prod by me and jacob vallen

wont eat for a while
my stomaches been aching
and im not myself 
not as of lately
few months ill heal right? im hardly inpatient
its not feeling real, counting cracks in the pavement
takes all i have to pull my anchor out
i dont know who i am, know everything about u
takes all i have, to make the words come out
im making nothing last, im pretty anxious now
 
dont tell me "people change" like you look down on me
you always said "its nothing" its alot to me
started turning heads, wont look back at me 
was just more of the same a little differently
giving nothing back 
its not important now
things u take for granted 
let my anger out 
i just cant grasp it
nah, its not important now

takes all i have to pull my anchor out
i dont know who i am, know everything about u
takes all i have, to make the words come out
im making nothing last, im pretty anxious now

for a while

thanks for listening <3
luv ya'll

lyrics:

(intro)
its raining, this morning
and youre trickle back
its late in october x3
you say that your sorry
but we know that you dont mean that
we'll restart it over x3
you say that its all just fine
but ik you way more then you like
ik when your telling a lie
ik when something aint right

(pre chorus)
look what we turned into
never thought it end even if we had issues
oh god i miss you x2
had a dream i was with you
almost thought it could be true
now you act like im see through
now you say i dont need you

(chorus)
if you let it go
will you drop it slow
addicted to your love
its a chemical x2
didnt mean to further the issue
youve been gone long
and i think that i miss you
i think that i miss you x2

chemical (Prod. under the maple tree)

and she then text me saying  “fair enough”
i didnt think that u was scared of anything 
so tell me baby are u scared to love ?
i typed out like fuckin everythin 
and then she text me she said “fair enough” 

2 pills all night im slippin 
lc nah i never had bring ins 
and the lights too bright 
for my eyes, head spinnin 
poured sprite all night 
half 9 still sippin 

tell me what are we baby are u just a friend to me
she told me what do you want we can have it your way jus tell me what u wanna be 
i said that’s cool i just think that we jus need to slow down n take it slow so what u tellin me
she said ive gotta go now ill be sure to come round tomorrow night got somewhere to be 
i said fair enough

FAIR ENOUGH (SCOTTYSPLASH)

I been away dipping in and out of reality for the past few months isolating, so I hope you enjoy some of this :) 
Produced by my bro @Sinxi 

Lyrics

Never took too long
To figure out if this is right here from the start
I know feelings, different paces, different hearts
They all forget me in the end, it's only dark
And I know my only way out
Is to find someone else to hate now
You turned the lights off, let my guard down
How can you say you want to stay now?

Please, tell me
What I need
To get out this hell
'Cause I love what you bring
But it's death, and I hope that I stay

You blame the timing
But when it's night, it's day
I hate the fighting
Crying, lying through your teeth
And I know my sins
They may lay two times deep
But I'm still trying, trying
Mix myself with hate

'Cause I know, it's hard to love you anymore
I barely recognize the door
Inside this room I spend my nights
Sitting on the floor
Can barely move, I smell perfume you can't afford

You know what I've been seeing
Heart has been breathing
I don't believe in these thoughts that I said
I scale the evens, you're still deceiving
Something I can't be keeping for no man
I'll wear your time, allow my heart to breathe your scars
And lose your skin
And I know I try
Lord knows I'll die
At one last try
It has to end

Please, tell me
What I need
To get out this hell
'Cause I love what you bring
But it's death, and I hope that I stay

You blame the timing
But when it's night, it's day
I hate the fighting
Crying, lying through your teeth
And I know my sins
They may lay two times deep
But I'm still trying, trying
Mix myself with hate

'Cause I know

Beauty for Ashes

prod, @prodgrayskies

- lyrics -
you said your last goodbye, 
while countin’ down your life
why'd time let you go
left on my own

theres blood on the page
my memories aren’t at bay
im so fckd in my head
i hold a gun just to test

why cant i walk in ease
the wind is cold feel the breeze
(feel the breeze)

you said your last goodbye
while countin’ down your life
why'd time let you go
left on my own

goodbye (x5)

locked in the mist
i see so many faces 
who aren’t you
who aren’t you
take a knife and stab it through my wrist
it wont hurt im at my wit
im at my wit
cause you said your goodbye
last goodbye (x2)
said your last goodbye
you said your last goodbye
You said your last goodbye
you said your last goodbye, 
while countin’ down your life
why'd time let you go
left on my own
-----------------------------------------

flower petals ✾

your last goodbye

produced by @prod-dash 🖤
mv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EEgzoEH60Cg

