prod. cxrter

prod. ryan kelly

feats

Emo rock

Spazzfromky

Vibes XIX

Toska

Not my track, just couldn't find a good version on SC.

Sewerperson - Losing The Love

surprise surprise;)
---
don't usually do a surprise release, so take this as a gift lmao
---
lyrics:
damn im talking to the moon again,
he's been there all my life but now he's become like a guardian,
my knight in shining armor, shielding me from pain,
but he's not overprotective, i'm still cruisin in my lane,
and maybe i got training wheels,
and maybe i'm up in my feels,
but never will i let that come between my love that's real,
and the person i embody, someone that has always smiled,
but now its painted on my face, i should've made it stretch for miles,

cause maybe then people will not take it for granted,
all the roots that i've planted
have drowned from all the rain that never seems to stop,
and my music seems to flop whenever i put in some thought,
but when i write them in 2 minutes, seems like gold that i have brought,

i promise you i'm not a king with a cave worth of his riches,
just a boy who likes his kisses, and the girl that he misses,
all my tears have collected in the ridges, and my attitude i switch it,
cause i'm bound to find an outfit that won't leave me in the ditches,

yea i hate that place, the anger plastered on my face,
i guess it's time that i replace, my face that's breaking at a pace,
it's got cracks like its a drought, and they are laced with doubt,
held together by the hope that i will make it out


(chorus)


the demons, they're all midgets,
the minutes, i've spent reflecting,
the hardships of comprehending,
the help they've been recommending,
reality i've been bending,
has stopped me from just pretending,
that i'm really fine, when my funeral ive been attending,

in a black suit, black coffin, black world, hope they care,
hope they show some color that they never seem to share,
in a world full of rainbows, im looking pretty gray,
that's probably why she left, i just had boring displays,


(chorus)

talking to the moon again (prod. cxrter)

toxic waste

carm meet

Car Meet F/401zaya (prod. Ryan Kelly)

Huge shout out to carter metro for the fire beats as always

Lyrics

If we weren't so far apart
id let you bloom into my heart baby
but you never give me the time of day
yeah you never look my way
im just another background character in your day to day
i dont think you want me

so help me breathe
yeah help me see
whats wrong with me
please baby

i hate it when you're mad at me 
for things that i cant even see
i swear you're lying right through your teeth
everytime you talk to me

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

these games aren't fun anymore baby
and im getting fed up of the way you treat me
so brutally so brutally

so

why dont you come back down to me
you knew we were fine before you kicked off at me 
for some bullshit last week

now im just asking her..

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

give it 2 me str8 (cxrter)

shout out to Carter Metro for the beat,  Julia Alexa for the beat vocals

Lyrics

ponder on my pains and which to consider worse
the pain you gave to me or the pain i inflicted first
feelings like a burden to those that i love the most
these demons got an airtight grip round my throat

i cant seem to ease my pain
every fucking day plays out the exact same 
i wake up, breathe air and leave my place
i get home, i starve myself and i fade away

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

I think im outta luck, when it comes to life
i make the same mistakes almost every night
i dont wanna fight this feeling no more
suicidal tendancies knock at my door
and i swear im this close, to just letting them in
i find solace in death, its so calm in the end
finally find some peace from within
some peace from within

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and...

burden (cxrter)

luv yall <3 hope yall enjoy the album
out on all platforms

prod. @prodryankelly
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UChtd0ihipYS2VFUfCb7lk4A

+whole album is mixed n mastered by zonex
https://www.youtube.com/c/ZonexBeats

brand new chapter [prod. ryan kelly]

All out

all out

All Out

Old Me (prod. Cxrter x Stafford Beats)

share this song, i hope you enjoy :) 
feature: lil softie // beat maker: cxrter // mix: xsus

why did you leave me? (ft. lil softie) prod. cxrter & xsus

ｎｏ　ａｉｒ，　ｂｕｔ　ｓｏｍｅｈｏｗ　ｉ　ｂｒｅａｔｈｅ　ｔｈｒｏｕｇｈ

prod by my guy @solofttt
fucking love you all.
more on the way
stay strong
take care; drink water
try to get some rest.
thank you for being here

too much
i don't wanna feel too much
(like what?)
beat up; feet are clamped in the mud
no one
fuck this damper wood i'm hunching over every day
you shouldn't feed me love 'cause i'll regurgitate it anyways

that's the price that i'll pay
not to be overcome by my emotions
a hallow frame, left to be hung on it's own
where nobody'll noticed it's changed
feel that pain of your confusion
and just turn it into music
orchestrations of my patience
retrospective-made illusions

