im so glad i finally okayed you zay.. this ones something special

zay 🤝 the most infectious and heartfelt vocalchops

Produced by @vampiremutual
Background Vocals & Mastering by @blackwinterwells
Started July 2023

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/11ig4KhZEzCyluoJEBQ3Nm?si=c3b38cb72c884106
Lyrics: https://genius.com/Elxnce-limerence-lyrics
Download: https://elxnce.bandcamp.com/track/limerence

Limerence

Written September 2023
Produced by @vampiremutual & @romechh

Lyrics:
I can't find the right words to describe how I miss you
And I'm tired of saying words that I don't believe in anymore
What happened to us?
I don't wanna waste time with you
I just hope I can get through

So I'll close my eyes
And I'll remember everything that we had
You make me feel worthless, and I don't know if I can take this
And I'll remember the ways you tried to get in my way
Every time I want to picture you
I have no regrets

So I'll distance myself and act like you don't exist
I really fucked up myself I wish that we never kissed
Don't you hit up my cellphone I know that you miss me
You don't know i why left? you treat me like I'm 16 and well since you're reaching this far 
Why don't you reach for the stars? (you tell me they're falling)

Reminisce

and when everything moves, can i catch up
up (x7)
and when i finally breakthrough, will i be stuck
stuck (x7)
and i'm so scared and confused cause it-
and when i finally hear news, i don't matter
(it's a recurring dream, where you call me, and i don't pick up and i'm the one in front this time x 2)
confused, confused, confused, confused, confused
confused, confused, confused, confused, confused,
head hurts, head hurts, head hurts, head hurts,
no
i'm so-, i'm so-, i'm so-, i'm so-,
no
love you, love, love, love you, love, love,
not news, not news, not news, not
stuck

disappointment + everything else you're scared of*

project that was planned for today has been delayed indefinitely. got much more work to do.

here's a track from the project, love sydney. 

GREETINGS FROM RACCOON, ILLINOIS

nuh uh
he loves me nuh uh
i love her nuh uh
i tell him no-ne
of my secrets
he stuffs me u-up
i dont give a fuck
we fuck just to fuck
i hate what ive become

i bite my tongue
i bite my tongue/he bites my tongue
he stuffs me up
make me shut up (god, shes so stupid)
i bite my tongue (im joking)
he bites my tongue (i wish i could choke you)
he stuffs her up (because, im sickened by your touch)
he stuffs her up/make her shut up
make her shut up
make me shut up

picture perfect people posting pages of my peers
i try to ignore it but my hands can't reach my ears
i'm a fucking asshole picking her brain just to see her
i'm a fucking asshole but i need her, "Bitch, come here."

not scared of no one but i'm afraid to face my fears.
i have a fear of losing everything i hold dear
one day that day has to come but i don't wanna see her-
at all so if you would, would you please stay the fuck away from me?

Flesh Lips

feat @46b and @grapes_1

wow, out in the town
find out what i mean to you
find out what i mean to you (sit down, care about patience)
wow, out in the town
find out what i mean to you
find out what i mean to you (sit down, care about patience)
wow, out in the town
find out what i mean to you
find out what i mean to you (sit down, care about patience)
wow, out in the town
find out what i mean to you
find out what i mean to you (sit down, care about patience)

stuck and conflicted
how can i fix this
they told me i'm trippin
but they waited til i fell down
i know that i miss it
you know that i miss it
so what's the point of waiting why can't i tell you now
(guessed it)
find out what i meant to you
i'm too focused on what shouldve been with you
i'd be lying if i didnt say
that that was true

guess it
guess it
guess it
guess it
guess
guess
guess
guess
guess
guess
guess
guess




i didnt want this, nd u just wanted somethin
dont say i mean something to u when u dont mean it
im losin reasons to keep stayin with u

tryna trick me into thinkin i miss u
always tellin me "lets do this 4 the one time"
i remember when u were always my lifeline
now every time that we talk, u take my lifetime

we aint meant to work
left this relationship hurt
and i dont know if i can recover

please dont try to get me back
had me feelin so damn sad
its just fucked to even try

no i dont mind
a simple sorry
but i dont want yo bullshit where you talkin on yo life
ugh, istg i would rather just die, just die 

writing this shit down, it's my letter
writing this shit- writing this shit  down
it's my letter
writing this shit down, it's my letter
writing this shit down- writing this shit  down
it's my letter
down, it's my letter (no i don't mind)
down, it's my letter (no i don't mind)
down, it's my letter (no i don't mind)
down, it's my letter (no i don't mind)

sit down care about patience
wow, out in the town
find out what i mean to you
sit down care lose patience

wrote you last night, awaiting response* w/edyn+ grapes

from me to you, connected/intertwined* + sydney + kaylen + fleafriends + crim$on

...and we're back*

L & R !!!

