trying my very hardest but it's never enough
@vertigoth
prod @shishy77

you took it all away
this can never be what it was, its not the same
still but a call away
never said that i didnt love you, every day

you did me wrong and ill take the blame
now every drop of the rain's the same
now i know you took it all away
and i hope that you know
know i only wanted to make you stay

never wanted to go so bad, oh no
just leave the past in the past and please dont go
its so hard to approach, so far to go,
youre always fast, and im so slow

and i know its hard, i dont blame you
you know you are what i pertain to
i will stay, guess its something about you
i cant say if ill settle without you
---
and my blood still stained on the keyboard
I'll never peek so just check at the backdoor
and with all that I can and I please
so please don't tell me that u wish it were different cuz I'll be down on my knees

say you'd be down for the winter
I couldn't think of the past
u slid beneath my skin
fragments they splinter in half
and the leaves still fall, give life when stuck to my sweater
once just a schoolboy's crush, and now I picture forever :')

Love, as we let it be
I can't lose touch, ur apart of me
I sing these songs from my chest
checking the screen for the weather
you float upwards of my flaws
my blaze as light as a feather

I know that it hurts when in motion
when confusion evokes from emotion
when I struggle to look u in ur eyes
and I can't cope with the thought of goodbyes :(

goodbyes w/ verti (shishy)

@diligencexs

[victxrw]

she looks at me like im not even human
up all night trynna find a solution
losing sleep trynna find a conclusion
i guess it was just an illusion...

prove it baby can u prove it?
u abused it baby u abused it
all i do is lose all i do is lose it
but u knew it
from the start u knew it all :/

[jons]

i am trying, tying up the loose ends
crying cause i am but a human
i dont know if i did play my cards right
all i know is she played with my heart tonight
i cant sleep, not that i ever did but
she hurts me with her smile when we kiss cause
now i believe, this is not how we should be
prove it to me, that you love me constantly

[victxrw]

prove it baby can u prove it?
u abused it baby u abused it
all i do is lose all i do is lose it
but u knew it
from the start u knew it all :/

nd im not ready for winter
cuz the snow burns my skin
oh ill never be a winner
its never me again ;-;
could u leave me be?
oh im begging please
oh honestly i cant do this shit anymore...

not even human ft. jons (diligence + chained)

prod wasterr jolst

i got bands just for me&u
he can never love u in the way i do
idk if ur words are true
but baby ill do anythin for time w u
n i still like ur laugh
imma leave this story in the past
my life a porsche imma crash
would u hate me if i wasnt trash?

sold my soul for this gold chain
my whole body sno like its cocaine
i know i wont die in my old age
i know its my time when i see rain
tears mixed in my bloodstainz
yeah i got that pain in me everyday
i cant leave my bros cause that love stays
when i see yo face yea my heart breaks

(tears mixed in my bloodstainz
yeah i got that pain in me everyday
i cant leave my bros cause that love stays
when i see yo face yea my heart breaks)

baby how could i ever choose her
red eyes yeah this my world
i know how u feel when u say ur hurt
we got love yeah ik its worth
wish i had the time
maybe i could change and id make everything right
i got all these thoughts and they full of lies
i know i just think about it all the time

i got bands just for me&u
he can never love u in the way i do
idk if ur words are true
but baby ill do anythin for time w u
n i still like ur laugh
imma leave this story in the past
my life a porsche imma crash
would u hate me if i wasnt trash?

sold my soul for this gold chain
my whole body sno like its cocain
i know i wont die in my old age
i know its my time when i see rain
tears mixed in my bloodstainz
yeah i got that pain in me everyday
i cant leave my bros cause that love stays
when i see yo face yea my heart breaks

(tears mixed in my bloodstainz
yeah i got that pain in me everyday
i cant leave my bros cause that love stays
when i see yo face yea my heart breaks)

bloodstainz (wasterr & jolst)

@ihateukidu ^^ 

u gave me sum to believe in, you left, time to let it go
ive lost so much dont even care its time i walk this road alone
i cannot get it back
all of the times weve had
how did it get this bad
i wish id do it all again

i cannot get back x6
all of the times we had x6
x2


fuck it all i guess its over
one look at you fucked up to sober
im looking at these pictures on my phone
tears runnin down my cheek 
i cant stand the thought of me being alone
its really damaging

(ohhh, just forget ab it
yea ill just forget ab it
ohhh, these thoughts r makin me go violent
ohhh, just forget ab it
i cannot forget ab it
all dese fuckn memories r rushin back makin me go violent)

u gave me sum to believe in, you left, time to let it go
ive lost so much dont even care its time i walk this road alone
i cannot get it back
all of the times weve had
how did it get this bad
i wish id do it all again

i cannot get back x6
all of the times we had x6
x2

song inspo by @whyhaze and @mental

get it back (kidu)

