prod @bloodsekai

im so anxious
im so fragile
cut my wrist watch the blood dazzle
in the moonlight
sacrificial
im so done its all abysmal

razor in my pocket
cut a hole and now i lost it 
what the fuck am i gon do 
sitting in the school bathroom 

im nothin 
but a loser or somethin
dont wanna lose her im cuttin
my emotions are just based off assumptions

wont let it fall apart
u cant do that to my heart
i was scared right from the start
put my feelings into art

passing time in the school bathroom

https://open.spotify.com/track/7BzfsrIM72DYfeZ45WjrLT?si=0545b042cabf4e6d
prod me

 wish that you would notice me
and i had self esteem
cos ive been struggling
so often
im alone again
wish you'd just talk to me
instead i stare so awkwardly 
gave me cold shoulder
now im holed up
in my room again

i wanna get to know u
im so sorry
im exhausting
i wanna kill myself
and have nobody
find the body
x2

exhausting

me x 9tails

i put my heart into my words
and u still don't believe me
i try my hardest just to help u
but u don't receive it
why can't things work? i feel alone
i step down, vow conceded  
it always hurts when it's all gone
my eyes are dull, depleted

new year where the fuck is my head at?
new friends but some were a set back
new wave hit home like a whiplash
5 rings like maybe i should get that
5 texts like maybe i should check that
im drunk like maybe i should text back
you called so maybe i should call back
im lost like show me where my friends at

seriously, i need help
but i can't get it by myself
i fear i'm on the edge
of isolating hell
i have trust issues
you say
you as well
i have trust issues
you say
you as well

i put my heart into my words
and u still don't believe me
i try my hardest just to help u
but u don't receive it
why can't things work? i feel alone
i step down, vow conceded  
it always hurts when it's all gone
my eyes are dull, depleted

new year where the fuck is my head at?
new friends but some were a set back
new wave hit home like a whiplash
5 rings like maybe i should get that
5 texts like maybe i should check that
im drunk like maybe i should text back
you called so maybe i should call back
im lost like show me where my friends at

new year, not so new me

@deathwish38

lights out
who turned off the fucking power?
i can't show myself
i'm a fucking coward
why u so quiet
can u speak louder?
i'm sorry i say like
5 words per hour
all my conversations 
end after greetings
left a bad impression
everyones leaving
kinda knew that'd happen
like i had a feeling
laying on the floor
staring at the ceiling

lay on the floor staring at the ceiling
its late at night again my head is fucking reeling
ive proven time again that my life has no meaning
and i dont wanna try
close my eyes and i see stars
im starting to think hell isn't far
its getting hard ur in my heart
reality has torn me apart
i never stood a chance at all
sit back and they all watch me fall
i never stood a chance at all
sit back and they all watch me fall

lights out
who turned off the fucking power?
i can't show myself
i'm a fucking coward
why u so quiet
can u speak louder?
i'm sorry i say like
5 words per hour
all my conversations 
end after greetings
left a bad impression
everyones leaving
kinda knew that'd happen
like i had a feeling
laying on the floor
staring at the ceiling

close my eyes and i see stars
im starting to think hell isn't far
its getting hard ur in my heart
reality has torn me apart

bad impression (ft. deathwish)

your hearts not good
you can wait around but dont wait for me 
and it felt good 
when you stuck around and said you love me
but i cant stand
sticking around for somebody 
that doesnt care 
and just uses me for my body

(NANANANANANANANNANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANAANNANAANAN
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what am i to you 
your so rude
and i cant get over
i know im new 
but can you choose 
to get closer
im on my own 
and i cant move
without you on my shoulder
the way she hit 
me right there
felt like a boulder

u dont luv me (bloodsekai)

@bloodsekai remix yeaa 

really really love u so much
i cant express it
i jus wanna tell u that i
really really love u so much
i cant express it
can you stay and not run

i dont recognize love
thats why it means so much
when u say ily
u give me the will to live
the will to try
u make me forget
i wanna die

tell me something new
i like everything about u
from ur eyes to ur soles (lol)
ur perfect from head to toe

i dont want to disappoint
u or myself
i hope its no dream
do as u please
i hope that u stay w me

really really love u Prod bloodsekai

got some inspo from my friends hopefully yall will like this 


feeling hopeless out my conscious as i drift away in class
i dont know if i can last or if ill break in pieces
waiting for time to past
i cant escape my exhaustion
i just wanna be outside my conscious
i need to rest its time for bed
god please just put me in a coffin

put me in a coffin

prod me

i love the way u smell
i love the way u talk
and the colour of ur nails
i love the way u walk
yea that shit could cast a spell
but i hate ur new boyfriend
i hope ur doing well :/

saw u in class
pulled up ur ig
i kno i never asked
cuz im way too shy to be
talkin to u
my request went right thru
saw the noti on ur phone
but u didnt have a clue
who i was

i know i cant
tell u how im really feeling
cuz ur sometimes so demeaning
and that crushes my being

but i got a crush on u baby
pls love me no maybes
yea the way u flip ur hair
it drives me fucking crazy
kill me and degrade me
i swear i can take it
anything to be with u
i kno that we can make it

(i know i cant
tell u how im really feeling
cuz ur sometimes so demeaning
and that crushes my being)

i love the way u smell
i love the way u talk
and the colour of ur nails
i love the way u walk
yea that shit could cast a spell
but i hate ur new boyfriend
i hope ur doing well :/
x2

hope ur doing well

my brain feels like its turned into mush
maybe im on the internet too much
i love candy i got a sugar rush
fill me up

my nintendos my only friend
and when it dies ill cry again
mario carts my medicine
until the end

(mikus part)
i dont need humanityyyyy
my nintendo makes me happy
i dont need humanityyyyy
my nintendo makes me happyyyyyyy

my nintendo makes me happy its all i ever need
i feel fine as long as im in front of my screen


my nintendos my only friend ft miku

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Im feeling super out of it
Next to you my heart starts to flip
Im super lame
Cant entertain
And when I try and talk to you
I always end up looking rude
I dont know why
I fail every time

I took some tips from guys online
Put on some lipstick then I'll find
A girl like you
You are so cool
Youre super punk
I super suck
You sucker punch my fucking guts
I cant be fine
I'm out of line

Dont wait for me
Delete your discord
Don't wait for me
I'm already gone

loser cover

im so im so stupid
i cant i cannot do this
i dont know what im here for
i drool and stare at the floor
theres nothing inside my brain
i think im going insane

i cant read social cues
i cant remember when this project is due
i dont think that i belong in school
i dont know what im gonna do




my brain my brain is smooth
what is there to do
spectate me just lose
i have not a clue
guide me where to go
theres rocks in my skull
im so im so slow
being me just blows

im so im so stupid
i cant i cant do this
im so im so stupid
i cant i cant do this



im so stupid!!! w lifeless

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loser cover

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