wishes

official music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MHobHG2OXfE
stream: fordis.lnk.to/wishes

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i wont take you back since
i hate to remember that all of this shits my fault
left it in the past tense
when it hits september i feel like im on my own

i was so wrong
i wont ever take you back
left your phone blocked
got fake friends
dont trust them too
got some cuts up on my shirt
shit you put me through

wasted all my time and
ruining my past and
cheated on the race but you still finished up on last place
fuck that
you dont know me too
hope they're always looking up to me
cause i wont look at you

sometimes i wish and i pray
that you'd call my phone
and you'd tell me its okay
now you killed a part of myself
put a pillow to my head and i'd
cry the pain away

i've been trying so hard (damn)
i've been trying so hard
i've been trying so hard
damn

damn
damn
damn

i was so wrong
and i haven't felt this lost in like so long (so long)
put it on god
he ain't care about my struggle in like so long

so i act like i ain't numb and im so strong
and am i a waste of time cause you moved on?
closing both my eyes hope i respawn
left me on my own had to sit and write a new song

i was so wrong
i wont ever take you back
left your phone blocked
got fake friends
dont trust them too
got some cuts up on my shirt
shit you put me through

wasted all my time and
ruining my past and
cheated on the race but you still finished up on last place
fuck that
you dont know me too
hope they're always looking up to me
cause i wont look at you

sometimes i wish and i pray
that you'd call my phone
and you'd tell me its okay
now you killed a part of myself
put a pillow to my head and i'd
cry the pain away

i've been trying so hard (damn)
i've been trying so hard
i've been trying so hard
damn

damn
damn
damn

i was so wrong
and i haven't felt this lost in like so long (it's not worth it)
put it on god
he ain't care about my struggle in like so long

i wont take you back since
i hate to remember that all of this shits my fault
left you in the past tense
when it hits september i feel like im on my own
—

wishes

prod by aftrr

lyrics:

idk what it is but ur different
mysterious, oh ur peaking my interest
maybe u could be just more than a mistress
pillow talking this aint gotta be just business, oh
on my mind aint no other misses
to be mine, got no other wishes
hit my line and i promise ima listen
ur my intuition

u know i got pressure
come thru feel the weather
all space coupe the seats in leather
she know that theres no one better
havent felt the same since last december
i know what it takes tryna give u my effort
in love with the chase ever since i met her
i know i could change, tryna give u my sweater

i been acting funny tryna see the way u move
in love with the money ima spend it on u
talk to no one else, im not tryna be rude
spark it, up too high
hands on ur side
dance with me until its 3 or 4 clock
now we watch time fly
u could stay another night oh
if u dont mind ill put ur lips on mine

whats the word
are u hurt
baby come press the issue
im not sure
for what its worth
but i think that i miss u
whats the word
are u hurt
baby come press the issue
im not sure
for what its worth
but i think-

idk what it is but ur different
mysterious, oh ur peaking my interest
maybe u could be just more than a mistress
pillow talking this aint gotta be just business, oh
on my mind aint no other misses
to be mine, got no other wishes
hit my line and i promise ima listen
ur my intuition

u know i got pressure
come thru feel the weather
all space coupe the seats in leather
she know that theres no one better
havent felt the same since last december
i know what it takes tryna give u my effort
in love with the chase ever since i met her
i know i could change, tryna give u my sweater

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intuition

unmastered
produced by me
exclusive for soundcloud

lyrics:

you so pretty with the lights on you
its a shame that you need no one
take a photo it'll last longer
just make sure i'm in this one

what's the, what's the hotline again?
cupid did a drive-by and shot at my chest
it ain't love if there's a means to an end
god i hate you so much

so much
so, so much
so much
god i hate you so-

god i hate you so-
god i hate you so-
(scream)
god i hate you so much

yeah, why you keeping up with me?
thought you said you couldn't make time for the week
think i ran out of apologies inside of me
all this playing hard-to-get it's getting hard to breathe

i been pushing on my own and i don't need your help
said you learn from your mistakes how 'bout you go to hell
i ain't running back to basics
its middle fingers to the clique that you came with

cause' i, cause' i hate you so much
so much
so, so much
so much

god i hate you so-

god i hate you so-
god i hate you so-
(scream)
god i hate you so much

ihysm (p. me)

unmastered
produced by me
exclusive for soundcloud

lyrics:
woah
you want to live vicariously
its getting old

i want to get my hopes up
but i think i lost control

i take up the whole place
in the room inside my head
and i don't want to know what's left
you're the voice that i project

i know i get selfish
i wish you could help it
even if it's respite

every night i'm restless
yet i fail to mention
that i'm up just putting people first
with no intention

anvils sink deep inside my chest
chancels i go in distress
i'm scared of being alone
man i confess

so i got out the way
you don't want to stay
i don't want to be that kid

we got money to make
can't pay you to chance
my name can't escape your lip

was just part of the game
might cut out the frame
my image of you was sick

snake in the grass
i hear you hiss
the next one couldn't treat me like this

yeah,
woah
you want to live vicariously
its getting old

i want to get my hopes up
but i think i lost control

i take up the whole place
in the room inside my head
and i don't want to know what's left
you're the voice that i project

i'm number one
im tired of last
i put me first huh, huh
foot on the gas, yeah

i take up the whole place
in the room inside my head
and i don't want to know what's left
you're the voice that i project

last place* (p. me)

