prod by me and soundcloud.com/cay2o

shoutout to soundcloud.com/heylog , soundcloud.com/nothomex , and soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt for hoppin on this with me they're all goated and rly cool ppl show love to them if u arent already

hope u all enjoy :)

lyrics:

me:
i dont think I can keep on livin like shit
close my eyes, feel the tension 
im stressin bout it 
cause no ones the same, and I cant feel nothin 
im feelin strange, but I cant care cus its nothin 

please dont leave yet, I can see you frown when im bleedin.
please ima be there, anytime u need me ill be close so u can see me 

heylog:
everyday i'm feelin awful
6 feet, horizontal
i recommend u give me space
cause i'm close to hostile
she compliment me on my eyes
said, "i love the way they sparkle"
i'm lookin like some trash
while she's looking like a model
i want you
ur irish changes from green to blue
i love you
but why u gotta leave so soon

not home. :
they told me im too gone 
green packed in a new bong
I told her put her bra on, I wont be here too long 
left your thraxx in a baggy
bad bitch ripped jeans, cincinnati 
im your boy so call me shaggy
at the house now her lips speakin nasty

skele:
go ahead and just leave now
won't be here when i break down
keep cutting me i wont feel it
but i love when you bring the knife out
n babe i think that u ruin me 
not numb but god how i wanna be
look in my eyes if you want i feel the blood in the back of my tongue
say love, 
i really think you're a bad one
i think you like how my hearts gone
i think you just wanna have fun 
play around till it kills me 
till i hang from my ceiling 
getting close to no feeling
will u stay here if im willing

ima be there

spotify

ima be there w/heylog, residential, & skele

gone (ft. skele)

you left me on suicide sunday

You're special 🖤

AMV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l09qP0qvVaY

prod. by me
Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
Feeling unease
From the love I couldn't seize
Liquor dripping on the floor
As I'm reaching for the door
I long lost all hope
Fuck love, I had enough
I'm turning so numb
Nothing makes sense, no
No...

[Refrain]
She hates me I know
It fucking sucks
'Cuz she's the only girl I loved
She hates me I know
It fucking sucks
'Cuz she's the only girl I loved
She hates me I know
I know
And she's the only girl I loved

[Verse 2]
Don't come looking for me
I'll be listening to music alone
Every dream goes wasted
My lips forgot how yours tasted
I'm never enough
Heart's a barren estate
Can never be rested
(Yeah, can never be rested)

[Refrain]
She hates me I know
It fucking sucks
'Cuz she's the only girl I loved
She hates me I know
It fucking sucks
'Cuz she's the only girl I loved

[Outro]
(You're the only girl I loved)
(And it felt so real)

she hates me.

Lyrics:
(teki)
i fell in love with a fake girl
she's got two big biddies
she's got 2d tiddies
highschool dxd
it's time to go
koneko
bring it right back
she's got cat ears
flat chested
she's a little kitty
and she purrs

(dyln)
Grab that girl Koneko
Told her we gotta go
Travel to Asia
Go inside Asia
Perverted trio
Feeling on Toujou
Quarta got them big ass blades

Rias Gremory ressurect me
Koneko Toujou snuggie in my blankie
I hate real girls
I just like fiction
Touching on her curls
Wanna put my dick in 

(teki)
she's got two big biddies
she's got 2d tiddies
highschool dxd
it's time to go
koneko
bring it right back
she's got cat ears
flat chested
she's a little kitty
and she purrs
don't make me isekai

(dyln)
Mommy said they're not real
Do not take my body pillow
Trap me like a black widow
Don't make me isekai

teki & dyln - highschooldxd

AMV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vQObMVl6CXo

prod. by me
Lyrics:

[Chorus]
Fuck, I forgot my meds again
Fuck, why am I crying yet again?
Girl how do you live with that heart
Are you a damn saint?

[Verse 1]
Vomiting blood in the sink, I can’t really think
I’m so unoriginal, I can see you wink
Let me see, let me roll, let me think
Every night I break yet another link
What’s her name, can I keep?
She told me all these things
I don’t wanna believe, oh shit

[Verse 2]
I keep breaking, man can I catch a break?
No way, I think I found a meaning
I thought I’d not make it, is it your face my eyes seeing?
May wake up at any time, I don’t wanna, please
I don't wanna, please

[Chorus]
Fuck, I forgot my meds again
Fuck, why am I crying yet again?
Girl how do you live with that heart?
Are you a damn saint?
You're so good at this
Yeah, you're so good at this...

saint

prod. by me
Lyrics:

[Chorus]
Is suicide still on your mind?
Sorry, my vision is covered in vines
Lost grasp of my heart
Darkness, envelops my mind
Forget what I've done
Could never, I had it once
Void draw me in, can't see a line
Can you tell me, what's the time

[Bridge]
Darkness, envelops my mind
Lost track of all the signs
This grip, it feels so tight
Repair your heart, where I'd start?

