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lyrics:
Two, two, three, four

Slipped out of focus
Weight of the stars
One thousand locusts
No, we aren’t getting far
Tried to reach, I really did
Dreaming of the water’s edge
Where I lie
A fear of flight, and a leap of faith
The winding roads, and the summer rain
I fell in love
Sky came crashing down
Hell from above
But impassive now
Moved on, somehow

So this is how it feels
To be somewhere you love
Unsure of where you’re going
Yet you know enough
Oh I’d do anything, please don’t go
Hardly anywhere, feels like home
So celebrate it, the life I’ve left behind
From the moment you walked in
I made up my mind
I’ve come too far, don’t let me down
Six thousand miles, I lost what I found

You were the muses in my head (In my head)
Still, I find some things better left unsaid (Left unread)
Tried to let it go
Yet I fall right down against
I lied and said I won’t
But I felt my knees give in
Laying down by the lakeside, I
Tried to stall but it ain’t worth my time
And I was in heaven then
My dream was irreverent, no
Somewhere so familiar
I stand, and stare
Like “how’d I get here again?”

So this is how it feels
To be somewhere you love
Unsure of where you’re going
Yet you know enough
Oh I’d do anything, please don’t go
Hardly anywhere, feels like home

So celebrate it, the life I’ve left behind
From the moment I walked in
I made up my mind
I’ve come too far, don’t let me down
Six thousand miles, I lost what I found

Yeah, that sounds about right
Yeah, sure
Whew

Hazy views of peaks
I rocked myself to sleep
Swing-set dreams
And it’s all that I really need
It’s all that I really need from you
I been up for too long
Tried to find where I went wrong

Empty parking lots
Nose bleeds from vertigo
Visions idolized
Hurricane, over the coast
Soil swallow me whole, I don’t wanna go home
Garden on the wall, don’t take me away from you
I’ll be back someday
I don’t wanna fade out
I fold under the weight now
There's something in the way now, oh no
I’ll be back someday

Tried to shout, but I can’t talk
Higher cliffs, farther drop
“It’s hard, isn’t it? Letting go, I mean. Whatever.”

You told me “it won’t be forever”
Yet I’ve been wasting forever away
Told me this “wasn’t a goodbye”
And “I’ll see you another day”
Those were the last words you said to me
And they’re words I wish you didn’t say
Though time heals all eventually,
It’s time I’d rather waste
Waiting for you

//•//

garden on the wall

talk shit

@SupraVir
@killzoltar

(GREAVES)
you left me fallin' apart
and i got scars
over and over again (again)
its over and it's done
haven't left to see the sun
in weeks
i'm weak
tell me if you've heard it before
now i can't speak
i'm barely breathin'
you left me alone
so i can't sleep
all the liquor is cheap
i drink my feelings
i never forgot to keep those secrets
but now i'm speechless
wanted to talk but i can't
find the words to say
i hate the way i feel when you're not here

(Supra Vir)
i wanted more (wanted more)
you turned your back (turned your back)
i'm on the floor (on the floor)
spent too many days alone misguided
missin' you every time i call
the moment you came along the toxins
in my blood erased my soul
now i'm runnin' on a broken heart
can you fix it?
all the things we left behind
do you miss it?
lovin' you from miles away
it's all distance
i don't see the difference

(zoltar)
now i'm lost in your symphony
just two words is all i need
fuck this shit, i'm over it
no i'm not, it's hard to quit
i just thought you'd wanna see me again
but i was wrong you're not even my friend
wanted to know all your darkest of fears
the people that crossed you and left you in tears

(GREAVES & zoltar)
now i can't speak
i'm barely breathin'
you left me alone
so i can't sleep
all the liquor is cheap
i drink my feelings
i never forgot to keep those secrets
but now i'm speechless
wanted to talk but i can't
find the words to say
i hate the way i feel when you're not here

spotify :)

blatant disregard w/ zoltar & Supra Vir (zoltar)

001

@luvkurtis
@drmabeats


me 💫

I’m just tryna keep it going
But you knew that
And I’m not tryna go through this shit no more

And I’m just tryna take this time, for myself now
Don’t worry about me 
Ima walk out this door
On my own 

Yeah this relationship a vibe 
But we need it we need it
Yeah we gotta take this time baby
Just believe me

We gon be alright
Like we said we would

I’m yours, your mine
We can’t make it up

But see now yeah I’m pissed off
What the hell was I tripping off
Now I’m fucking up again cuz I can’t understand my withdrawls 

And I know just who I am yeah what the fuck
That be damn problem
And I can’t let this shit end me let it test me 
better get to solving

You know you are
And yeah I know too

And you can’t make it too far
If you don’t go through it

Baby you’re gonna be a star
I’m not gonna hold you

But you’re gonna have to start
It’s gonna be hard, but this is art


kurtis 💫

so hold a shade above my head
you fucked me up and did it over again 
cause i been feelin numb
walkin round im nauseous 

wait wait wait
got sum shit i wanna say 
she been tryna fucked me over 
in every single kind of way

no darlin not too late
to change 
i know you have it 
have sum faith girl

dont say u lost it that day
kinda find a reason to stay
and if you gave me a chance
i would take

start. w/ kurtis (prod. drmabeats)

Mastered by @noraevelyne
lyrics
can u look at me the way i look at you
i know it looks bad but i wanna change for you
(oh) nothing i wouldnt do
just to be up next to you
(oh) i wanna be up next to u

