I LOVE this, keep doing what you doing bro

produced by: caps ctrl

vocals,mixing,mastering and artwork: birdbay

Lyrics:

(hook)

i’ve tried to relax and i sip earl grey
i just wanna check the facts i don’t wanna be fake
i, need some peace, some love from everyone else
i’ve been doing the numbers and i’m getting out

i’ve tried to relax and i sip earl grey
i just wanna check the facts i don’t wanna be fake
i, need some peace, some love from everyone else

(verse)

i’ve been under the pressure i’m tryna do my best
i’ve been tryna be myself i’m doing my best i swear

i’ve been down, i’ve been down, i’ve been down again

i’ve been losing my crown when i falling in

i don’t wanna be apart of your one sided history 

i don’t, i don’t wanna be apart of your history 
or atleast not the story that you’re telling
i don’t really wanna like it but i have to 

(hook)

i’ve tried to relax and i sip earl grey
i just wanna check the facts i don’t wanna be fake
i, need some peace, some love from everyone else
i’ve been doing the numbers and i’m getting out

i’ve tried to relax and i sip earl grey
i just wanna check the facts i don’t wanna be fake
i, need some peace, some love from everyone else

earl grey [caps ctrl]

vghs in da intro?

lyrix:
i think im melting
i think everything i built is gone
i think im drowning
cant fall asleep
when you are gone
i wish we'd found it
found everything
were looking for
we got so close
we got so close

i dont mind
i dont care
i dont give a fuck
if you're happy then im happy so lets live it up
3am on my phone
always think of u
im depressed
my mind undresses you
and your tattoos
glow and glistened
like a vison
of the other side
lighting up the world theres no where left for me to hide
burning pages in a book i never got to finish
but maybe if i did the love i had would soon diminish

i think im melting
i think everything i built is gone
i think im drowning
cant fall asleep
when you are gone
i wish we'd found it
found everything
were looking for
we got so close
we got so close

so i dont mind
i dont care
deep breath in
exhale clouded air
feeling dead
this isnt fair
this heart of mine
cant seem to bare
all this bloodshed
gunshots
old friends dead
new ones drifting in my head
theres some things better left unsaid
so i wont bother speaking to u

i think im melting
i think everything i built is gone
i think im drowning
cant fall asleep
when you are gone
i wish we'd found it
found everything
were looking for
we got so close
we got so close

who am i
who are you
idgaf
know i love you and im praying that'll be enough
things are changing
i cant take it
know youre feeling off
but i dont have much else to lose so maybe we should talk
about the problems
we could solve them
at least some of them
never one to call it quits before ive done enough
but as of late
not feeling great
i think i did too much
no matter what i felt the love

i thank you for that rush

soclose//sofar

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soclose (p. splashgvng x 5head)

(intro)
i struggle deep down with my sorrow
at this point i’ll be gone by tomorrow
the world has left me cold and broken hollow
if you see me disappear don’t follow

(chorus)

i struggle deep down with my sorrow
at this point i’ll be gone by tomorrow
the world has left me cold and broken hollow
if you see me disappear don’t follow
i’ve been broken before but this feels different 
did you make it your mission
to make me question my existence 

(post chorus)
my existence 
i can’t deal with it 
but still i get 

(paperthinwalls)
o-o-o-over it￼
i’m over this
bleeding on the ground think i’m done with it all
and i can hear them talking through my walls
you’ll never see it coming i’ll haunt these halls
e-e-e-e-every night i fall back in time
i know i can’t rewind this tragic hopeless life 
(the things you said)
the things you said to me i hope you take ‘em back
you scream and lie to me about things i never said
things i never did can you leave it in the past 
i never seem to make these feelings last 

(pre chorus)
(the things you said to me i hope you take ‘em back
you scream and lie to me about things i never said
things i never did can you leave it in the past 
i never seem to make these feelings last)

(chorus) 

i struggle deep down with my sorrow
at this point i’ll be gone by tomorrow
the world has left me cold and broken hollow
if you see me disappear don’t follow
i’ve been broken before but this feels different 
you made it your mission
to make me end my existence

ill be gone by tomorrow w/ paperthinwalls (metlast)

amv:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hwK5BnslG8s

artists:
@anthonysidoti
@iamvagrxnt

producer:
living puff

lyrics:
i always felt so numb
im never good enough for you 
i swear this all went wrong
how do i keep holding on!

where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around)
just something to use till you recycle 
(don’t want you around i need to leave this town) 
never knew when i was young i’d have to lose it all 
(now i bite my tongue) 
where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around) 

let me out
end this acheing burning inside of my chest
there's no way out
i cant find a reason to wake up and let it out

i know its not in my head
but i'm just losing my senses
it keeps coming in waves
i knew that you never meant it 
took a knife to my heart
rather gun to my head 
but i don't wanna ever see you again

you cant wait for love but i just hate myself
and all those bl**d-stained stories give you 
nothing but a taste of empathy

where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around)
just something to use till you recycle 
(don’t want you around i need to leave this town) 
never knew when i was young i’d have to lose it all 
(now i bite my tongue) 
where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around) 

do i fade away to nothing
(to nothing)
and i swear this past few years 
swear there crushing
crushing me!
i told myself id never give it all up 
but ever since i was a kid no one cared enough
now all the damage is done
and i don't wanna keep running away
run away from this, feeling tonight
and if you can't hear me its fine
i'm just a sacrifice!