[Verse]
Everything feels so out of space
By her hands, a woven haze
Don't you dare say, it's just a phase
'Cuz I know, I feel the height
And now I see, everything you said
These days, I cannot wield
And toward these edges
I can never shield

[Chorus]
Is suicide still on your mind?
Sorry, my vision is covered in vines
Lost grasp of my heart
Darkness, envelops my mind
Forget what I've done
Could never, I had it once
Void draw me in, can't see a line
Can you tell me, what's the time

[Outro]
Tell me, what's the time
Is my death finally there?
If I'm not strong, will you be here?
And if I said I'm sorry, will you even care?
(Will you even care?)

darkness

prod. by me
Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
Let me breathe through it all, yeah
What a rollercoaster, no way, ah
Close my eyes, to the issues I'm facing
'Cuz I know there is only one that is worth crying
But will I, hope I never again

[Pre-Chorus]
I still see you, I still see us
In this abandoned apartment
It's like yet again I'm filled in lust
Sucks that you're all I desire, isn't it, duh

[Chorus]
And when everything falls apart
It's still you I have in my mind
Sometimes, it's hard to ignore
All the ways you broke me
But I still love, guess it can't be helped
But I still hurt, guess I'll keep on self-loathe
(x2)

[Verse 2]
Pull me out, I really don't wanna stay here
It seems like you get the wrong idea
I didn't ever wanna hurt you, babe
But I'm a piece of shit, how can I deny it?

self-loathe

produced by why loner at https://twitter.com/why_loner

lyrics:

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

the words we spoke
baby girl it like a knife to my throat
we smoking blunts that look like barrels on a rifle
all the games u play with me i swear u fucking psycho

got the sauce but im looking like a failure
imma boss but my compitition amateurs
ep drop better mark it on ur calender
bitch ill make just what i want and fuck the caliber

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

alone again
alone for 5 minutes and i smoke again
got some things i think id rather keep held back
or forget
or erase
fucking get rid of them

it was all
such a waste
of time i cant get back
throw it all
in my face
ur really good at that
even one
change of pace
could cause a heart attack
and if that is the case
well baby dont hold back

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

alone again (prod. why loner)

ily all
@guardinmusic
@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
prod @antongxldn

lyrics
sadeyes:
i've got 3 missed calls its only 8pm
how do i tell you that we're just friends
i've got cigarettes i'm alone again
whiskey shots always jameson

don't act like i hate you, you know that i don't
you don't have a reason to blow up my phone

sit in the dark ima play my guitar
ima pray that i make it how have i 

made it this far
this far
this far 
this far x2

look at the night sky 
look at the stars
look at the bright side
look at my scars

emotionally bruise me when we fight in the car
every ounce of hate you carry tears me apart

how do i cope with the pain, every day you push me away
you wanna fuck and you know what i'll say
i don't need relationship shit in my way, stay out the way

guardin:
stay out my way i don't want you
drunk in my bed i won't fuck you
love isn't something i want dude
we're simply friends thought i told you

i don't wanna hear it anymore
your voice punctures through my head and i cannot ignore
anymore these advances are just smothering me quick
let me dabble in the gravel with my ganja and a bic

i think this winter left you colder than the breeze
i think you suffer from another lovers leave
might be just a sense of lust the love you have for me
anxiously outta focus i'm just hopin' i can breathe

i've got 3 missed calls its only 8pm
how do i tell you that we're just friends
i've got cigarettes i'm alone again
whiskey shots always jameson


9tails:
too deep down in my brain again
i swam a little bit and drown
in my lonliness

emtions buried deep down arc reactor ironman
rip two bowls get high again
go face roll on life again

game unlocked
like im notch
tommy flag
on my socks
i dont care 
if u watch
but you cant chip in on this blunt
sad as fuck
so i stunt
drop a track
smellin skunk
smellin farts
in the smoke
from the weed not from my bum

girl i can tell that you like me ya
body and mind that could strike me ya
attitude ready to fight me
speaking her mind and i like it

heart breaker wear it like nike
did you the same and its high key
focused as fuck you cant sike me
ill cover my ears u cant mike me

emotions like blue when they snowball
i come alive at night fall
flow with some flavour like menthol
music turn into a day job

icy heart like a face off
she went back to take my face off
of the photos of us on her facebook
moving on like im driftwood

i've got 3 missed calls its only 8pm
how do i tell you that we're just friends
i've got cigarettes i'm alone again
whiskey shots always jameson

8pm w/ guardin & 9tails (prod. antongxldn)

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[Lyrics]
Can not help but follow; you're deceiving
I'm so numb yet hollow, don't you leave me
Gets so hard to swallow, slow my breathing
In shallow love I wallow, hearts not beating

One day I hope you'll read this letter the-
Painkillers help at making me feel better

And I know you don't care at all
Moving so slow, you love to watch me fall
You text but you know I wanna call
Like moths to flames I always crawl

Can not help but follow; you're deceiving
I'm so numb yet hollow, don't you leave me
Gets so hard to swallow, slow my breathing
In shallow love I wallow, hearts not beating

I don't want to
Knew I'd miss you
Wish you'd feel the same 

And I know you don't care at all
Moving so slow, you love to watch me fall
You text but you know I wanna call
Like moths to flames I always crawl

Can not help but follow; you're deceiving
I'm so numb yet hollow, don't you leave me
Gets so hard to swallow, slow my breathing
In shallow love I wallow, hearts not beating

Deceive Me (prod. Tennis Player x Miler)

Piano is my favorite instrument.

Email: abdush350@gmail.com

Discord: @lil_abdush

self-loathe

lil abdush

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