it was simple the way that you said it
i think i lost my heart and i don't know where i left it
i didn't mean to upset you
i just wanted to help you
but you did me dirty oh,
and you do everything that you can to hurt me oh,
i'm not the enemy
open your eyes and maybe then you'll see
i'm losing the colour, i can't see the green

monochromatic

sample @e-veryday
prod me

am i doing enough for you?
my knees are bloody holding
i've been tryna make it work
for once

got my head in the sand
got some mud up on my feet
you wont understand
wanna be free

everyday it gets worse now
you can feel my fucking hurt
i never knew you
we're not close in the slightest
so excuse my words
i've been trying to hide it

myopia

cover of recluse by kaido
@1kaido

reprod by me

recluse

finished aug 24 2021

'depressive minimalism'

a study in artistic efficiency, stripping down a song to its bare essentials

verse:
been a few weeks since i finished school
feeling none of the euphoria
self awareness is a bitch
a farcry from the utopia
i only live for the rainy days ahead
validation in being alone
why am i jealous if i’m different
this the only thing i’ve ever known

chorus:
comatose, overdose, leave me to my devices
death is feeling way too close, early midlife crisis
hide under the bedsheets, don’t wanna feel too alive
take one for the human race, let you know at least i tried
x2

post-chorus:
to hell and back, been there, done that, already feels like home
my blood is tasting toxic today, seeing things in monochrome

verse 2:
living in the leftovers this is what i want
sacrifice what you can’t know
can’t even keep a conversation, this brain of mine falls short
so far gone, i got nothing to show
man i’m always in a third person pov
i just stand there, watch it unravel
cold showers keep me asleep
every day a struggle, another battle

chorus:
comatose, overdose, leave me to my devices
death is feeling way too close, early midlife crisis
hide under the bedsheets, don’t wanna feel too alive
take one for the human race, let you know at least i tried
x2

post-chorus:
to hell and back, been there, done that, already feels like home
my blood is tasting toxic today, seeing things in monochrome

comatose

~lyrics~ 

you’re a toxic ass bitch and i cannot take you
i take it all back, i don’t miss you i just hate you
and you think i played you but i just knew the fake you
gaslight me it was never true

you were toxic as fuck bitch
telling all these lies like i’d ever give a fuck bitch (oh)
and you already got a new bitch
so why you posting still worried about this kid (me!)
it was about me not about you, stop making this all about yourself 
it’s so toxic and i think you needa go and get some help
posting all this shit, ur on the lowest shelf
you’re a fucking bitch, you’re crazy as hell

you’re a toxic ass bitch and i cannot take you
i take it all back, i don’t miss you i just hate you
and you think i played you but i just knew the fake you
gaslight me it was never true









you’re a toxic ass bitch and i cannot take you
i take it all back, i don’t miss you i just hate you
and you think i played you but i just knew the fake you
gaslight me it was never true

you were toxic as fuck bitch
telling all these lies like i’d ever give a fuck bitch (oh)
and you already got a new bitch
so why you posting still worried about this kid (me!)
it was about me not about you, stop making this all about yourself 
it’s so toxic and i think you needa go and get some help
posting all this shit, ur on the lowest shelf
you’re a fucking bitch, you’re crazy as hell

you’re a toxic ass bitch and i cannot take you
i take it all back, i don’t miss you i just hate you
and you think i played you but i just knew the fake you
gaslight me it was never true

crazy as hell (guda x baz)

cover of best friend by rex orange county

best friend

fuck walmart

@remedyontop
prod @prodgreentop


words:

Im just tryna tell you how the fuck that i feel
And i'm off 5 pills
Is it lies or real?
Yea lil shawty look amazing in those black high heels
We could die right here
That's the way i feel

Im just tryna tell you how the fuck that i feel
And i'm off 5 pills
Is it lies or real?
Yea the thought of always dying i just luv the thrill
We could die right here
That's the way i feel

Woman want what's best for me
Blow up when i'm seventeen
Suicidal tendencies 
Headshot no john kennedy
Shout out bros from remedy
They all found the recipe
Wake up get the bag and flip it
Go to bed and then repeat

Crawling in my brain like a centipede, thinking bout the shit that u would say to me
All the shit dat u fucked up nd now ur dead to me
Guess that we never fucking meant to be
Fuck this shit you were supposed to be right next to me

And i know how u feel, you’re in luv w the pills
I could die at any second im in luv w the thrill
Baby i keep running back i guess i like the way i feel
I'm an addict 2 u baby im an addict 2 these pills

Im just tryna tell you how the fuck that i feel
And i'm off 5 pills
Is it lies or real?
Yea lil shawty look amazing in those black high heels
We could die right here
That's the way i feel

Im just tryna tell you how the fuck that i feel
And i'm off 5 pills
Is it lies or real?
Yea the thought of always dying i just luv the thrill
We could die right here
That's the way i feel

THE WAY I FEEL

deth coni type song

i failed
oh darling
was your head in my hands not enough
pace my room for a couple bucks
i felt down for a couple months
did it all for a dumb ear
tell me theres no love left here
all the eyes disappoint
id rather die in this joint

pace

a capella/vocal layer song I made in July, first 4 lines that repeat take one line each from songs of mine (L1 - truth, L2 - ignore, L3 - faceless, L4 - blind by w1ll)
lyrics:
Wake up, all I do is the same thing
Every time I try and talk, you ignore me
I can't keep on waiting for you to say you're staying
But I can't leave you cause I know that you do it the (best)

Wake up, all I do is the same thing
Every time I try and talk, you ignore me
I can't keep on waiting for you to say you're staying
But I can't leave you cause I know that you do it the (ha)

And it's over, no I can't go back now
Used to feel on top, I guess I lost that round
Used to lead that city, but then we burned it down
And I would cry for help, but you all watched me
drown.

myopia

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