cwife

TBB computerwife

My mind hurts I go outside to run away
Out in the snow shock so I can escape me
I don’t feel it maybe im somewhat vacant
Did I just want something that cannot happen?

Watching all the smart girls out doing dumb things
To be in a state opposite to reality
I need that I wanna feel alright ideally 
Love is the cure what this is feels for real 
they're  high 
like the chemtrails
Over the night club
to be laughing 
to be pretty 
to be seen

Don’t worry about how the story will end
The truth usually betrays people in the end
To wish away and erase the painful memories
im back in the city meet me for a drink bb

Grey day dim in the rain wet clothes piled on the floor
I don’t feel like a real woman ???? but I felt so pretty as ugly before
The fact is every one of us is arrested
or maybe or maybe or maybe

pretty ugly Unmixed Demo

Possibly something more breakbeaty at the beginning

Absorbed in the head 
Locked into a trance
memories amphetamines
Butterflies on the breeze

Look at all the damage we repair
Safe inside the people that your with   
Deep down I know and believe
Deep down I know and believe

i’m the loneliest doll
But there it was fine
It’s natural 
Cuz dreams are just like beer
And we were drunk all year

night knows what morning can not see
And we saw the strings that connected things 
Deep down I know and believe
Deep down I know and believe

In my life there’s nothing as boring and so pure as those times that dragged forever still all I have is to find you here anyways

Foreverrr

first thing waking up there’s a weight that I’m below
I live the most in a memory 
Get it out my head
Or Pray to get out of the shit 
The Summer south is like a sweet dream
Don’t you want to feel so real?
Don't you wanna live with god again?
I don't want to fight but I always try
Deeper than it is from the outside
Turn in my last check try to take me away from me 
My world is at its start or ending
Don’t you want to feel so real?
Don’t you want to live with god again?

how do you choose what's real or ideal?
run your head on movie tricks?
always at the start and ending
so how do you read the hand I get

surreal upbeat desperate version

normal 4 am quiet demo

autopsy guitar ideas

nobody else  new version insert voice memos later short version demo

msu version 2 demo

why does this always happen demo

below unfinished demo

mostly private

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