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MISTAKES

only reason I still use this app

prod hiraeth
just trying things, sorry if not best

is this as bad as before?
laid out on the floor
how can you claim you wanna know
with all my messages ignored

i don’t think you really understand
i told you alr we wont last
told me where i cut it’s getting bad
but i don’t care,
you wish i never had

fucked up got my head in my hands
i won’t love, you get it all on-demand
no thoughts, running dry like the sand
don’t leave ur all i have

step away from the door i won’t let you in
i don’t wanna tell you what is happening
leave me outside in the cold again
nothing to say
we’re at the start of the end

leave me alone
i don’t wanna try but ur arguing
i have anxiety
they’re watching me
I’m tryna quit
you don’t really know me
feel like im nothing but misery
I’m tryna find a way to block out what you did to me
you can call me useless
least i had a fucking ounce of trust
let go of everyone
I’m struggling to give you up
you don’t really want me
i had everything and fucked it up
is this a sign that i should stop pretending how to love

step away from the door i won’t let you in
i don’t wanna tell you what is happening
leave me outside in the cold again
nothing to say
we’re at the start of the end

start of the end

🤍SPIT♡WORLD IS MINE🤍(prod.lileffort)

you showed too much now they're scared

yuno

lyrics:
i’ll paint this picture of you and i, i know love suicide, i’m not afraid to die 
fall i love with you i see me in your eyes, you try to run from it but i live in your mind 

but you can never from from all that lives inside, i know you hate but it’s true 

and you can try to run from all that lives inside, i swear that i’ll come after you 

i’ll grab you by your wrist and take you everywhere i go 

i know you’re feeling scared so come find safety in your home 

you say you wanna die, well i’m the only one who know, hand inside my hand right by side you wanna go, i won’t let you leave alone no just to let you know. just a couple empty corpses parading in the snow 

say you wanna die? me too, you’re my darling baby, kiss of death in the icu, seems you been reflecting lately in the mirror i see you 

if there’s voices in my head it should be yours, if theres voice in my head, it should be yours 

my pretty little demon, i promise u that i’m not leaving you know i’m obsessive, possessive and lately i’m feening, ion have no heart baby i threw that shit away so here’s my soul to take so please don’t run away 

if that boy try to touch you i’ll kill him, my glock go both ways, get it drawn from the hip and my bullets gon feel (and fill) him, 
i decapitate him i feel like a villain. 

i open up you know the real me, i was scared of the love and shit but i’m wanting this, don’t care it kill me, you know i can help you with healing  

it’s been so long, would you like it if i wrote you a song? treat it like a love letter would you read it along?

Kiss Of Death

in hell, i ate an angel.

"cries of 87" prod. waxie

seraph

i could tell you like everything ive been through
cut down my arm to tissue
wont eat i dont deserve it
cant sleep my blood runs surface

wont leave, you dont deserve this
why cant my love be worth it
im worthless 
ur perfect

i could tell you like everything ive been through
cut down my arm to tissue
wont eat i dont deserve it
cant sleep my blood runs surface

wont leave, you dont deserve this
why cant my love be worth it
im worthless 
ur perfect

how could i be worse then i was before
i keep writting songs
and you all want more
every word i say is just getting ignored
but youre wanting more
but youre wanting more

i dont know how i can keep going like this
ive got nothing left ive got nothing to give
can anyone hear me 
are you listening 
does no one relate to the words that i sing

i feel like no ones even trying to help me
not helping

cut my hair dow
worked on myself
why do i still feel like no one

savour my loss
hope youre drowning 
you wont let me out of this hell

cut my arms down to the flesh
ive been alone for
so many years

all these people
want my best
but i cant seem to deliver it

drag me to the top of the bridge
tell me to jump
i wont even hesitate, overthink 
i want it to stop
cause baby youre all that i have
all that ive got
and im dealing with it so bad
im fucking it up
im not unique 
im so replaceable 
and for the last few weeks 
ive been unbearable
i better sort my shit
before you break it off
and though i try so bad
im never safe at all

i could tell you like everything ive been through
cut down my arm to tissue
wont eat i dont deserve it
cant sleep my blood runs surface

wont leave, you dont deserve this
why cant my love be worth it
im worthless 
ur perfect

perfect

run from me (interlude)

lyrics -
hard to think there's no way, incredible
you had him take my place
then one of you
tried to drag my name so i wanna know
what part u had to play cos' i'm sick of u

and it's funny cos' i think you've gone and lost it
got your hand on the button saying 'watch this'
and my hand's under the table as i hear you
staring as i came into the room but i don't see you

why you gotta act like that?
waste my serotonin like that
baby fix ur attitude
why you gotta do me like that?
why you gotta act like that?
waste my serotonin like that
baby fix ur attitude
why you gotta do me like that?

