onlymehere

spotify link: https://open.spotify.com/track/3e3jjnVmoBwQKo5g2dXMQa

Lately I’ve been thinking bout the memories I just can’t shake
Your callous mind and thoughts that seem so desperate for me to break
I sit here in my solace hoping i forget you one day
But for now I sit in silence left alone to slowly decay

So You can find me digging my grave
A Shovel into the earth and the soil
While you lie in that bed you made
And like the British weather it's crazy how quick things change

I've been dragging myself through the seasons but Im lost and I'm so afraid (while you lie in that bed you made)
And like the British weather it's crazy how quick you changed

@cloudhighcomeup
Now it’s all been done 
The thought of you’s so distant
Can try to work this out 
But I don’t know 
You seem so different
I can’t help that
You’re not worth it 
Although you’re still in my head 
Do you care? 
Well I remember what you said 
That you don’t

Pop another line let it fade to black
I know it's what you wanted so I'm hoping that you notice that
Let it fade to black
Let it fade to black

@cloudhighcomeup

british weather (feat. cloudhighcomeup)

(prod. blade901)
soundcloud.com/blade_901

[lyrics]

ya i wake up at night again
breaking entitlement 
folding my hands to the back of my head
obvious tension, furious silence
cover in canvas in august.

it beats me
telephone, letters, old frames 
on a night of december
call me i'll be up waiting
neck deep in a rut now i'm fadiing
wake up, time for make up same as always
i'm sorry i couldn't take it so let's break this
a cover for your lover, steadysuffer
a goner, got no father 
i'm just a loner

you taught me how to not be there
while mommy always taught me not to stop and stare
these people i erase from my thoughts go where?
i'm sick of every lie that i cry with swear

it's been a long time, i'm feelin like shit
pick up the gun, now i'm wid it
i'm feelin fucked up, i wanna get buck
just lost my mind like i'm vision
blood splattered all in my kitchen
she wanna think that it's pretend 
not comin back for a minute
i'm gone but i'm still singin
 
she's so cold
hold me close and dont let me go
baby that's fine
you leave me alone all the time
oh yeah, please tell me was it worth it
too many fucking voices they're echoing
in my head
oh wait, now tell me where your hiding
left me with nothing when I was ten
but now i'm crying

i see you stand all alone
outside our house i watched you go
not enough to feel bad, just enough to let go
every thought in my head eats away at my soul
mom and dad are upset, I don't know what to do
i was just a young boy crying alone in my room

it beats me
telephone, letters, old frames 
on a night of december
call me i'll be up waiting
neck deep in a rut now i'm fadiing
wake up, time for make up same as always
i'm sorry i couldn't take it so let's break this
a cover for your lover, steadysuffer
a goner, got no father 
i'm just a loner

don't enter pt. 3 (prod. blade901)

Blackwater 4/5/2019
Vocals and lyrics: @itsyungvan & @prodbybrody
Instrumental: @prodbybrody
Mix&Master:  @prodbybrody

Lyrics-

yungvan-
I've been tryna read through the lines
just tell me if I'm wasting my time
you say you don't know
you say you don't know x2

I know it's hard for you
to let me in 
you don't wanna let me see
everything underneath
you're not just skin and bones
makeup and vocal tones
you have all those scars
they're who you are

I've been tryna read through the lines
just tell me if I'm wasting my time
you say you don't know
you say you don't know
we're sitting on the phone every night
just tell me if I'm wasting my time
you say you don't know
you say you don't know

Brody- 
white noise in my head now
all your hair still around me in my bed now
I know it doesn't feel right
been thinking about you all night
cause I can hardly sleep without you anymore
I know it's hard for me to say
but I will fight through the better days
I won't give up on you
don't think I could if I wanted to

yung van-
I've been tryna read through the lines
just tell me if I'm wasting my time
you say you don't know
you say you don't know
we're sitting on the phone every night
just tell me if I'm wasting my time
you say you don't know
you say you don't know

I've been patient for you, have you?
I've been patient for you, have you?
I've been patient for you, have you?
I've been patient for you, have you? 

