all by me

lyrics:

my memory fades
i wish that i changed
pls don't go away
pls don't go away
in the bush she lay
all it happened same day
i think that i'm fake
i think that i'm fake
i'm so fake
i'm so fake

if i was perfect - think i'm fake

prod me

i wake up early in the morning
and i hope on roblox
cause i dont have any parents
and i dont have a job

i could atleast go play
any regular game
instead im hopping on
dollhouse rp
and grooming all day

im playing dollhouse rp
im playing dollhouse rp
im playing dollhouse rp
grooming kids online
is all i do

i met a girl online last night
i thought she was just so fine
she said she was into ageplay
i said that was just okay

we broke up the very next day
i think ima go insane
i think ima blow my brain
i think ima blow my brains

im playing dollhouse rp
im playing dollhouse rp
im playing dollhouse rp
grooming kids online
is all i do

day in the life of a dollhouse rp clone

demo

im so down on my calories
im wasting all my energy
my bmi is in the negatives
im too afraid to
ask for help
my social anxiety
its getting hard for me

u say that im selfish and i never treat u right
but pls know that i did it all for u
i did it i did it I DID IT ALL FOR U
I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT ALL FOR U OHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT ALL FOR U

did it all for you (acoustic demo)

prod me

yume de takaku tonda
karada wa
donna fuan matotte mo
furiharatte iku
nemuru chiisana omoi
hirogari dashite
kizuku yowai watashi
kimi ga ireba
kurai sekai
tsuyoku ireta
nagai yume miru
kokoro wa
sou eien de
i wanna always stay with u
ill give u everything i have

crossing field (cover)

prod @bloodsekai

im so anxious
im so fragile
cut my wrist watch the blood dazzle
in the moonlight
sacrificial
im so done its all abysmal

razor in my pocket
cut a hole and now i lost it 
what the fuck am i gon do 
sitting in the school bathroom 

im nothin 
but a loser or somethin
dont wanna lose her im cuttin
my emotions are just based off assumptions

wont let it fall apart
u cant do that to my heart
i was scared right from the start
put my feelings into art

passing time in the school bathroom

prod me

nothing works
i cant stand being alone
nothing works
drunk texts on my phone
x2

i dont know what to do
go and cry in my room
block my friends on discord too
cuz they dont even have a clue
what im going thru
and neither do u
so ill scream this tune
till my face turns blue

nothing works
i cant stand being alone
nothing works
drunk texts on my phone
x2

nothing works

i sit in the back of the classs
why did my life end this bad
just tell me what i did wrong i dont understand
you dont know me im such a weirdo piece of shit
i feel so weird i feel so wrong
i take a blade let begone
my soul is yours my soul is cross
i told you secrets now there gone
ig it weird that im in love
i give u my heart now it all gone
im so sick of all thses game that you would always play
your like a poison that i cant get enough of it
just tell me im in love and i come back to you
i promise im the only one for you
cut my soul into pieces im the one for you 
you had my heart then you had to destroy it too
so cut my skin open and come into me 
i promise your the only addictive drug i need
so cut me open 
and take me away from here
i need your love my dear
 i cant survive here

take my angel wings

someday in hell
i should leave you cut up on the floor 
your so ugly 
i dont want you here with me 
no more

i think your stupid
i think your ugly
your just like cupid
nobody loves me


you say im crazy
how do you know that anyways
im sorry that im fuck up anyways
you hate mee
but i love you
 i need to kil you 
you cant be mine anyways
i know that im scary
ik that you hate me
ik that you want me
ik that im delusional
this is how things go
im just one fuck up hoe
this is just how it goes

you sound crazy w/thisismyreality

prod me

i love the way u smell
i love the way u talk
and the colour of ur nails
i love the way u walk
yea that shit could cast a spell
but i hate ur new boyfriend
i hope ur doing well :/

saw u in class
pulled up ur ig
i kno i never asked
cuz im way too shy to be
talkin to u
my request went right thru
saw the noti on ur phone
but u didnt have a clue
who i was

i know i cant
tell u how im really feeling
cuz ur sometimes so demeaning
and that crushes my being

but i got a crush on u baby
pls love me no maybes
yea the way u flip ur hair
it drives me fucking crazy
kill me and degrade me
i swear i can take it
anything to be with u
i kno that we can make it

(i know i cant
tell u how im really feeling
cuz ur sometimes so demeaning
and that crushes my being)

i love the way u smell
i love the way u talk
and the colour of ur nails
i love the way u walk
yea that shit could cast a spell
but i hate ur new boyfriend
i hope ur doing well :/
x2

hope ur doing well

https://open.spotify.com/track/7mqbAhXUufSH7hlw0O2tr7?si=8ac1bdc7afc3412a

time & time again
i keep on trying
but i see no end to this

rip my hair and flesh
replace my bones n skin

agonizing heartache
im worthless im so sorry
if im gone dont worry
i might be better off alone

just throw
me in
a coffin

i broke
ur trust
n promise

if only i
i was honest
i wouldn't push myself away

agonizing heartache

prod @bloodsekai 

bottles thrown around my room
haven't felt outside in two 
days go by since i got u 
my sad summer remains true

my phone girl makes me feel sane
love u loving me this way 
miss u bad like all day 
text me tell me its ok

u hold my mind together my sanity's all yours
text me tell me u love me no tears will have to pour
times with u are so fun i dont feel like a bore 
when ur close i always forget im insecure

my phone girl makes me feel sane
love u loving me this way 
miss u bad like all day 
text me tell me its ok

did it all for you (acoustic demo)

yuki