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death wish

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5lTeS2AOY3NyTELjl5sIHr?si=506ffc3f1c874be7

p. joshwa (@prodbyjoshwa)
inspired by @starfall
mix n master by me
trying somethin different
this song means a lot
i hope you enjoy listening

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oh ive been wrapped up in this hurt
for way too long
everything that i do man i do it for u
and youve taken advantage
what did i do? i just don't understand it
the mental strain is way too much for me
i ask you to stop and i plead on my knees
the dip in my confidence, what i achieve
everything that you are doing to me

or do you want me taking the drugs like the rest?
fail all my classes and blame it on meds
cause deep in my gut i dont think that you care
look in the mirror and pull out my hair

oh youve been hurting me bad
i want me back
i got all this damn blood on my hands
skip town with a quick money advance
cause you stole me away from me
and i hold on desperately
but my grip is not strong
oh youre in the wrong
ran out of options i have to stay strong

cause i try so hard
do what i can but i can't make it far
no i can't make it far
do what i can and i'm trying so hard

oh youve been hurting me bad
i want me back
i got all this damn blood on my hands
skip town with a quick money advance
cause you stole me away from me
and i hold on desperately
but my grip is not strong
oh youre in the wrong
ran out of options i have to stay strong

tired

prod @saiwai
@zephyrcove

lyrics

@riensu
my heart is on fire <3
and i just dont know why
i wish it would be easier
to say whats on my mind :/
tonight
if im wrong bout ur feelin
ill never recover
i dont want another

@yokulol
You knowww
I don’t wanna switch teams 
Tell me what does it mean to you
(What does it mean to you)
Gimme your hand we can go for a walk now
Run my fingers through your hair now
I think I’m runnin out of time now
Like watchu want from me?
Hands up, you can take it all from me
You take all my time away
Oh I don’t wanna wait another day, cause
What if I wait too long? 
And I waste all my time with you
That’s the one thing I don’t wanna do :(
Oh everything thing I do

It’s all 4 you ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ


@riensu
my heart is on fire <3
and i just dont know why
i wish it would be easier
to say whats on my mind :/
tonight
if im wrong bout ur feelin
ill never recover
i dont want another

@saiwai
i dont really want another lover except u girl <3
and i can make u happy we can do what u wanna do girl
yea fuck the earth, i can take u over to the moon girl
yea i just wanna dance, just show me wat u can do girl

got her like oh oh ohhh
and when u dance w me, ur eyes glow ^_^
so baby just please dont go,
yea baby just please dont go o o o o

heh
hey wassup
i love every word u say dont wna interrupt <3
like r u free tmrw, i can take u out to lunch
like get what u want, we just havin funnn

n i dont wanna take this thing too fast
but ur a lil too cute, give my heart if u asked :3
yea if we make mistakes, we can put it in the past
and ur so fkin sweet, i just love the way u acttttt

@riensu
my heart is on fire <3
and i just dont know why
i wish it would be easier
to say whats on my mind :/
tonight
if im wrong bout ur feelin
ill never recover
i dont want another

spotify

tonight + yoku ~ sai (sai)

produced by roku
with @heyzeph
cover courtesy of starcat28
this song well over a year old

lyrics - 
[spoder]
this weight all on my shoulders
don't bat your eye
just a second of your time
"don't break these habits"
i know
you've strucken
some gold
like how would i know?
like how would i
grow
dont walk around like you're the star of the show
you've fallen
deep
hoping nobody knows

[zephyr]
And you
Got way too many bad habits
Can’t take this stress, girl this damage
Got me drinking till I pass out
If only you knew the slut that you are
My bad I ain’t mean it I took it too far
But damn all this fussin’ really got me in the fuckin mood

I’m like woah, baby where u tryna go
I could put you on a jet or I could put you on a boat
We got way too much in common to be sitting all alone
Got a man I got a girl but baby they don’t gotta know
You know damn well it’s something bout ya body that’s got me fantasizing about bein wit you

