fucking tell me that you know whats in my brain
yeah but fuck it ima burden, yeah but fuck it im insane

reach for the ruger, point it at my skull and i
pull the lil trigger but then it be null and i
all of my trauma make me feel so dull and i
count on these substances to make me numb and i

dont really feel it cause im just so done and i
never feel nothin, i never have fun and i
drown in my hell while i bang on my drum and i
try to make noise but i know im just scum and i

scull a fuckin bottle, but it only makes it worse
i cant even feel it now, i guess its just part of the curse
all the black inside my veins is all i know, it fucking hurts
if you end my suffering ill pay you more than what its worth

Skull

SCULL (prod. Caves)

:)

prod by this actual goober https://soundcloud.com/not-a-fucking-hero

https://twitter.com/DreamsYokai

stream: https://open.spotify.com/album/4SO6le1LMvrTajvgMq4eDY?si=7J4D5kgbSfiFLWqVohv-Ew

lyrics:

where do we go from here?
i don't really know
no, i don't really know much
got a lot on my conscience
bear the weight
only cuz you tell me that it's nonsense
try to stay calm
but my mind is a moshpit
and it's growing obnoxious

spend another late night
driving back from your place
didn't wanna stay there
i can't get to bed if i don't feel like i'm alone
cuz otherwise i think too much
they tell me live a real life
i am not familiar with what that would even feel like
i cannot relate to the feelings that you know
but you don't understand that much

i'll write you letters and letters and hope that you read them and call
don't think you read them at all

i'll write you letters and letters and hope that you read them and call
don't think you read them at all

apophenia (hero)

Smile

Ohh baby girl you got some nerve
Left me here to rot inside the dirt
If you found a better man you coulda told me first
she said that she loves me thats just words
He just wants your body and to touch up on them curves
But I want more than that
I could treat you right ...
But you just proved to me that you ain't wifey type
Fuck a fight
Get up out my face
This is the 3rd strike
Ghost her at a moments notice
thought I am poltergiest
~
Can't believe everything I did for you to stab me in the back like this
That girl left some holes in my heart like swiss
too good to be true from the start; reminisce
I DON'T WANT YOU BACK
~
Pack your shit and go
I gotta heal all of these scars you dealt
Trust Issues for life
Flick a light feel my body melt
Sick of getting high everynight just to unfeel what you did to me
All this damage on my soul for some mid pussy
~
Bed feels empty
I don't mind
Thoughts may tempt me but
~
Ohh baby girl you got some nerve
Left me here to rot inside the dirt
If you found a better man you coulda told me first
she said that she loves me thats just words
He just wants your body and to touch up on them curves
But I want more than that
I could treat you right ...
But you just proved to me that you ain't wifey type
Fuck a fight
Get up out my face
This is the 3rd strike
Ghost her at a moments notice
thought I am poltergiest
~
That hoe for the streets 
I ain't fuckin wit a cheat
cut her off like circumcision 
I don't want no damn receipt
Had to call up the mortician
cause that bitch is dead to me
I must be an electrician cause this shit ain't shockin me
Know that girl still watchin me cause I am poppin off
you must be mistaking me for someone that I was
I ain't takin shit from you I'm only working out of love
That's why all my numbers up and you've been stuck on drugs

Sometimes it gets lonely in the nighttime
That's when I just write up on the paper all these words
Songs that help me cope with these thoughts so absurd
This my one true love in this life not her

MUSIC VIDEO

NERVE! [Prod. JustDan]

fantasyworld

don't mind me

tire smoke flies for some time to be vacant
while we smoke another blunt on the cracks of the pavement
seems I hurt every soul with a dart and a statement 
so I cover my face on the couch of this basement
swear I fuck up my life for my own entertainment

tire smoke flies for some time to be vacant
while we smoke another blunt on the cracks of the pavement
seems I hurt every soul with a dart and a statement 
swear I fuck up my life for my own entertainment

codeine bottles spilling on the road
got pissed off and threw my fucking phone
told me I should really let it go
haven't slept in weeks and now it shows

train is moving walking on the tracks 
storms are rolling, winters coming back
fucked around and made a couple stacks
I'll be home when the whips are black

should of got my shit together on my own
we were kids a couple weeks and now we grown
I can feel the fractured fragments in my bone
now I'm revving engines up until they blown

tire smoke flies for some time to be vacant
while we smoke another blunt on the cracks of the pavement
seems I hurt every soul with a dart and a statement 
so I cover my face on the couch of this basement

vacant (caves)

take everything
and i pray that you see that i care
waited now im inside out
lead me straight into the unknown 
pretending like you know whats best for me
again again and again

with time youll know im better in every way
you showed
you showed your dark side
ill love you anyway
you know that feeling i always get

try so damn hard
i cant take back the things i said
i dont look back
you cant help it
ive done you wrong
but on my own i cant feel strong

blind

@sorrow x @thomasreid x @skinnyatlas - don't let go

Produced by @areyougiovanni
Sample by Autrioly

Kam Michael:
YouTube: www.youtube.com/channel/UCf69XIrEYLrqnHr8keB7bRw
Instagram: www.instagram.com/imkammichael
Twitter: www.twitter.com/kammichael_

Giovanni: @areyougiovanni
Instagram: www.instagram.com/areyougiovanni

Kam Michael x Promoting Sounds - Reading u wrong (ft. Giovanni & Autrioly)

Lyrics:
[Ekeon Verse]
I keep that energy baby you be doin the most
Bitch please stop talkin to me 
I'm just tryna stay with the flow
Are you not rockin baby
Cus we tried to go toe to toe 
I caught you in a blow
I know your not here for the show hoe
I'm toxic
Why I feels so nauseous 
Baby I just wanna die but I feel like i lost it
I don't wanna loose it
Make me feel so fluid
Baby with the words I've been singin I wanna do it 
Ya

[Ekeon Bridge]
Ima take another fuckin tab of the acid 
Feelin my body goin numb
I feel my soul is plastid 
And I'ma pull up to the party
With bacardi
And tonics
You make me sick 
You make me vomit 
All I needs my fuckin energy 

[Ekeon Hook]
I keep that energy baby you be doin the most
I keep fuckin these hoes and I'm doin it slow
Why you talkin to yourself 
I can hear it through the phone
While home 
What you seein shit nobody really knows
 
[Weepings Verse/Bridge]
Baby called me toxic, I got blood up on my hands (Hands)
Hotter than the tropics from the way she make it dance (dance)
Switch up like I'm trans (trans)
She ain't in the plans (plans)
I know I got options so I hit the bitch and ran (ran)
I'm the shell of the man that I once before
I lost sight of the plan, I blacked out on the floor
Gear up quick I go to war
Everyday fight to the door
Always craving; Wanting more
These quick fixes won't restore
What I lost to her 
I can't find it
Got me sippin out the bottle, fucking side chicks
Always drawn to her
I don't mind it
I'm a masochistic fuck
that's why I like it

[Ekeon Hook]
I keep that energy baby you be doin the most
I keep fuckin these hoes and I'm doin it slow
Why you talkin to yourself 
I can hear it through the phone
While home 
What you seein shit nobody really knows

[Ekeon Verse]
And I
Fucked  it 
All up now i'm dyin 
Too high
I feel like I'm flyin
White lies 
Ain't nothing if you decide its
Alright
Alright

Energy

Energy w/ Weepings [Prod. DutchRevs]

guess you could call this my remix of "past lives" by borns

past lives (prod. ken3r beatz)

Killing Him (guda)

rest my case

Look at Me

Emptiness

Pill Party

i'm stuck in the past but you don't have to be

@ninenineteencollective

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Yokai Dreams