harmonies construct of her in vain,
when i had felt the same, i wonder what you let slip loose
idolized in holistic refrain from scaring you away,
but it was you who had left so soon
redundancy falls on the floors of insult,
diffusion of awe is now subtle appall
when the fracturing stops, he returns to his lot
and continues to watch the forgotten responses

how long has it really been?
on everything i could've been your confidence;
wounded deep, but regardless you were gorgeous
external forces couldn't conquer this fortress,
girl i was all in,
now i'm more of like a martian,
a foreign entity ignored and made of sport in pure extortion
the score depends on those who force it,
but on my life i'll never pry into this systematic fortune

easy aches at your name
november stays, but it's may

he's licking tears and steeling bones
from baring sights of burning homes
and of the counterparts still present, most have nearly decomposed
the oxygen persists, but the fluids marching in
wreak havoc on the aspens, now his blood is wearing thin
the centuries forgot receive his aching and distraught,
converting portions of distortion into frequencies bewrought
the ice goes in by division of his temperance
sickly to this weather, but she ain't even my medicine

it's two-forty-two as the film rolls into view
i beg your pardon, i'm enshrouded by the memories construed
just anyone won't do,
the comfort causes calluses he's unable to move
they stare at him in twos

the burial becomes attraction, and of the visitors, it's nothing but distraction
come one and all, before root is sawed, the chainsaw, it stops,
he of wooden rot, with that pandora's box, reverse the plot
the acid sat within his stomach summits to his top
begone of influence it's over 'fore it had begun
i'll never feel that same alikeness, they just read me wrong,
just to do me wrong

bare trees conceive cold leaves,
you showed me what we couldn't be
washing over me, frostridden stings
that sole breeze had spoke "don't leave"

easy aches at your name
november stays, but it's may

the paneling glows a familiar sequence,
but it's passage won't open to those who would seek it
through timing and tamper he had managed to enter
unaware of it's contents, he treads a bit deeper
in awe of the contrast from seeker to aether
he's welcomed to stay, but he's covered in shivers
for those it abducts are reduced down to neither
so backwards he goes, where his soul doesn't meet her's

come the night i'm allotted what's divine
i got bugs up in my head,
they always scratching, leaving bites
ain't no energy to waste on those unkind
only time you talkin shit is when you're doing it online

november (dash)

drops on all platforms - friday 13th june 💫

produced by: @prodjolst
featuring: @ripskele

and i know i look high im jus tired 
she weren’t the one she was lyin 
i jus poured up a 4 of the pinewood 
i jus switched up the plug now i’m flyin 
i pop a 10 n get violent 
i don’t fuck w opps or the sirens 
talk 2 me nice or be quiet 
u ain’t on this smoke ion buy it 
no i don’t buy it 

[skele]
i pray that someone take me home 
im not seeing right 
im mixing pills into my drink
so i can sleep tonight 
god i know u make me sore 
i don’t need reminded 
fucking kicking down that door
didn’t try to hide it
pouring up this drank 
into my cup gon make it worse 
i can’t even speak 
fuck up this check 
so it don’t hurt
put this metal to my brain 
go afk 
i’m making sure
hope i forget about ur face 
i pop this k 
like its a cure

and i know i look high im jus tired 
she weren’t the one she was lyin 
i jus poured up a 4 of the pinewood 
i jus switched up the plug now i’m flyin 
i pop a 10 n get violent 
i don’t fuck w opps or the sirens 
talk 2 me nice or be quiet 
u ain’t on this smoke ion buy it 
no i don’t buy it

tired w/ skele (jolst)

at least he wanted something 

prod: @vito2300
 
you know i like it when you speak to me soft 
most nights i spend with you alone
feels like we don’t even talk 
know you don’t need me at all 
i’m just taking up this space 
know i’m just here by default

don’t want another 
staying here is gon make me suffer 
n my body shudder 
another night i spent playing lover 
so over summer 
sunlight poking right thru the shutter 
laid under covers
every time i just let him under 

n it’s not hard to see 
but i still don’t get it 
and i bet crying here 
would make me pathetic 
i just type it up 
but don’t send the message 
and god it’s killing me 
but i think i’ll let it 

facing the repercussions 
it’s just what happens 
i can’t help that i'm no good at loving 
i’m just so unbecoming 
he only want me in passing 
at least he wanted something 

yeah is it too much 
promise i’ll be good enough 
be what you want 
even if i can’t feel your touch 
i'm leaking blood 
just waiting till i'm getting crushed 
and when we’re tongue to tongue 
i almost feel like there’s an us 

i’m just a body 
take it off 
and come put it on me 
no need for talking 
when it’s done 
you don’t need to call me 
this shit gon haunt me 
coming round it gets so disheartening 
i guess he caught me
every touch it just leave me starving 

