New playlist for chilll

@emorave
@mkne

girl i'm so done w/ u
i see right, right thru to u
and i feel so screwed
it'll come back right to u

i fall down can't get up
i'm so done i give up
girl look me n the eyes when u talk 2 me
so done w/ ur lies do not talk 2 me
i'll make it come right round 2 u
i'm scared i don't know what to do
all these ppl talk to me like who r u
messed up, i lost a screw
my heart was breakn into 2

my heart was breakn into pieces
take the evil n release it
in my brain, i'm put for treason
built like slender why u reachn
this no game u will not regen
this my place get out my region
i can hear u steady breathing
said u up, but u sad tweeting

wanna go go go go awayy
lets go back back back to yesterday
wanna go to the day where i saw ur face
i can't even stay place
everything jus seems erased

clarity (emorave x maknae)

instagram

findhelp

performed, written, & produced by me @mental
featuring @blxty

[mental]
i could never hate u
doesnt matter what u do
i know that u hate me
usually i hate me too
tired of complaining
but idk what else to do
tired of explaining
every wrong move i choose

feels like ive lost every reason
nobody else to believe in
think ive got too many secrets
so i keep sleeping and dreaming
that once for a change i could feel something else
and it pains me to stay with the cards ive been dealt
i could keep moving forwards and look for some help
but id rather exist with just u and myself <3

[blxty]
so bby tell me what hits harder den my words
i'm sick n tired of explaining so u first
i still cant find it so i cant tell u my worth
so bby would tell me would u feel the same..
if u were hurt
Like wud it work?
wud u find me useful?
or wud i b like dirt?
and maybe it's just a process
One that i can not process
bang my head n the wall
and u wont tell me i lost it
pls jus tell me i lost it

https://open.spotify.com/album/5dkyRFb1yJPEI0MDEtQi8v?si=7obS22PkQE-X6LH4oxsTHA

after you feat blxty

next2u (emorave)

produced by soju @qtgf


wake up every day
i feel horrible
i hate trying to do this
u make me feel useless
who do i want to be
and i tried
its not resolving for me
and the only thing i want to do is bleed
why cant u see

i forget that u existed sometimes
always so caught up but i cant do nothing right
im being around it for the last time 
i was so done i think about it move on cuz i cant take that no more </3

"LET IT HAPPEN!!!" but i cant even
i know im not right
i wait for u to die
let me know if thats alright
i can do this every day if u want
i know im never going to be the one that wins
its like im da only one :c

wake up
i cant fucking stay up
and i promise u im on to u 
its not my fault they hate us
if ur knocking on my name
we keep glocks and they spray >;o
and i wont see u again
we go walk up in his spot we tell em "PAY UP!!!!"
DIEEEEE
dats sum shit i neva make up
u say "probably its hard for u" (me)
i had friends but they changed up
and nobody else checks up
its so dead in my area
it was never that fair to us
walk outside u wanted smoke we going2 bury him :p

i forget that u existed sometimes
always so caught up but i cant do nothing right
im being around it for the last time 
i was so done i think about it move on causee i cant take that no more 

"LET IT HAPPEN!!" but i cant even
i know im not right
i wait for u to die
let me know if thats alright
i can do this every day if u want
i know im never going to be the one that wins
its like im da only one

i tried so hard
i tried so hard
up all night im losing rest
i dont care about it

move on

back2u

@blackwinterwells
@quannnic
@litothedon

[blxty]
off all night u tell me stories
at my brink jump off 10 stories
i'm so lost can call me dory 🐟
stab me in my chest omori v-v

i'm so obsessed
i fall asleep
yet somehow you still flawless me
i know i'll still have troubles in the next stage
stuck up in my headspace
wish that i could fly away,,
from you.... . .. .
i know it's hard 
but realize i need you
i know it's good for me
but not for you

[wells]
what am i to do
close my eyes im leaving you
in the dust we're done im through
though i wish it wasnt
true
i've had enough of you
i don't know what to do
still dreaming about you

no i dont need my heart back
yeah i know its all used up
im devoid of all my love
not that i ever had much
but i still miss your touch
you made me feel so loved
but now you fucked me up
and it hurts way too

lost ft. blackwinterwells (quannnic x lito)

performed, written, & produced by me @mental
featuring @gnde

https://open.spotify.com/track/2HkysUlkqHuFLpt71lECl4?si=27e8105b95da441a&nd=1

lyrics:

im aching
i feel my body fall apart
make my walls collapse
im crawling back
to somewhere i can start

wish they would talk to me
i feel them watching me
its almost constantly
its hard to fall asleep
wake up and walk between
hate me and want to be
i cant keep promising
that this is all ill be

i feel dead
til they tell me that they love me
i feel better
every day im losing friends
i can barely even walk on my own legs
like im floating
or maybe falling instead
but im not
its not that bad
i start feeling lost
ill hold ur hand
havent smiled since december
it might be like this forever

yea its aching
body shaking
i cant fake it
the conversations
got no patience
i cant take it
the violations
vile cadence
i am faded
the constellations
got me jaded
ive gone manic

with life on my back its just got me in panic
all of my friends they just went in and vanished
and i always felt like a monster thats banished
and all of my life i just felt like a menace

all of my time has been wasted again
trying to keep all my friends in my head
but i rather have noone there and depressed 
cuz all of these people they used me and left

i want a chance just to be by myself
cuz all of you fakes want to drain all my health
and i have been trying to fix how i felt
but all of this time and u wasted in hell

ache ft grandee

https://open.spotify.com/track/2osiAqYqbnUp9oyXeXlvjk

performed, written, & produced by me @mental

lyrics:

broke my heart like 1000 times
been in so much pain dont even realize
i dont even think that this is real lifee
tryna find the courage will u be mine?

