fun church theme

prod by cxltgod & Deject

mixed by Deject

lake placid *interlude* prod|cxltgod & deject

it-girl/bline feat. WIFIPOOR and Marlon DuBois (prod Spiral)

chorus
ill always be alone
ill always be at home
ill never change my ways
ill always stay the same
ill always be afraid
ill never be Ok
ill never change my ways
ill always stay the same

verse
marching towards insanity
it has the best of me yea
i dont know whats wrong with me
im living on repeat and
i can fix it easily
but im too sad and lazy
everything is such a waste
all of this pain just breaks me

chorus
ill always be alone
ill always be at home
ill never change my ways
ill always stay the same
ill always be afraid
ill never be Ok
ill never change my ways
ill always stay the same


stay the same

prod c4pr1 + me

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Had a pack touchdown from the motherland
Pure green jade put that rock up on my partner hand
Coat the wrist with the shit that make you flex first
Then I peep the zip and then I make that fucking fist work
Bagging up the baddie but you not bout shit hoe
Stolen valor but you aint even got the talent though
None of us fuck with you, guess you didnt get the memo
Crashout, spin and flip your shit, that’s what i pray for

Yeah this beat is live
But so am I though
Shoutout empty, abe, and zacorin, we missing yuneko
Putting in the time
You wouldn’t know though
What the fuck have you made that people ever getting hyped for

You gon crashout but its just another day
I think you gon stay the same, while everybody change
The math is different but the facts are very plain
No matter what the numbers say I think you’ll always be a shame

Dont play me baby boy, let me finish up my game
And then Ill wipe that grin up off that thing you call a face
You better leave her and come let me and my girl replace
Send you spiraling I knew you were a disgrace

Spiraling

Spiraling — ttv/Greenbuck_

They all treat me as a villain
Like im constantly
In crisis mode 

Well who are you
To tell me 
Whats on my mind

I shape shift daily
Never know what side of me
That youre gonna get

Im a crisis kid
Im a bad influence 
Dont know who i resent more
The man in the mirror
Or the man i could have became
One day 

Thats a long way down 
Im not ready to fall

Im not ready to go
Please dont make me

Dont look at me
With those teary eyes 

I was mystified 
At your ability
To change the topic 

Is this where it stops
Or are we just getting started

I dont wanna fall out
I just snorted half a sumn sumn

You just kept it coming
Till i fell in love with numbing 

I had fell in love with subbing
Cuz it made them hit
Harder 

Im so sorry to my siblings
Yeah I know that this isnt right
You shouldnt have to see
The dark cricles
Round my eyes

bad influence (crisis kid)

If youre reading this
I think that you
Know the rest 

Im a man of my word
I promised you the world
And i will love you
Till my very last breath

You dont look down on me
Like all the others did 

Its kind if scary
Dont know
How i should react 

Cuz now youre part if my soul
I put your heart in my songs

I wonder if you were here
If you and i would 
Sing along together 

This is a cycle to break
I cant lie
I cant wait
To be the man youve 
always needed around 

I just cant figure you out 

I can
Feel the water
Running past your bones

I wonder if your familys
Given up yet
On tryna find your body 

Its not fair
I want you all to myself
This is where
You will remain 

This is the result
Of what would happen
If you had fed
Into my games

Im sorry
Its just not my fault
This time

And maybe you were better off
Not getting in the car
That night 

Im feeling hopeful
That your memory
Is shot
And you will not recognize 
My facial hair

Bah duh da duh da duh

I would be lying
If i put the blame on 
You again

Bah dun da dun
Da duna da
Bah dun da dun
Da duna da 

Im so dramatic
Youre annoying
Im a loser
Why do you love me

Circle round my body
Like the vulture
That you are

This aint no science fiction
You do not get to put
Me in a spell

And i hope that you
Think if me
When youre unwell

sunny day

There was a shooting
Down the road

You had blood
All over you

All the parents were scared
Of this alleged evil presence 

What can i do
To make this right
To make you feel
Like you are safe at home

Theres just not
Enough of me to go around 

Cant you hear me 
Begging for substance

They say what goes around
Always comes around
But i still have yet
To see karma

Am i done yet
I dont know
I am stuck here
All alone 

I I
Dont go
I heard
That were closer in age
Than we think 

Youre not
I cant 
Do this 
Anymore 

Someone said
Mind your manors kid

Maybe soon
Everything 
Will be okay

We can go to america
I heard the grass is greener
Over there 

Just hold on tight
Its a hell of a ride
Where were going

Dont look now
But the film is still rolling
Capturing everything weve done

I suffocate you
With all of my love

Feel the fluid
Entering your lungs

And drown here

ellis island diary entry no. 3

Back when
My mother got sick
My father was absent
God love him though

I always just thought
That he did not know
Any better 

I just cannot 
Think of any 
New solutions
Except hurting myself

I do it every day
With the pills and the liquor 

Are you proud
Of me daddy
Look im just like you 

And i dont plan
On staying long
I was just passing through 

Could you ever look 
At me as a son
That you can tell 
All of your friends about 

Did you know
That i tell all of mine
About you 

Hey can you hear me daddy
Ive been screaming 
From the other room

I feel so tired
Now this pill 
Is startna
Rip up all of my insides 

My head bleeds when i sleep
I just dont know how to describe
the pain im feeling on the inside 

Daddy can you hear me
Ive been crying 
Ive been hurting

my father's son.

Shoegazeish Demo

Statues (feat. Leah Kelly)

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