It's a track from my EP lonely world 🌍, it basically talks about fighting  your demons , being brave enough to take them on , depression  , anxiety  , insecurity . 
#sad #emo #Lonelyworld #sahiphop 
#newwave #sanewwave

02.Scared

Been A Long Time Coming. See Y'all On The Flipside. 

Lyrics-

Intro-
3 years passed, now they thinking "where you at?".
When you watch the time fly, you can never get it back. Falling down as a boy, but I get up as a man. Demons telling me I can't, I'm with the Lord, so yes I can. 
   Every time I fall I'm wondering if you will catch me. I sit and think about life and all the time that has been passing. I'm barely even eating, losing weight, it's like I'm fasting.  Crying every other night and all I hear is laughing.

1st Verse-
Back doing what I love, so I can learn to love myself. And in the midst of that I'm also trying to get help.  I'm sick and tired of living with a mask upon my face. Sad, you probably think I'm talking about a.. covid case.  I'm talking about the answer if you ask if I'm OK. Because I will probably not my head and smile, say I'm great. I don't think they want to know the pain that I contain. There's a lot I need to say but they don't care if I'm away.
    Life take a turn when you meet the wrong one. The impact if you stay is like a bullet from the gun. Blinded by the lust, you really think that this is love?  Always have you feeling low, but you were meant to be above. 
    You have a heart made of gold, but it molded from her cold.  She might have changed your ways, please don't let her take your soul.  Ignoring every sign I think that this is getting old. Sadly this the type of situation, Can't Control. 
    Now, how can I love someone, who don't love back? You can't, so tell yourself "it's done, that's a wrap".
   You know that it's sad, but that's the way that life goes.  If you focus on yourself then you will see pros.  Yes, the struggle is real and sometimes you may break. But God will only give you what you can take. Most days, I feel like I can't handle this pain. Except when I look to him, I cry and pray. 

Breakdown-
  Now, now I'm on my own. I feel so alone. Lord which way do I go? This the path, that I chose. Ever since I woke. I've been on my own. (x2)

2nd Verse-
 Walking on this path, and yes my bag is packed. Steady flicking off the ash. It's hard to face the fact. Is hard to face the fact I need to change my act. Minds not intact but my feelings stacked.
    I'm trying to be the light for when this life seem black. I need to help you find the light for when you stuck in the dark. The demons following me, they will never rip me apart. Life is seeming pretty crappy, will I ever restart?
    Cry and bleed too much, no I won't give up. Deceive and lie for such, damn well had enough.  Life is so damn rough, though it makes us tough. I just think it sucks. In the end we've won.
     I can tell your hurting, please tell me, why. Still with every outcome never satisfied.  Satisfaction never guaranteed in life. Broken factions that you part in take your pride.

Now, now I'm NOT alone. My hearts NO longer froze. Have a heart, but where's my home?? This the path i chose. Ever since I Woke. I've been on my Own!


Chosen Path (Prod. CapsCtrl)

https://open.spotify.com/album/6NCB80f3fSAga6bufSqLFG?si=qeFXRuCQSeKUueseYE6-hA

SPCE

Spce

I know it's been a while, I've had a lot on my damn mind. Okay?!

Too Crowded (Demo)

First Time Making a Beat!

https://www.beatstars.com/beat/joyner-lucas-x-kendrick-lamar-x-drake-type-beat-black-ice-8540369

Joyner Lucas x Drake x Kendrick Lamar Type Beat - "Black Ice" - Dark Type Beat

STUCK IN A DREAM

raging love (prod. jeez + paulfix)

Lost My Fear To Lose (prod. MAJZKLUANI)

straight to the face

Rappid - MA one ft Teezy Flows [prod by Shakers Records] .mp3

Her kisses taste so sweet
Light like the breeze 
Now baby I can’t sleep I can barely breath 
My sheets stained with our late night memories 
I'm so sorry I fucked up hate to watch you leave 
Can’t remember what I said but I’m filled with regret 
Shouldn’t of spoke on what we had cause now it feels dead 
That’ll be the last time I dream aloud always misunderstood by friends they always let me down 

Never meant I would change you you’re so perfect now 
Only that I could be the dude your talking bout 
When eventually you settle down 
Buy a cabin in the woods with the fairies and magic clouds
I'll fuck you, and hug you, love love you all night 
I trust you just wanna chance to make these things right 
an if you say goodbye to me then baby thats alright 
I don't wanna end it if you still have a feeling like 
you did that night in the starlight

Her kisses taste so sweet
Light like the breeze 
Now baby I can’t sleep I can barely breath 
My sheets stained with our late night memories 
I'm so sorry I fucked up hate to watch you leave 
Can’t remember what I said but I’m filled with regret 
Shouldn’t of spoke on what we had cause now it feels dead 
That’ll be the last time I dream aloud always misunderstood by friends they always let me down

I’m on my own it’s hard for me to trust right 
I’m really sorry baby I never meant to let you down 
I wanna reconnect, I’m not sure how
I'm sorry I was fucked up and I ran my mouth 
First time I felt alive in long time was layin to you 
Up late in the moonlight 
Mesmerized by the starlight shinin from your eyes 
Yeah I think your special baby I can see your spirits light

Chosen Path (Prod. CapsCtrl)

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