say whats up,
heavy hearted thats enough
i depend on hollow love
feel the weight and like a bug,
im crushed (x7)

i feel like im dying everyday
i dont wanna lie girl, im feeling scared
its not rly like me 2 be awake
every single night, when ur walking away
tell me everything that u want me to say
cause i could never say every word on my brain
i put my back in this art and my soul in ur heart
and u still wouldnt even do the same...
think i gtg :/

like a bug

produced by @sanriorose
mixed and mastered by @emorave

on and on (dolly)

performed, written, & produced by me @mental

lyrics:

dont know how to live without ur touch
got me feeling like ive never been enough
i was helpless but i still thought i was lucky
i gave up thinking about giving up
doesnt matter even if i try my hardest
it wont ever be the way that it was
and i made my circle smaller than ur heart is
idc im prepared to collapse

every time i think, its a burden to me... keep my mind in silence
i miss every night when we talked bout nothing we still laughed and smiled
but i guess that ur onto the next thing i just dont wanna be alive
and i thought u were never gonna lie but u said u were never gonna let me cry

it was a waste of time when i crumpled up into pieces
fake smile hope they believe it
i know they rly hate me so im bleeding
heart broken crying and screaming
hole in my chest idk how im breathing
new pain but its not for a reason
new day and another ones leaving
idk how to cope with these feelings

homesick

@brknglss

#us

hate being in the spotlight
yea i'm alright
might fail but I always try
it's sad but i make it work

don't always get ur words
dont always get ur words
somehow i make it worse
somehow we make it work

yea I don't rly understand
ur changing all my plans
and my, dreams turn to ash

yeah I wish I could be better but I know i'll never be
dropped everything I got no future for me to see

I can't hold it any longer
if I was someone else well maybe I'd be stronger
my music's gettin worse every song makes it harder
I wanna quit every day but still push farther

spotlight (brknglss)

never go back

threat

@mental
@15elias

[blxty]
my head don't feel right 
i see u cry
i don't rlly blame u-
cus we're both having a bad time
they say they don't change
promise i'm not like the last guy
blacked out last night woke up w/ a blackeye

[mental]
i dont wanna talk but they driving me insane
next time we drift apart ima stay away
i dont wanna deal i cant deal with all this pain
fall apart every time u say my name

hope i mean a lot to u
cuz u mean a lot to me
and it seems we're falling thru
but i'll never let u be

said a lot of things
i didnt rly mean
i dont wanna feel
put a pill in my drink
i just want love
ill do like anything
do what u want
u pushed me to the brink

feel ur aura
girl i like it way too much
u make it colder
hope ur just another crush

bad time ft. mental (elias x mental)

@blxty
@15elias

[mental]
you broke my heart its bleeding out
i cry for help i scream and shout
i need ur love i need it now
u broke me all my walls torn down
rip me apart im shattered
make me think i never mattered
i cant deal with all this damage
burn me turn me into ashes

[blxty]
going back to my patterns
im falling in
if u told i mattered
would it b pretend
feel like dolly
tell her that she still miss me
she don't miss me she only miss blxty

lets see how far all these drugs will get me
2d only see the part where u leave
its crazy how everyone wanna be me now
covered up in blood feel like a hound

[mental]
they all wanna be me
i wish i was someone else
live my life on repeat
secrets i can never tell
everybody leaves me
i know that u will as well
i know u dont need me
moving onto someone else
look up at the stars
fall into ur arms im safe
broke into my heart
everything is falling into (place)

shattered feat blxty prod elias & mental

@0rch_id
@odel007

[blxty]
maybe i'm not the bad guy
but i'm awful
keep it all inside
put my feelings in a bottle
moving too fast full throttle
guess that's what i get for being thoughtful

i can't even see right now messed up
how am i gonna walk when i can't get up
in the hall i'm a student
lights off watch your whole movement
and you treat me like a bad guy
gotta keep my head high
everyone on standby
nobody to stand by
gotta keep a hold of myself
if i would've let go, you would have fell

[orchid]
push the bullshit into my head
never listen to what u said
check the bullshit into my head
never listen to what you
oh i felt like i tried so hard
but its never enough or a little bit too much
im bleeding from my eyes in the ceiling
cut my skin like its peeling 
heartbeat pull it out my chest
see? crush it into mess
we never really meant
i rip open your legs
meat eat it oh so fresh
bleed run myself to death
see? aint it oh so blessed?
she opened up my head

awful ft. orchid (odel)

https://open.spotify.com/track/30qOE3LSUCmV2ImcHJzjFF?si=m8xQlUZvRem3OTc2BMHoew

@kuraiiii
@176s

[lyrics]
im stressed u help me calm down
still i cant let my guard down
my heart always gets knocked down
so i keep it in lockdown

u make me calm down (you make me believe in me)
im still in lockdown tho
cant let my guard down (you make me believe in myself)
cause u might knock me down

free me
take me away
love, u
cant say the same
im trapped
inside my brain
hate almost
every day

u make me feel a lil bit better
when im down and under the weather
i can come to u for attention
hope u know u hold me together

protect prod sense & kurai

forgive

@twikipedia

@prodelxnce
@kuraiiii
@vinsoignatius

New playlist for chilll

Elvyr