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death wish

@1spoder
prod roku
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lyrics -
open up the fuckin door hun
is this everything you wanted?
tell me did you really wanna
tell me did you really wanna
pop another bottle up
tell me is it lust is it really love
pop another bottle up
is it really lust is it really love
can you see what I see
through your stupid lies
it gets harder to breathe
every time

walk it down
throw it up love
love to be the one that you want
I keep falling down, keep falling out
did everything you told me to
talk every way you want me to
fuck it up
it's a dud
I don't love you
I tried it, no use
stuck in silence I bruise (I feel overwhelmed)
stuck in silence I bruise (I tried)
stuck in silence I bruise

are you amused?
go tie up that noose (it's all my fault)
acting like you nuanced and shit
alright love then burn off that bridge
tell me love how I'm supposed to live
kick yo feet up
wanna be us
she want more not enough
is it all you dream of
all you need love
fall in now I'm stuck
will you pull through?
I don't like you no more

can you see what I see
through your stupid lies
it gets harder to breathe
every time

walk it down
throw it up love
love to be the one that you want
I keep falling down, keep falling out
did everything you told me to
talk every way you want me to
fuck it up
it's a dud
I don't love you
I tried it, no use
stuck in silence I bruise (I feel overwhelmed)
stuck in silence I bruise (I tried)
stuck in silence I bruise

spoder - bruise

lyrics
will you let me get some rest, im overwhelmed
with you laying on my chest when my fort fell
with the same old texts, girl it wont help
you can feel it in your legs when you melt
and, you fell in love
I know only you held, my trust
and, dont sell my thoughts
i know you're an angel, with loss

please open the pages
look at what im facing
yeah, no more changes i hate it
baby we could watch it cave in
It makes sense at the stage we're in
fuck, look at your eyes, its one shade off from sapphire
it's decided that
i lost my heart to desire (yeah)
i know its hard, but dont cry again
i just want to know what you're residing in
well im prayin for you baby dont go
fuck a dance off tell me you wont
stay hands off that was my home
while im still distracted by your glow (once again)

Eee eee, ee aann, aaahn
Oo aah ahh, ooh aahh ah, oo aah ahh, ooh aahh ah

will you let me get some rest, im overwhelmed
with you laying on my chest when my fort fell
with the same old texts, girl it wont help
you can feel it in your legs when you melt
and, you fell in love
I know only you held, my trust
and, dont sell my thoughts
i know you're an angel, with loss

please open the pages
look at what im facing
yeah, no more changes i hate it
baby we could watch it cave in
and make sense of the stage we're in
fuck, look at your eyes, its one shade off from sapphire

angel [p. sai]

toler

prod. kidhoodiee + anh + vnoahh + me

lyrics soon idk where there are

having fun + playing

out on all platforms 

https://open.spotify.com/album/690ROHhErsz0miOJW49LxF?si=mwg72MuCRH6Yp9y8geSpLQ

(prod. RFM beats and ‪beatsbyshvrs‬)

(mumbling)
(yeah x1 trillion)

yeah , tell me im the worst
baby idk if thats a gift or its a curse
cuz you never wanna make this work out
now all i do is fucking hurt now
yeah
baby do you ever need me ?
yeah yeah
put my issues in a damn shell
they like jayne why tf
do you even need some damn help
baby im just struggling
tryna pour my heart out
and you never listen to me anyways ..

oh oh oh
i been trying so hard
you look the other way
when im even in your arms
i feel like ill never be enough for u
baby i been struggling to love you
oh yeah
throw my life away
they be listening to my songs
but dont know what i say
sometimes i hate my voice
i cant really help it
i only care abt my self
im so fucking selfish

one plus one
yeah baby
thats just me and you
and were so stuck like
what?
thats glue
will you be there if i need you?
one plus one
yeah baby
thats just me and you
and were so stuck like
what?
thats glue
will you be there if i need you?

look the other way
i dont wanna be seen right now uh
i thought that i lost myself
and then you came and found me out
i just really hope
that you dont ever let me down
then i was so fucking sad
and you turned me upside
upside down

uh yeah
miss the days when you
left marks on my body yeah
miss the day when you
said that you “fuckin love” me yeah
miss the day when you
would look in my eyes
oooh my
god damn think i fell in love twice
god damn think you look so nice
god damn will you be my wife
(wait thats a little bit too fast)
like do you need a hug?
ik that these other guys just wanna
come and fuck
like baby i can treat you right
ik that you want love
like baby i can be someone that you trust.

(someone that you trust x 10 million)

one plus one
yeah baby
thats just me and you
and were so stuck like
what?
thats glue
will you be there if i need you?
one plus one
yeah baby
thats just me and you
and were so stuck like
what?
thats glue
will you be there if i need you?