just be cautious not to lose it
'cause some bitch said something stupid
trust me, god i know it hurts
but know your worth and keep on moving
somewhere in the sky
just go outside and raise your head
there's reclusive ways to cleanse yourself
without this constant dread
but this toxin's running deeper
i don't know how long i'll last
i misplaced my faith with hatred
as i'm staring down the glass
i ain't hitting you up like i know you (but i do)
but i'm up a few notches, i'll understand
'cause the past, it haunts you (it does)
i try to reach out, but i got ghost hands

felt too much
now i don't feel enough
felt too much
i may have dove a little deep in the ocean
for my lungs,
couldn't handle the pressure that they had been holding
y'all folding, but i'm focused
honestly i feel omnipotent
only when i get my hands on the potion
or i'm broken, i'm not joking
but maybe if i break daylight, then i'll get shit done
and i'll feel alright
with a tone so stale there was no real cry
on a blood-stained trail, we still bleed overnight
fuck, i bet that you feel it again
incisions embellish your skin
and now you're all alone again
deprived of the people you thought were your friends
i made a couple calls, did they go through?
it ain't fair, i really don't wanna miss you
take care, i'll be blowing on tissues
no air, but, somehow i breathe through
it's 4 in the morning, my guardian's snoring
i'm sorry i lied, i've been sippin away
i'd make me some porridge, but puke it by morning
the cycle is horrid, but i ain't complain

indefinite pain ain't just part of my day
it's been shrouding my brain
like a vulturous gate
this shit's an escape
i'm always afraid
of being locked out of my own mental state
try not to run away just yet, i feel you
breaching my skin, for the meantime

too much 
i don't wanna feel too much
(like what?)
beat up; feet are clamped in the mud
no one
fuck this damper wood i'm hunching over every day
you shouldn't feed me love 'cause i'll regurgitate it anyways
(anyways)

woodworks [prod. soloft]

prod. lil divine, no samples <3
@user-642636378
mixed by lil divine, @killbreanna, and @user-642636378

[lil divine:]
stop and just wait for a minute
please listen close cuz i need this
theres blood on my clothes from the leakage
and i dont know who i can trust with the secrets

can you promise me youll keep it
safe from the scouring demons
drain all my blood with the leeches
and leave my body here to drown in the deep end

[halfhearted:]

drown in the deepend 
losing my soul
hate in ur eyes
when you break all my bones
u don’t regret all the lies thag you told
but each time you tell me
we’ll walk down this road again

sick of driving on them potholes
i think i got stockholm
forgot how you would hold me close

so now i’m clinging to a bottle
i bet you hope i rot in peace
so, lay me six feet deep

[lil divine:]

left in the dirt holdin hopes out for somethin
dont take my words and convert them to weapons
wrote you a song out of words that mean nothin
but you wont ever see it on a motherfuckin setlist

so baby tell me do you really wanna go
i cant see you through the 6 feet of snow
left my feelings in a box on the road
need a key to get the lock off my soul

i can feel the weight crushin my bones
bloody teeth embedded in the throne
why tf u keep hittin my phone?

why cant you leave me the fuck alone
when youre here this house dont feel like home
shattered fragments pierce throughout my skull
skull

[halfhearted:]

leave me to drown with the leaches
seeping in lust will i ever defeat this
stole all my love
not enough 
it’s a weakness
i was the one but i told u i’m leaving soon

we keep running round in circles
the bridges yeah we burned those
so i can never hold on hope

and i’ll let you watch me tie my rope
broke down, left my love on the side of the road
hometown, but feel like there’s no where to go
long frown, but i think i’m getting used to the cold

[lil divine:]

stop with the lies
n tell me the truth
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me
or am i a solution to u
for what somebody else did
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me
or am i a replacement to u
tell me who did u lose

leeches

leeches w/ halfhearted

https://open.spotify.com/track/2inEkHKS7a5IfCh1qfsTsa?si=78abdd2f07f744ec

produced by taurs x birkknut

@lottaheart:
i can't even trust you no more
i don't wanna wake up, what for?
took all the stuff out of your drawer
guess when it rains that it pours
[x2]

