Instrumental by:
@yashio20k
@1wasterr

Lyrics by me
Inspired by the myth of Orpheus and Eurydice, 
written from Orpheus’s perspective.


We weren’t meant to be,
Didn’t get that at the time
I couldn’t let it be,
That ain’t ever cross my mind
I felt so much affection
Was this love at first sight?

If you had let me been,
If we never intertwined
If his jealousy,
Never really crossed the line
Would you have moved that direction?
Would you have still suffered the bite?

I tried so hard,
I let you down,
I messed this up,
I turned around,
I was so afraid,
Of losing you again,
And I lost sense,
Of everything,

Woken up to a nightmare, ‘cause you’re gone
It doesn’t matter to me, if I burn up inside the sun
Or if they take my body, and tear it to shreds
‘Cause you were the only thing I had

Closed a pact,
With the devil,
Took control of my eyes
God, I didn’t realise
What did I put myself into?
Killed myself as I tried to save you

Oh, when I tried to save you
I didn’t realise, that it was futile 
I didn’t realise, that I was being deceived
It’s not what I had perceived
I couldn't bring you around...

I’ve been trying and trying and trying,
To change our fate
I’ve been trying and trying and trying.

Fate was the enemy,
Why did I ignore those signs?
If it didn’t speak,
Would you still be here alive?
If I had paid attention,
Would you be here, by my side?

The calamity, placed upon us, wonder why…
Is there something I didn’t read between the lines?
Haunted by your expression, I apologise

losing you again (yashio + wasterr)

Instrumental by:
@jichuuu

Lyrics:

(You always taint my heart, take me down
Got so far, and let it all fall down
Don’t you know?
That I can’t do this shit any longer)

Can we stop breaking both our hearts right now?
I don’t want to see your pretty face start to frown
All I wanna do is make you proud
All I ever did was let you down
x2

I don’t wanna keep going on, letting you down
When I’m without you, lights out, I drown
Hold what’s in my heart, as I’m pouring out my soul
Lies don’t set apart, ’cause I know you’ve heard them all

Can you come back to me?
I fall asleep
Inside my dreams
You’re all I see
You’re all I need
I just need you beside me

I still stay up for your calls
Said I hate you, but I do not at all
I’ve been waiting for your texts, on my phone
I know you don’t hate me either

let you down (jichu)

Watch Another.

Lyrics:

I know you see these scars, girl, I did it all for her (Effystonem reference - https://soundcloud.com/glosuka/effystonem)
I’m looking at the stars as I question my self-worth
Like, am I really worth? Where did I take a turn?
I’m going for the worst; I just wish I could change it all

Cause if I could, I’d break the fall
So if we try, we try, we’ll make it out
I promise you cause all in all, 
I need you to know that you’re enough

Let’s just be honest, look at where we’re at now
Born to be free but forced to be locked down
Wanna make a change but you’re standing in the background
I can see it clear, your depression in a compound

I just wanna try it, try it, try it
You just can’t deny it, ’ny it, ’ny it
I know you won’t like it, like it, like it

Just tell me where you were when I needed you the most :( 

I did like everything I could just to pursue you
I guess it wasn’t enough; I couldn’t do two, ohh
I can’t pull it together like I used to
Maybe it’s a sign that I need you

Break The Fall (overr)

most recent clips!

this has been a hard month for me. thank you to all my amazing friends (some of whom are in these clips!) who have supported me and pushed me to go further. i love you all

if you want to use any of these, dm me!!

0:00 — date (sample from kimi no na wa) +@r1yy
1:14 — our sky +@rewind214
2:06 — flora +@jihyo39
3:20 — +@miriyami
4:08 — flutter +@jihyo39
5:05 — july 4th +@moz-103259352

##july25 (+riy +rewind +jihyo +miriyami +moz)

Huge thanks to my amazing friends @adrienciel for the instrumental and @totheskylens for the mastering! <3

Lyrics:
(Don’t tell me that I’m wrong
For calling it a lie
Don’t tell me to move on
You know that this ain’t right
You know that this ain’t right,
Right,
Right...)

