feedback appreciated , Thanks sm for listening. shoutout to kiko beatz

Oh yeah! prodby: Kiko Beatz x Diamond wav

Written & Performed by: @itsyungvan & @i_x_t_a_i_l_s
Mix: @itsyungvan & @i_x_t_a_i_l_s
Master: @scottysplash
Production: @lilbuckethead
Cover art: @iamdavidkiernan (on twitter)
Shout out @qawikamri & @producedbyaidan for helping me extend the beat and go show love to everyone who helped make this song possible (if ya got some to share) <3


Lyrics-

Yung van:

Said she wanna die with me but that's just a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life
I said I'm fine
But that's a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life

Bring me up
Shut me out
You wanna scream baby
I've learned to shout
You wanna ghost
I'll be your Phantom
Like a shadow
I'll follow till the end of 
Bring me up
Shut me out
You wanna scream baby
I've learned to shout
You wanna ghost
I'll be your Phantom
Like a shadow
I'll follow till the end of 
Time
But I don't really care 
Said you had my back then you left me in the air
Flying all alone made me feel like I was scared
I'm drowning in your problems
Baby I can't solve them 

Running away
Running away
Running away
Running away

Said she wanna die with me but that's just a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life
I said I'm fine
But that's a lie
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I need her back in my life

9TAILS:

says she wanna die with me
but thats just a lie
depression is like a virus
i see that shit in her eyes
shes up alone every night
weed is packed in the pipe
window open at night
smoke blowing by the streetlights

take me over like a virus
anti virus with the heisman
saw the bate no biting
calculate my timing

im out the door before you tell me to go
i had you blocked before i seen what you wrote
i got people to meet i got places to go
and she play the detective like murder she wrote

i dont have time for the games like its pay to play
feel like kobe how i fade away
keep you a bit behind thats screen delay
i know all your tricks no david blaine

u cant make me stress ya
u cant make me stress no
ask me whats been on your mind or else youll never know
we all will eventually die speak up before we go
put your plan back into motion hit me with the blow

tryna bring the heat like a tanning bed
get in line like its wonderland
break it off like a pencil lead

Yung Van:

Said she wanna die with me but that's just a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life
I said I'm fine
But that's a lie
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I need her back in my life

Virus w/ 9TAILS (Prod. Aquinas)

9TAILS - Dont Leave Me

@ihateshinigami

it never rains anymore
i've been laying on the floor
so disgusted with myself
cant fucking take this anymore

i'm the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

hands shaky like my life
its fucking hard just to type
none of my friends are alright
just hiding tears in our eyes

trust me i wish i could stop caring
i swear to god i'm fucking trying
my heads just fucked up from the lying
honest i wish you never met me

my heads just fucked up from the lying
honest i wish you never met me

it never rains anymore
i've been laying on the floor
so disgusted with myself
cant fucking take this anymore

i'm the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

i have this this hole in my chest
it hurts so bad i can't rest
waking up from all this stress
i'm fucking trying my best
to live a life on my own
i always stare at my phone
waiting for you to hit me back
because i always feel alone

im the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

leave me in the past
i bet no one will even notice

shinigami x 93feetofsmoke - it never rains anymore

Produced and performed by king theta
Vocal mix and master by IOF https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic
Art by Love, Max https://twitter.com/lovemaxofficial

Lyrics:
I
I just wanna feel like I could fly
Give me anything that gets me high
I need you in my life cause
Shit's gonna cave in soon
Why?
Why you gotta say that I'm lyin
I swear to fuckin God I'm doin fine
The power's all mine but
Shit's gonna cave in soon

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

I got everything that I thought I wanted
But it didn't work

She said "lose
The fake personality you use"
Spent too many nights pourin Goose
So easy justifying getting loose
Attention is distraction from the noose
Sorry, not sorry for my ego
The king threw the old me out the window
I know there's no way home

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

Keep fillin me up
With your love and affection
And I'll spill it right out
Call it self-protection

