i dont make hyperpop

prod. guda

https://twitter.com/ghostsocia1

irl (guda x strang)

Don't Get You (prod. northeast lights + GUDA)

prod plxce
https://twitter.com/ghostsocia1

taskforce (plxce)

blvnkface + 5head

hey <3 ty for listening 
lyrics
ive been living all my life in my bed
in need of reassurance 
cuz im fucked up in the head
all i think about is u
and all i smell is your scent 
you dont care ab me
itd be better if i was dead
im not in your head
not in your bed 
i saw u out with him
had on your favorite dress
and the way u look at me is confusing 
i dont wanna try again ill end up losing

im a fuckin nuisance 
im so fuckin stupid 
and everytime i try i end up losin

im a fuckin nuisance 
im so fuckin stupid 
and everytime i try i end up losin

i could throw my life away 
i wouldnt care at all
im so sick of the constant pain
and the burning withdrawals 
and i would throw it all away
to see you fall
cuz ur everytime i needed you
you didnt care at all
fuck. 

im fucked up my lifes a mess
and my wounds get deeper with every step
constant feeling of anger in my chest
i dont want you happy
i want you dead
wakeup at 2am cant feel my head 
i try my best but i cant go back to bed 
im shaking 
heart beating through my chest
even tho i need to im not getting any rest 
shes a fuckin devil
shes a fuckin liar 
look at what u did my whole worlds on fire
gimme reassurance 
baby ik ur tired 
but i think tonight ill get a little bit higher 

it never works out for me 
ill never be who they want me to be
fuck

i could throw my life away 
i wouldnt care at all
im so sick of the constant pain
and the burning withdrawals 
and i would throw it all away
to see you fall
cuz ur everytime i needed you
you didnt care at all
fuck.

nuisance

produced by yungspoiler
LISTEN EVERYWHERE - https://ffm.to/lumina

here I sit and I wait for change again
how did I end up this way?
I ponder relationships, can't stand
ruin it all inside my head
another step forward sends me plummeting back
I thought I could trust them
kick me down in a ditch
when will it end, I'm engulfed in the sadness
You played me a fool I....

'cause I never heed a warning
It's all my fault, right?
Why was I so damn naïve
The jokes on me
No one around will hear me scream
I bleed out in the open muffled by the breeze

I plea
the jokes on me

I got this feeling I might just lose it all
I waste my fucking time I constantly spend sighing
evidence is in my view, I just don't want that truth
no one around, the eyes on you
please god...
again I'm a fool, I let you fuck me up

'cause I never heed a warning
It's all my fault, right?
why was I so damn naïve
the jokes on me
no one around will hear me scream
I bleed out in the open, muffled by the breeze
popularity contest
fake real at best
thought you were my friends
guess it will not mend the holes that you shot through my chest

lumina

eyes on you, jokes on me

Stream

eyes on you, jokes on me (yungspoiler)

produced by @bhertuy
LISTEN EVERYWHERE - https://ffm.to/lumina

dissolve my existence 
fade me away with the wind
so sick of your bullshit I will not let you win
I don't give a shit what you want
and I'm done with your games 
I don't have a hand to lend
and the weathers been so fucking shit lately
but it's only in my head
it's only in my head
but it's only in my head
FUCK..

its the way I always think 
I get stuck all up in these trends
as I pace back and forth and I wonder when it will fix it self
I wonder when I will feel in good health
my perspective feels so fucked up
wonder is it something I've done
the pressure sure just weighs a fuck ton
and if I give up now its all wrong
don't fucking cross me now
it'll all come back to bite you
treat me so wrong all I did was try to help you
but you keep on telling me that its only in my head

how do you know where I'll go from here
how do you know that it's not severe
you don't know me like that
so I'll keep on telling myself it's okay
but it's not, and I know it's not only in my head

dissolve my existence 
fade me away with the wind
so sick of your bullshit I will not let you win
I don't give a shit what you want
and I'm done with your games 
I don't have a hand to lend
and the weathers been so fucking shit lately
but it's only in my head
it's only in my head
but it's only in my head
FUCK..

dissolve

dissolve (bhertuy)

prod. asecoamy
mix master art: kissherguts  :*

(limits that i set aside
 maybe we just need to make up
 touching where the pain resides
 baby i dont wanna wake up
 sleeping in is crowding up my head space
 take another hit 
 hint of bad taste)
waking up is tough on the week days!

maybe im to blame
maybe im the waste
grab me by the waist
tell me its okay
a thousand different ways
i always contemplate
i think of awful things
i was jus blowing steam

tracking down the arguments
in which i find the hesitation
limits that i set aside
maybe we just need to make up
touching where the pain resides
baby i dont wanna wake up

crowding up my head space
take another hit 
hint of bad taste
waking up is tough on the week days!
maybe im to blame
maybe im the waste
grab me by the waist
tell me its okay
a thousand different ways
i always contemplate
i think of awful things

hesitations

spotify

hesitations (asecoamy)

wooooooo


Ive heard it said
Time and again
Youre not my friend
Dont you pretend


Ive heard it said, time and again, you would be there show me that stare
Now and then i get upset but i know its all in my head
Show me some respect i know what i said left you on read ur better off dead
How are you still ok? Didnt i ruin your stay?