I've been tryna read through the lines
just tell me if I'm wasting my time
you say you don't know
you say you don't know
we're sitting on the phone every night
just tell me if I'm wasting my time
you say you don't know
you say you don't know

Blackwater

Read Through the Lines

Read Through the Lines Ft. Brody (Prod. Brody)

could have been

should've known (sorrow bringer)

tired of trying..
linktr.ee/mlshgh

Prod. Jody
mixed&mastered by mileshigh

Lyrics:

[hook]
i gotta say
i'm tired of trying
i'll let you know
before i go away
i'm done
living a life i hate
fucked up 
wasting my life away

oh i feel so lost
tell me why i shouldn't give up

cuz everything i love
is gone fallen apart
i cant go back now
living with a broken heart

[verse]
i love the dreams where i die
oh i'd love to make it end
this feeling that i have
so deep inside my head
oh its so deep and i cant crawl out 

i'm so tired
i don't wanna try

i don't wanna try
no i don't wanna try
just wanna die
yeah, yeah
i don't wanna try
no i just wanna die
no i just wanna die
no i don't wanna try 
no i don't wanna try
yeah i do wanna die (die, die, die)

[hook]
i gotta say
i'm tired of trying
i'll let you know
before i go away
i'm done
living a life i hate
fucked up 
wasting my life away

oh i feel so lost
tell me why i shouldn't give up

cuz everything i love
is gone fallen apart
i cant go back now
living with a broken heart

TIRED

[PROD. 8ROKEBOY]

TEAR ME LIMB FROM LIMB, ALL I WANT TO SEE IS HER SMILE ONE MORE TIME, WHERE EVER SHE IS...

Lyrics:

Tell me what you want me to be
I’m tearing down these walls you’ve built between us
And even if you wanted to see
What I’ve built for us on the other side, 
I’ve lost my mind

So What the fuck did you mean to me?
I can’t answer all of your mindless questions!
You knew it meant almost everything!
Everything I fucking would’ve given to save us!

You don’t know the real me do you?
You only know what I wanted you to think of me!
The problems floating inside of me are endless...
Like the shards of glass piercing beneath my feet!

So Am I not good enough am I not enough for you?
I’m slowly falling apart pieces are breaking!
It’s not enough to see me die in front of you
You need me gone,
And lying on my knees!

So listen here while I scream out for you!
I need the closure of something everlasting!
YOU KNEW YOU MEANT EVERYTHING DON'T YOU?!
YOU MADE ME FEEL LIKE I COULDN’T STOP LAUGHING

AND FOR WHAT THE FUCK THAT GUY DID TO YOU...
I UNDERSTAND WHY YOU’RE GONE AND SUFFERING!
BUT LET ME BE YOUR BANDAGE MY LOVE
Pour me down, LET ME SEE WHAT YOU'RE TRYING TO FEEL

I don’t believe You need space 
You just wanted him 

I’m breaking out! no I can’t bare, YOU KNow!

BUT KNOWING YOU,
THERE'S NO GOING BACK
I'M ALL BUT FORGOTTEN,
I'M FADING It SEEMS!

So if you see me on TV, my love!
YOU KNOW I DID IT FOR YOU PROMISE ME YOU'LL SMILE FOR ME!

SMILE FOR ME...

PLEASE PLEASE

SMILE FOR ME, SMILE FOR ME!

SMILE FOR ME,
SMILE FOR ME, SMILE FOR ME, SMILE FOR ME, SMILE FOR ME! 
SMILE FOR ME, SMILE FOR ME, SMILE FOR ME, SMILE FOR ME!

SMILE FOR ME [PROD. 8ROKEBOY]

You don’t seem the same, but I should know
Feel that sinking feeling in your throat?
Told me not to call you when you go 
Words I can’t imagine that you wrote 

Can’t get away with my head in the clouds 
Had all my friends here, but where are they now? 
Told me you changed, what you talking about?
Had all my friends here, but where are they now?

