Circleain - frindilin crushed ^3

FckY0u :/

We always said when we were younger
(Little more little more wait a little longer)
I can’t for things to get better

What did we have to worry about then,
Besides the mold growing in our veins?

We were 17, living the dream, in the moment

God, I wish I understood
Things can change for the better

mold

@pubgm0bile + @zumtru
prod. @xxkintsugi @taylor

zumtru & wirecutter - no reason (kintsugi + taylor morgan)

vomit w/ 65finally

Garfem And The Ballad Of The Crackfiend

thank you astra & demon pop for this wonderful year <3 ily all :)

lyrics:

[mothgirl + button]

oooh aaaah
ooh aaaahhhh

[mothgirl]

surgical precision, 
cut my tendons out surrounding my heart 
with my eyes turned to carbon weight as the blood keeps slowly marching on while i decay 

[button]

so make your decision,
i’ll wait, 
we’ll go home 
(we’ll go on)
(maybe you are what’s wrong with me)

so make your decision,
i’ll wait, 
we’ll go home
(you couldn’t save me then, maybe you are what’s wrong with me)

there’s no way, yeah
i should’ve known from the start 
that somethings wrong 
(there’s something wrong with me)
i can’t be alone
(but if i end it all, will everything i made disappear like…?)
it means nothing to me.

there’s no way, yeah
i should’ve known from the start
something’s wrong

DECAY (feat. mothgirl)

prod @user-238307669 + @northeastlights

mix + master - @kainebot

cover - @stainedgl4ss

lyrics: 

i’m running from myself right now and i can’t get away
sometimes i jus need help but don’t know what 2 say :/
i’m passing by on valium
lost myself don’t know what happened
broken on the floor i’m trying to pick up all the fragments

i blacked out and woke up in the maze in my mind
pacing in circles, tryna leave it all behind
a mask in disguise trying to mask my demise
pull back the curtain let me into the light

i’m running from myself right now and i can’t get away
sometimes i jus need help but don’t know what 2 say :/
i’m passing by on valium
lost myself don’t know what happened
broken on the floor i’m trying to pick up all the fragments

make me bleed
im not an angel
watch and see
I like it painful
begging the benzos to be careful with my heart
they whisper back “you know that we can’t be apart”
it’s so hard 
i been fucked up from the start
i close my eyes my world goes dark
this game of life i press restart x_x

i’m running from myself right now and i can’t get away
sometimes i jus need help but don’t know what 2 say :/
i’m passing by on valium
lost myself don’t know what happened
broken on the floor i’m trying to pick up all the fragments

make me bleed
im not an angel
watch and see
I like it painful

valium

valium (fendijayd + northeast lights)

wrong:
it dont make sense
i dont know what u wanted
all these skeletons i got inside my closet
spent my whole life just running from it
i'd spend the day w u if thats what u wanted

am i doin smth wrong?
was it worth it just so i could write some songs?
never knew where i belonged
say what u need cuz i wont be here long
tell me im a fraud
thats what u really thought
no sympathy for u cuz its exactly what u wrought
feelin like i hate u but without u im just lost
u kick me like a dog 
u said "that's what u are"

alright:
everybody wanna talk to me
my tongue is tied
i've been thinkin smths wrong w me
pain in my sides
hole in the earth come to swallow me
i feel the size
u decided ur just tired of me
well that's alright
that's alright
look me in my eyes tell me that we're done tonight
im sry for what i said baby i dont wanna fight
sayin that u love me shoulda known that was a lie
send me down
so tired of u just playin 'round
if it wasnt real then whyd u fake it
whyd u ever make a sound?
u wont see my face again when i leave this fuckin town
give my credit where its due im gonna get my fuckin crown
no more holdin back
i put my cards on the table
im an angel wings n a halo
watch how u talkin bout me i could make it painful
holy blade on my hip turn ur story to a fable
all this money thats a staple
H.A. til im dead keep a 'chete like im kano
only in it for the payload
pretty bitch n u know i keep a draco 
its fatal
everybody wanna talk to me
my tongue is tied
i've been thinkin smths wrong w me
pain in my sides
hole in the earth come to swallow me
i feel the size
u decided ur just tired of me
well that's alright
that's alright

wrong/alright

more lost material

"home" lyrics 

saw it seep out of the stars
from a window in your car
it was in somebody's yard
it lives on inside your heart
until that's strewn across the road
until the lake is overflown
when it senses that you're whole
it will walk into your home

"host switch" lyrics

blood washed out of your nails
you can't be touched,
cant be failed like that again
"pack up your shit and go to hell--anywhere but here"
[deserve] to slip into yourself and disappear
in saying less there's more to take
it's only sex (and sort of safe)
through distortion and decay
[all] touch of normal goes away
[it] falls back
what would you call that?

crawl out of the pit
the wreck surfaces again
writhe, write her a script
vultures circle overhead
[still, it's] everybody
wipe them with a flood, let it end
[you've tried enough to know that]
[you are] not allowed to forget
[a] new host
burn the glyph into your palm
[haven't] spoken but she sends recursive superego psalms
if she [floated through the veil] 
would you finally feel alone?
[it's an ancillary hell] 
will [you] ever let [it] go?

"host switch" ver.2 (bookended by "home" and untitled)

sixty