In autumn i learned that im not the one you want
When winter came crawling i found out who i was
Now springs here theres no fear and i finally moved past you
In 2 months ill be healed lying with my tears cleared

Ive heard it said, time and again, you would be there show me that stare
Now and then i get upset but i know its all in my head
Show me some respect i know what i said left you on read ur better off dead
How are you still ok? Didnt i ruin your stay?

I know its all too much, bloody wrists, torn lips, i sit waiting
On you to fall in line, waiting, hatred growing i cant

Find the right way to you
Are you lost too?

Ive heard it said, time and again, you would be there show me that stare
Now and then i get upset but i know its all in my head
Show me some respect i know what i said left you on read ur better off dead
How are you still ok? Didnt i ruin your stay?

(shoutout bella for this part)

Im falling to pieces x2

(kindof)

ruin ur stay

li.sten.to/stillalive
@ripavah on instagram
@1avah on tiktok

lyrics:
Heartbroken, I've lost my focus
People talk down to me, and act like I ain't ever notice
Life is gray, I hope that it's not better for them
So go away, learn to be a better friend

Smoke up in my eyes, burned our ties like bridges, and the convos don't lie
I don't talk about you in my songs, I'm a menace
Fucked up then, now you fucked up everything you do
You got no life, I'm not the bad guy

What I did was right, you don't have to start a fight
I'm really a demon, I'll leave you feeling horrified
You're hateful and evil
And even worse inside your mind

I ain't trying to be mean
Ever since I met you back when i was 15
Reminisce about the times I lived on caffeine
Nowadays I see you open leave you on seen

I'm a bad guy, in a bad world
I'm becoming even worse I got a bad girl
Found my new home, it's when I'm with you
Depressed when I'm alone and that's the issue

Smoke up in my eyes, burned our ties like bridges, and the convos don't lie
I don't talk about you in my songs, I'm a menace
Fucked up then, now you fucked up everything you do
You got no life, I'm not the bad guy

What I did was right, you don't have to start a fight
I'm really a demon, I'll leave you feeling horrified
You're hateful and evil
And even worse inside your mind

still alive

bad guy

other platforms

bad guy (siem spark x chris marek)

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/avah/love-letters
hope you enjoy this <3 lmk if y'all want more of this kind of stuff
ig: @ripavah
tiktok: @1avah

Oh, just give me a kiss before you go
Uh oh, I just need me a second to hold
You tighter till the days are brighter
Mental illness eats me alive, while I'm trapped and I'm stuck inside

My brain
Depression end this pain
But lil shawty makes me happy, so happy
I don't know why i was sad at the start
Take a trip and we'll fly up to mars
I hate when we're apart
I hate that you're so far
Love letters in the mail from my heart

Red moonlight, staring at the stars
Now I'll fall apart in your arms
Cause I knew that something was so wrong
Who would think the
Doctors wrong, or everyone's wrong
Who would think that you were all alone
But you aren't alone
Every time that I think I feel fake

My brain
Depression end this pain
But lil shawty makes me happy, so happy
I don't know why i was sad at the start
Take a trip and we'll fly up to mars
I hate when we're apart
I hate that you're so far
Love letters in the mail from my heart

love letters

love letters (prod. rafiki)

@55depths
@bleedteam
@x1fern

b-side of "si tu veux"
from the EP:
"si tu dois"

i hope you had a good time.

lyrics:

(dth)
(and i'll try my best)
yeah
thought we had it
tell me about it
and now you're shouting
i'm staying grounded
or at least i'm trying to
i'm not the same
when i'm near you
fuck off
what made you say it like that?
don't want the attitude
i'll throw it right back
the back and forth is really
getting to my head
you make me feel
like i'm better off dead

and i'll try my best
this aching chest
no longer beats for you
at all
so let's lay to rest
to see what's next
remember falling back then?

(fernn)
omg like what's the fucking point now
i try to lay to rest, I try to try my best
you keep on pulling me back
wanna hate you but I confess
everything is so fucked up lately
i been thinking you that you hate me
honestly it's fine
im tired of thinkin bout you all the damn time
you treat me like shit
then you're fucking me again & you're looking so fit
I don't understand this at all
so just lay me to rest cuz I'm praying on your downfall
(praying on your downfall)

(dth)
and i'll try my best
this aching chest
no longer beats for you
at all
so let's lay to rest
to see what's next
remember falling back then?

dissolve (bhertuy)

maxeem