just gave our orders, and resumed our silence
reverted to my default of hiding behind my shyness
tried to catch her eye but it was no use
felt like the last straw and i think we both knew

turns out it was about the new person i am
different gleam in my eyes, ever since i moved back
that i seem more indifferent to life's simple pleasures
even though i know what works for me, now i couldn't be safer?

oh no oh no
world is shifting in my eyes
oh no oh no
see shit in a different light
oh no oh no
i had so much more to say
oh well oh well
it's her word i have to take

we were sitting in a restaurant and she (different she)just ignored me all day and i was torn idk if it was overdramatic or if i genuinely did something like wtf is going on

perplexing discussion about my worldviews, morals and values

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masteroftheshadows

shoutout single ppl

sex scene in a disney movie

22 feb 2022

it’s weird it’s weird
i jus don’t know how to say it
looked in my eyes i’m antisocial
i wish i could fake it
swaying one way or the other
this won’t work let’s just face it
why does everyone i’m into
have to be just as indecisive

and i yearn
for a better cause of concern
wish i could close the curtains
get to flirtin
but fuck it i’m too reserved
and these issues merge to one
that i’m just a laughing stock
all i ever do is run in circles
and never seem to ever fucking stop

reserved

with some new friends thank you @riensu @1toge
follow them:
www.instagram.com/ri3nsu/
www.instagram.com/notmanni/
all plats march 31st: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/andrelv/want-your-attention-feat-manni---riensu

prod me once again

lyrics:
always feeling nervous yeah i never can relax
you know there's always trepidation just a feeling in my chest
and im running from my problems cos i never know whats next
really hope its not too late
i need a second to react

chorus:
i dont have any more reasons just to see you around
i just wanna hear the words that you wanna tell me
i lost my mind but u found it
why am i always so selfish
i dont need your attention
but i want it
every thought that i have always circles back to you
im so scared of you so i can never tell the truth
my heart is beating so fast i don't know what to do
im falling again and its so hard to find you

manni ✰ @1toge:
its so hard to let go
when i really wanted more now
but you wanna slow down
is this all a game to you
cause i dont really have a clue
fuck do you want me to do
did you want me to relapse
i just want my keys back
did you really mean that
theres no point if you dont feel love
so i wonder if i cross your mind
cause i dont really want to be left behind

riensu @riensu:
i've been waiting for you to come save me
cause after all we've been through you're still my safety
would you catch me again and again
dont want to pretend
but i'll be fine without you

r: she got me running back
m: she got me wanting more
r: tell me what its all for
m: tell me and ill love you more
r: lets get right to the chase
m: run around my mind like a maze
r: no text back like im not phased, at all

(chorus again)

my verse:
im way too tired to converse
guess i'll see you again
i try my best but it never works
cos you fuck up my plans
i swear im stuck in a curse
i'll never understand
im falling again
and its so hard to find you
if i had another chance i swear i'll never lose
you grazed right pass me
didnt even know its you
they told me everything is fine i really hope its true
you know its never easy but im weathering with you

want your attention w/ manni ✰ & riensu

enjoy!! 
if you want to see the animation for this song its on my instagram and tiktok. it's pretty kewl. 

https://www.instagram.com/traxee9/

made by @p3tro THANKS PETRO 

new smong next week too, bye bye love yall 

rics:
let’s hitchhike to the moon again
just me and you
700 miles away 
i found a way to you

we aren't like the others
i'll take your silence 
to mean that you like the ways i tell you the truth
that was a close call
you can't be my worst enemy
stay the night we're all gonna die
last night was a memory

can't stand the silence
turn to a tyrant
evil or good i think i'll just choose you

let’s hitchhike to the moon again
just me and you
700 miles away 
i found a way to you

can't stand the silence
can't stand the silence away from you


death
-

hitchhike to the moon
just me and you just me and you
hitchhike to the moon
just me and you just me and you

i find it easy to get lost inside your eyes
though i tend to run away at night sometimes
caught in the open
shouldn't have spoken
thought it was you that changed your mind
leave the door open
we’re crossing the ocean
now you're just a star up high

-
i wanted recognition (i deserve nothing)
i wanted it all
infatuated with death on this ball
yeah, the boy who caught fire 
is worth nothing at all
and if fate comes and tempts me 
i know i won't fall
cause the moon has it all
the Moon has it all.

produced by:
@deathright
@traxee
@tigerstar
@yametsu

w/ deathright - hitchhike to the moon

enjoy.