but i’m still there 
right under you
every time 
you call my name 
in the way that i like 
don’t make me feel like 
i am more than a night 
god i tried 
god i tried 

n it’s not hard to see 
but i still don’t get it 
and i bet crying here 
would make me pathetic 
i just type it up 
but don’t send the message 
and god it’s killing me 
but i think i’ll let it 

i know i do this to myself 
i know what’s going on here 
i know i could avoid it, well
i know you’ve put it so clear
and it’s so stupid that i’m wiping my tears 
yeah it’s so stupid that i hold you this dear

unbecoming

Lyrics⬇️

its not a coincidence that i ruin everything in life
maybe if i just applied myself then they would think I tried 

i cant get myself to try if i dont think i have anything i should live for
why dont i just do more
cuz i spent way too many cold nights on the floorboards
i wish i could restore
i wish i could feel more

but i been stuck like this for longer than you know 
i dont feel like anybody even thinks that i could grow
cuz its been like this forever i dont see a place to go
i dont think that its been better but i swear that i can hope
i wish that you saw my life through my eyes and then you’d know 
that every single night since you been gone i felt broke
& i dont even tell you why i love myself, i dont
cuz i dont even tell you that i trust myself, i dont

i check my phone
its jus like a 100 messages to come home
i dont wanna do that anytime id rather be alone
 i been chillin on my own
im still happy what i chose

back then i swear i would do the most
and nowdays im not even close but you still think ill overdose

and it dont matter what i say if you dont think ill ever know
just how you really feel every time i touch the stove

all my cells have been straight burned from all the stuff inside my body
clearly i been stuck on every oerson who ever turned on me

please dont stab my back
i would rather do anything just to hear ur laugh
again 
i would do everything i never did up inside my head
i was stuck up in my bed everytime you time you said im next up
i dont wanna hear u tell me that im just the best of 3
bet those 2 other people had everything over me

best of 3 (mackk)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
i'm a mess
i barely know me
and my head
is so unholy
but i'm good
somethin pulled me
i don't know
she kiss me slowly

i gotchu figured out
you did me wrong and u wonder why i'm distant now
i stepped away cus i got sick of the room being loud
staring at a screen for hours designing sounds
and bringing in a crowd
how did i make it work
and i never thought i'd be saying "i did it first"
projects so big to where i couldn't even finish dirt
got my speakers shaking like this shit could blow a surge
i think my neighbors heard

open my window
breathe in air
sun sets at 8
wrap my arms around her body
while she kiss my face

whatever they said, don't believe em
don't let your own friends deceive you
whatever she said, don't believe that
i'll always look out for your back
don't believe a single word that she said
everything you heard is far from the truth
don't believe a single thing that she says
she says
she

don't be nervous
take a deep breath in
who you know doing it like this
face first going straight in the pavement
might as well just embrace it
weekend night
everybody goin out
except for me
it's the gym or my house
saw you just got back from the bar
that's cool
i'm just locked in makin art
prolly knocked out
2am i'm working
making my sound
i'm my own person
couldn't really tell you where i'm at for genre
i do everything and i'll do what i wanna
put your phone down, i don't want a photo
put a song out and don't even promo
post it on the gram, lotta people on it
post it on my story and your sister saw it
gotcha 
knew you wouldn't like that
flip flop
watching this moron crash
can't blame no one except for yourself
that's gotta be a record for switching that fast
how you gonna call me ugly
but stick around still obsessive w me
like i ain't dumb enough to put you under my sleeve
knock out, ya shoulda thought before u said anything

spotify

obsessed

produced by heylog

lyrics:
time will tell
pick the gun up and shoot in the head (in gta)
don't worry
you don't have to get by playing pretend
tried to be nice 
but i ended up losing friends
i disappeared and don't ever wanna talk again

driving on the freeway
the same one i saw that look on your face
you told my boy it's been hard to reach me
"talking to log isn't easy"
stop tryna get me to hangout
without you i've picked up the pace now
just go ahead
select all, delete it
i'm done and i'm leaving
been a while, i wonder if you'd recognize me
always thought what we had was strong as concrete
spoke too soon and i shoulda moved on way long ago
don't know you and i can't believe we used to be close
tempted to pick the gun up and shoot him in the head (in gta)
at the time all i wanted was for you to be dead
stupid bitch, you don't wanna live life playing pretend
don't be asking for guidance or for a hand to lend
swear it felt like yesterday
i don't recognize this place
it sucks that shit's permanent
and that scar won't go away
it don't matter where you are
at your house or in your car
i'm stuck there next to your hip
your fault you took it too far

chemical (Prod. under the maple tree)

liam