R:
I know you wanna see me cry.
I'll never forget cuz I know it's the only you want.
Why you never picking up my calls?
It's cuz your praying on my downfall and your waiting for me to fall.

I got what you need.
When your with me I cannot breathe!
Digging in my skin scrapping on my teeth.
Please don't go! Please stay with me!

L (Pre-chorus):
and the reasons i dont let go
the things i left in the marigolds
i miss the sight i had on everything
i lost it when i turned 17

the dreams i had
the views i saw
and the things i learned from them
now i cant get them back ever again

L and R (Chorus):
tell me why u gotta take so long
i keep starin at the clock tickin nonstop
why u gotta  make me wait so long
its been a while since you called my phone

ringing nonstop, nonstop
nonstop ringing on my phone 
ringing nonstop, nonstop
nonstoop 

L (Verse 2):
feelin the same that i have always had
always taken the same pld path
and im tired of all of that

help me, i need you by my side
cause im not doin alright
and i need some of the light

dear diary, i lost my way today
and i dont know if im okay,
my heart is stuck in a race
and its never gonna change

the finish line, its always moving back
its close and then its far
and its starting to hurt my heart

L and R (Chorus):
tell me why u gotta take so long
i keep starin at the clock tickin nonstop
why u gotta  make me wait so long
its been a while since you called my phone

ill tear it down and put it back
youre like a drug i keep relapsin
i dont know why i keep stressin
actin like its a confession

if i keep goin ill collapse
ill decompose the time elapsed in
seconds that i count in my mind

L and R (Outro):
is that good?
yea, its good

Nonstop !

on my way to newcastle
you were never just a girl
youd never hurt a soul
youre the one that heals the world

newcastle

prod. me

i look outside the box
don't know where to start
ask me how i feel 
i feel spectacular
lost track what u want?
don't know who you are
so ask me how i feel
spectacular 

that's enough to kill the bitch
stuck inside my room
i don't give a shit
more time to myself
ima make a hit
yea my mom said i'll make it
IMA MAKE THIS SHIT

i look outside the box
don't know where to start
ask me how i feel 
i feel spectacular
lost track what u want?
don't know who you are
so ask me how i feel
spectacular 

stand on what you said
take a new approach 
if you look outside the box
you can see me
fuck what you said and meant
i don't care at all
i'm like oh my fucking god i don't mean it

but if i said i did 
would it change a lot
i'm like come on what the fuck 
i didn't break your arm
its so simple its a joke
i never got this far
and i'm sorry if i hurt you
i just care a lot

-tacular
ask me how i feel
i feel spectacular 
-tacular 
-tacular
spectacular 

i'm tryna do this shit for too long
it better work out
i've tried to hit the ball too far
now there's no sound
they tryna take me down i said 
FUCK YOU
HOPE IT WORKS OUT
i've got the best feeling 
it's somebody i know 
i hope you get well

stand on what you said
take a new approach 
if you look outside the box
you can see me
fuck what you said and meant
i don't care at all
i'm like oh my fucking god i don't mean it

but if i said i did 
would it change a lot
i'm like come on what the fuck 
i didn't break your arm
its so simple its a joke
i never got this far
and i'm sorry if i hurt you
i just care a lot

spotify

spectacular

need a break

all these people around they just staring at me
betting all this pressure you get what you deserve 
just waiting for this week to loop again
and now i get the reason why i fucked it up
you left to rot i didnt forget 
and i just thought about it i dont think your my friend
i see it up there
you tryna mess with my friends thats no cool at all 
i cant wait to see you fall
wish i could disapear 
you tryna mess my head on the phone tryna call
how could you just fake your love

i wake up i got back in my bed now the days gone
i hate love all the same cus we break up
i got stains on my bed cus the makeup.  4x

you dont understand what mean to me
your my looooooooooooooooooove

you dont understand what mean to me
your my looooooooooooooooooove

backing away from everything

waste
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everything produced by me unless stated*
##fcvs
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disappointment + everything else you're scared of*

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