(casperrr)
i'm drowning 
and i keep pushing myself down
crying
i feel like shit i think i'm drownin
in my own fears 
i think im drowning in my own tears

(gloomybaby)
i’m drowning in tears
i’m scared of what i fear 
this isn’t even 
real just past me another drink so i don’t feel 
this is not what i planned 
i don’t wanna hurt so bad this not what
i planned 
i dont wanna hurt so bad 
nothing you ever said 
could be as bad 
as what i call my self 
maybe i should get some help but i just don’t think that would help

(casperrr)
i'm drowning 
and i keep pushing myself down
crying
i feel like shit i think i'm drownin
in my own fears 
i think im drowning in my own tears

drowning w/gloomybaby (dead spyro)

your eyes

vvv

movin at light speed ive been glowing honestly
think i couldnt be doing better pain is hard to see
taking red n blue up inside my odyssey 
dont hit me up im out of reach
im in my own world
im in my own zone
conspired this all inside my dome
now its all right here and i finally found my home
its you 
its me 
im starting to believe and talk to my inner child  and not ignore her
im so sorry i know that i treated u like shit for months
youre still my baby angel and i never meant to hurt u, love
it wasnt my intentions it was the man with the red hair
if im bein honest w u i dont think he ever cared
id tell you it was a facade but u prolly do not know that word
i know how he hurt you and i hate em bout much as you loved him
but
inside info , me to u, i dont think that hes happy anymore
so i guess me and you won, just let me deal with the rest.
I been 
Blowin toxins
in my  room
i been doin fine
w out u 
yeah i loved him but
inside info , me to u, i dont think that hes happy anymore
so i guess me and you won, just let me deal with the rest.

inner_child (jabarionthebeat x jelly x dreamboyy)

i'm a casualty of life...
prod. @gonetoofar x @memoryroseishere
cover photo taken my by girlfriend :)
hope u all enjoy <3

lyrics:
oh how i dream of the west coast
or maybe somewhere thats not here
i’ve been all cooped up inside
need a place to reside
where the water can run clear

i hate to wait for my chances
but i’m a casualty of life
my brain cannot wait
for the day i can say
everything’s gonna be fine

don’t want to be here tomorrow
but in the sense i don’t exist
i’m sick of basic routine
need a change in my scene
i don’t know how to fix this

i think i'm tumbling backward
i need a hand to life me up
or maybe air i can breathe
maybe eyes that could see
why the water has dried up

freshwater [toofargone x memoryrose]

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Thank You

Thank You [prod. Rizi]

guardin - sayonara to my bubble wrap

Prod: https://soundcloud.com/metlast
Ekeon: https://soundcloud.com/ekeonkilledit

Sublime (feat. Ekeon)

What's the name?
I've been asking that for months now
Been the same
They've been everybody else
How you gonna change everything about yourself now?
Now

Can you stay a little longer?
(ya)
I can't sleep at night
Lay awake with open eyes
If your mettle was an answer,
My walls ain't mending
It's so upsetting how it's
Always over my head
I'm amazed what things come out my chest
Erase so nothing's left
Don't wanna be myself

What's the name?
I've been asking that for months now
Been the same
They've been everybody else
How you gonna change everything about yourself now?
Now
(Now)

And it's cold inside this basement
Tryna hold on tight embrace it
I'm running out of patience
And I'm sick of feeling
(Feeling)

(It's not that bad)
(It's not that bad)

Keep your friends close
Keep yourself closer
Looking for some way to find closure
Can't keep searching
But I keep hurting
And I can't find home

I can't find home
My home
Can't find home
Can't find home

What's the name?
I've been asking that for months now
Been the same
They've been everybody else
How you gonna change everything about yourself now?

And it's cold inside this basement
Tryna hold on tight embrace it
I'm running out of patience
And I'm sick of feeling

Feeling Feeling Feeling Feeling
Feeling Feeling Feeling Feeling
Feeling Feeling Feeling Feeling
Feeling Feeling Feeling Feeling
feel
feel
feel
feel

out of reach

identity

Written and recorded by @Alainite & @Sinxi
Produced by @in-bloom-757395817
Mixed and mastered by @hellosloani
Artwork by @scottysplash

I'm running red lights trying to beat the time
I tried to 
Keep it ahead, keep playing on my mind
Can't lose you
Stuck in the middle not leaving you this time
I tried to involve you

And I've been so confused
Could it be that I only wanted love from you
Could you be the only one who makes my heart ring true
Could it be that I only wanted you
Could it be that I only wanted you