@user-642636378:
but i don't wanna talk about the times i been hurt
i been tryin not to cross your line but it got blurred
and you can never change my mind, nothing works
our feelings used to intertwine now they burned
pour the fire in my cup but i think i've had enough
boy you better sober up
they been calling on my bluffs
the feeling i been trapped in
try to heal my cuts but the beat is not stopping

why you mad for?
cinderella left her shoe on the dance floor
girl i do what i can do but you want more
you tell me its not bad 
and then you stab my back like we're running round laps
and i don't know where to go
no text back since i lost control
i don't know where to go
i can't even walk cause the bottles on the floor

@lottaheart:
i can't even trust you no more
i don't wanna wake up, what for?
took all the stuff out of your drawer
guess when it rains that it pours
[x2]

really wanna hate you but i love you
can't trust you, had nobody just you
all alone now it's harder to adjust to
really gotta go now, it's what i must do

what for? w/ halfhearted

𝓈𝑜𝓂𝑒𝒷𝑜𝒹𝓎 🎀- ft. 222quiet (p. Medium x Ryan Kelly)

sad chill - https://youtu.be/n01hH8t4nO0?si=kJQfxJlaZQOVOHuk

lyrics ⬇️ 

(brecken)
everything’s been cold since you left me
over and over I thought  were never ending 
now we’re crying in the back seat
don’t leave me here alone
don’t leave me to bleed
yeaaaa
Everything we hoped for
Never meant a thing there’s no receipt 

you told me I’m a closed door
well there’s so much that you could never see

i change my attitude when you said that  I cannot defeat you
i don’t need no body else to tell me something when ur see through
i know I need you 
I just wanna please you

ill never leave you
i jus wanna teach you
that anything could go wrong when im gone
wake up every morning hoping that ur still in love
maybe its been long enough since i ahd opened up
ill tell you what ive done
i ruined what once was

and its been long enough since i had trust
i really never feel like im enough
ill tell you for the last time
i ruined what once was

what once was w/ lil booj & halfhearted (yunnygoldz)

https://soundcloud.com/breckenford
https://soundcloud.com/user-642636378

support tha lads

So you wanna talk about another life yeah 
Maybe one where it went a little differently 
Maybe in that one we got it all right yeah
All we needed was a little consistency
And Yeah I wanna do it over  
I want to make it up 
I want to make it last a lifetime 
You’ve got my guarantee 
I’ll give you the refund if you like 

(halfhearted)
I’ve been walking down a long road 
Thought you were my back bone 
Always found my way back home but I 
I Hope it never hurts 
I know that I’m the worst 
karma working and it put me in the dirt 
I can still see the wine stain on my shirt 
Try to fix it, better burn it, cause it’s never gonna work 
If it’s all no guarantees, just know you have one half of me

So you wanna talk about another life yeah 
Maybe one where it went a little differently 
Maybe in that one we got it all right yeah
All we needed was a little consistency
And Yeah I wanna do it over  
I want to make it up 
I want to make it last a lifetime 
You’ve got my guarantee 
I’ll give you the refund if you like 

(brecken)
And if you really want me to leave you 
I’ll give you one last dance 
I’ll give you one more chance that you see me 
Without any blood on my hands 
I’ll tell you what you want you’ll believe me 
Just until I wake up to scram
You always thought that love was deceiving Yeah it is 
Yeah it is

guarantees ft. brecken + halfhearted (kingtheta)

starbound (treez + taurs + ryan kelly)

lyrics ⬇️

its not a problem til we wake up
botlles everywhere it’s dangerous 
you got tears all on ur make up
but i dont wanna hear whats made up

you been telling me some lies
 and i dont wanna live a life
where everything is made up
tnink we gotta make a change up
like
truth be told if you mess with a light bulb
then the darkness shakes you
you wont see no rearveiw

never thought so light of someone 
also thought youd be here in a month
all alone yea you dont hit me up
I been checkin on your profile like i dont see no one

Maybe this means that i lost now
every other app i look at i been blocked now
yea
i just hope you know what i had i been thru
ii been missin you like very night i miss you
I do

(notahero)

i’ve been sending u signals telepathically girl
can u hear them right before u fall asleep
i think everybody starts out as good
but i can see the evil that’s been shared by u and me
roll down the window i can’t breathe
i won’t partake in this hotbox
i’m certain
and u blow out
now there’s a wall of fog so i can’t see u
and this february, i could fall apart
and my eyes green to gray
they’re so heavy but
that’s what happens when ur messing with a lightbulb
i told her baby girl some things are better untold
i’ll see u soon girl don’t u realize it’s a cycle
and at the end of it she’ll say that i look better with my eyes closed

broken light bulbs w/ notahero & halfhearted (cxrter x vito)

