trans amirite haha

~☆~Lyrics~★~

The mirror in the morning light 

Leaves my body feeling like 

I just drank some pesticide 

I cant see my face inside 


I'll try my best to paint it on 

This body I call a prison 

There's a girl inside a cage 

While a boy takes center stage 


Like an actor on TV 

Never been the real me 

But changing right now seems like hell 

So I'll just learn to hate myself 


If you insulate 

the self hate 

It's now a part of you 

You have to kill that too


It's cutthroat  

I keep choke- 

Ing on this feeling deep inside 

Somethings wrong  

I know what it is 


But I'm too scared to admit 


That I'd rather fail at being a woman 

Than go on being a man 

If you remember him could you please try to forget if you can 


Pray every day Ill wake up in the body I belong  

Sometimes I don't know if I am even real at all 


I only hope I find the girl inside but even then 

If god wasn't a cunt she'd cut me up and try again 

    

Romantic Vivisection  

Kill me and then go to heaven 

Take me apart and put me back together 

As something beautiful forever


Romantic Vivisection

Featuring https://soundcloud.com/murrumur
Beat By https://soundcloud.com/maknaeslayer


~☆~Lyrics~★~


(Rat Jesu)

Aw shit 

Saw it 

Think I'm getting nauseous 


Cautious  

Watch this 

Delete Everything off it 


Jpeg 

You're dead 

Poison yeah its blood-red 


Light head 

I dread 

Body like it's full of led 


Adderall 

end it all 

Slit my throat and set me free 


Estradiol 

Will it stall 

The poison that's been killing me 


Missing Link 

I just think  

It's better not to ask 


If this could make me normal 

Could I ever be normal 


Always something to remind you what you look like 

Sheer the skin here's hoping that you'll look right 


Cause it all gets frozen in a jpeg 

Bit off and you'll want a bullet in your head 


Try to down a few pills to forget it 

Take it long enough and maybe you'll transmit 


Can't change the past or your blood 

No arc to save you from the flood

(Murrumur)

Tried so hard to dry the rain from my skin 

Stuck in the dark, couldn't soar when I was flightless 

Do my best to kill the signs I had a twin 

Can't restrain all the time I was deprived with 

Can't scream with the body full of poison 

The lock's jammed and the door won't open 

The molly didn't work so I'd never be rollin 

Now I'm like a cat the way I'm living in the moment 

Half dead angels, slits in wings 

Thrown up to the wires, wrapped around by my shoestrings 

All I want is bliss with the way I sing 

Spiritual unwrapping of my threads like I'm stone free 

Physical form without the name they know 

Midwest woods, get my flesh torn by a wendigo 

Faceless corpse just like Jane Doe 

I'm just putting on an act and I feel like a puppet show 

(Rat Jesu)

Aw shit 

Saw it 

Think I'm getting nauseous 


Cautious  

Watch this 

Delete Everything off it 


Jpeg 

You're dead 

Poison yeah its blood-red 


Light head 

I dread 

Body like it's full of led 


Adderall 

end it all 

Slit my throat and set me free 


Estradiol 

Will it stall 

The poison that's been killing me 


Missing Link 

I just think  

It's better not to ask 


If this could make me normal 

Could I ever be normal 


All of a sudden  

I don't feel so good 

I thought you understood 

But I fucking doubt it 

But the way your acting 


It's interacting in my gut 

All these meds I fucking took 

This might be the big one 

Am I finally done, Here 


Might have one or two more years

Poison.jpg (feat. Murrumur)

Official Music Video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kzuucAG0brg

~☆~Lyrics~★~


I'm getting tired of this shit 

You can all suck a dick 

Put a gun up to my forehead pull the trigger hear the click 


Of a keyboard and mouse 

Never leave this fucking house  

Spending hours in the darkness cause I can't look at myself 


So I'm Silent staring at screen 

Praying God from the machine 

Could Reach inside and cut my strings 

Free what's trapped inside Dream 


Ones and Zeros Flashing lights 

Could simulate a better life 

A place where I can be alive 

Don't need a body now cause I 


see a little silhouette of a girl 

She tells me how to disappear into another world


What you see  

Is it me 


Am I more real on a screen 


Im betrayed 

A body weighs 

me down 


When I drown 


Never found 


Wires wrapped around my brain are  

Killing me but ease the pain  

Dead is better than insane  

Cause then I won't feel anything 


Buried deep 

The Wired reap 

-er sings 


No hope of exiting 


What you see  

Isn't me 


Trapped by a body and a screen 


Im betrayed 

Either way 

I drown 


Never found 


Not a sound

Emo Girl Ex Machina

Co-Prod. https://soundcloud.com/dsa-sfsafds

~☆~Lyrics~★~


Something's standing in the way 

Done with all apologies 

Go and blame me for your sins 

I have nothing left to give 


All my soul I gave away 

Out my skull like Kurt Cobain  

A body left without a Ghost 

An empty shell a doll at most 


Can't die yet cause I'm too scared 

But I know that If you cared  

about me you'd be gone  

Leave me be like everyone else 


Floating here I lost myself 

Think I finally hear the bells 

A blinding light the music swells 

Come and drag me down to hell

Euphoria//Nothing Left To Give

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/vesselcore & https://soundcloud.com/camwhore

