prod @wisssery 
@speedlmt
@sleepywater

even in the end i was nvr worth it
got me feeling down got me feeling worthless
cant you see i struggle god i hope you notice
stutter when speak and now im losing focus

turn the light switch on man its killing me
im barely even half of what i used to be
say ur stuck in the mud but its clear to me
you really wasnt anything you claim to be

im not even hearing what youre saying 
cut through me  
all the lies they leave me aching 
you never understand all the breaking 
break me down to nothing its so fucking berating  
and i dont understand what you say to me 
feeling sick, turn me blue just like an artery 
turn to ice you hit your target, archery 
tryna look forward, find myself but its hard to see

baby in the end i was loosn focus dissapearn act is my hocus pocus
if i was magicionnn i wud b gone in a munite
u aint a part of my life so dnt tell me how to liv it
baby in the end i was loosn focus
my dissapern act my hocus pocus
i open up the portal to hell
and i dont wanna close it
i been livn w satan this the life that i chosen

and i dont want to live now
two shots been lost and im let down
crying out for a lord what you say now
dont need no hope im alone now

even in the end i was nvr worth it
got me feeling down got me feeling worthless
cant you see i struggle god i hope you notice
stutter when speak and now im losing focus

turn the light switch on man its killing me
im barely even half of what i used to be
say ur stuck in the mud but its clear to me
you really wasnt anything you claim to be

magician w/ speedlmt, sleepwater [wisssery x sharp]

prodme
w my deeerfrend @autumndropsdead

she locked herself in her bathroom all alone
did you get my message when i said i felt alone
at the end of the night we all need to go home
promise that ill be fine as long as im gone
when u find another guy can u not let me know
dont waste ur time on someone u dont know

u were half of mine but i still dont know
were u ever mine i dont think so
just pretend u care dont want u to go
might just cut my hair

autie
cos i hate the way i look
could you call me back?
i'm gonna get a heart attack
I'm what you call an insomniac
made the choice no going back
don't forget, just descend
it'll do no good being over your head
i feel out of body, all i can say is sorry :(

stop it, breathe, out of reach
this sensation...
there's nothing left to me
to me (3x)
hide your chest, then release...

when u find another guy can u not let me know
dont waste ur time for someone u dont know

stop crying and start dying
looking for an answer i dont wanna get hurt
looking for ananswer i dont wanna get hurt
star signs ur a cancer!
my hearts getting blacker,
my brains getting sadder,

cancer w/autumndropsdead

original song
https://soundcloud.com/jessescc/dirty-ft-heylog

heylog verse only

heylog - dirty

original song
https://soundcloud.com/yunox/walls-feat-heylog

heylog verse only

heylog - walls

prod by me           
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(lyrics)
I sacrifice myself for you but you don't see the purpose,
sweating up a storm but you don't even seem that nervous
tired of this game we play submerged beneath the surface 
there appears to be some light that's slipping thru a crevice 


wake up and leave it
cuz you know how I get

no point in speaking
cuz I know how you get

bobbin and weavin
cuz I know how things get

lock it and throw it 
there's keys I'm not keepin

crashing and rollin
I'm killing the contest

descending I plummet
I'm crushing on pavement

bloody and battered 
all on the horizon

keepin it scattered 
dismembered and timid


I sacrifice myself for you but you don't see the purpose,
sweating up a storm but you don't even seem that nervous
tired of this game we play submerged beneath the surface 
there appears to be some light that's slipping thru a crevice (x2)

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sorry for being so inactive :') [discern & self-loathe]

winter

purpose

prod hira

i might shave her hair off make her go bald
is there something im aware of that i shouldnt know ?
pulling out another piece of me shes sucking my soul
i might leave her with a piece of me all over the floor

i might leave her with some kids dripping off of her jaw
sweating out under the covers while im watching her yawn
and god she loves to play the victim complex and all
shed take a knife to my throat and cut me some more

save it for somebody who cares
i been home for so long i bet you know what im wearing
pissed off with the way that shes swearing
on her life like somebodies caring

after us you’d follow down my path
down my path
to complicate and eradicate
what was left of me
and i was up to see
how it was to be
a self-born enemy
to uncover the seethe
you decided carry

hurt me like a fly on the wall
baby i know youre keeping secrets i dont know you at all
so could you bring another bottle cause im downing em all
i dont wanna be the prey thats leaving blood on the wall

you left me with nothing else but i still wish you the best
only your marks on my skin but im still counting my death
and when the day comes to end and im alone in my bed
i still wish you were here with ur hand on my neck

i might leave her with some kids dripping off of her jaw
sweating out under the covers while im watching her yawn
and god she loves to play the victim complex and all
shed take a knife to my throat and cut me some more

jaw w/ xona

self prod.

lyrics:

its you i crave, 
for more,
for more i say

rewind the time to when
you didn't lay in your grave
(grave)

you dont care enough to know what's right
sitting here wasting all my damn time
ohh but ur eye
never meant to make u cry


oh u know how i feel?
im feeling blue but i took the red pill
oh keep my heart sealed oh like michael

zaphkiel

(prod xona)

take what you want, i know you'll take it from me
you've been playing show pony, and now you're weak

tossing out projectiles
protecting a line
i've been playing sovereign
like i cannot die
they've been running up the gallery
like i could survive
all the influence you've shown me
cannot describe

the way i feel about this
i feel so worthless
i'm punching at the surface
i hope it's worth it

to see me fall back and forth
crashing in waves and pulling off
i'm damaged from it, or so i thought
'cos now i'm addicted to the pain involved

whatever you saw, you didn't see from me
whatever it was, i know it's your mind that's bleak
i'm so empathetic, you're welcome for the charity
no one else cared, not even i was there for me

now i graze these plains myself / i can't hold all the cards you've dealt
couldn't tell i was tense by the way my body felt / fall to the floor, i won't ask for help
digging in between your hips, it's warmer now / i'm not sure i want this, maybe it's my guilt
i hear whispers in my ear, i think it's from the spell

take what you want, i know you'll take it from me
you've been playing show pony, and now you're weak

tossing out projectiles
protecting a line
i've been playing sovereign
like i cannot die
they've been running up the gallery
like i could survive.
all the influence you've shown me
i cannot describe

projectile

No Thanks

Don’t Let Me Fall Alone

lyrics:
(heylog)
baby can u tell me something real
i got off white, on my torso
but im bleeding, on my collar bone
i swear to god its not a joke
got sick of my wrists so i decided i should change it
and i should cut my shoulder bones
can u tell me, its the past time
im afraid that, this is the last time
im so slow at replying
im not really sorry
i delete everybody
no one knows that im hiding

(yuno)
im so sorry but i'm not really sorry
i should leave everybody
i know you keep me worry
i'm ghost 
like i'm running from 
i know
i just need a sec
baby can you keep it real 
can you stay a while
it's not that i care
you should just stay a while
i can't remember 
your name 
when we're together 
we can do better
cold as december
heartbreak in winter
heart froze on ice but the weather
burns like my eyes when i get high
so go to sleep i'll be alright

(heylog)
im so slow at replying
im not really sorry
i delete everybody
no one knows that im hiding

yuno & heylog ~ ultra lord

yuno