i could see the pain 
wishing someone would love you as much as you did
to these niggas who acted as they didnt 
have a support system like you
someone who loved them as much as you do
and i envy family who had you longer than i did too
years went by it feels like it happened the other day
but im grown now granny, and i realize it aint fake
but still id move mountains just have you cook some neckbones
and collards greens and after that we could eat lemon cake
and watch tv in your waterbed that you had
i should be happy to have the memories we had
but it broke me on so many levels and made me sad
now im a violent vessle what used to be zach
and i hope i dont embarass you too much
actin like i dont have no damn home training 
i know sometimes i screw up
punchin on niggas knowin i could have just walked away
im sorry granny i love you
i wish i wasnt this way
after all you told my mama
dont get rid of him
i could have died before my life was significant 
i could have been a ghost of a baby of who never seen shit
to a mother who didnt want em from the goddamn beginning
and lance is doing good too
as well as he can but he cries sometimes
he misses just like i do
i remember we was cookin then we smelled your perfume
your presence made us so happy, we cried all afternoon
and you told us all the time
they gon miss me when i die
you knew yo time was near and i could see it in yo eyes
but you never let it get to you
as strong as you was
and thats all i wanna be granny
as strong as you was 
but now i dont feel so strong
since u passed away 
its like part of my souls gone
my heart has frozen 
its still cold when all the snows gone
since you died 
ive been feelin like my loves gone
i drink at night 
hopin i can see the light again
most people think that im ok
ive learned to pretend
i hope that i can do well enough 
to see you again
but for now 
it feels like the winter never ends

yours and only yours
-Zachary Harris

i cry sometimes
you've been gone for wayy too long
one day is way too long
one year is way too long...
10 years is way too long
one life is way too long
without you

DIARY ENTRY NO.4 (PROD. ZACH RABBIT)

name is winona 
say it three times in the mirror

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. MONITA .
express zourself be zourself 
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DIARY ENTRY NO.4 (PROD. ZACH RABBIT)

Zach Rabbit