But i cant
and it just hurts
cant say anything to make me give a fuck
you never really cared to think of what i want
im stuck in this place yeah it really, really sucks x2

why cant you talk to me the way i want you to
and you made me a promise but you broke that too
you said it was fake, and it broke into 2
i dont really know what to do

dont dont break all your promises
no i dont care what no one says
(dont go and break your promises, just because of what your friend said)
(it dont make no sense, can you get that through your head)

Nora
vibrant eyes
a promsie with no lies
soft skin and eyes
im horrible but i seem nice

where did i get 
wubdaishdiusha
and i look in her eyes
im getting to look how
how my consoiuness
so dont leave, just put a leave in this

so dont leave before
i pick up my feet from the floor
i wanna see you smile
to make that happen ill go any mile

promises + nora evelyne  (xnull + yametsu)

hi. happy v day, i hope u enjoy.  

if u didnt have a valentine this year, it's okay, fuck it. traxee will be ur valentine, stay the course. love  .  always 

<9 

rics:
it all ends the same
i was doing cartwheels 
playing a lil game
disassociate 
you thought you were a popstar
but i dont even know your name

it all ends the same
i had a chance but all i did was break
all i did was break
the feeling of success, it's hard for me to create

swear to god it feels like summer again
cuz i dont give a fuck about your name or your friends
and back then i couldn't be lost even with a gun to my head
and i cant bat an eye that would be a waste of regret

i swear to god
i swear to god
i swear to god that we were better off as


they said i wouldnt like the city
so i showed my claws im a fiesty little kitty 
all it did was fill me with self pity
love

show me love dont give a fuck about a check
close my eyes i dont know whos up next ( i dont care! )
he's a troubled soul
give the devil neck
(sloppy sloppy, i gave him sloppy sloppy)

it all ends the same
same blue sky
same pretty face
it all ends the

(subtle glance with those dark blue eyes
itd be a shame if we both wanted to die )

it all the same it all ends the same
it all ends the

im not thrilled and my hearts fortified
i told her im ready to die

so what if im not alright?
so what if im not alright.

its a shame that my dreams made me depressed
is it a shame that i fell in love with us
im a fiend! im a tyrant! wait no, im just a wreck. :(
i can never be focused on who you are 

and no matter what you'd say i always gave you all i had
itd be a foolproof if i got outside my head
ignorance is bliss until we all go to hell
maybe we were better off when we were ---- just for real.

we were better off as friends

used2this (okayjml)

Prod king theta
Cover art inspired by @dthxrgt
additional vocals from bended @tyscn
https://open.spotify.com/album/0O2uDTSRyIWzppqwWOWO8D?si=oThsB04_TCKBNbABzexU1A

All of my friends warned me about you, they say you’re bad news
They told me to choose between them or you, and I just couldn’t choose
I never rlly wanted to give up the memories of you,
But I’ve never been the one to push my luck, and I just can’t go thru
Anytime you need me darling, you can just call and I’ll be on my way
She looked me in my eyes and asked me if I was fallin, but I just can’t explain

If I lie down, would you find me?
I’d spit it out ‘cause you’re all I ever need 

If I lie down, would you find me?
I’d spit it out ‘cause you’re all I ever need 

I know it’s all my fault, lost again
I truly miss all my friends
But I lost em all, I’ll make amends
I just want all of this to end
I just want all of this to end
I just want all of this to end


All of my friends warned me about you, they say you’re bad news
They told me to choose between them or you, and I just couldn’t choose
I never rlly wanted to give up the memories of you,
But I’ve never been the one to push my luck, and I just can’t go thru
Anytime you need me darling, you can just call and I’ll be on my way
I looked her in her eyes and told her, “baby I’m falling” she said,“it’s okay”

If I lie down, would you find me?
I’d spit it out ‘cause you’re all I ever need 

If I lie down, would you find me?
I’d spit it out ‘cause you’re all I ever need

Is it all my fault?
I lost it all
And I paid the price but I don't want to talk about it

Is it all my fault?
I lost it all
And I paid the price but I don't want to talk about it

Recorded April 13th, 2023

Cry About It

lost it all

Spotify !!!!

lost it all [p. king theta]

YouTube - https://youtube.com/@lostinadreams

Listen to LAUGHING ME OUT - 
https://on.soundcloud.com/qZg14

Produced by altery 

Lyrics:
@nokerbforever 

cuz i know that shit's gonna hurt u
when u see me up
and i want that shit to happen
cuz u did hurt me too
and for myself im in a different spot now
couldn't hide my pain that night,
she was LAUGHING ME OUT..

couldnt see the pain inside ur eyes,
was it really all my fault?
now im asking myself what'd i do wrong
i know thats not what im supposed to do
cuz it wasnt my fault and u know that too

my vision's going blurry,
i cannot see anymore
which path should i choose,
the right or the left one?
i didnt do wrong
yeah im feeling so dumb
fell down so often,
i cannot move on

all this pressure on me..
feeling like im dying!
im doing slowly,
but no one notice
not even my closest one's
"i just wanna closure"
i just wanna go far
where nobody finds me

cuz i know that shit's gonna hurt u
when u see me up
and i want that shit to happen
cuz u did hurt me too
and for myself im in a different spot now
couldn't hide my pain that night,
she was LAUGHING ME OUT..

NOKERB - LAUGHING ME OUT (nightcore)

I made this song to let you know you’re not alone.