circa — April 2023
Additional Production by @whyawe

Welcome to my luck it's not new
I wouldn't be here anywhere without you
If I was young right now I wouldn't know what to do
I'm just glad I fought my battles and grew
I still can't believe that you're gone
I wish that you could hear this song
But you know when times get too tough
And you know that you've had enough
When things start going in place for you
And I don't let anyone catch my bluff
Times like these, just to bring myself together
Would be all it cost

I'm glad I wasn't born anywhere else
'Cause I don't think that I'd be me
I wish we could play our favorite songs
I wish that you weren't gone
My sister said it's okay to cry
I'm looking at our pictures, wish that we could live another day
Forever grateful for you, yeah it's sad it had to end this way
It's breaking me up, it's breaking me down
I hope we can find ourselves in the afterlife, I love you mom

Close my eyes, and then I fall asleep
I can't breathe without your company
'Cause nothing else really matters (but you)
All I ever was was your baby

It's Okay to Cry (Outro)

very sydney (@vampiremutual) inspired

continuation of https://soundcloud.com/ralsei/jihuigyuyctxdryes546e5r7t8oyioij

jihuigyuyctxdryes546e5r7t8oyioij 2

-lyrics-
I don't wanna die
I just want it all
I lost track of time
Trying to give u my all
I just want a try
But you do not want it more
I don't want to lie
Please don't change your mind

I don't wanna die
Come and break it off
You know that I'm so gone
I'm going thru it, no
I just want a try
But you do not want it more
I don't want to lie
Please don't change your mind

That boy wanna play, he'll get it
I told myself, i'll get it soon enough
When is it my turn
All my friends are going up
When is it my turn
I told myself, i'll get it soon enough
And i'm still someone that i'm not
That's not me yet

I Wish That Were Me

prod @14106lyn

idc whatever
come into my life step on my shit now u can see whoever
now that the bloods drawn im feelin better
take a couple hits i still feel bad but now im hearin chitter
and u know i wish u cared
id spend a fortune just to see what the hells goin on up there
i spent a fortune tryna make all of it happen so youd care
n now im sittin here debatin whether not id choose the bear

n ur all i need
ur heart tells my lungs to breathe
ur words tell me how to be
u knew what i want and need

idc whatever
come into my life step on my shit now u can see whoever
now that the bloods drawn im feelin better
take a couple hits i still feel bad but now im hearin chitter

idc (lyn)

[MUSIC VIDEO - https://youtu.be/BxLYEp4Ya1A]

prod.@xaev + @72crash + me

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you-

bruises on my body
dont ask me how i got it
brand new face i bought it
shout out to my doctor
bruises on my body 
please dont get me started
bruises on my body
i just wanna party

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?

plastic surgery
im a perfect being
im the perfect me
ITS A BEAUTY THING
plastic surgery
im a perfect being
im the perfect me
ITS A BEAUTY THING

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
its a beauty thing

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
its a beauty th-

you just wanna be like me 
but you cant afford it
stop obsessing over me
but you know i love it
if you say i gotta leave
im like ok fuck it
PROMISE you wont follow me
if you blink you miss it

bitch im rolling in my bed
turn the music up
i just wanna smash my head
i just wanna jump

MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
I DONT LOVE NO ONE
RIGHT NOW I JUST WANNA 
JUMP, JUMP

turn the bass up, why????
IM TOO SHY TO PARTY BUT ILL STAY UNTIL IM HIGH
i dont wanna talk i can talk between my eyes
right behind my forehead is where i form all my lies

MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK

it's a beauty thing [DON'T YOU NOTICE ME]



*~ . / the last time you'll hear it again

; tracklist ;
Last night .. LET IT TALK 4uuu [Parkpop outtake]
Dial tone *clearly MIX
NEVER CALL ME AGAIN...2 Urself ? ? ? [Parkpop outtake]
Sweetest pie *call me 2nite MIX..keygen'd [Parkpop outtake]
veins *og MIX [Stagewreck outtake]
Lucid dreams x veins *mashup
in my room..FORGOT TO RECORD VOCALS! [Stagewreck outtake]
bite (demo).. if i were a boy


reanimated.tar.gz ~* . /

music video : https://youtu.be/FzlSl7FOFXU
co-prod https://soundcloud.com/cus3d 2:24-3:13
also check this song out : https://on.soundcloud.com/pzkq73EwCvWmiyYz6

you'll see exactly what i mean

Peridol, Toluca Lake (Demo)

im all for it
im all for it

i was on my way up
bitch i got it all now (lets go)
i don't care bout the price
i see whatever it's gone now
oh you got status?
are you ready to fall off with that shit?
ya r u ready for it
i just need some time to think of it
we have none in common
dont go acting like it
oh yeah 
said you had me, you aint got the option
i swear we have nothing
don't leave me forgotten
if i could have it
i won't be a problem

im saying you don't know at all
you hate the way i talk
why do you hate it all?
i'm out of it, lost
you say there's something off with me, i can't even respond
so baby do you hate me
do you think im pretty oh god
bitch i hate it
i want you to save me
i know you want to take it
you won't get a taste
saying that i'm dangerous
but you won't see me break

yeah see me break
i know how you feel, and it makes me ache
they all wanted me but i can't be taken
can't be taken
give or take, i'll still end up dead

i was on my way up
bitch i got it all now (lets go)
i don't care bout the price
i see whatever it's gone now
oh you got status?
are you ready to fall off with that shit?
ya r u ready for it
i just need some time to think of it
we have none in common
dont go acting like it
oh yeah 
said you had me, you aint got the option
i swear we have nothing
don't leave me forgotten
if i could have it
i won't be a problem

We Have Nothing

Said i owed you a profit, I know
Whatever it is, you might have lost it
Just keep going, don't stop
Thinking about the days we hated each other
Do you hate me now? (If you do, that's alright)
You tell me that i'm in your sleep in every weather (Can't get it back, all you do is let go)

I don't want to go right to that place again
And everytime i cry, why does it end with the pain?

(If you ain't got no-)
No, love, if you hear me you know im not there right now
(If you ain't got no-)
Stay awake for me baby i know I've been gone
(If you ain't got no-)
No one left, it would kill me just to be like you right now, right now, no
(If you ain't got no-)
I know i bluffed it all, but baby (Don’t stop, D-Don’t stop)

We know there's nothing left for us now
We know there's nothing left for us now
We know there's nothing left for us now
We know there's nothing left for us now
x2

I know i bluffed it all but baby
I know i bluffed it all but baby

Don't Stop, Go On Forever

You're not just struggling and surviving. You're riding the rails of a track that belongs to a tremendous soul. You are here because your win will count clear across the heavens. All you have to do is wake up to it.