wishing i realized my place in this mess sooner

prod me
https://aaronkusnier.art/until

red stains on my tee
and don't tell no one they were free
can't get past this debris
they're hoping i won't make it out
and that's very lovely
your words were so ugly
such bad taste in meaning
(what's the meaning?)
what's the point in anything you say if all you do is lie
i gave you my trust, you bled it out until it dried
still can't come to terms with anything inside my life
so guessing that's part of the game

and i'm so sick of fighting with the devil
who convinced me that i got no potential
and the cards that played were successful, truly
couldn't put up a fight but that was all before
it's been breaking me down to my core
yet still don't know what i'm fighting for

and i won't ever understand the shit that you said
refuse to let that get to me
wont settle in defeat
nah!!!
talk your fucking shit >:)
'cause you got nothing on me
ima end this softly and
wasted so much time to find an answer
time no one can ever get back
my silver lining is painted in blood, so much anger
now everything is such a drag

outta pocket
they make me wanna tear my eyes out of my sockets
but i won't let them see a day, it's what they started
i know i'll find a way, i'm like a heartless
hoping this is what they wanted

don't know what to seek
feel like i can't be me
still not past the debris
but hoping things will end fine
i've lost all my focus
most days, so hopeless
this world's got sour taste
(tastes like shit)
what's the point in anything at all if everything gets worse
it feels like 18 years i've been stuck inside a curse :/
but i will keep pushing 'cause there's gotta be a worth
until it's all over

and i hope for a day that i can come back
(to) a world of my own, no one can trespass
under the sun laying on the grass
'cause it's all that i have ):

streaming

until it's over

names
–
false idol straw lily winterbellschime dxm angel strelitzia neko melody etc.


my alts
–
angelprincess12

https://on.soundcloud.com/rD91YfzZkhPQVXWf8

lgklbambbpmyrl | bpmd

https://on.soundcloud.com/FnwK4oKZyyrmP2zK9

Miraie'💕

https://on.soundcloud.com/kPCfbXkzXpLWMMqLA

hideNseekpt34[l

https://on.soundcloud.com/6z23dtzqmu6pX4Br6

carefulgodessego222333�̭�

https://on.soundcloud.com/pGDEuCPQNJ5vWANA8

玲音𒎍äŋ§¦0N̶³

https://on.soundcloud.com/inTpeUVT47mFr2vb7

lainisatulpa⠀⠀�̭�

https://on.soundcloud.com/JBc2ness2A3TuXuS9

selfhatred

https://on.soundcloud.com/C257wrvkwaSSrfzX8



Yet another pretentious music nerd who surfs the web for appealing jams.

Go look at my playlist, "GEMS", for all the fire shit I've found on soundcloud

the clouds looked pretty today
vaf ++ rf ++ @digitalbunkercc
more music: @fisherdog

until it's over

aararo