//Lyrics
Im going through hell just to hear you out
I know I could tell how you see me now
I could keep it real while you keep me down
but you still want me around
you're like a shell of your former self, bae
And you wont tell off nobody else, yet
I dont think id ever
make you feel welcome
this just cant happen
but, you keep sticking in my mind
You're like a shell of your former self bae
You just wont tell off nobody else, yet

Well you know too well
that it cant be helped
take, one look at your body and im falling down
through the depths of hell
Where i wont be found
Im a mess and you can tell cus its just part of your spell

Im going through hell just to hear you out
I know I could tell how you see me now
I could keep it real while you keep me down
but you still want me around
Im going through hell just to hear you out
I know I could tell how you see me now
I could keep it real while you keep me down
but you still want me around
you're like a shell of your former self, bae
And you wont tell off nobody else, yet
I dont think id ever
make you feel welcome
this just cant happen
but, you keep sticking in my mind

candlelight [p. sai]

produced by cmb
written, mixed, performed by me
i love you always
hope you're well ^.^

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you were once in a lifetime
no i don't want to die for someone else
once in a lifetime
i'll toss my hurt and hide it on the shelf
no i wouldn't be with no one else
no i wouldn't be with no one else
but you're gone and i'm lost again 

i told my pops i'll be okay
he knows that i can't sleep at night
the thought of you with someone else replays like hell i'm petrified 
my arms stained crimson red
i wish you'd kiss me and tell me that it's all in my head
feel like a psycho i stalk you and then go back to bed
without you i would rather be dead
without you i would

forget all that i said
unscrew my head and put another, lay me down to rest
couple folks told me i need to let it go
told them they’re crazy and i left
i know that i could be a handful baby it’s part of my nature
fool me once, you fooled me twice, so much for asking for a favour
why do you look so blue?
your eyes have lost their colour bae, what’s bothering you?
don’t mistake me for a loon, i see right through you
it’s not a secret i miss you oh i see right through you
it’s not a secret i love you

you were once in a lifetime
no i don't want to die for someone else
once in a lifetime
i'll toss my hurt and hide it on the shelf
no i wouldn't be with no one else
no i wouldn't be with no one else
but you're gone and i'm lost again

lifetime

imissu

i swear

prod. @aftrrs
made for @noob song wars

(cant find a point too dull)
(i could tell that its in my mind again)
(wont lie like it aint been rough)
(but you know that id pay that price again)


cant find a point too dull
i could tell that its in my mind again
wont lie like it aint been rough
but you know that id pay that price again
right now, and you probably was right back then
my choice, i would probably take it way back when
would you rather be the last one standing
or would you rather be the first one dead?

you'd rather M.I.A
its getting hard staying in my lane (https://soundcloud.com/imnotvrycreative/stay-in-my-lane)
i dont ever wanna get complacent
maybe already in that place
"i dont wanna do too much"
only one getting in my way
duck head till its something to show for it
man i cant let it be no waste

cant find a point too dull
i could tell that its in my mind again
wont lie like it aint been rough
but you know that id pay that price again
right now, and you probably was right back then
my choice, i would probably take it way back when
would you rather be the last one standing
or would you rather be the first one dead?

lose more than you gain from it
same shit overhead stay dangaling
i dont ever wanna break no promises
but truth is i dont wanna go through with it
ironic, said i wouldnt but im losing it (https://soundcloud.com/imnotvrycreative/ironic)
might trip a little, but aint falling for no stupid shit
the best part is youre almost through with it
how you think that i dont know why youre doing it

(make sure its the worst it gets)
(tryna let it go, but i cant drop grip)
("dont kill you, it makes you stronger")
(well then i think im dead)


cant find a point too dull
i could tell that its in my mind again
wont lie like it aint been rough
but you know that id pay that price again
right now, and you probably was right back then
my choice, i would probably take it way back when
would you rather be the last one standing
or would you rather be the first one dead?

(cant find a point, too dull) (dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead)
(cant find a point, too dull) (first one dead)
(won't lie like it ain't been rough) (dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead)
(won't lie like it ain't been rough) (first one dead)
(right now, and you probably was right back then) (dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead)
(my choice, i would probably take it way back when) (first one dead)
(would you rather be the last one standing) (dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead)
(or would you rather be the first one dead?)

FIRST ONE DEAD [p. aftrr]

produced by @cybertrash

lyrics//

i swear on my life
i got it i got it
but who knows for how long
theres never been 
a second way around it
a mission ordained by god herself

a vessel, baby, i
never lived for much at all
my heart raised to the sky
a new love bloomed to fall

lets hide at our place
i dont ever wanna hear about 
the hearts that you break
and the choices you dont make
i wanna run,
lets hide at our place
i dont ever wanna hear about
the hearts that you break
and the words that i cant say
around you, babe

i gotta run babe
no i cant stick around for long
you’re so right
i guess im always in the wrong
its so nice
counting the seconds we’re apart
you pray to the stars, 
we knew it from the start
im just a woman of god
im just a woman of god
im just a woman of god
im just a woman of god
would you still love me
if i cant play my part to you?
my hearts all for you

a vessel, baby, i
never lived for much at all
my heart raised to the sky
a new love bloomed to fall

lets hide, at our place
i dont ever wanna hear about 
the hearts that you break
and the choices you dont make
i wanna run,
lets hide, at our place
i dont ever wanna hear about
the hearts that you break
and the words that i cant say
around you, babe

God is a woman

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