just gave our orders, and resumed our silence
reverted to my default of hiding behind my shyness
tried to catch her eye but it was no use
felt like the last straw and i think we both knew

turns out it was about the new person i am
different gleam in my eyes, ever since i moved back
that i seem more indifferent to life's simple pleasures
even though i know what works for me, now i couldn't be safer?

oh no oh no
world is shifting in my eyes
oh no oh no
see shit in a different light
oh no oh no
i had so much more to say
oh well oh well
it's her word i have to take

we were sitting in a restaurant and she (different she)just ignored me all day and i was torn idk if it was overdramatic or if i genuinely did something like wtf is going on

perplexing discussion about my worldviews, morals and values

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