S.O.S i caved
but i'm still alive barely
tried to beat the struggle but got lost along the way
went too far alone, no rest 
and took it on myself to prove the dark would coat the day
hard to show love most days
no compassion from my friends
but i love that i pulled through
never know for certain
but i'm glad that i'll be home soon

scared to death of life i'll
battle through the pain and kick it off so
don't you ever worry i'm okay, love
cos' i don't really care no not at all though
stick a sword straight through me, watch me bleed out
i won't say a word i'll make you feel that
this moment that we're in will never end
a new life for us will grow
begin

freeze baby, put your hands to your head
'this is love?' she said
i don't get this or the conversation
i ain't good with stress
i can't clean the mess you left
great now it's complicated
just put the gun away, love
there's no time to fight me, we'll figure you out
take my hand and slowly we'll figure this out

i could steal my heart right back
give me fuckin credit cos' i'm loving all that
trauma that you're giving when you're thinking too fast
take another pill i'm sure it'll slow u down

~ fear

Produced by @leftquiet and me :) 
Out on Spotify :P

who are we 
to some degree
everything I touch Will break 

These things I think 
I shouldn't blink 
Death might be the only way 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain

CRAWL

“oh geez” prod. night vision

all instrumental rights belong to @idealismus
(completely non-profit)


legs shaking
sitting down's not enough, still vacant
just erase me
head down when i walk, they gazing
why talk when you know not a word getting through now
i don't wanna
but still gotta
be not a brain rotter

souls may tie
turn cries to weeps
don't try to be so kind to me
be my relief, so kill me now

make it my fault
just enough for the guilt to be wiped off
don't really care what they lied for

three down, feeling tipsed, no staging
falling used to feel amazing
my voice stay shaking
i'm sorry for the drinking

by the morning i mourn some more
throat burnt, puke all on the floor
i swore i used to be more than this
borderless, now i'm losing time
no love could be enough
but you said, "don't close in
you were meant for me, stay open."
thought clouds clear up real nice
but it's only for the night (3x)

respite [prod. idealism]

SONG44EVER

self prod
guitar by hiraeth
<3


in ur own ways
tell me where u stand
no. its not 2 faced
dont understand
is all that you take
left the way u found it? 
now this i cant shake
not this, i doubt it

Maybe on a different day
You’d have been nice to me
Maybe in some different ways
U formed apologies
If the weather was a different type 
Would u still be with me?
Cloudy, with seafret in sight 
Does that mean anything?
its the way that you are
i thought you loved that i hated myself, not to mention
my critiques are poor
theres nothing left in this hollow, ashen and hes tarnished
to
no ones support
i probably could do more
baby watch me fumble, every chance i get in love
im
cutting down my line
is that what you planned for my life ?
its clearly out of spite, youve done it 3 or 4 more times

shake w/ hiraeth

dont_leave w/ REØ SAI (prod. hazel)

im bac

reup from old page (with minor tweaks)

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room23
prod me:)

a small ep i made a while ago that i've always enjoyed and i wanted to share with you. thank you for listening and i hope you enjoy!!<3

stream: https://open.spotify.com/album/61UDJucnEc2sYoFtazVc0v?si=tWTbMcjTQje-8e54gdML1A


starstruck

lyrics:

Guess that I have never done a thing right in my life
Only see me when it's dark, never in the spotlight
On the streets in the car, I'm just tryna clear my mind
Only keeping the scars that I need to remind
All the rest gimme stress, I don't need to rewind
I'm the best of the less than, never gonna shine
It's a test I guess but I'm never gonna try
I'm better than the rest but I'll never be that guy

Opened up my heart
And you shut it down
Don't know where to start
Do you feel it now?
Try to maintain a good mind space
But I lie awake, think about you
Give you all the time and space
That you might crave
But I'm dying to still be around you
I guess I'll see you when I get back
I guess I'll see you when I get sad
Only ever see you when it gets bad
Only wanna be me when I get mad
Got you in the beamer in the backseat, nasty, crashing
Never gonna see you in the morning
Make it last, please
Never gonna be the man that I was being last week
Gotta get some sleep
Dream of love, everlasting

Guess that I have never done a thing right in my life
Only see me when it's dark, never in the spotlight
On the streets in the car, I'm just tryna clear my mind
Only keeping the scars that I need to remind
All the rest gimme stress, I don't need to rewind
I'm the best of the less than, never gonna shine
It's a test I guess but I'm never gonna try
I'm better than the rest but I'll never be that guy

starstruck

Official music video out now💀❤️❤️ https://youtu.be/bFACUFIKmG4?si=HoSPKLJE62CrCQ50 

Lyrics:

Its like everyone wanna break me
Its like everyone wanna take me
And i cant take it anymore
Got the knife in my back
but i needed its support
And i been walking round torn
With my head straight down
and I'm falling on the floor
And it makes me cry
i don't wanna say goodbye
And the long calls at night
tell me everything is fine

Its like everyone wanna break me
Its like everyone wanna take me
And i cant take it anymore
Got the knife in my back
but i needed its support
And i been walking round torn
With my head straight down
and I'm falling on the floor
And it makes me cry
i don't wanna say goodbye
And the long calls at night
tell me everything is fine

Sample: Aphex Twin - Stone In Focus

say goodbye

i'm stuck in the past but you don't have to be

@ninenineteencollective

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starstruck

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