halo3 (blackwinterwells & 8485 cover)

Party With The Demons

How Does It Feel - ian & 2hollis

[Verse 1]
If I listen close, I can hear my heartbeat thuddin'
While I search for somethin' to drown the silence out
Tired of the mindless runnin', you're the high I've wanted
For my whole damn life now
And I know I'm cold as ice, but you thaw me out every single time
Sparks fly, you burn as bright as a lighthouse in the darkest night
But I'm cynical at times
It's hard for me to read between the lines
Never knew that I was blind 'til you opened up my eyes

[Chorus]
But then it all sets in, my illusion ends
And heaven's slippin' through my fingertips
My heart caves in so I'll get faded again
Prayin' I'll find more than just your silhouette
I'm not good on my own, reachin' out for the stars
'Cause they're always a little too far
So come home, come home, I can't wait any longer
Get me out of my head
Where's Juliet?

[Verse 2]
When I take a breath
I can feel my blood run quicker
And the air gettin' thinner
'Cause the one I need's nowhere to be found
Tired of all the cheap liquor
You're the buzz I've missed for my whole damn life now
Time flies when your true eyes get me sobered up
From the need to hide
Who woulda' thought I'd try to let someone in
When there's nothing inside
'Cause I scar myself at times
But you're healin' all the wounds that bled me dry
Gave up on peace of mine 'til you walked into my life

[Chorus]
But then it all sets in, my illusion ends
And heaven's slippin' through my fingertips
My heart caves in so I'll get faded again
Prayin' I'll find more than just your silhouette
I'm not good on my own, reachin' out for the stars
'Cause they're always a little too far
So come home, come home, I can't wait any longer
Get me out of my head
Where's Juliet?

[Bridge]
Where's Juliet? Where's Juliet?
What are you waiting for?
You're so damn close and still so far, fuck
Don't look back, (Where's Juliet?) don't stop
So what if we're star cries

[Chorus]
But then it all sets in, my illusion ends
And heaven's slippin' through my fingertips
My heart caves in so I'll get faded again
Prayin' I'll find more than just your silhouette
I'm not good on my own, reachin' out for the stars
'Cause they're always a little too far
So come home, come home, I can't wait any longer
Get me out of my head
Where's Juliet?

Where’s Juliet?(stillharley cover)

derealization, and random feelings of anxiety mixed with emptiness at the least convenient moments :/

mixing, vocals, and lyrics by @sebstixns-funerl
mastering by me but with help from https://soundcloud.com/airoez
produced by https://soundcloud.com/salmonghost (hes such a goated producer, and a beautiful person, i love his beats so much)

inspired by: heyzuko! - pick up the phone pt.2 and tripleskyluv - паладин

lyrics:

i realized that i dont know how to be alone,
i live in lies they're distorting my sense of home,
my sense of time aint the same but you wouldn't know
ask myself why im this way when im on my own,

i feel,
secluded,
im lost, in all,
these negative thoughts,
i tell myself,
i messed it up,
thats why i dissasociated at the party

i wanna rip myself out of my body,
change every detail till somebody wants me,
Im tired of feeling forced to stay alive,
just so they can say they care but then theyll taunt me

im scared that things wont change,
my head it starts to ache,
everythings feeling fake,
i thought id be okay

i disassociated at the party [p. salmonghost]

modelhoez.wav (prod. by @sheepy & @wh1tespxce)

hate driving home (prod. by @morgan & @sapjer)

Kronus - Story of My Life Vs Zedd - Clarity (Kronus Mashup)

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Story of My Life x Clarity (Kronus Mashup)

a love hate relationship with the people around you lol

beat by me, using drums and a little melody thing from https://soundcloud.com/salmonghost

lyrics:

https://soundcloud.com/sebstixns-funerl

i wanna disappear,
i want it all to end,
i dont like all these fuckers who don't seem to comprehend,
that im not gonna stay just to deal with all their mess,
ima cut em out my life even after we make amends,
feel like a burden to my friends,
everybody in my life comes and goes they ascend, 
it makes me feel worse cause they're the ones that i depend,
on,
shitty people penetrate my heart like a str49 on,
im too insecure to deal with
all these worthless emotions,
cause im too overwhelmed,
and all of this constant motion's,
making me hate myself.

i dont know how to be alone,
i need people to distract me,
and then i just come back home,
and go back to the same trash sheets.

@twenni

time time time is ticking 
and im waitin for the next part-
you could tell me-me-me
yea break a fuck apart
ugh you could tempt me 
I wouldnt even give a fuck
ive been so lost
ive in need of some love
ive been feelin 
ive been feelin lost
ive been feelin 
ive been feelin trapped up- 

https://soundcloud.com/sebstixns-funerl

i feel excluded from every part of my life,
feel like im watching someone else from the sidelines,
nothing feels real to me, and nobody feels really alive,
so if you hate me, you should tell me so we don't waste our time

everybody in my life comes and goes they ascend, 
it makes me feel worse cause they're the ones that i depend,
on,
shitty people penetrate my heart like a strap on,
im too insecure to deal with
all these worthless emotions,
cause im too overwhelmed,
and all of this constant motion's,
making me hate myself.

i dont know how to be alone,
i need people to distract me,
and then i just come back home,
and go back to the same trash sheets.

removedfromlife w/ twenni [self-prod with salmonghost]

just hold on (prod. by @E L I)

@sebstixns-funerl:

i try my best,
but they could only love me when im dead,
and forget my name one year after,
and act like they all did something.

they can hide all of the tear marks and the eye bags from my corpse,
and shape my face so all the things that i had felt will go ignored.
but i will haunt everybody in their dreams.
just like their words would haunt me when i couldnt sleep.

so embalm me, 
in my tears,
i dont want,
to look weird.

ive been drowning,
in my fears,
and my bodys,
rotting clear

https://soundcloud.com/mistvale

Bleeding in the backseat I lost it
I tried my best to forget your name I called it
Even when you left me go
You never truly left my soul
Anything i try my best to
Do so you can’t cause me issues 
Is so bad and you know that
(Yeah you know)
I never wanted to feel so incomplete 
And unimportant but you broke my heart in two
And know I feel like such a nuisance

just hold on (prod. by @E L I)

yut! (@yutskip)

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