MY FRIEND

'Bitter Blue '
coming soon...

Prod:
@93feetofsmoke

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And i still remember 
Your hands in my hair
And the fireplace in December
And time's forever changing
But i still feel the same for you
I just wish you felt the same way too

I don't wanna waste you time 
And i know you have a better life
But it's stuck inside my head 
And i don't wanna leave my bed

So just tell me you want me 
Tell me you need me
Tell me you'll come back
And you're never leaving

I was eighteen when you loved me
And now i know I'm twenty-something
But I'm still hoping that you'd come home
And tell me everywhere that you've gone

eighteen (prod. 93FEETOFSMOKE)

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//私はあなたなしで悲惨です//

thank you guys for all the love and support, especially lately. i've been going through a lot this past week & to know you guys are here for me really means a lot. we'll get through it together. we always do. i love you.

also, follow my boy 9TAILS
@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
and my boy tothegood
@tothegood

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guardin x 9TAILS - nothing (prod. by tothegood)

@guccihighwaters

produced by @notmorgn

lyrics: 

guccihighwaters:

i think i’d be good with a sedative 
anything to fucking stop the trembling
shit baby put a bullet to my brain
waste of fuckin space i guess i was just replaced
hood and the headphones don’t wanna talk to you
don’t take it personal i always feel uncomfortable
i guess its a part of me
hard to breathe when im at the party

for once aim your love in my direction 
cut me open baby kill my imperfections
for once just for once i crave all your attention
this is not a life with the loss of your affection

9TAILS:

i think id be good with a sedative
anything to bring me closer to emotionless
life is boring when you take out all the additives
live in the illusion or youll only make depressing shit

beamer go skr
uber gon swerve
cold as a bitch in the city
when you hit pavement just know it gon hurt

putting in work
grape juicy papers filled with the purp
shit baby put a bullet to my brain
come and shut me down cause im tired of this earth

i could see snow in toronto
we got some snow in the condo
smellin the dank cause that people
that entered dont know that were keeping the door closed
friends switching like time zones
blunt flicking keep my eyes low
in a new form like a super saiyan
you base form like a zygote

salt stains on my nikes
winter weather too silent
phone screen low brightness
6 digit pin cause im private

truth is gon hurt
u do not know what is best for me
like a non profit or a charity
this shit aint a cheque to me

this is building up a masterpiece
raw emotion is the centre piece
like goku i got enemies 
but none of them match my energy

your power level not testing me
like god form can you follow me
im down as hell but this backwoods got me bouncing back like a senzu bean

BOTH:

for once aim your love in my direction 
cut me open baby kill my imperfections

9TAILS & guccihighwaters - for once (prod. notmorgn)

Art by Emotional Buu https://soundcloud.com/emotionalbuu
https://twitter.com/emotionalbuu

Lyrics:

Still couldn't say,
Who mothered guilt and delivered the prey?
They roll the credits but I still replay
Over and over, it's over. Ok (again and again)
But I don't know who the enemy was
Reflections show up empty of trust
It was you feelin lost, lookin for rest
I was willing to offer the home in my chest

I made
One beautiful mistake
and I pay for it every single day
Now you hate me in every single way
And I know that'll never ever change

Now I've got a shadow
A two dimensional symbol of how shallow
It shows up with the sun to throw all that I've done
On the floor, can't ignore, but move forward
X2

Along for the ride
As we took off I let fate be our guide
But you shook off what I knew wasn't right
Blood on my neck that's a poisonous bite!
But I didn't let this change me
In one week like relapse
I went down in slow steps,
Lost hope like bad romance
Next thing you know I'm in entirely numb
On a dangerous road, say I had a good run

If I could I would take it all back
Not to self save, but to pay my debt
If I could I would take it all back
Not to self save, but to free your head

I made
One beautiful mistake
and I pay for it every single day
Now you hate me in every single way
And I know that'll never ever change

Now I've got a shadow
A two dimensional symbol of how shallow
It shows up with the sun to throw all that I've done
On the floor, can't ignore, but move forward
X2

