wishing i realized my place in this mess sooner

prod me
https://aaronkusnier.art/until

red stains on my tee
and don't tell no one they were free
can't get past this debris
they're hoping i won't make it out
and that's very lovely
your words were so ugly
such bad taste in meaning
(what's the meaning?)
what's the point in anything you say if all you do is lie
i gave you my trust, you bled it out until it dried
still can't come to terms with anything inside my life
so guessing that's part of the game

and i'm so sick of fighting with the devil
who convinced me that i got no potential
and the cards that played were successful, truly
couldn't put up a fight but that was all before
it's been breaking me down to my core
yet still don't know what i'm fighting for

and i won't ever understand the shit that you said
refuse to let that get to me
wont settle in defeat
nah!!!
talk your fucking shit >:)
'cause you got nothing on me
ima end this softly and
wasted so much time to find an answer
time no one can ever get back
my silver lining is painted in blood, so much anger
now everything is such a drag

outta pocket
they make me wanna tear my eyes out of my sockets
but i won't let them see a day, it's what they started
i know i'll find a way, i'm like a heartless
hoping this is what they wanted

don't know what to seek
feel like i can't be me
still not past the debris
but hoping things will end fine
i've lost all my focus
most days, so hopeless
this world's got sour taste
(tastes like shit)
what's the point in anything at all if everything gets worse
it feels like 18 years i've been stuck inside a curse :/
but i will keep pushing 'cause there's gotta be a worth
until it's all over

and i hope for a day that i can come back
(to) a world of my own, no one can trespass
under the sun laying on the grass
'cause it's all that i have ):

streaming

until it's over

old title: goturback2022.14.02

released on: 14 February 2022

goturback

Produced by Cesare Franceschi & Rosesleeves

Lyrics-
Double down on the smoke
Untying knots in my harness
It was never your fault
That you cut open a darkness
Lump in my throat
See the fire fading
Lights off at home
You know you can’t stay here
A heart of stone
That slowly caved in
You’re on your own

My heart’s in the ashtray
I found you in the driveway
Of my house, suitcase heavy
You’re running on empty
Afar in a bad state
Your mouth, covered in blood stains
No doubt you resent me
You’re running on empty

Ash on the sleeves of your coat
Clings when you feel the farthest
Every small glimpse of hope
Killed by times you were heartless
Still got open arms
I’d drive this car
Anywhere I had to
Just to get back
Where we were at
Took time but it’s the truth
I’m still untying knots in the darkness
Moments you’re gone I needed a harness

My heart’s in the ashtray
I found you in the driveway
Of my house, suitcase heavy
You’re running on empty
Afar in a bad state
Your mouth, covered in blood stains
No doubt you resent me
You’re running on empty

I know you feel hunted
You‘ll be your destruction
The road’s never ending
It’s so hard pretending
The cold isn’t hurting
Your old ways returning

My heart’s in the ashtray
I found you in the driveway
Of my house, suitcase heavy
You’re running on empty
Afar in a bad state
Your mouth, covered in blood stains
No doubt you resent me
You’re running on empty
My heart’s in the ashtray
I found you in the driveway
Of my house, suitcase heavy
You’re running on empty
Afar in a bad state
Your mouth, covered in blood stains
No doubt you resent me
You’re running on empty

My heart’s in the ashtray
I found you in the driveway
Of my house, suitcase heavy
You’re running on empty

Running On Empty

(LIKE A DOMINO)
AFTER MONTHS OF SILENCE.. new mid
my flip of domino by jessie j featuring a bunch of other samples

takemedown

Hatty meets Beyoncé

a beautiful cover I made :)

all credit to @janeremover

Backseat Girl

BB i Eat hUmans..

ion need it w Jeye rxsekiddo

Levalarie - Tell u sum ft Kidd Exi Produced by Vlor5k

tell u sum ft kidd exi prod vlor5k

GO GO GO

I made this sad ass loop tn, feel free to use it if u want or just vibe out and feel alone for a lil... sry ur lonely too... it gets better :)

until it's over

aararo