where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around)
just something to use till you recycle 
(don’t want you around i need to leave this town) 
never knew when i was young i’d have to lose it all 
(now i bite my tongue) 
where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around) 

where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around)
just something to use till you recycle 
(don’t want you around i need to leave this town) 
never knew when i was young i’d have to lose it all 
(now i bite my tongue) 
where were you when i was suicidal 
(im always breaking down when no one’s around)

SPOTIFY

anthony sidoti - when i was suicidal (ft. vagrxnt) [prod. living puff]

im sorry if i seem distracted
im really tryna live but im distracted
i know i said it twice atleast im aware
i always say things twice cause i know im not there
i know im not there
i know im not there
i know im not
ay my ghost has seen these trees all the time
and it'll see em baby, one more time
ay i cannot heal from this
oh
god 
no
its like a family that had planned out
but it never worked out 
i would try a thousand years
i would cry a thousand tears
its like a girl that gave you her heart
but you tore it apart
my life has never been in my hands 
and now i gotta pay the price
and fucking change it right
before i fuckin die
i wanna live
i wanna see what the world has to give
to me 
i gotta have hope
and i gotta be me 
i gotta see the brighter side
sweep me off my feet :(
am i gone today?
will i be okay?
i dont got no one asking me if ill be okay
aye aye
im tryna find the one for me
maybe lookin's not good for me
but i know if ion try imma never be alright
damn.

ay my ghost has seen these trees all the time
and it'll see em baby, one more time
ay i cannot heal from this
oh 
god 
no
its like a family that had planned out
but it never worked out 
i would try a thousand years
i would cry a thousand tears
its like a girl that gave you her heart
but you tore it apart.

i would try a thousand times..
i would stay a thousand nights..
you were gone but i was here..
i would never disappear.. 

im gone but aint disappear <3

sweep me off my feet (wisssery x jolst)

lyrics ♡
hook
everybody tell me that i gotta be safe
ain't nobody ever make me feel that way
but there you go again girl (ohh)
:)
you took my entire world 🌎
and turned it upside down
& then i hit the ground
and then i picked myself back up
then the light shined, and i saw you
my love ♡

verse 1
everything you say is meaningful
i can't put into words or syllables
how much you mean to
me
(oh)
had a dream about you
that's lilac dreams
you were wearing my shirt
& i touched those seams
and i was wearing these drawn on, old, ripped gray jeans
and my fingers ran across your face slowly
let me tell you the worst part about it
i woke up without you in my arms
now im thinking 'bout getting in this car
and driving, i don't give a fuck how far

hook
everybody tell me that i gotta be safe
ain't nobody ever make me feel that way
but there you go again girl (ohh)
:)
you took my entire world 🌎
and turned it upside down
& then i hit the ground
and then i picked myself back up
then the light shined, and i saw you
my love ♡

verse
(my) favorite color's purple
it reminds me of you
i got too much on my mind, too much that im tryna do
(im) only sixteen, and im thinking 'bout driving to you
is that a problem? um, probably yeah
but back to the topic, tell me what you wantt
tell me about the book you read, or your favorite song
oh, you can talk about it as long as you want baby
if you want, you can tell me what's been on your mind lately 
i said your voice is my favorite song ♡
and i know, it was you all along
for you, ill stay strong
and that's the end of discussion
'cause you're what I'm loving

hook
everybody tell me that i gotta be safe
ain't nobody ever make me feel that way
but there you go again girl (ohh)
:)
you took my entire world 🌎
and turned it upside down
& then i hit the ground
and then i picked myself back up
then the light shined, and i saw you
my love ♡

Lilac Dreams Prod. Ross Gossage & Max Flynn

@soundcloud took this song down unfairly after my manager bought the lease. sorry y'all. hopefully it stays up this time

(Lyrics)
planning this shit for a week they not believing me gonna try suicide i think it's my time don't try to fix me disappointed at myself wish i tried harder I'll be so happy but i cannot i cannot i wish i could but these thoughts won't let me

i try my best to change 3 days of happiness but it goes all to waste remake my whole life sorry for the people that i put my anger on dont mean to hurt you but I'm just so stressful

wish i could learn from mistake I'm the mistake sorry to my mom taking care of us you were there for us you were suicidal i wasn't there i took you for granted i didn't mean to

I'm just yelling at you more crying on the bed i wish i wasn't born i wouldn't cause you stress you were laying sick and i was doing nothing gotta say a lotta things about myself

i got lotta issues lotta problems i dont even wanna try I'm sorry i disappointed myself and you all

especially my mom and josh and kurama glad i met them i met a lot of people i adore like stray demon

cause i got shit to fix please wait for me

sorry for disappointing you sorry for everything I've done i havent changed my friends are getting married i told them the same story I've worked on but i cannot move on from myself if i try to work on myself it can't happen

music the only thing that I'm going far is it worth chasing after

i don't hear no one when it rains no one else talking to me lost in this space put my anger out on my fucking friends when i shouldn't

l gotta work on my fucking self x2

sorry for being a disappointment (misery)

my heart is turning black (feat. VITO)

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Produced by Lavender_Txwn (@user-757072975)
Mixed & mastered by Horosha (@horoshamusic)
Featuring svnam (@svnam)
Art by svnam

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