Now the Devil's made his home on both my shoulders
As I get older I yield to the smolder

Now I've got a shadow
A two dimensional symbol of how shallow
It shows up with the sun to throw all that I've done
On the floor, can't ignore, but move forward

Shadow

fats'e - cut me off

pulled up so late that i missed the whole party

original sample: https://soundcloud.com/kahlua-and-milk/cheap-wine-1
by kahlua and milk 

shattered:
your beauty is something to notice
unravel my mind like a lotus
got something to say you might know this
but everytime i see you i just lose focus 
lips on your thighs got the roses beside 
swear to god i think the stars have aligned
drunk out my mind like your pussy is wine
stuck on your lips like a grape to a vine 
words fall from petals like roses
loving you shawty you know this
cupid hit me at my lowest
missing you takes all my focus

9TAILS:
turning grey
youll be okay though
no halo
i am no angel
gotta worn down old face
cold gaze
how im spose to love you how u want it
with a full plate
every step i stumble i got no grace
its a trick maze
up inside my mind im on a tight rope
how i fix it up fuck if i know
fuck a high note
smoking blunts singing slow while my eyes low
thoughts attack me make the lyrics sappy
turn up the tune cause my voice scratchy like a vinyl
i hear another person bitching i might uninstall the game
eye strain back pain tooth aches weed shakes
took a break from the music for a week 
came back and it was all the same
new face with the same sound
damn
something like a "we already lost" game plan
fucking up they life to make a new song slam
u wont make a banger just because u kick cans
still it could be poppin if u got the right friends
no reason to sweat it tho u bringing in bands
you and me are gone eventually we all end
we should live the life we proud to live amen to that
amen to that

shattered:
your beauty is something to notice
unravel my mind like a lotus
got something to say you might know this
but everytime i see you i just lose focus 
i'm losing sleep over you
dreaming of colors that i never knew
painting the picture of you in my mind
wish i could somehow just stop all the time 
from the ashes of your love
we can go and fly above
leaving rainbows when we die
really hate it when you cry
feeling really slow
i got the flow
give her the ice now she colder than snow
i wanna know will she love me for long
or is it a feeling from ripping the bong

flowars:
babe i'm afraid
i'm just letting you know
i never loved someone like you before
hearts in my eyes
i been shot in the skull
mind in the sky
feeling gravity's pull
oh
words fall like petals from roses
your beauty is never unnoticed
shawty you're glitching my focus
oh shit
shawty you're glitching my focus
you're bringing hope to hopeless
i think you already know this
know this

lotus love w/ 9TAILS & flowars (prod. taurusmoon)

love you guys <3
HIT 200 ON THE DASHBOARD: prod. https://soundcloud.com/93feetofsmoke x Anxiety Attacks!

IG: www.instagram.com/ANXIETYxATTACKS/
Twitter: twitter.com/ANXIETYxATTACKS

LYRICS:

93:
Hit 200 on the dashboard
Oh no
Dummy lines like imma crash course 
Fosho 
They been scheming on my net worth
Of course
Keep my cards under the table 
Fuck off 
X2

AA!:
when there's nothing left
I'll save my breath
my one regret
is thinkin that I never needed anyone
all my problems they've been weighing on my brain now
wouldn't trade a million dollars for the pain, no
I been waiting for somebody I could talk to
but never found an open door that they could walk thru 

93:
I’ve been up 24 seven 
Gettin bands up
Why u actin so damn friendly
U should back up 
Ya they know the dome 
In scope they don’t act tough
Goofies out here showing teeth
Rely on backup 

Spend 600 on some diamonds
Like an asshole
Hope they use my chains 
To hang me like a damn rope 
I’ve been out here planting seeds
And watching roots grow
I’ve been living in the past
Watching the trees blow

Oh no
Dummy lines like imma crash course 
Fosho 
They been scheming on my net worth
Of course
Keep my cards under the table 
Fuck off 
X2

Spend 600 on some diamonds
Like an asshole
Hope they use my chains 
To hang me like a damn rope 
I’ve been out here planting seeds
And watching roots grow
I’ve been living in the past
Watching the trees blow