i think they hate me 
that's what i get for being myself :(
she hates the doubt i have
i love destroying myself :D

i know what it's like when love turns to hate
i need a fren outside of this game
it all ends the same, it all ends the same
so trust me when i say
let it die
fuck it. let it die
so fuck it let it die
fuck it. let it die

there's too many bones that i could break
i swallowed a falling star that was fake

o o oo o o o o o o o o o o o oo o o oo o o 

i mean, look at how you get everything you ever wanted

apparently i'm inferior because i can't do the same

and if my scars ever reopen
you just tell me to close them
open diary i know the truth always

i got like
three thousand thoughts a minute
leave these bitches all on read
i hate talking i admit it
think i'll dye my hair so i feel different
make a scene so i can fit in
but she knows that's not who you are 

and your only two hours away
don't worry baby it's not a problem
i ain't worried about being popular
i don't care if they even know my name
cause

there's too many bones that i could break
i swallowed a falling star that was fake

fake
a falling star that's fake

i swallowed a falling star

produced by ivy cloak

mixed by me

written by osoarin @osoarin

i can see everything happening at once (ivy cloak)

enjoy or dont enjoy
its ok 
new drop next week too or the week after? idk 
happy may 

don't give me everything that i could ever want
cuz someones out there starving it'll never be enough
i'd rather waste all my school grants on drugs
spendin all my money on some internet love 

stay with me
in love with me
love with me love with me love with me
she's in love with my nails painted
and she loves when my hairs braided
and she loves that i'm underrated
stay with me
in love with me

brb im waiting
that's my favorite song

i hate waiting for love
wtf took yall so long

we’re stuck in the Westin 
i'm not that interesting
id say i love u to ur face in like three languages
we got nothing to do
your flight leaves up at noon
shawty watchu trynna do
i think im in love with u
lol this rhyme scheme 

she wants something more than a best friend
good thing im her best friend
and im her favorite yup

i've got all her favorite songs
i like to do what i want
i've got a tab on my tongue
these dudes don't impress me

don't give me everything that i could want cuz
im being honest
ill fuck it up

and again and again and again and again
it was genuine art that i chose to defend
so if i switch up on friends that i swore to protect
its because this internet love meant more to them in the end

u ever wonder how it's actually kinda impressive how uve come so far without having a mental breakdown like how tf did u hold everything in for so long? thats pretty fucking metal bro

fuck the second chorus imma end it with a mental breakdown
ten toes turned to nubs
i can't bare to stand now

im tired of these fuckers trynna make me
if im a disappointment that's who imma be

i'm desperate
apathetic i lost all my motivation
who i love and care about 
turned to complete strangers

can i give it all up?
fuck it all up
shatter glass until my teeth turn into a bloody color

and go ahead
dont even bother to text me back
only person i trust
fell asleep inside their bed
before i could approach them
so who the fucks gonna care if i 
slash my arms and throat then
and when i crash and burn you could say that i can't control it
no i won't be right back 
scared of fake love 
and losin my will fight to back
my persona imploded	
to a thousands pieces 
would u like that?

now i'm wondering how	

my best friends the person in my head
who wants me dead

internet love

prod squirlbeats & kinsage second half prod me
goin thru a lot but everyone still my bruh

bruh (emotional) (squirlbeats & kinsage & joebruh)

this is hella diff from my normal stuff
cover art made by me
hope yall enjoy <3

jayne :
this aint what you want
like why you talk to me when you have +1
and why the fuck these mean girls just heaven sent
bitch i really thought that u were the one

so i pull up with a new bitch
margiela got me suited
and if her man wanna talk down on my name then we get to it
she said “jayne pls dont do it”
like baby you just stupid
im sick and tired of this love shit
i cant fix it im not cupid
im so tired of these hoes
you hit me up i ignore your calls
she said that she wanna talk to me more
but baby i cant get caught up with these whores

hit you up one time “are you alr”
now your texting my phone
baby its been all night
you said you gotta man tho
i said baby its alr

ima hit you up one time
i just crossed the line
now its like 3am
she hitting me up like “ur fine”

@xelsius :
I said baby I don’t think that we see eye2eye
I can’t trip over no ho’s until my money right
Funny guy, never been a dummy guy,
Walk into the function get it jumpin like a bunny, guy
I’m not fine, I’m pissed
Push it to the limit, high risk
Too dumb if I don’t send it
Hi, bih
No wait I’m trippin I mean, “Bye, bih”
Already on the road

mean girls / crossed a line w/ xel (p. takeluf)

Le Cœur sacré de toute chose. La prochaine version du monde, des chansons qui viennent du fond du cœur, dans la douceur de la guérison, dans le chemin de la révolution, dans le temps des parapluies poétiques, des danses planétaires des peuples, des alliances magnifiques de tout ce qui circule