Taylor’s diary  - Permanent Pain ft. Dnd Roxy (Prod. Chrizbbeats)

i'm sorry

berlin

[he4vy] 
i dont think its fair
and im sure youve got your reasons 
but your words made it so clear 
that im not much more than he is
im sick of being fair
and im tired of having doubted
that out of everything ive feared
youd let your actions speak the loudest

wasting all of the time i get 
instead of 
fighting what comes next i swear 
i always
give up when things get rough
ive got a pit inside my chest and still it wasnt enough
ive got a long road to walk and wind
theres still just 
too much shit on my mind
ive gotta 
calm down and think things twice 
ive had a long hard and lonely life 

[scorpio] 
when did one turn into two,
and three into four?
because im missing you,
now more than before
crazy how we're strangers,
we used to be so much more
promising forever,
now im not so sure

im the problem
it happens often
wish i could turn off my emotions
pulse is racing
my heart is breaking
i know im so dramatic
and you hate it

i dont blame you
after everything we've been through
if i were you
i really would have left too
i dont blame you

do you think im a burden?
is that why you dont reply
am i worth nothing,
to you in your eyes?
is everyone just better?
is that why im left behind?
i dont have to be clever
to know im not worth a try

pit inside my chest ft. scorpio (king theta)

BunnyEars (prod.Limbowithnell)

Baby if you’re desperate, Don’t lie to me 🎶

DESPERATE

prod @s0ftskelet0ns

LYRICS
Shifting gears down twisting roads
Life status critical
Without love i'm miserable
Envy me and my life honestly im still pitiful
Even if i take it to the top, will i make it home

Clutch in, shift gear, gas out
Get home, smoke up, pass out
Face a mighty foe wont back down
Baby do you want this all, do you really want this all?
Pedal to the floor blast down that hall, clutch in clutch out i still stall
Clutch in, shift gear, hear me call

Brake up, neutral revvin at the light
Nova scotia winter turbo sliding ice
6k in my pocket name that price
Baby this is how i wanna live my life

Clutch in, shift gear, gas out
Get home, smoke up, pass out

Saving up money from work, buy an srt all while having tuition to spend on
Life aint great but it could be worse, i might hold a key but am i the one to depend on
I might be me, but im just background for a ten thousand piece puzzle
So dont you see? We might build up, but for all that work were still ground floor ruble


clutch in [prod. s0ftskelet0ns]

the odds are good that no one would notice i was gone...
no... one... would... care...
in fact, some - if they noticed my absence - might feel an odd, indefinable, sense of relief...

she show me her wrist, yeah, princess is slit </3
yeah, she show me her tongue, so i drop her a hit
yeah, i drop her a strip, she the prettiest bitch (:
yeah, princess, she gliss, and i'm buying her rick
she don't love me foreal, she just use me for dope
but, i'm a sucker for love, so i let that shit go...
yeah, she let that shit go... now she fucking for coke...
baby-girl is a hoe... in the dark, i'm alone... /:

knife in the club, i'm ice-man on the drugs
she dipping the bag til' her face, it go numb
she tell me she hate me, but she wanna fuck me
shawty like a slut, on the drugs, she's so dumb...
knife in the club, i'm ice-man on the drugs
she dipping the bag til' her face, it go numb
she tell me she hate me, but she wanna fuck me
shawty like a slut, on the drugs, she's so dumb...

she show me her wrist, yeah, princess is slit </3
yeah, she show me her tongue, so i drop her a hit
yeah, i drop her a strip, she the prettiest bitch (:
yeah, princess, she gliss, and i'm buying her rick
she don't love me foreal, she just use me for dope
but, i'm a sucker for love, so i let that shit go...
yeah, she let that shit go... now she fucking for coke...
baby-girl is a hoe... in the dark, i'm alone... /:

written and edited by lightning logan
prod by culmanii
sample from american psycho by bret easton ellis

slit wrist prince$$

mental - angel number (jolst)

Just another memory w/ halfhearted (p. Cxrter & Ryan Kelly)

email yjaeonthebeat@gmail.com for beats. #RCC #SoThowedEnt


"Can't Go Back"- Young Spazz Ft. La-Brece Angelic & Craig Gibbs(Prod. By YJae)

Ocean prod. by deegocrazyyy

April Thru October Ft. RichCityK9

lyrics:

{Hook}
I tell Scott "Send it through"
I'm about to make a heater
Beam me up, rollin' zoot
Pouring dirty by the liter
In a whip and it's blue
Had to park it like it's Peter
Got some heat in the booth
Turn these goofies to believers