[spoder]
stop if you see the green light better go now
shoot if you shoot it too high itll fall down
life tell me whats life like when you're strung out
knife tell me whats that like when you bleed out
had a couple frens but they lost it
drama queen always love to gossip
watch it fall empty all my pockets
face down bby done w all the harming

chorus

spoder - bruise

- Choke u till u feel da painnn

- thanks again to twik for sending me a bunch of beats

FilterFreak (twikipedia)

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4I9bp9alDC4m9MT4GNLtOY?si=b589387c7a0a444c
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/able

produced by jonah bru
mixed written performed by me
cover art by yinon

valentines day song
hope you enjoy, more stuff soon :)
thank you for listening as always

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show me how
show me how you love
tell me how
tell me how you feel
stop it love I'm exhausted
don't give it up, I thought you were someone that I-

don't tell me the time that I spent was no use
will I be more than (be more than)
problems to you?
oh I'll carry all my baggage to show you I'm able
you stutter your speech cause it's true

tread fine lines
when I'm with you it feels like there's no wrong or right
sworn by you, we'd grow older
my feelings attached
now I sit like a loner
oooh
I'll make sure that I'll
dooo
everything that you want me to
dumb ear had me in loop
what's there for me to do
don't give it up, I thought you were someone that I loved

don't tell me the time that I spent was no use
will I be more than (be more than)
problems to you?
oh I'll carry all my baggage to show you I'm able
you stutter your speech cause it's true

able

produced by eeryskies
additional production by me
mixed, written, performed by me

yeah, all the bad thoughts tend to loop back
i won't stay here longer if it don't matter
i prefer a walk then to call a cab
who knew leaving home would be this sad?
suppose i had it coming, now i just laugh
yeah, it's all fine if you don't think of it
if you do then you'll drown like an idiot kid
don't make me feel dumb again
give it one more try to make things right
tell me one more lie to cover your ass alright
i'd rather just bat an eye

how'd you like your coffee done? i'd do it right for you
lacklustre attempt at the best
i pour the creamer in and suddenly had knots in my chest
told you with honesty and honestly, i'd rather be dead
i told my mom i'm fine, i gave my aunt a hug
i'll spend my night inside while everyone has fun
i'll flip my insides out
i'll make you proud of me
but everytime that i'm down
it seems like you want to leave

what do you want from me?
i'm pleading down on my knees
what do you want from me?
it's getting harder to breathe
what do you want from me?
we'd make it past it i thought
i'll put my heart in a lock
and i'll just plead to god you'll be here

a couple lines across my arms
suppose that time is just a concept and we all return to god
i'd like to say i'm so mature, i did my chores, i handled love, i broke my bones, might take my life it was traumatic, i tried it twice my mind is rapid
i thought i had it all
now i have no one to call my own

i'll flip my insides out
i'll make you proud of me
but everytime that i'm down
it seems like you want to leave

what do you want from me? / take me back, i love you
i'm pleading down on my knees / take me back, i'll give the space that you need
what do you want from me?
it's getting harder to breathe /  take me back, take me back, i love you
what do you want from me? /  take me back, i love you
we'd make it past it i thought /  take me back, i'll give the space that you need my darling
i'll put my heart in a lock
and i'll just plead to god you'll be here / take me back, take me back, i miss you

coffee

three words w riensu prod sai (wip)

all songs written, mixed, mastered, & performed by me
produced by micheal harrison
additional production by me, nerc

There's no need to cry
There's no need to worry
I'm right here my love
Tell me you can hear me
When I call your name out
There's something that fears me

There's something that fears you
What are you afraid of?
So what if I get near you?
So what if I know your in and outs?
So what if I know you deep down?
So what if I know your true self?      
Bae I'm never here to hurt you

My pretty girl

I wrote your name on the paper until I fell asleep
I pray to god that you're healing and find some inner peace
I tried to end it couldn't tell you what's got into me
Reach both my hands out and saw something that I'd never seen
We were so damn young
So damn young
So damn-
And it's not your fault
It's not your fault

My pretty girl
You’re such an angel my love
I miss you I miss you so so damn much
I miss you oh I-