Try not to think 
When you open your mouth 
But it’s harder to live
When you live for an ounce 
Do you cry when you drink 
In the hope you’ll get out of here?

I think I’ve done enough 
It’s never easy though 
It gets harder 
When all you ever want 
Is just to make them feel prouder
But still you’ll bring it up 
How I never act like you wanted

Can’t get away with my head in the clouds 
Had all my friends here, but where are they now? 
Told me you changed, what you talking about?
Had all my friends here, but where are they now?

head in the clouds

should've thought twice before i left my broken heart in your hands </3

produced by @jason22k
recorded and mixed by @heartbox_prod
Art by Gage Boss of Mishandled

Lyrics:

Look
I’m sorry
I know i shouldve known that you still wouldn’t want me
I know you’re better off
well im not
And im sorry that i just can’t figure out how to stop

And i didn’t mean to forget all my things
I didn’t mean to leave you with pieces of me
I’ve been feeling so weak 
I’ve found it hard to stand
Guess I should’ve thought twice before I left my broken heart in your hands 

2 years later now i wish we could restart
back from the beginning or at least from the part
Where you moved on, and I stayed in the dark
But this time I promise I won’t leave you with my heart

when we packed up all our things, you thought you couldn’t leave
but then everything you needed fell right down at your feet
i couldnt be free , cause you still had a piece of me
well at least if it’s my heart, how much longer could i bleed?
Is this really all that's left for me?

brokenheartboy (prod. jason22k)

manga for cover art: misu misou

[lyrics]
everything hurts but i gotta keep it moving
dying everyday and i dont know what im doing
days go by never see the sunset
its always night fall wonder am i dead yet?
cant catch a breathe
now i wanna die
balling up a fist
i just wanna feel alive
sick of everybody that wanna be sad
wanna disappear and ill never come back

anxiety clutching my chest
freaking out im just doing my best
paranoid i dont think this is real
confused i dont know how to feel

same dreams same nightmares
dead nights and youre right there
same tears same headaches
dead body so why i feel this heartache?
(x2)

everything hurts and its only getting worse
miss the days that i didnt even feel hurt
but its all gone why do i go recollect?
ima go and snap my neck from reading all these fucking texts
self destructive
its my fault
my head that im stuck in i cant call
but i hope youre doing alright 
can i see you one last time?

anxiety clutching my chest
freaking out im just doing my best
paranoid i dont think this is real
confused i dont know how to feel

same dreams same nightmares
dead nights and youre right there
same tears same headaches
dead body so why i feel this heartache?
(x4)

too many headaches

instagram.com/worryaboutwhy
twitter.com/yungworry

Lyrics:

(Verse 1) 

I still miss the way you hold me
To feel your hands on top of mine 
I still long for you to take me back 
Hoping you might change your mind

(Hook)

Still in love with you 
Still in love with you 
All I asked for was the truth 
And I don’t know what I’m supposed to do

(Verse 2)

All I’ve got left are these memories
All I’ve got left is this void 
Falling further into darkness 
Falling further from this life

ALL I ASKED FOR

STREAM ON SPOTIFY

all i asked for

prod. by @tristessebeats
cover art by @sushisai

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the lyrics "im the sea & you're japan" are taken from my favorite artist, Bon Iver. he inspired me to make this song. his song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n5zUrfaGPlo

shoutout to @guardinmusic as well his music is a big influence on me which helped make this song

LYRICS
[verse 1]
saturated with tragedy
emotional, heart on a sleeve
just let me go I wanna leave
the oceans floor I rest in peace
this tide is high, dive in
just let me die, drownin
im the sea & youre japan
follow me & take my hand

[hook]
im the sea & youre japan
follow me & take my hand
theres blood in the water (blood in the water)
the waves wont falter (the waves wont falter)
wish I was stronger (wish I was stronger)
cant hold on for longer (cant hold on for longer)

[bridge]
save yourself
savior, I need help
save yourself, welcome to hell

[hook]
im the sea & youre japan
follow me & take my hand
theres blood in the water (blood in the water)
the waves wont falter (the waves wont falter)
wish I was stronger (wish I was stronger)
cant hold on for longer (cant hold on for longer)

spotify

Blood In The Water (prod. t r i s t e s s e)

[PROD. 8ROKEBOY]

You’ve been crying but it’s me that needs saving....

