1. manic episode of random structure, transposed vocals and off-tone instrumental to simulate something is wrong

2. panic, anxiety attack simulation through heart beat sounds and sampled breathing. everything that makes me lay awake at night.

3. the aftermath of a panic attack and the thoughts of realization and sorrow post episode

4. a conversation between friends of their hardships and inner thoughts about the situation they've been thtough

hysteria

now on spotify! https://open.spotify.com/track/3Ggotj8EKfuEwT339zpD43?si=BzgE55WkQciYmlvFrRw24g

yungspoiler:
www.youtube.com/channel/UCEvx72i83Z83UmolxnqQQ9Q

over u (prod. yungspoiler)

winterpark out everywhere: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/hugoikari/winterpark/

created over the span of this year

lyrics:
is it a mistake
is it lust or is it fate
is it ok for me to stay
i can't promise you'll be safe
but it's the way they say my name
i run away 
i'm afraid of touch 
but i don't want space i
(feel f*cking crazy)

did you see me through the glass
did you watch how i felt
did you hear me play sade
why'd our eyes meet once again
are you stuck, on my gaze
an innocent exchange
how long will it take
for you to forget my face
did you see the cracks in my facade
did you see the weight of my heart
could you feel the pain that i've got
or did you imagine what's not

porcelain lady 
prayers touch your lips
raining daily
have angels tears been falling for me lately
my soul is tired of running from my daydreams
where's my safety
pseudo-symptoms got my head rotating
the sound of footsteps pounding on the pavement
i'm going too fast i need some conversation
if a red light hits i'll stop and regain patience

did you see me through the glass
did you watch how i felt
did you hear me play sade
why'd our eyes meet once again
are you stuck, on my gaze
an innocent exchange
how long will it take
for you to forget my face
did you see the cracks in my facade
did you see the weight of my heart
could you feel the pain that i've got
or did you imagine what's not
(you don't even)

winterpark

4cf - Meraki ft. riptony (gambitz)

produced by dexter yu
added production by endie

what’s feeling important?

onesteptwosteps w/ cybertrash (ryo + joeboi)

(prod. blank)
guitar loop: rjpasin
lyrics: 
when i let you in
didnt know id lose my head again
step back see the whole world fall on me
its all my fault not who i wanna be
and i swear
you wanted something else
dont wanna talk about it
just be by myself
and its over now but i cant regret it
things that you said in my head
never left it rent free down in my head
been stuck for a while now
gave up my home and
i stayed home for a while
tried to cope
but it didnt work im all out of hope
when i let you in
didnt know id end up here again
the seasons change up
filled with karma
is my debt all paid up yet?
and have you taken enough?
ive been shaken up
ive been breaking down
its pulling me apart
and ive faken enough
i dont wanna bluff anymore its hard
but i see now
my smile was your touch
i lose breath with no lungs
and these warm summer months
been cold since you gone
woke up new epiphany
i see what you did to me
i was fucked up mentally
but all i needed was amenity oh
when i let you in
didnt know id lose my head again
step back see the whole world fall on me
its all my fault not who i wanna be 
and i swear
you have to find who you are
it's time to let go.
you fell out of reach
summers been passing time through the breeze and
in my head i plead
someone to save me don't wanna end up stuck in a daze
stare at a daw just to feel anything
bring all my hopes up, tearing em down
no one can hear me despite all the sounds
and i can't move on
you said be honest so ill just say it
i hate myself got no replacement
so im here, stuck between these ears
while avoiding every mirror
avoiding all my peers
and i've felt this way for years
and i see it so clearly
i was falling you ain't even talk to me
doesn't matter now
can't regret it now
or make it better now
don't regret it now.

sobriety

stevyn