You say that
Acting like you don’t even care
You’re leaving for good
I swear this ain’t fair
What happened to “us”?
It was me and you together
Through whatever that the world throws
“Believe it, this is it”
Is that all you’ll say?
You can’t even look me in my face
Oh what a shame, is this really how it ends?

Don’t tell me that I’m wrong
For calling this a lie
You said that we’d go on, until the day we die
Don’t tell me to move on
You know that this ain’t right
Couldn’t look me in my face
When you told me your goodbye

I watched you walk away so easily, oh God
I lie awake, every night I think
About the fact that you are gone
And I can’t stay strong no more
There’s a gaping hole in my heart that I cannot fill
There’s nothing I want anymore
If I can’t have you then I guess I’ll have these pills

walk away (adrienciel)

@lifegiverr @1akura @afterstoryx

@lifegiverr
tell me all that u wanted
and know i dont have it
when things start to struggle
or become a habit

if i reach out my hand
u say u dont understand

well u cut me out
and u drag me down
its the way things go 
when u have him round

swear it makes me sick
just to hear that sound

if i hold my breath 
willl u hear me out

was it how he looked
or how he sounds

make me change myself
just to make u proud

watch me hate myself
watch me break myself just to have youuuu

@1akura
i would change myself just for u girl u know this
n all of the things that go unnoticed
they bring me up but bring u down ohh
tell me how to change girl
i need to know now
it has to be this way yea u know
im falling outta reach of u i dont want this
im looking at my room girl its haunted
of memories of what we used to bee

@lifegiverr
tell me all that u wanted
and know i dont have it
when things start to struggle
or become a habit

if i reach out my hand
u say u dont understand

well u cut me out
and u drag me down
its the way things go 
when u have him round

swear it makes me sick
just to hear that sound

if i hold my breath 
willl u hear me out

life + akura - change for you (akura)

MV OUT ON INSTAGRAM ! 

shoutout @spaceboyry for tha fye beat and @s0lemn for the ft

@haunted_sad
popped an oxy when im feelin ##down
crystalized hearts u n me were fallin out
anotha pill ima ##PROFESSIONALLONER
running back lookin 4 some closure
i was a loser i was comin down
popped anotha pill everytime u come around
dont talk to me bby i think that im fallin out
i aint not givin u anotha fkn chance

all of the words tht u fkn said
all of the words that u nvr meant
wish i could forget me ya im wishin i was ##dead
i thought tht i helped u but u jus left me dead
my life that im retrying u left me hollow too
u left me like a tragedy 
and now its haunting me
all of the past bby like what was wrong with me
ima #PROFESSIONALLONER looking4 closure

@s0lemn
yuh feel like ichigo im hollow
yuh ion wna c 2mrw
tell me can u luv me back
ik im always askin dat

im top 8 like myspace
gtf up out my face
g22 like getsuga 
shoot dat btch dey wont c ya
do ts for my fam do ts for my friends
talkn sht on tragedy
all u hear is blam

i didnt wna go back
not2 my old ways
im takin all my sadness
and turn it into rage
if i catch u atta spot
ur life will end tht day
mfrs think im playn
til im smokin whyhaze

ipopthesepillstrynaforgetu w/ s0lemn (spaceboyry) *MV OUT NOW*

Thanka Anka for the amazing Beanka 
@lintukoto 
@r1yy

Baby you lied
You lied to my face
You lied to me all the time
I thought that you changed
But baby you never tried

Baby you lie
All the time
'till my head starts spinning
My mind and my body
They can't deal with this
I find it kind of funny how much my heart is still missing
-you, but you don't care
Who the fuck am I kidding?

Who the fuck am I kidding?
I sit in this boat all alone
And it's sinking
I can feel the weight of the ocean thicken
Everytime I speak
It's like nobody listens

I wanted to die
And I wanted it fast
Look at my life
Baby it's just a mess
You're the one I turned to whenever I'm upset
I just need some rest (baby I can't catch a breath)

baby you lied (anka + riy)

pole (1nicksxlo)

ride or die. (2022)

@pastmemory
dc: 1xene
email: xenedoesstuff@gmail.com