Lyrics:

Are we a thing?
Are you with me?
Anxiety is heavy
It’s killing me

I’m a failed pop star,
I can’t feel a thing.
These pills I’m popping,
Xans I’m dropping,
I’m so fucking weak...

Seven nights a week, I’m dumbed out faded!
It’s not my fault I face my problems when I’m jaded!

You’ve been crying but it’s me that needs saving,
I’m dying out here with my heart blown to pieces!

I can’t pick them up, No, I can’t feel your love!
I feel the liquor hit my brain,
Then I’m going dumb!
I’m feeling numb,
Break my heart again, I promise love!
You won’t hear me cry again
When my heart stops!

Savor me! Savor me!

Give me all the fame!
Give it all to me!

It’s all I ever wanted, I would fucking bleed for this!
Just to see me happy; you know ignorance is bliss!

The memories seem to haunt me when I go to sleep,
I wake up crying with my heart beating patiently.
I DONT GIVE A FUCK, I JUST WANT IT ALL TO END!
WITH YOU AND ME, HAND IN HAND, FACING OUR DEATHS!


When my heart stops I’m a be rockstar,
Right now imma mediocre pop star!
I haven’t got anything to my fucking name,
But one day when I’m in the grave you’ll remember me!

Are we a thing?
Are you with me?
Anxiety is heavy
It’s killing me

I’m a failed pop star,
I can’t feel a thing.
These pills I’m popping,
Xans I’m dropping,
I’m so fucking weak...

Seven nights a week, I’m dumbed out faded!
It’s not my fault I face my problems when I’m jaded!

You’ve been crying but it’s me that needs saving!

You’ve been crying but it’s me that needs saving!

You’ve been crying but it’s me that needs saving!

You’ve been crying but it’s me that needs saving!

YOU’VE BEEN CRYING BUT IT’S ME THAT NEEDS SAVING!

YOU’VE BEEN CRYING BUT IT’S ME THAT NEEDS SAVING!

YOU’VE BEEN CRYING! 
YOU’VE BEEN CRYING!

YOU’VE BEEN CRYING A LOT, YOU’VE BEEN CRYING!
YOU’VE BEEN CRYING A LOT, BUT IVE BEEN DYING!
YOU’VE BEEN CRYING A LOT, BUT WHAT ABOUT ME??!!

I HAVEN’T BEEN THE SAME SINCE YOU FUCKING LEFT ME! FOREVER WILL I BE FORGOTTEN, DEAD MEMORIES!

DEAD MEMORIES...

FAILED POP STAR [PROD. 8ROKEBOY]

Prod. DELIVERTHECRUSH

https://soundcloud.com/deliverbonjovi

Go to sleep I'll be there in the morning
If you can wait then it's not that important 
I hate the way you make me feel I thought that you should know
Sleep now and I'm dead by the morning 
Fucked up but the syrup keep pouring
I hope I don't wake up again I thought that you should know

Cause I want you to watch me die
I've got a death wish and I don't know why
I just want to fill my cup 
And be a mile high when I join the 27 club
Aye she wanna fuck she ain't bad enough
Pass the bud never have enough
Yeah I'm on a mission dodging prison haters tripping know 
I'm different you don't get it I don't give a fuck
I just want to ball like I did when I was young
Run up in the mall snatch something just for fun
We might die tomorrow every night we going dumb
I made it through the fall but the spring never comes
Don't want to wake up in the same old places
Wake up to the same damn faces
I hate the way you make me feel I thought that you should know