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

Wish I Could Start Over

@splashgvng
@barrenwaste

premiered/hosted by sad chill
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hBF9w0jchUM

dont you hate the part
when we start to fall into pieces?
and its a work of art
the way you walk into my room
and how u keep me awake
even when ur not around
she always puts me to shame
its such a lame relation
ill take all the blame as long as it helps you sleep at night
i hope to haunt your life

maybe someday we’ll get past it all
but for right now you can watch me ball
got your front seat on the sidelines
and i dont give a fuck if u start to cry

yeah u sow what u reap baby
ive slept in all damn week baby
im still waitin for u to come back to me

lost it all again
but ill get back up every time til i win
lost it all again
if u loved me once, u can do it again

i loved you once but thats the last time itll ever be
ill be fuckin damned if u ever again make a fool of me
wastin all my money on the drugs that keep me lonely
anxiety ridden phony
let the 9 cock back and blow me
out of this planet
and ill b damned if
any of u fuckers take the one thing that i need; its singin a song
for all u singin along
tried to love u once but now u know im done

Follow me <3

like melo, baby (ft. barren) [prod. splashgvng]

prod. @4evrgone

I don't know who i am
i don't trust who you are
lately all i can do is pray to the stars
that this bleak observation of everything i see
might one day turnaround 
i need to get some fucking help

im fucking sick of myself 
fucking sick of how my brain has a mind for itself
consider this an open letter you wont read for yourself
yeah of course im talking bout whos typing these words all down

looking more and more like deadman in this wonderland town
looking more and more like deadman in this wonderland town

leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
im fucking sick of myself 

im fucking sick of myself
fucking sick of how my brain has a mind for itself
consider this an open letter you wont read for yourself
yeah of course im talking bout whos typing these words all down

leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing

sick of myself (prod. 4evr)

pulled up so late that i missed the whole party

lyrics: 
we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

left my tears on the nightstand
eyes wide open
sirens in the distance
digital world left me
feeling fuckin distant
i came back feeling like im nonexistent

feel like my mind is changing
fading away from the high i was chasing
looking at the problems im evading
think ill die inside this room instead of forever decaying

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

why is it so hard to kick these habits
why am i melodramatic
better off left in the past tense
ill make like a ghoul and vanish x2

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

colling ave [prod 4evr + tax purposes]

prod. by @ayjd
cover art by jake clifford

lyrics
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we’ll drive into the sunset
my fingers and your thigh make contact
i could’ve swore you packed your contacts
in your backpack
right next to bottle of the cognac
this song is just a concept
of everything i’ve ever wanted
i wish the month right now was august
moving out west on a quest
for a life that offers all this

with you
and i
we laugh
and we cry
and we’ll dance
till we die
cause the rate that we’re moving’s alarming
compared to the shit that’s happening outside

truthfully the talk about the virus freak me out
yeah eleven thousand people died this shit is heading south
and if the world is gonna end by august please just hear me out
put some optimism in & take your fingers out your mouth

we’ll drive into the sunset
my fingers and your thigh make contact
i could’ve swore you packed your contacts
in your backpack
right next to bottle of the cognac
this song is just a concept
of everything i’ve ever wanted
i wish the month right now was august
moving out west on a quest
for a life that offers all this

follow ay!jd

contact (prod. ay!jd)

prod/mix/ft @anxietyattackss

lyrics:

93:
Never feel the same
Never feel okay
Hit me up to take 
Always fade away
I’ve been hittin dabs
Til the panic takes
You can’t have my heart
But we can share the pain 

You can’t have my word
But we can still exchange 
Left her in the past
With my bad jacket
Hex across my neck
Like she’s black magic 
I fell out of love
With bags of plastic 

So what’s it take 
Yeah I’m begging you
To leave me alone
Im better alone anyways 

Where will it break
Yeah I’m finding out
I’m bending to grow 
The stress is my home anyways 

So what’s it take 
Yeah I’m begging you
To leave me alone
Im better alone anyways 

Where will it break
Yeah I’m finding out
I’m bending to grow 
The stress is my home anyways 

AA:
Spend another night alone up in my hometown 
just let me leave there’s nothing left for me to hold down
Spend another night alone up in my hometown 
just let me get away there’s nothing left to hold down 
On the back roads smoking on a backwood
Playin sad songs, sitting in a parking lot 
We live in shadows, don't matter if it’s dark or not
But it gets dark a lot, ya ya 
It’s bad enough, i know the pressures adding up 
And if you feel like giving up
Just know the story never ends, it’s all a dream

So what’s it take 
Yeah I’m begging you
To leave me alone
Im better alone anyways 

Where will it break
Yeah I’m finding out
I’m bending to grow 
The stress is my home anyways

pulled up so late that i missed the whole party

fats'e