in my opinion I think this song about being old friends and now they bugging for something more. 

maybe I'll join the 27 club 😔❤️‍🔥

an album about how i've been feeling lately

bandcamp (physical CDs available here too): bit.ly/2qBSeCp 


credits:
@jvbeats666
@yung-hy
@ihateshinigami
@nothingnowheremusic
@prodmikefrost
@ericnorth
@xchrisvayle
@machinesix

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shy - red cap (prod. jay vee + nothing,nowhere. + mike frost)

tothegood - "out of mind"
released on 27.05.2017
@lilxlotus @youngburial
free download: bit.ly/2qt1NyR
bandcamp: bit.ly/2qZktJW
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lyrics:

LIL LOTUS 

I was 17 i lost you in silence
Tried to hide all my pain with violence
Traded all of my scars for tattoos 
Now everything i do just reminds me of you

I dont want you to see this
Maybe i miss you too much
I scream in my sleep
Do you hear me 
Or am i not screaming enough
Id give anything just to hear your heart beat and bring you back to life  
You have a grandson
He look just like you
I tell him all the time

I was 17 i lost you in silence
Tried to hide all my pain with violence
Traded all of my scars for tattoos 
Now everything i do just reminds me of you

fats'e

I know your just testing me 
I miss the way you would sit right next to me
And make up stories 
To pass the time 

I guess this is how it's supposed to be
Blood shot eyes keep me company
I want out
Of my head sometimes. 

This is how it's supposed to be.

out of mind

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in silence (feat. LIL LOTUS & fats'e)

ft: @barrenwaste
prod: @anobodyreally x @cpt_sad

where the fuck are my friends at?
dont bother hitting me up, im busy anyway
where the fuck is my girl at?
100 miles away exploring every frat

getting dubbed like its payback
for all the fucked up shit
that i cant even admit
i dont care im just anxious
we got some plans to be famous
i dont know if i can take this
money good, but the paper faceless
im so useless, didnt choose this
feeling clueless, send me cute pics
like you used to
got a new life
that im getting used to
drunk in my room
like im Free Throw
in the back row
with my hopes up
and my head down low
man im stressed out
getting aquainted with all of my thoughts
hoping ill turn out to be who im not
grabbing a knife just to cut out the coms
my heart in the fridge where i ice out my head
my brain is a mess, id be better off dead
cant fight up the courge to end my own life
but find out the futures got reasons to live
i cannot go, but i wanna bail
burried in woes, to sorrow i hail
i drink from the veil just to swallow my tongue
maybe ill join up the 27 club

where the fuck are my friends at?
dont bother hitting me up, im busy anyway
where the fuck is my girl at?
100 miles away exploring every frat
getting dubbed like its payback
for all the fucked up shit
that i cant even admit
i dont know if i can take this
all my life ive been faceless

yeah i did some things
i don’t want to say
same as for you
so it goes both ways
don’t need this high horse 
you rode on in
its been too fucking long
since you sang the same old song
to try to get my sing along
but don’t you ever try again
im sick of all this patience
that I’ve been always fading
and try to get back
but its never helping that
i can’t understand the relations
between you and i
theres nothing left
but there always something else
that I’m wondering 
why do you always come back
to try to get me in
inside my own head
to try to trick myself
to think i love you again
it always works somehow
until i realize 
its nothing that i want now
its nothing that i need
but you always try to 
convince me

Follow me <3

faceless (ft. barren) [prod. ʎpoqou x yesterday]

apathy w/ guccihighwaters

Special thanks to https://www.instagram.com/fallingap.art/ for the artwork on this <3
https://twitter.com/sayygoodbyye
https://soundcloud.com/goodbyye

Lyrics:
Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

Writing this letter so I could say
Dearest friend I hope you'll be okay
Think about you each and every day
I'm still wishing that you could've stayed
Want you to know that I'm broken
Hear the words that were never spoken
I was fine until I was awoken
A heart is so fragile when it's stolen

Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

So I'll write this note and then I'll burn it
Let the smoke carry up the words and turn it
To a message from below so you learn it
Thought I wanted death before but now I yearn it
I know you want to go
Please stay I'll be alone
If you leave from this home
Don't go out in the cold