Go to sleep I'll be there in the morning
If you can wait then it's not that important 
I hate the way you make me feel I thought that you should know
Sleep now and I'm dead by the morning 
Fucked up but the syrup keep pouring
I hope I don't wake up again I thought that you should know

Thought U Should Know - Prod DELIVERTHECRUSH - Spring Never Comes out May 1st

https://soundcloud.com/tothegood

i was already broken before you been around
that was permanent i was hurt it had been a while
now we're struggling looking for some we never find
i was already empty inside

i was happier never alive
i'll be honest i'm saying this lie
now i'm only alright when i'm high
and i don't know if i'm doing this right

can't let it go
it's like a leech 
they're living  on me
i'm getting close
yeah all my blood is draining slowly
yeah still it show and you can tell i'm fucking lonely
if i were someone else pretend i'd never known me

how was i to be knowing you wouldn't stick around
that was obvious i was probably just in denial
i can't look over it saw you from in a different light
i always thought i would tell from the signs

Signs (prod. tothegood)

Give Me A Sign (prod. skrobj)

sorry i haven't really been active i'm just going through it 

love yall :( <3

nineteen

(prod. remghost)
https://soundcloud.com/remghost
Mastering: https://soundcloud.com/frvrndalwys

Lyrics:
Press the blade up on my neck and let the blood drain,
All my sins, wash away, let the demons cave;
cause everything seems to go wrong In the worst ways,
I promised I would never leave, but fuck I’m gone ain't I ?

What’s my self worth?
Who the fuck am I ?!
Who are you listening to me fucking cry?
What’s my self worth?
I’m leaking nothing works!
I’ve traded all my life to worship my empire of dirt!

Thank you pretty baby for all the heart ache,
but nothing hurts worse than the one you love being raped.
The pain stops when you put the gun to your brain,
And maybe then the bullet will help relieve the pain!

Fuck this world, fuck MY SOUL, I SWEAR I FEEL TO MUCH!
THE PAIN IT GETS Worse THough I FEEL MY VEINS BURST!
THERES NOTHING LEFT TO SAY EXCEPT IT GETS FUCKING WORSE!
AND WHEN YOUR DEAD, ITS LIKE YOUR LIVING; LIFES SUCH A CURSE!

Maybe I will suffer, maybe she will too?
Maybe she is right now, I can’t have a clue?!
Who the fuck am I? why do I feel pain?
When she’s the one suffering cause she got raped...

Maybe I will suffer, maybe she will too?
Maybe I will suffer, I promise I will too.

Maybe I will suffer, maybe she will too?
Maybe I will suffer, I promise I will too.

MAYBE I WILL SUFFER? (prod. remghost)

(Chorus)

WORRY:

You don’t wanna see me when I hide behind the sun 
You don’t wanna meet me when I’m trying not to run 
Baby you’re my only one 
So let me know when you are gone 

I wanna know where I belong 

(Verse 1)

Two:22: 

I wanna know where I belong, yeah

Save me baby from this lie
Within your eyes shining so bright 
Shame cuts without a knife 
Pain through every night 
And I will try 
But...

(Back to the Chorus)

(Bridge)

WORRY: 

I wanna know where I belong
Baby you’re my only one 
I wanna know where I belong
Let me know that I am yours

(Back to the Chorus)

Behind the Sun

behind the sun (feat. two:22)

i cope alone again hoping i can get away from it
i say i’ll quit but honestly it never ends
she watched as i would fall again

i know the hope can lend help to grow from this
i hate the sickness made of it
i know i’m meant for more than this,
but drowning helps me just forget the past that i regret

holding onto what was left until i lost myself again
i’m dwelling over words unsaid

i cope alone again hoping i can get away from it
i say i’ll quit but honestly it never ends
she watched as i would fall again

i know the hope can lend help to grow from this
i hate the sickness made of it
i know i’m meant for more than this but i’ve been feeling so misled

i’m walking on an edge trying not to drown again
i was hanging by a thread holding on to what was left

prod/mix/mst by me

onlymehere

°~YOKiKO~°