This song was my shit in 2018 and fuck its so good still

i know this song doesnt have a lot of traction, but i gotta be honest. this song has helped a lot. makes me want to try to see the next day y'know? anyway. if this is my last time enjoyin this song, thank you.

ｎｏｔｈｉｎｇ， ｎｏｗｈｅｒｅ．- ｐａｒｋｉｎｇ ｌｏｔ

I've got a lot of fear for the day that we'll be dead (prod. tothegood)

nothings gunna change [prod color hue]

Mixed by They Say and Lil Lotus
Written and recorded by Yung Lazarus & Lil Lotus
Fool For You EP coming soon

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Street Lights (ft.Lil Lotus)(prod.killedmyself)

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@nothingnowheremusic

vocals by shy
instrumental by jay vee & nothing, nowhere.
mix & master by jay vee
artwork by tommy lam

viewfinder w/ shy & nothing,nowhere.

i shouldn't look back w/ scum & lil lotus [prod fats'e]

your backyard

ft: @barrenwaste
prod: @anobodyreally x @cpt_sad

where the fuck are my friends at?
dont bother hitting me up, im busy anyway
where the fuck is my girl at?
100 miles away exploring every frat

getting dubbed like its payback
for all the fucked up shit
that i cant even admit
i dont care im just anxious
we got some plans to be famous
i dont know if i can take this
money good, but the paper faceless
im so useless, didnt choose this
feeling clueless, send me cute pics
like you used to
got a new life
that im getting used to
drunk in my room
like im Free Throw
in the back row
with my hopes up
and my head down low
man im stressed out
getting aquainted with all of my thoughts
hoping ill turn out to be who im not
grabbing a knife just to cut out the coms
my heart in the fridge where i ice out my head
my brain is a mess, id be better off dead
cant fight up the courge to end my own life
but find out the futures got reasons to live
i cannot go, but i wanna bail
burried in woes, to sorrow i hail
i drink from the veil just to swallow my tongue
maybe ill join up the 27 club

where the fuck are my friends at?
dont bother hitting me up, im busy anyway
where the fuck is my girl at?
100 miles away exploring every frat
getting dubbed like its payback
for all the fucked up shit
that i cant even admit
i dont know if i can take this
all my life ive been faceless

yeah i did some things
i don’t want to say
same as for you
so it goes both ways
don’t need this high horse 
you rode on in
its been too fucking long
since you sang the same old song
to try to get my sing along
but don’t you ever try again
im sick of all this patience
that I’ve been always fading
and try to get back
but its never helping that
i can’t understand the relations
between you and i
theres nothing left
but there always something else
that I’m wondering 
why do you always come back
to try to get me in
inside my own head
to try to trick myself
to think i love you again
it always works somehow
until i realize 
its nothing that i want now
its nothing that i need
but you always try to 
convince me

Follow me <3

faceless (ft. barren) [prod. ʎpoqou x yesterday]

prod: @nversad

ty @micmole for being adorable

lyrics:
i spent every day
loving you in a peculiar way
come thru, lemme see your face
i wanna hold you body when its next to me
you never cared about me
go ahead and forget about me

i spent every day in love
i spend every night with drugs
poppin pills and gettin dubbed
bitches know im not the one
im annoying all my friends
with the thoughts up in my head
all that talk about the dead
all that cant get out my bed
but thats the shit that ive been living
and its all i think about
so i start to let it out
on those that i care about

i love it when you walk away (prod. nversad x yesterday)

prod @4evrgone i jus added sum bass <3

found myself so thin
downing bottles again
I don't care what you did
just wanna distance myself

from the old bleeding well
from those posts seeking help
know I can't accept shit 
so just go on without me

just get on without me 
know it won't be harming 
know you won't be hurting 
from much that's been haunting me

and that's fine

leave it up to me 
let me fucking bleed 
let me stay 
x3 

it never really mattered anyway

it never really mattered anyway prod. 4evr

Mixed by IOF & Bangss
Mastered by Bangss

bangss:

In my bed i feel you wide awake
In my head i hear you everyday
But i cant wait till it all fades away
And i cant make out what your trying to say

I see monsters in my room at night
I put my mattress on floor so theres nowhere to hide
I keep my closet doors open with a light inside
The thing about all of these monsters is we look alike

Are you the one who sits behind my eyes at night rewatching all my memories like my heads a big movie screen inside
Are you the one who likes to take their precious time devising every line i write and speak
Are you the one who makes assumptions about other people and how they lead their lives. 
Are you the one who keeps me bothered
Ill wake up and check my phone screen one more time x3

Are you the one who takes my hand so frequently and tells me how its easily avoidable being beat up and used again
Are you the one who says that im your everything and nothing with a sudden change breath. 
Are you the one whos so self conscious lets be honest with ourselves for just one time
Are you the one whos so hypnotic make me forget all the trouble in my life, in my life, end my life

monsters (+ shattered)

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Monsters (+ shattered)

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Street Lights (ft.Lil Lotus)(prod.killedmyself)

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