art: @xaev 
prod.me 

she said it's cold but i wanna 
hear the wind outside, and i'll 
act like it's my birthday but
i'm not alright

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

she said it's cold but i wanna 
hear the wind outside, and i'll 
act like it's my birthday but
i'm not alright

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

i don't wanna die
it's only sometimes
she says that i'm fine
it's all in my mind
i don't wanna die
i don't wanna die
it's only sometimes 

close my eyes and i'll see

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

JUST TAKE WHAT YOU WANT
I HATE GAIN AND LOSS 
I'VE LOST THE WHOLE PLOT!!!!!!!!!!

close my eyes and i'll see.

gain & loss

vid https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zv_qmAi8-m0

I promised that i'd leave it all behind
2020-something, i was way out of my mind
You won't get it right
Why are you so obsessed with someone you wont fucking be?
Why are you obsessed with her?
Bro just come to me
I told my friends, “You won’t see me today”
They ain’t even complain
I'd be mad at me too that's okay
Say it to my face
I can’t blink, whats my age again???
Saying we’re the same?
I'm sorry man i cannot save you

When I catch your boy, 
He’ll disappear like what just happened?
We don’t play with toys
I put the knife into my hands, yeah
Margiela store
Bought everything, you thought they packed off
Been through this before
I’ve seen some things that you can’t fathom
Poppin Ecstasy
I see a 10, he makes me hurt again
Go right back to back to back to back to back to hell again
Thought you knew me bro
I make the DJ kill himself again
Might just put a spell on you
I’ll haunt you in your dreams again

If that's wrong
It's all bad
I can't be gone yet
That's not fair
You said you love me now
I don't trust you
You'd probably hate on me
When i'm up yeah

If that's wrong
It's all bad
Can't trust no one no more
You're wishing on a star, I won't get one

Everything Will Haunt You

I Wish That Were Me

prod @14106lyn

idc whatever
come into my life step on my shit now u can see whoever
now that the bloods drawn im feelin better
take a couple hits i still feel bad but now im hearin chitter
and u know i wish u cared
id spend a fortune just to see what the hells goin on up there
i spent a fortune tryna make all of it happen so youd care
n now im sittin here debatin whether not id choose the bear

n ur all i need
ur heart tells my lungs to breathe
ur words tell me how to be
u knew what i want and need

idc (lyn)

alright, here we are. i know this sounds kind of rushed, but i wanted to the show the amount of things i've been doing recently, i really hope they sound okay! i love you all
cover art: @zzoos
{00:00} SSOH - ID
{01:15} SSOH - CLOCK;GARDEN ID (WITH HELP FROM @iinnam)
{02:41} SSOH - ID
{03:53} SSOH - ID
{04:44} INTERMISSION (WITH HELP FROM @z-u-y-a)
{05:35} SSOH / RONKOE - ID (ORIGINAL MELODY FROM @casketo)
{06:48} XBOX GAMING SERVICES - ID
{07:42} SSOH - ID

watch it wilt (an unraveling)

[MUSIC VIDEO - https://youtu.be/BxLYEp4Ya1A]

prod.@xaev + @72crash + me

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you-

bruises on my body
dont ask me how i got it
brand new face i bought it
shout out to my doctor
bruises on my body 
please dont get me started
bruises on my body
i just wanna party

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?

plastic surgery
im a perfect being
im the perfect me
ITS A BEAUTY THING
plastic surgery
im a perfect being
im the perfect me
ITS A BEAUTY THING

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
its a beauty thing

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
its a beauty th-

you just wanna be like me 
but you cant afford it
stop obsessing over me
but you know i love it
if you say i gotta leave
im like ok fuck it
PROMISE you wont follow me
if you blink you miss it

bitch im rolling in my bed
turn the music up
i just wanna smash my head
i just wanna jump

MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
I DONT LOVE NO ONE
RIGHT NOW I JUST WANNA 
JUMP, JUMP

turn the bass up, why????
IM TOO SHY TO PARTY BUT ILL STAY UNTIL IM HIGH
i dont wanna talk i can talk between my eyes
right behind my forehead is where i form all my lies

MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK

it's a beauty thing

music video : https://youtu.be/FzlSl7FOFXU
co-prod https://soundcloud.com/cus3d 2:24-3:13
also check this song out : https://on.soundcloud.com/pzkq73EwCvWmiyYz6

you'll see exactly what i mean

scrapped instrumental from late december 2024

- slight remix of gain & loss :>

and i

im all for it
im all for it

i was on my way up
bitch i got it all now (lets go)
i don't care bout the price
i see whatever it's gone now
oh you got status?
are you ready to fall off with that shit?
ya r u ready for it
i just need some time to think of it
we have none in common
dont go acting like it
oh yeah 
said you had me, you aint got the option
i swear we have nothing
don't leave me forgotten
if i could have it
i won't be a problem

im saying you don't know at all
you hate the way i talk
why do you hate it all?
i'm out of it, lost
you say there's something off with me, i can't even respond
so baby do you hate me
do you think im pretty oh god
bitch i hate it
i want you to save me
i know you want to take it
you won't get a taste
saying that i'm dangerous
but you won't see me break

yeah see me break
i know how you feel, and it makes me ache
they all wanted me but i can't be taken
can't be taken
give or take, i'll still end up dead

i was on my way up
bitch i got it all now (lets go)
i don't care bout the price
i see whatever it's gone now
oh you got status?
are you ready to fall off with that shit?
ya r u ready for it
i just need some time to think of it
we have none in common
dont go acting like it
oh yeah 
said you had me, you aint got the option
i swear we have nothing
don't leave me forgotten
if i could have it
i won't be a problem

We Have Nothing

Said i owed you a profit, I know
Whatever it is, you might have lost it
Just keep going, don't stop
Thinking about the days we hated each other
Do you hate me now? (If you do, that's alright)
You tell me that i'm in your sleep in every weather (Can't get it back, all you do is let go)

I don't want to go right to that place again
And everytime i cry, why does it end with the pain?

(If you ain't got no-)
No, love, if you hear me you know im not there right now
(If you ain't got no-)
Stay awake for me baby i know I've been gone
(If you ain't got no-)
No one left, it would kill me just to be like you right now, right now, no
(If you ain't got no-)
I know i bluffed it all, but baby (Don’t stop, D-Don’t stop)

We know there's nothing left for us now
We know there's nothing left for us now
We know there's nothing left for us now
We know there's nothing left for us now
x2

I know i bluffed it all but baby
I know i bluffed it all but baby

Don't Stop, Go On Forever

Realization from reading his word, that his way is the only true way.  That's how Jesus moved and I should follow his example