(one plus one thats just me and you and were so stuck like what thats glue youll be there if i need)

li.sten.to/tansea-s4tc

Lyrics:
If you couldn’t tell, I’m broken
Think it’s kinda odd you didn’t notice
Why you think I’m never really joking?
Cus’ I could never really stay focused

Gotta tell myself “onto the next one”
If you ever asked I’d never tell ya
Life is like a movie, I’m an extra
And yet I never smiled for the camera

Gotta tell myself “onto the next one”
If you ever asked I’d never tell ya
Life is like a movie, I’m an extra
And yet I never smiled for the camera

Would you really do me like that?
Would you really spit on my name?
I don’t really want to fight back
But I’d do it to just keep you safe

Just know that I’m a call away
It never hurts to speak
But I can’t let you go, yeah

I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go

I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go

I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go

I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go

If you couldn’t tell, I’m broken
Think it’s kinda odd you didn’t notice
Why you think I’m never really joking?
Cus’ I could never really stay focused

Gotta tell myself “onto the next one”
If you ever asked I’d never tell ya
Life is like a movie, I’m an extra
And yet I never smiled for the camera

Gotta tell myself “onto the next one”
If you ever asked I’d never tell ya
Life is like a movie, I’m an extra
And yet I never smiled for the camera

ALL PLATFORMS

smileforthecamera (p. me)

clock out just to be unsatisfied
i hate how they act when their not around me
i think that they care but its synthesized
now all i can trust is this synthesizer

so what do you expect from me
i can only do so much
having trouble keeping it all going
itll never be the same as it was

take it all theres nothing left
take it all theres nothing
their hands they pull me off my bed
its fine i guess, their not a threat

digesting all the things you said x2 
ill hate their guts until im dead
thats what i get, gave you my best

and its not even like im over anything
maybe can we resume
come back in, ill freak out, my actions
breed catastrophe
don't care anymore im done, dont care anymore i won
dont care anymore, dont care like before i was

so upset, with myself, i regret everything, everything, everything
that ive done
tried my best every time, im depressed every night, every night, every night

threat

no, we cant fall
guess i dont know
but, you're damn wrong
i try to focus on everyone
just not you
just not you
i guess the serotonin answers to my veins
i guess it all depends on what you wanna claim
i saw a vision of our life the other day
i want it so bad, so bad
i shut off
i shut up
i need attention to be with my girl
told you to listen, a step in my world
never been out here, on my own
dance on the roof with the city lights
hands all on you if the feelings right
can i talk to you girl im terrified
without you
without you
you live a lie
at war with yourself baby watch it go by
ive been on both sides
pick up the time
no amount of help could make you switch all your tides
now its all goodbye
i wish you well
wont call and get you help but
ive been through hell, so i might need it myself
i wish you well
wont call and get you help but
ive been through hell, just thinking to myself
i guess the serotonin answers to my veins
i guess it all depends on what you wanna claim
i saw a vision of our life the other day
i want it so bad, so bad
i shut off
i shut up
i need attention to be with my girl
told you to listen, a step in my world
never been out here, on my own
dance on the roof with the city lights
hands all on you if the feelings right
can i talk to you girl im terrified
without you
without you

no, we cant fall
but you're damn wrong
i cant just focus on anyone
thats not you
thats not you

wish you well

wish you well [p. sai & adrien]

produced by cmb
written, mixed, performed by me
i love you always
hope you're well ^.^

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you were once in a lifetime
no i don't want to die for someone else
once in a lifetime
i'll toss my hurt and hide it on the shelf
no i wouldn't be with no one else
no i wouldn't be with no one else
but you're gone and i'm lost again 

i told my pops i'll be okay
he knows that i can't sleep at night
the thought of you with someone else replays like hell i'm petrified 
my arms stained crimson red
i wish you'd kiss me and tell me that it's all in my head
feel like a psycho i stalk you and then go back to bed
without you i would rather be dead
without you i would

forget all that i said
unscrew my head and put another, lay me down to rest
couple folks told me i need to let it go
told them they’re crazy and i left
i know that i could be a handful baby it’s part of my nature
fool me once, you fooled me twice, so much for asking for a favour
why do you look so blue?
your eyes have lost their colour bae, what’s bothering you?
don’t mistake me for a loon, i see right through you
it’s not a secret i miss you oh i see right through you
it’s not a secret i love you

you were once in a lifetime
no i don't want to die for someone else
once in a lifetime
i'll toss my hurt and hide it on the shelf
no i wouldn't be with no one else
no i wouldn't be with no one else
but you're gone and i'm lost again

lifetime

@imnotvrycreative  ty goat <3

prod.nerfjayy

this cover art cost me $75💔