realise that the blocks don't stop
want u to keep jumping and thinking
at this very moment i push it all away
need things to go in my head
these hills are silent
it's so easy to stay inside
like the few square feet around me
are the essence of this life of mine

why even talk about happy things
when it always just loops back to black
why bother with friendships
when it all just ends and we're all gonna go mad
of loneliness
i see all around me noones without it
these screens do help
dive in and now we're knowing and righteous

but i know this is all just me
im awful
i wish upon others what i have
misfortune

u keep saying its not my fault but ik ive done something im sorry its happened like this

sing this once and never again

just gave our orders, and resumed our silence
reverted to my default of hiding behind my shyness
tried to catch her eye but it was no use
felt like the last straw and i think we both knew

turns out it was about the new person i am
different gleam in my eyes, ever since i moved back
that i seem more indifferent to life's simple pleasures
even though i know what works for me, now i couldn't be safer?

oh no oh no
world is shifting in my eyes
oh no oh no
see shit in a different light
oh no oh no
i had so much more to say
oh well oh well
it's her word i have to take

we were sitting in a restaurant and she (different she)just ignored me all day and i was torn idk if it was overdramatic or if i genuinely did something like wtf is going on

perplexing discussion about my worldviews, morals and values

shoutout single ppl

sex scene in a disney movie

22 feb 2022

it’s weird it’s weird
i jus don’t know how to say it
looked in my eyes i’m antisocial
i wish i could fake it
swaying one way or the other
this won’t work let’s just face it
why does everyone i’m into
have to be just as indecisive

and i yearn
for a better cause of concern
wish i could close the curtains
get to flirtin
but fuck it i’m too reserved
and these issues merge to one
that i’m just a laughing stock
all i ever do is run in circles
and never seem to ever fucking stop

reserved

produced by nora evelyne
mix and mastered by nora evelyne
written by nora evelyne

they gave up
my knees grow
so weak
so weak
so weak

they gave out
my knees grow 
so weak now
i been keeping it up

follow the light, i cant save her 
ive been following lights to a laser
ive been guiding myself for a favor
tryna see god for himself but i have no faith in me

my knees grow 
so weak now
i been keeping it up

you leave me cold and i cant see
at the bottom of the sea, what you feel like
my blood on the pavement, i cant see right
blood filling every cord but it feels right

fill me up
dont bring me down
dont bring me down
call my name for mercy
am i to blame for hurting?
i found your plan
ill hold your hand
i kill to repent 

but nothing fucking matters
to me
im free

stop.

feelin myself, was it worth it
ive been killin myself, ive been hurting
and im nervous
i dont deserve this at all
dont bring me down

they gave out
my knees grow 
so weak now
i been keeping it up

follow the light, i cant save her 
ive been following lights to a laser
ive been guiding myself for a favor
tryna see god for himself but i have no faith in me

stop, realize your existence
no one else, just for you

spotify

knees

enjoy!! 
if you want to see the animation for this song its on my instagram and tiktok. it's pretty kewl. 

https://www.instagram.com/traxee9/

made by @p3tro THANKS PETRO 

new smong next week too, bye bye love yall 

rics:
let’s hitchhike to the moon again
just me and you
700 miles away 
i found a way to you

we aren't like the others
i'll take your silence 
to mean that you like the ways i tell you the truth
that was a close call
you can't be my worst enemy
stay the night we're all gonna die
last night was a memory

can't stand the silence
turn to a tyrant
evil or good i think i'll just choose you

let’s hitchhike to the moon again
just me and you
700 miles away 
i found a way to you

can't stand the silence
can't stand the silence away from you


death
-

hitchhike to the moon
just me and you just me and you
hitchhike to the moon
just me and you just me and you

i find it easy to get lost inside your eyes
though i tend to run away at night sometimes
caught in the open
shouldn't have spoken
thought it was you that changed your mind
leave the door open
we’re crossing the ocean
now you're just a star up high

-
i wanted recognition (i deserve nothing)
i wanted it all
infatuated with death on this ball
yeah, the boy who caught fire 
is worth nothing at all
and if fate comes and tempts me 
i know i won't fall
cause the moon has it all
the Moon has it all.

produced by:
@deathright
@traxee
@tigerstar
@yametsu

w/ deathright - hitchhike to the moon

enjoy.

i think they hate me 
that's what i get for being myself :(
she hates the doubt i have
i love destroying myself :D

i know what it's like when love turns to hate
i need a fren outside of this game
it all ends the same, it all ends the same
so trust me when i say
let it die
fuck it. let it die
so fuck it let it die
fuck it. let it die

there's too many bones that i could break
i swallowed a falling star that was fake

o o oo o o o o o o o o o o o oo o o oo o o 

i mean, look at how you get everything you ever wanted

apparently i'm inferior because i can't do the same

and if my scars ever reopen
you just tell me to close them
open diary i know the truth always

i got like
three thousand thoughts a minute
leave these bitches all on read
i hate talking i admit it
think i'll dye my hair so i feel different
make a scene so i can fit in
but she knows that's not who you are 

and your only two hours away
don't worry baby it's not a problem
i ain't worried about being popular
i don't care if they even know my name
cause

there's too many bones that i could break
i swallowed a falling star that was fake

fake
a falling star that's fake

i swallowed a falling star

no thing

prod squirlbeats & kinsage second half prod me
goin thru a lot but everyone still my bruh

bruh (emotional) (squirlbeats & kinsage & joebruh)

song by [@conren]
produced by [@conren]
click SHOW MORE for lyrics

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you always laughed at me when i was at my worst
i should've told you but i was all out of words
i sit in silence and remember all this hurt
yeah and it hurts me
and if you think that i didn't care at all 
its cause i'm thinking i might just go end it after all 
shoot out all my brains all on the ceiling, paint the wall
listen to my screams of help cause i wont be here long
I'm gon' shoot my brains out
Let my body rot, just let it fall down
Leave behind the things I used to care about
Cause I don't really have nobody helping out
I'm selfish now

manipulative subject (p. conren)

this is hella diff from my normal stuff
cover art made by me
hope yall enjoy <3

jayne :
this aint what you want
like why you talk to me when you have +1
and why the fuck these mean girls just heaven sent
bitch i really thought that u were the one

so i pull up with a new bitch
margiela got me suited
and if her man wanna talk down on my name then we get to it
she said “jayne pls dont do it”
like baby you just stupid
im sick and tired of this love shit
i cant fix it im not cupid
im so tired of these hoes
you hit me up i ignore your calls
she said that she wanna talk to me more
but baby i cant get caught up with these whores

hit you up one time “are you alr”
now your texting my phone
baby its been all night
you said you gotta man tho
i said baby its alr

ima hit you up one time
i just crossed the line
now its like 3am
she hitting me up like “ur fine”

@xelsius :
I said baby I don’t think that we see eye2eye
I can’t trip over no ho’s until my money right
Funny guy, never been a dummy guy,
Walk into the function get it jumpin like a bunny, guy
I’m not fine, I’m pissed
Push it to the limit, high risk
Too dumb if I don’t send it
Hi, bih
No wait I’m trippin I mean, “Bye, bih”
Already on the road

mean girls / crossed a line w/ xel (p. takeluf)

man i feel so ridden, so i just play as a cynic
i might destroy myself singin these songs with feelings
when i go to tell them, my mom keeps complainin 
she said "what in your life you give dedication?"
where i'll start to? where i'll go?
if i dont turn mainstream, i'll do bathroom shows
and when they say i cant do it, man it is so cold
cuz i just feel like a failure that nobody knows
make me feel so alone

inspo https://soundcloud.com/menthol100s/pick-your-poison