~☆~Lyrics~★~ 

Indisposed  

I wish I saw in photos  

what I feel in my soul 

I wish I could be beautiful 


I wish I had some Adderall  

Focus and forget it all 

Kill the clouds and drown the sun 

Bury it and everyone 


Forgets  

She exists  

Never heard of her Not a word ever 


But I'm Still chasing mirrors  

In my dreams  

Only place she's real it seems 


I wish that I could forget 

I wish I wouldn't regret 

The time that I never knew I lost 


Pink clouds obscuring the sun 

Set, Memories of a son get 

In the way like the window frost


I wish cute makeup and clothing  

Could stop the door from closing  

Could be her longer than a night 


But when I see her again 

I'll make the mirror my friend 

Able to pierce through the morning light 


I wish that I could forget 

I wish I wouldn't regret 

The time that I never knew I lost 


Pink clouds obscuring the sun 

Set, Memories of a son get 

In the way like the window frost 


I wish that I could forget 

I wish I wouldn't regret 

The time that I never knew I lost

Manic Goth Hoe... I Wish I Was

Territorial Pissings

~☆~Lyrics~★~


I live I die in obscurity  

Oh god oh why there's no cure for me 

If I inject bleach straight into my veins  

Could I wake up with a new face and new name 

Never been quite sure of the real me 

But I'm not scared of them forgetting 


Cause when our fingers intertwine I don't feel anything  

And when it lingers I feel fine I don't feel anything 

I don't see anything I don't hear anything 

I don't really care about anything else when I'm with you 

And I don't know what I would do  

If I didn't have you

Fingers

Featuring @murrumur
Co-Prod Schizoscriptures 
(check her out here)https://scsc.bandcamp.com/

~☆~Lyrics~★~


I see how you look at me 

Like something dead bringing disease 

An awful stare I hardly breathe 

To be repaired indefinitely 


You always notice when I'm near 

Your eyes tinged with hints of fear 

Or maybe it's disgust 

Being human's way too much 


I'd rather be a blob of flesh 

A contraption built for death 

I'll be the monster that you see 

Everything you don't want me to be 


Covering my eyes when I'm outside 

Cold ice cold stares penetrating every angle 

I can't take it 

I can feel your  

Words 

They're just words  

They're just words  

They're just words  

They're just noise  

They're just spiralling out into wars 


I was never wanted there and so i disappeared 

They could kill me if they wanted but for now they just stare 


Like a nail inside my skull 

An image pierced through the steel hull 

They string me up by the wrong name 

Can't feel the pulsing in my veins 

I only feel the stares 

I wish I didn't care 


Failing to remember any day, any week, any month phasing out, falling down under blur 

Feels like it's implanted in my head so to speak pacing round and round in circles while I'm eaten by the birds 


Buried off the backroads 

Overexposed 

What's the color of my hex code? 

What's the color of my hex code? 


I wish I was a frog 

I don't wanna care about you 


I'd rather be a fairy than an alien 

Winged like an avian, glowing like a gradient 

Ditch another alias and find a new ingredient 

Lilith full of lithium and seroquel just let her in 

And it works like clockwork 

Sew together patchwork 

Pulling teeth from the sleepers 

I promise it could always get worse 

Can you tell me when it's over? 

Can you tell me when it's over?

Frogs (feat. Murrumur)

Dumb Bitch Fucking Dies! (feat. Mokshadripp)

New Game Plus

Priestess of the Godless Valley (feat. Murrumur) [prod. Cacola]

The Doom Fulfilled [prod. Blind Equation]

Concrete (feat. PK Shellboy)

intermission

Heaven Invert

Girls

Rat Judah

DEATHCONHEXREMIX EPISODE ONE

Have A Nice Life - Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut - HEXD REMIX

NEW singles EVERY week from now on haha

Best B Quik Cause Thee Mega Worm Finna Fucking Munch Connecticut

DEATHCONHEXREMIX PART 2

Have A Nice Life - Bloodhail - HEXD REMIX

Still putting out new singles every week haha maybe remix this hole album.

B100dH@iL

DEATHCONHEXREMIX 3rd Impact

Have a nice life - The Big Gloom HEX REMIX

9inch Gloom

DEATHCONHEXREMIX ERROR 404 NOT FOUND

Have A Nice Life - Hunter- HEXD REMIX

Hunting Fo Hoes

Who Would?

DEATHCONHEXREMIX Stage 6 is without description

Have A Nice Life - Who Would Leave Their Son Out in the Sun? - HEXD REMIX

Who Would Leave DaBaby Out In The Sun?!?!

DEATHCONHEXREMIX Page 777

Have a Nice Life - There Is No Food - HEXD REMIX

DEATHCONHEXREMIX PART 1 - END
New project coming next week???

There Is No Hoes

Unimon Superstar

Mayb 1day I Will Find Mys3lf (feat. Mokshadripp)

MiLLiONs NOw LiViNg WiLL NvR DiE (feat. Mokshadripp)

HELL$KAPE LTD. [DRiXXO MEGAMiX]

FRAUD [{I drank 3 literal fucking gallons of nyqil I am going 2 die}]

GLUTTONY (feat. Meggo Thrasher)

LUST

LIMBO

DEATHCONHEXDREMIX FLOOR 12

Have A Nice Life - I Don't Love - HEXD REMIX

I Don't Like

she/her
1/3rd of https://soundcloud.com/drixxolords
https://soundcloud.com/dsa-sfsafds https://soundcloud.com/meggothrasher

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