And I only want you when the sun comes up 
Would you come dance with me in the moonlight
I would only want you when I call dumb luck 
And I realize that I never really lost sight
Of what I want for you
Of what I'll do for you
But you always held the truth
Now I'm just so confused
Baby won't you stay the night with me
Would you keep me close one night and give me all your company

And I've been so confused
Could it be that I only wanted love from you
Could you be the only one who makes my heart ring true
Could it be that I only wanted you
And I've been so confused
Could it be that I only wanted love from you
Could you be the only one who makes my heart ring true
Could it be that I only wanted you

Oh it's crazy, so crazy
My lady, my lady
What I got to do to prove that I'm the one you wanna choose
Girl I'm faded in my room waiting for you
Oh text me, cos I know you really want to

Cos I've been spending all night waiting for us to stop fighting
I know, yeah I know that I'm wrong
And I've been spending all night waiting for us to stop fighting
I know, yeah I know, yeah I know, yeah I know

And I've been so confused
Could it be that I only wanted love from you
Could you be the only one who makes my heart ring true
Could it be that I only wanted you

And I've been so confused
Could it be that I only wanted love from you
Could you be the only one who makes my heart ring true
Could it be that I only wanted you

Could it be that I only wanted you
Could it be that I only wanted you
Could it be that I only wanted
Could it be that I only wanted you
Could it be that I only wanted

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Confused feat. Sinxi (Prod. In Bloom)

PROD @trechorboy

Lyrics:
I dont wanna listen to you lie me
Everything lately gives anxiety
Is it just that no one fucking likes me
Dont wanna fuck things up so ill sit quietly 

Slide it
Slide it
And load the clip bitch
Red eyes
And a knife pressed against your lips

Homicide bitch
Smell the blood in the air like a faint mist
Everytime im with you make my mind trip

I dont feel shit
Way i like it
But i hate how
Im so distant


Im just a loser doing nothing all day
And im starting to think that nothings ever going change

I focus in and think about the pain
Its the only thing that ill ever embrace 

I dont wanna listen to you lie me
Everything lately gives anxiety
Is it just that no one fucking likes me
Dont wanna fuck things up so ill sit quietly

Homicide (prod. trechorboy)

Nightmares and Daydreams produced by Matthew May!

Hope y'all enjoy :)

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Cover Art By: https://soundcloud.com/whosmerci

Thanks to everyone involved, new music soon!

Lyrics:

It's a new dawn baby
I'm a new man lately
Yeah pressure so strong it could crush my spine
As the lights dim down these thoughts unwind
I'm a little lost now but I'll be just fine
As I freeze I feel so alive
Don't make me scream as I fall behind
Those eyes seem to burn right through
Those cuts may bleed but they're not that deep
It's okay it's just a flesh wound

It's the nights like these with our toes in the sand my heart beat feels so strong
I know I said for you I would cross those seas but they seem to go on and on
As the waves increase with a kiss on the cheek I start to feel so calm
I sail out east don't know what's beneath but I'm sure I'll know before long

My time has come to pass
This life kinda feels like ass

The weather here is so harmless but I feel a storm begin to brew
I'm waiting here in this garden hope the rain brings me back to you
The song of the night's supposed to numb the pain
But nothing seems to help with these migraines
I finally get to bed but it doesn't feel true
All I dream about is you

It's the nights like these with our toes in the sand my heart beat feels so strong
I know I said for you I would cross those seas but they seem to go on and on
As the waves increase with a kiss on the cheek I start to feel so calm
I sail out east don't know what's beneath but I'm sure I'll know before long

THAT NIGHT ON THE COAST YOU HELD ME CLOSE AND WHISPERED IN MY EAR
SAID YOU LOVED ME THE MOST AND EVERYBODY KNOWS BUT YOU THINK I'M INSINCERE 
YOU KNOW I CARE I REALLY DO
WANNA SPEND TIME JUST ME AND YOU
WE WERE JUST DUMB KIDS DIDN'T HAVE A CLUE
WHAT WE MEANT BY I LOVE YOU

It's the nights like these with our toes in the sand my heart beat feels so strong
I know I said for you I would cross those seas but they seem to go on and on
As the waves increase with a kiss on the cheek I start to feel so calm
I sail out east don't know what's beneath but I'm sure I'll know before long

T.I.T.S.

i'm stuck in the past but you don't have to be

@ninenineteencollective

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T.I.T.S.

Yokai Dreams