Don't go out in the snow

Please don't leave me alone

I don't want you to go

Please don't leave me alone

why'd you have to go

GREAF

i'm sorry i misinterpreted our friendship [prod. greaf]

feature: @guccihighwaters

lyrics:

(softheart)
why would i trust in anything
i dont feel the love it dont mean a thing
feels so good then it really sting
i dont really talk but i really sing 
she got me thinking like
oo she had me
cut me off so bad
leave me messed up in my head
only miss us when were bad
i be in my room smoking loud sitting silent
you should be adressed as your highness
i swear every time we touch just mitus
im just roaming through the ridges of your irus
violence got your eyelids looking violet
promise ill get rid of him ill leave him where i find him
i be with the blinds dimmed hidin
vibin

unimpressed and always bored
it aint here yet so i'll wait for it
im depressed and always stoned
im always stressed i can't control it 
uninterested always alone
fire in my chest and my heart cold
bedroom unkept ash all over my floor
i got kush in my breath merijuana my decor


(gucci)
oh
i’m all alone my phone dead
i got thoughts of the end 
and my eyes sell a forfeit
thoughts of brain matter
stain my mattress
thoughts you drown me
like a baptist

girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

(softheart)
yeah and im just an outcast 
only fit in with the skyline 
cause im always lighting up
never really gets me numb enough
sorry i wasnt the one you loved

(gucci&softheart)
girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

i'm not the one you love (feat. guccihighwaters)

Mixed by IOF & Bangss
Mastered by Bangss

bangss:

In my bed i feel you wide awake
In my head i hear you everyday
But i cant wait till it all fades away
And i cant make out what your trying to say

I see monsters in my room at night
I put my mattress on floor so theres nowhere to hide
I keep my closet doors open with a light inside
The thing about all of these monsters is we look alike

Are you the one who sits behind my eyes at night rewatching all my memories like my heads a big movie screen inside
Are you the one who likes to take their precious time devising every line i write and speak
Are you the one who makes assumptions about other people and how they lead their lives. 
Are you the one who keeps me bothered
Ill wake up and check my phone screen one more time x3

Are you the one who takes my hand so frequently and tells me how its easily avoidable being beat up and used again
Are you the one who says that im your everything and nothing with a sudden change breath. 
Are you the one whos so self conscious lets be honest with ourselves for just one time
Are you the one whos so hypnotic make me forget all the trouble in my life, in my life, end my life

monsters (+ shattered)

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Monsters (+ shattered)

конченный человек

prod. Anxiety Attacks! x cFee! x Bruce Leen
guitar/mix/master: Anxiety Attacks!
IG: www.instagram.com/ANXIETYxATTACKS/
Twitter: twitter.com/ANXIETYxATTACKS

LYRICS:
I'm sorry for the things I said
I'm sorry bout the shit I did
I lose my mind just tryna sleep at night
So take my hand or take my life
Baby I'm the Heart & you're the Knife
I've been out of reach & out of sight
but if there's one thing keeping me alive,
thinking maybe one day you'll be mine
So take my hand or take my life
Baby I'm the Heart & you're the Knife
I've been out of reach & out of sight
but if there's one thing keeping me alive...

it's alright, it's alright, it's alright, yeah
it's only right I spend some time by your side, yeah
you're feeling helpless & you're in denial
I'm feeling selfish when I'm suicidal
you're feeling helpless & you're in denial
I'm feeling selfish when I'm suicidal
you know I'll be there if you need me, 
I'll be here as long as I'm breathing
heaven down to hell when you're leaving, 
holding onto hope, & I'm thinking ya...

I'm sorry for the things I said
I'm sorry bout the shit I did
I lose my mind just tryna sleep at night
So take my hand or take my life
Baby I'm the Heart & you're the Knife
I've been out of reach & out of sight
but if there's one thing keeping me alive,
thinking maybe one day you'll be mine
So take my hand or take my life
Baby I'm the Heart & you're the Knife
I've been out of reach & out of sight
but if there's one thing keeping me alive...

faceless (ft. barren) [prod. ʎpoqou x yesterday]

yesterday

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