(all platforms)

packed up
smoke a blunt
and im leaving
i got addy in my cup
and im geeking
they don wan to turn up
they just tweaking
u don even wan to show up
get deleted

u said im mad
idrc tho
they run away from the halo
i just spend my fuckn racks on u
it rly ain shit to me i get my pay up

i hate myself
n i wudn even wan me to
im in hell
take a picture i wud crop me too
i been chillin w a mac
i been chillin w a 2
i aim it at my head
i just don know wat it do

im upset 
i resent u
pissed off, out the back door he get kicked out
down bad but i flip another brick now
don understand wat ur sayn giv me lip now
im w tera n we cause a #riott
ksubi jeans on me she wan ride itt
i was screamin 'fuk class' im defiant
im jus countin dum racks, sit in silence

im with kurse we start a riot
if he talkin down
kill that boy in silence
u not goin up yo shit is trash stop trying
i cant give my trust to nobody cause they lying
but i dont mind it
i keep shit to myself yea cuz i dont really care
cant keep on takin the blame yea i dont think its fair
its a never ending cycle its like going up the stairs
always hittin up my phone u need to get up out my hair
yaaa
she said im her hero
but i dont wanna save her
cant u see im busy i be runnin up the paper
now i cant see straight all i see is vapor
i dont wanna talk so just wait ima see u laterr

packed up
smoke a blunt
and im leaving
i got addy in my cup
and im geeking
they don wan to turn up
they just tweaking
u don even wan to show up
get deleted
im w tera n we cause a #riott
ksubi jeans on me she wan ride itt
i was screamin 'fuk class' im defiant
im jus countin dum racks, sit in silence

#riott w/ tera (oiwa, okmax, surgeon)

https://open.spotify.com/track/4Ziayy5wtGWxyMArKc9ZpO?si=de0aa4bdb68944a5

prod: @trustt

whats there to say?
everything u do always goes ur way
make more mistakes
but ur still gonna go lie to my face
i cant explain 
idk how much more i could just take
i get taste of bitter 
feel like my tongue filled with glitter

what u see in me?
telling me these choices but u dont believe in me
if i still dont fix it then youll end up leaving me
i struggle with the voices cause they stay deceiving me x2

know u cant forgive me
been ignoring all my sins
been at the point where u dont need me 
but i still try to make it in
unlike the others, i can fix it
dont wanna go thru this again
it been so hard cuz idk when ur gonna
let go of that thread

i been told u
idrk if i should risk it for u
ive been losing patience dk if i know u
tell me if i bore u 
tell me if i swore too, never leave u by ur side

(i feel bitter) 
(oh no theres not a winner)
(ik im not a quitter)
(feel like my tongue filled with glitter) x2

i feel bitter
oh no theres not a winner
oh no im not a quitter
feel like my tongue filled with glitter x2

what u see in me?
telling me these choices but u dont believe in me
if i still dont fix it then youll end up leaving me
i struggle with the voices cause they stay deceiving me x2

glitter

glitter (trustt)

https://open.spotify.com/track/482YTwU4spv2BMA8W3oWOp?si=3cf33f09b56a4057

lyrics:

please, just listen
something in my body's missing...

i think my mind is twisted,
from the thought of losing u.
im scratching at my skin, bloods running thin,
idk wht 2 do...
i think im losing vision.
i told myself "just think this through.
how can i get 2 u, get 2 ur heart?"
i shouldve told u i loved u from the start...

cuz it true, i knew tht u were mine
everything tht u left behind
i just wanna make sure ur fine
look in my eyes
i wouldnt go and lie
nd leave this all behind
id rather die...

just take my hand nd lead it far away from here
all the pain just dissapears
can u see? its crystal clear
i just need u here

would u be right here next 2 me, 
if the stars aligned?
(i wanna keep u here, hold u tight, ill hold u near)
would u be right here 2 hold my hand at night?
(ill keep u here, ill keep u safe plz do not fear)

this song was meant for u
but we're too far distant now...
i can feel my body bleeding out, im rotting underground,
those songs i wrote for two,
makes it hard 2 listen now
u can scar me and harm me tht'll last a lifetime from now-

i think my mind is twisted,
from the thought of losing u.
im scratching at my skin, bloods running thin,
idk wht 2 do...
i think im losing vision.
i told myself "just think this through.
how can i get 2 u, get 2 ur heart?"
i shouldve told u i loved u from the start...

look in my eyes
i wouldnt go nd lie
nd leave this all behind 
id rather die...

just take my hand and lead it far away from here
all the pain just dissapears
can u see? its crystal clear
i just need u here

prod. @kingtheta

Missing

produced by @hartfxlt + @1akura
‎ 

new issey miyake on me
im flying with my homies
in japan we making bag yeah yea
why you steady keep calling
i told you i dont want you
so stop wasting my time yeah yea x2

i cant find the meaning for the things that are happening
i been spending all my life tryna feel a thing
but its worthless, i am feeling so hopeless
everything's boring i need some emotions
im still not enough, been trying so hard
was it all a lie, could you tell me why
feel like everyday been the same now 
close my heart let it rest yeah

new issey miyake on me
im flying with my homies
in japan we making bag yeah yea
why you steady keep calling
i told you i dont want you
so stop wasting my time yeah yea x2

‎ 
art by https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/429077

meaning

Spotify!~

meaning (hartfxlt + akura)

BlowMyHigh (p.miloo)

bla bla bla II

i reallyyyy like the vibe to this one ngll

lyrics:
if looks could kill, you killed me bae
stay here all night 
girl i need you here today
listen, she dont need no stylist 
like, how you fly like this
since when, you get a style like this

heart so black i
know just how to get you right
get you right 

these nxggas on dixk embarrassment 
girl pull up, come pop it quick
ill take these drugs, dont notice it
im not no saint, im prone to sin

stay and scream out, my name
mask on me, like im bane
not like them, they to lame
i cant compare, we not the same

bad bitxh, she gon slide, ill fuxk her like a dog
all black fit, big a*s boots, its hard for me to fall
p4g im like a shadow, moving in the fog
midnight channel, dont slide with the guys, you gon get lost
shes broken, im broken to, thats why im so in love

drown in purple soda
tryna get my mood up

[repeats]

PHONES (prod.1shimly)

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