Make her "Ay" then she "Ouh"
Tell me just a little higher
I came back out the blue
Fuck the 9, I'm droppin' fire
Take a seat by the booth
I got bottles and a driver
But I got Backwoods and a lighter
Say I'm good but I'm a liar

{Verse 1}
Baby what'chu want
Fuckin' til I see the sun
I'm a fill it up
Tell your boy it's fisticuffs
Since you somethin' special
Scoop you in a rental
Swear her teeth like dental
I got sex all on my mental

Let me lay it down
We smoke by the pound
I got some much layin' 'round
Take a quarter ounce
Fuck it, half a pound
I don't wanna see a new moon
Feel like Lil Tracy I been sellin' lil' whore

Take five, take four
I've just gotta take a break
I've been thrustin' like hour
Need some water, goodness sake
Rollin' leaves like I'm a rake
Frontwoods, Bear Kush
Girl you lucky you got me
Straight up, real talk

{Hook}
I tell Scott "Send it through"
I'm about to make a heater
Beam me up, rollin' zoot
Pouring dirty by the liter
In a whip and it's blue
Had to park it like it's Peter
Got some heat in the booth
Turn these goofies to believers

Make her "Ay" then she "Ouh"
Tell me just a little higher
I came back out the blue
Fuck the 9, I'm droppin' fire
Take a seat by the booth
I got bottles and a driver
But I got Backwoods and a lighter
Say I'm good but I'm a liar

{Verse 2}
Spy spaceship to high need a grip
Mad lips, big spliff, no we buy by the zip
Maybe one drink of Goose and some rum now I'm drunk
Try to move look at me
I'm lookin' like a fool
Play me, make me sad 'cause I'm a tool
Got me fallin'
Got me textin' back I'm all in
See you stallin'
I know that your man callin'
Blond hair, big lips, man I want it
Juicy wide hips, let you flaunt it

And I can't go out
Start thinkin' what I'm 'bout
Half of these bitches just want clout I say
I just Migos these bitches and ballout

{Hook}
I tell Scott "Send it through"
I'm about to make a heater
Beam me up, rollin' zoot
Pouring dirty by the liter
In a whip and it's blue
Had to park it like it's Peter
Got some heat in the booth
Turn these goofies to believers

Make her "Ay" then she "Ouh"
Tell me just a little higher
I came back out the blue
Fuck the 9, I'm droppin' fire
Take a seat by the booth
I got bottles and a driver
But I got Backwoods and a lighter
Say I'm good but I'm a liar

okkkk (scottysplash)

lock da doors (samashi)

cpt morgn (skeyez)

@youngburial
@93feetofsmoke
@ihateshinigami

Change Up

lyrics:

its all movin too fast could u slow down
taking back sunday and monday and tuesday and wednesday all of it
welcome to the burning world
welcome to the broken earth
famine, pestilence and stillbirth
and honestly im too excited
im shaking in my knees i couldnt hide it

rip off his face
god bless the day
spit flying out
dont try and mediate
baby can you tell me whats the new plan
we just gonna fight and then we fuck again
she gimme head gimme beak gimme toucan
i drink flames while i snort this beach sand
famine, pestilence and stillbirth
and honestly im too excited
im shaking in my knees i couldnt hide it

baby u not thinking for yourself i feel bad for you
u need more omega-3 its so good for you
u can talk to me in private girl im here for you
all these screens in ur room do shit for you
i dont wanna eat take a shit and take a piss for you
die young and you blame who was around for you
u not thinking for yourself i feel bad for you
baby u need more omega-3 its so good for you

i let her slap me
let her move me
i let her control me
baby ur my only
bruises on my eyelids compliment my green eyes
spoiler alert im sorry to say but everybody dies
but honestly im different and i dont know why
huh
huh
this the anthem
of our dirt
lemme uh
lemme speak on my time here on this earth
do not catch me when i fall
im good
i dont care but i wish i could
baby im fucked up feeling good
coughing up black im filled with soot

its all movin too fast could u slow down
taking back sunday and monday and tuesday and wednesday all of it
welcome to the burning world
welcome to the broken earth
famine, pestilence and stillbirth
and honestly im too excited
im shaking in my knees i couldnt hide it

omega-3 (eric godlow)

All music will be under “Taylor’s diary” from now on

27 Years old artist from Richmond KY for booking/Features/ beats
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